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[unpleasantpacifist]

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[unpleasantpacifist]

@starving-hunter

Tinsel. 

I don’t even know what to say in this letter. I feel used. You probably think I’m naive for even saying that. Or weak. Or maybe you don’t think anything of it. I can still never figure you out. I don’t know if I’ve even reached you in the time we’ve spent together. 

If anything I feel like I’ve been corrupted by simply allowing you to take my sibling and saying nothing about it. I don’t know if you love me or not, which is sad to say, because I love you. But I do know I should never have been put in that position. What you did to Susie was the last straw.  

I can’t stand by while you continue to hurt people I care about. But I’m not strong enough to even stop you so. I’m running away. Hopefully while I’m gone I’ll find something that will change this warped perspective you’ve doomed yourself to. You can’t be happy or even content thinking that way, and I don’t think you are. 

And...I really want you to be happy. I hate saying that with all that’s happened but I love you and want a better future than a cold war. I dunno, maybe I’ll grow up from this journey and regret ever writing this. 

I'll miss you though. Hope you miss me too. 

Dandelion.

[unpleasantpacifist]

@trifoliumknifc

Chara,

If you’re reading this right now, then I’m already dead. 

Sorry sorry, that didn’t even sound funny writing it out.  If you’re reading this now, then I’m gone, and I won’t be back for a while. I know you know why and I just want you to know that I’m sorry. I genuinely hadn’t expected to fall for someone like...that. Ha, I guess it runs in the family. Let me know when you bring your psycho home, and we can go on a triple date. 

Sorry again, I’m trying to lighten the mood by being funny but I’m not doing well with the ‘funny’ bit.  I betrayed you.  No apology I would give could ever be enough, nor would I waste your time even trying.  Knowing you you’ve probably already made the mistake of forgiving me, but I know I don’t deserve it. 

If anything good came out of this mess it’s that I’ve learned I have serious dependency issues, so this thing, whatever it turns out to be, is something I have to do alone. Ultimately I have to accept the responsibility that I had the opportunity to stop this when it happened but I didn’t because. I dunno why.  I was weak. I am weak.  I don’t wanna be like that anymore. 

I just wanna finally be the person that you see in me. I wanna be a good brother for Kris because it’s about fucking time. And I want to be able to stand on my own for a change. 

I don’t know when I’ll be ready to come back, but I promise I will be.  But I can’t do this with you protecting me. Please let me a cause one less problem for you. I love you, sib. Give Kale my love as well. Fransisco Anjo “Dandelion” Dreemurr

[unpleasantpacifist]

Darling, can we talk? Would you mind if I came to see you?

[pm]

im. im sorry Karma i can’t be seen right now. my mini breakdown has caused enough distress as is and i feel like a face to face conversation would only make this worse. 

[unpleasantpacifist]

brokendelta‌:

[PM]: You claim that no one can help, but surely there’s something we can do? You’re not alone in this- we don’t want you to be alone in this!

…

[PM]: Ok, maybe I’m getting a bit optimistic. I know a lot is happening, a lot of it I wish I could prevent as well, so maybe I shouldn’t be poking around where I don’t belong.

[PM]: I just… I do wish I could do more. I greatly dislike feeling so powerless, especially when I want to grant you peace of mind. Perhaps I can’t help the situation, but I’d like to help keep you steady. Afterall nothing gets done when one panics. Could I drop off some food outside your door instead? I doubt after your episode you really feel like cooking.

[pm]:God that sounds good. I can’t though. I’m not at home at the moment and I’m not sure when I’ll be back. thank you though. I’m sorry for making you feel that way, I...don’t wanna hurt anybody more than I have. 

[unpleasantpacifist]

the first step to being better is to acknowledge that youve been bad ig. baby steps

oh trust me, of that im aware.

[unpleasantpacifist]

Darling, can we talk? Would you mind if I came to see you?

[pm]

im. im sorry Karma i can’t be seen right now. my mini breakdown has caused enough distress as is and i feel like a face to face conversation would only make this worse. 

[unpleasantpacifist]

brokendelta‌:

[PM]: That’s alright, I do hope you know my door is open to you at any time regardless. It could be the dead of night and I wouldn’t mind at all.

[PM]: Is there anything I can do to help? You know me, I overthink and worry too much. I’d like to help however you’d let me, no matter how small. 

[pm]: I don’t think I’ve ever told you this(at least like seriously), but I care about you a lot.   

[pm]: It’s because of that and because you worry I don’t want to involve you. 

[unpleasantpacifist]

Darling, can we talk? Would you mind if I came to see you?

[pm]

im. im sorry Karma i can’t be seen right now. my mini breakdown has caused enough distress as is and i feel like a face to face conversation would only make this worse. 

[unpleasantpacifist]

Tell them I love them, for what it’s worth.  I just can’t face them right now. 

[unpleasantpacifist]

I’m sorry. I’m so so sorry but you can’t.  You can’t help me.  No one can. 

[unpleasantpacifist]

hey, you need anything little bro? i know things have been rough without clover..you know you can come to me to right?

[unpleasantpacifist has blocked knifceater]

[unpleasantpacifist]

what's wrong with you??

coming to terms with not really being a good person i guess

[unpleasantpacifist]

...

[unpleasantpacifist]

You’re horrible 

 All you had meant to do was help them 

 But it seems you’re nothing but a nuisance

Face your fears and tell him what the reason is or

Hide your tears and be of dutiful assistance

Disappearing 

on the day you left them there alone 

O what a tragedy

you cannot help but be despicable

[unpleasantpacifist]

............. a sacrifice... won't change things.

A sacrifice kept me alive. Untainted. Even though so far I’ve done nothing to deserve it. If anything even now Clover is paying for my ineptitude. If a sacrifice can damn someone, surely it can save....right?

[unpleasantpacifist]

If anyone I love comes to harm may my wretched fucking corpse be thrown at the offender as penance for my treachery and indolence. If there would be one good use for me let it be as a shield, protecting someone I care for until the life leaves my body, and let it be used still after that. 

 Let my person suffer a thousand cuts and a thousand more for my insolence and complacency, and yet another thousand for my incompetence. Just let me suffer, so that others won’t.  Please. I beg with everything I have. If anything about me is real or true let it be in this statement. 

[unpleasantpacifist]

gift-of-mercy‌:

Mistletoe beamed at this response, feeling their heart almost ache from such support. Perhaps they really had become so accustomed to others holding them back–it was a good change of pace, finally being able to move forward.

“I’m not sure what all can be done to help, but…” They bit their lip, the smile ever present now. “I appreciate your support, nonetheless. I know that what I’m doing isn’t going to be seen as safe, or even sane, by the others. But I have to do what I feel is right, and it’s enough to know I’ll have someone I can talk to about this. I’ll make sure to keep you up to date–that way, if anything does go wrong, we can get the others involved then.”

With a deep breath, Mistletoe took Dandy’s hand, giving it a soft squeeze. “I’ve got to stop home, first. I think it’ll be the best place to fix what’s gone wrong. Then we move to Asriel–and you can tell me what it is you know then, okay?”

The squeeze earned Mistletoe an immediate squeeze in response, Dandy giving his friend a warm smile of his own. Go get ‘em tiger. He signs, before pulling the other into a hug and squeezing them firmly. 

A tinge of concern plagued his mind when he thought of how Mistletoe might react, but they were quickly assuaged when he remembered who he was actually dealing with.  They’d understand for sure, if anyone would it would be Mistletoe. 

Be careful, okay? He signed as he pulled back from the embrace.