[unsettlinggirlypop]

how. how am i supposed to get through life with all of this shit weighing me down. gad, depression, c-ptsd, psychosomatic illness disorder, dpdr, possible bpd and ocd. i'm so happy for people who have found peace and empowerment through their diagnosis but honestly every new thing i learn about myself makes me hate myself even more.

[thepowergame-deactivated2015091]

[unsettlinggirlypop]

I realized that I don't truly want to die, I just sometimes have no clue how to get past the things that I've gone through. I don't know *how* to stay alive. Feeling like I want to die is so difficult, but knowing that I want to live but feeling like I can't is also so painful.

[coldstonedreamery-deactivated20]

like actually for real how do I continue on for the rest of my life

[unsettlinggirlypop]

no but like why does nobody realize what knowing you were born on accident does to a person. it wouldn't make all my problems go away but I wasn't even born because two people loved eachother. I was born for no reason I have to go through all this shit for no fucking reason. just because of a mistake.

[unsettlinggirlypop]

why the fuck was I born just to be miserable

[axetofall]

I mean yeah I carry a sadness that exhausts my will to live like a leach on my heart but I’m basically fine

[unsettlinggirlypop]

Maintaining friendships is so hard as an adult. Wanting to have a conversation over the phone illicits a "I'll try to make time soon!". So, just say no. It's ok if it's not going to happen. Being and adult is lonely in 1,000 other ways already

[unsettlinggirlypop]

is it abuse if you thought you were ok with it at the time? of course I would tell anyone else asking me, the answer is yes. why can't I tell *myself* that? how long will I feel responsible for everything that's happened to me? it's not like I'm an omnipresent god figure in control of every aspect of my life, those people have their own agency and they should not have done what they did!

[unsettlinggirlypop]

mourning the loss of the person I would've been if I grew up with my interests and dreams being supported like every child deserves. I wish I could have met her.

[ihopeucomehomesoon]

scared someone will see right through me and know one of my deepest desires is to be taken care of

[butterflypeaflowertea]

they should invent a being in your twenties in which you do not feel your life is unsalvageable and ruined

[unsettlinggirlypop]

I can't believe I'm going to be alone, misunderstood, and misconstrued as long as I live when being truly heard and felt is the one thing I want more than anything in the world