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She could still remember the stifling panic that engulfed the entire building whole when the alarms angrily blared, the way the floors rumbled with every attack landed.. the paranoia that coursed through her blood even to present day. Claire couldn’t bring herself to get even a wink of sleep, not when she was worried that they’d find them again. Mercy had just taken a massive blow, could they truly take another in the midst of reassembling? Her body was practically on autopilot as she walked down the halls of the mansion, hoping to stumble across anything that seemed remotely familiar to her memory. She did, after all, live in a cramped up apartment in the middle of Brooklyn over half of her life. Upon finally stumbling into the kitchen, the hairs on the back of her neck stood up in panic at the sight of a figure. It was 5am, people were bound to start their mornings, but Agent Orion wasn’t expecting someone to be there looking the part of a torn down soldier after war. Just like her, he did not look well. All inkling of trademark awkwardness melted away as she walked towards the nearest seat, the bags under her eyes looking aghast. “The former.. probably.” She admitted softly, nothing but a frown playing at her tired mien. “How.. how are you holding up?” 

     the first instinct is to posture, to play the strong, stoic figure and act unphased. like there’s nothing to worry about, that the future is certain. of course, he has faith in the head agents, that they’ll figure something out, that some day kronos will pay for all the blood they’ve spilled. but he’s too tired to believe blindly. and the wounds are too raw. so he swallows around the urge to say “i’m fine.” because he isn’t, and it’s clear she’s not, either. the last attack had been bad, but there had still been a structure to repair. not just a pile of ash and rubble. a dry chuckle escapes him as he pours himself what must have been his third cup in two hours. “honestly? not great,” the soft, almost bitter smile falls as he pours in a spoonful of sugar. “i was around during the last attack, and beyond the memories it all brings up---” his hand halts, the second spoonful of sugar suspended for a moment. last time, he had watched as people were taken away in body bags, people he had known, friends, his family. this time, there weren’t any bodies to bag, just a headcount to pick out who they had lost, and not enough time to even pick through the rubble. he had chased in, saved who he could but... he shudders and stirs in the sugar. “it wasn’t this bad. i’m trying to keep faith, you know, that things will be fine, but...” a knowing glance is cast, shakes his head, and shrugs. “the silence is just... a constant reminder,” he grabs the pot of coffee by the handle and swirls the remaining contents a little, giving her another tired glance. “how do you take your coffee?”

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all of my kids, still traumatized by the last Big Party™ they went to:

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RICO‌:

mitchell’s eyes lit up when her enthusiasm that matched his own. he had been reprimanded by enough agents about that dangers of leaving or the fact that he should be doing something productive – whatever that meant. it wasn’t like he had any paperwork to complete with the total halt on missions. he shrugged, “i’ve never been here so anywhere is an adventure. would it be too bold to assume that you’ve already done your research and have a bucket list?”

     “not too bold, but i’m afraid i didn’t have enough time before the last second evacuation to plot out a bucket list,” she says through a chuckle. esme did have a bucket list, though it contained far more murderous revenge and a lot less fun than he probably had in mind. “i think i remember passing a few clubs on the way to the mansion?” another chuckle. “or at least a starbucks. i’d honestly go anywhere.” most of the other agents had been wary--- to put it lightly--- about venturing beyond the mansion grounds. 

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     he looks like shit. bruised and scarred to hell, he’s been sticking to the mansion && the hotel, for the sake of keeping a low profile. he also hasn’t been sleeping since they got there--- not that anyone could tell by looking at him. he looked no more tired than the general exhaustion that hung from his shoulders and lingered in his eyes. the alarm on his face at the presence of another person in the kitchen at five a.m. is much clearer. it falls away fast enough as he crosses the room to the coffee maker. “can’t sleep or jetlagged?” 

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❝ deny it all you want, but you saved me. ❞ fitz → wayne

     wayne’s face pinches in a grimace. he wasn’t a man for romanticized notions. there was no idea that he would somehow, single-handedly save headquarters, but watching the smoke billow from the place he called home still stung. the fact that he saved fitz was consolation, even if he didn’t feel much like a hero. his weight shifts from foot to foot, it’s a little ridiculous how a man so big can look so small in a moment. he doesn’t deny it---- or say anything at all for a long moment. he doesn’t know what fitz expects him to say. he’s glad that he’s alright, but it hadn’t exactly been a choice. "i wasn’t about to leave you there.” he murmurs with a shrug and a weak laugh, as if it’s an obvious choice, as if anyone would have done it. 

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GHOST:

caoimhe is still pretty banged up, though she’s started healing somewhat. the main problem is her leg and the bandaged up bullet wound just above her knee that has her on crutches and is leaving her nearly as miserable as knowing they failed to save the only home she’s ever actually cared about. it’s all exhausting and heartbreaking and kind of terrifying and all caoimhe wants to do is go back to LA and give this all up, but she knows that’ll never be an option. so, for the time being, she settles for trying to find a comfortable chair - the only one she can find, however, seems to be occupied. “honesty is the best policy and honestly? if you don’t let me sit there, i will sit on you.”

     jasper’s always powered through tough times--- or just ignored them altogether. he hasn’t been sleeping well-- a mix of drastic timezone changes and persistent nightmares similar to the ones that plagues him after his parents died. he’s taken to jogging before the sun completely rises. he’s been sitting, staring off at nothing for almost half an hour, now. his usual impish grin only returns when caiomhe appears & quips at him. he considers for a moment, and shrugs. “bet.” grin widening, his arms wind together and leans back.

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‘ let’s dig deep here… favorite color, favorite ice cream, favorite season? think you can handle it? ’

     she squints for a moment, then laughs. “i’m not sure, to be honest, i find your interest in my personal preferences highly suspicious,” it’s poised as a joke, but the walls surrounding her are clearly there. trust isn’t a luxury she’s allowed herself in four years, even with fellow agents. "friendly small talk is where i draw the line at too personal, actually. shame.” 

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(   *   &.   –   SHARP  OBJECTS  SENTENCE  STARTERS .

‘  all of history was written by men, so… of course they’re gonna make themselves look good.  ’

‘  as i recall, you couldn’t even get it up.  ’

‘  bless your heart. bless your heart very much.  ’

‘  can i sleep over with you?  ’

‘  does it ever get better, with your family?  ’

‘  fine, you can sleep in my bed, come on. you can sleep with me.  ’

‘  hardly matters. you’re ruined. all out of spite.  ’

‘  i believe she’s outstayed her welcome.  ’

‘  i don’t mean to sound cruel, but i don’t think part of your heart can ever work if you don’t have kids.  ’

‘  i forget sometimes how parents aren’t always good for their kids.  ’

‘  i have to get home for heaven’s sake!  ’

‘  i miss her sometimes, even though i didn’t know her.  ’

‘  i never loved you. i hope that is of some comfort to you.  ’

‘  i think we should just sleep separate tonight then we’ll hang out tomorrow, okay?  ’

‘  i won’t grow up, not me.  ’

‘  if i can, you can.  ’

‘  if somebody says ‘bless your heart’, what they really mean is ‘fuck you’.  ’

‘  it’s hotter than a whore in church today.  ’

‘  i’m a bit tired, i think i should just sleep in my bed tonight.  ’

‘  i’m glad you’re back.  ’

‘  i’m incorrigible too. only she doesn’t know it.  ’

‘  i’m just a little frustrated ‘cause the girl i’m seeing won’t call me back.  ’

‘  i’m not decent. no, i’m not.  ’

‘  i’m trash, from old money.  ’

‘  i’ve just never been very good at the adult thing, i guess.  ’

‘  just forget about it, alright? i have.  ’

‘  let’s dig deep here… favorite color, favorite ice cream, favorite season? think you can handle it?  ’

‘  life is pressure. grow up.  ’

‘  my demons are not remotely tackled. they’re just mildly concussed.  ’

‘  nothing’s ever your fault, is it?  ’

‘  please stay.  ’

‘  please stay. if i can, you can.  ’

‘  she’s delicate. a rare rose. but not without thorns.  ’

‘  so, uh, are you guys dating now?  ’

‘  that day has haunted me.  ’

‘  well, i’m an unconventional girl, that’s what you like about me.  ’

‘  well, looks like we both got fucked.  ’

‘  we’re alike. i knew we would be.  ’

‘  what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger… unless it kills you.  ’

‘  what if, after you die, part of you goes to heaven, part of you stays here, just to see how things turn out?  ’

‘  whenever i’m here, i just– i feel like a bad person.  ’

‘  you could take advantage of me maybe, when i’m drunk.  ’

‘  you gonna hit me? be dangerous.  ’

‘  you have the control and… they like you.  ’

‘  you turned out so wonderful, smart, beautiful, successful, and brave.  ’

‘  you were born with it, that cold nature.  ’

‘  your friend sounds like an after school special.  ’

‘  you’re a sick fuck.  ’

‘  you’re like my sister.  ’

‘  you’re like my soulmate.  ’

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god of war (2018) starters

❝  long way from home, aren’t you?  ❞ ❝  why do you even care? you could have just walked away.  ❞ ❝  i almost feel bad for you.  ❞ ❝  i can tell you a thing or two about family matters.  ❞      ❝  lucky for you, my schedule’s wide open.  ❞ ❝  they’re gonna be sorry they picked this fight.  ❞ ❝  i heard you. it’s not up for discussion.  ❞ ❝  i will rain down agony, every possible violation, upon you.  ❞ ❝  um, alright…that hurt a little.  ❞ ❝  you think you understand, but you don’t.  ❞ ❝  didn’t you hear that? voices. it felt…evil.  ❞ ❝  you do not want this fight.  ❞ ❝  truth is more important than kindness.  ❞ ❝  i know every corner of these lands, every language spoken, every war waged, every deal struck.  ❞ ❝  it should have been you. you hear me? you. not her.  ❞ ❝  only use this as a last resort.  ❞ ❝  deny it all you want, but you saved me.  ❞ ❝  you don’t want me and you never will.  ❞ ❝  they do not stop us, so they do not concern us.  ❞ ❝  only time you talk to me is when you need something.  ❞ ❝  that doesn’t mean you should lie to your friends or family.  ❞ ❝  will i see you again?  ❞ ❝  don’t leave me alone ever again.  ❞      ❝  you see in the eyes of a child.  ❞ ❝  i know you hate gods but you really can’t stay away from them, can you?  ❞ ❝  you are in your head. let it go.  ❞ ❝  it is wise to be discreet.  ❞ ❝  you are right…i do not believe you.  ❞ ❝  the power of any weapon comes from your heart…but only when tempered by your head.  ❞ ❝  wow, you’re so stupid. that your father’s doing? or your mother’s?  ❞ ❝  will we see people on the road? friendly? will they try to rob us?  ❞ ❝  smells like rotting eggs. is it still good?  ❞ ❝  you’ve only killed those deserving, right?  ❞ ❝  you’re sounding more like your father by the minute.  ❞ ❝  that thing was trying to kill us. it’s not like you don’t get angry in a fight.  ❞ ❝  leave. my. home.  ❞ ❝  you killed against my wishes.  ❞ ❝  it’s all you talk about, over and over. do something about it or shut up.  ❞ ❝  behind you, watch out!  ❞ ❝  don’t know, don’t care.  ❞ ❝  this used to be a challenge.  ❞ ❝  this place feels like a prison.  ❞ ❝  it feels like something is waiting for us down here.  ❞ ❝  don’t be sorry. be better.  ❞ ❝  kill for survival, not for indulgence.  ❞ ❝  can’t believe you’ve lasted this long.  ❞ ❝  in war, a soldier sees beauty in the blood of his enemy.  ❞ ❝  the winds of fate have given us a strange coincidence.  ❞ ❝  close your heart to their desperation. close your heart to their suffering.  ❞ ❝  you’ve had to kill people before, haven’t you? you’re used to it.  ❞ ❝  why do you say nothing?  ❞ ❝  you’ve seen it with your own eyes. you can’t hurt me. nothing can.  ❞ ❝  anger can be a weapon if you control it.  ❞ ❝  whatever it is you seek, i do not have it. you should move on.  ❞ ❝  when they find you - and they will - they’ll make things difficult.  ❞ ❝  there is one unavoidable truth you will never escape: you cannot change.  ❞ ❝  only time you talk to me is when you need something.  ❞ ❝  we do what me must to survive.  ❞ ❝  follow down this path and head for daylight.  ❞ ❝  heh. thought you’d be bigger.  ❞ ❝  you have a knack for ominous statemants.  ❞ ❝  just tell me what i want to know! no need for this to get bloody.  ❞ ❝  we all gotta take responsibility sometime, huh?  ❞ ❝  that was a waste of a perfectly good apple.  ❞ ❝  you think i’m weak, because i’m not like you.  ❞ ❝  but…you told me never to go down there.  ❞ ❝  you know, i really hoped i’d never see this place again.  ❞ ❝  until our journey is over, one of us must remain focused.   ❞ ❝  you must be better than me. understand?  ❞ ❝  did something change? the forest feels different now.  ❞ ❝  with power comes a big choice. you serve yourself or you serve others.  ❞ ❝  do not mistake my silence for lack of grief.  ❞ ❝  we are not men. we are more than that.  ❞ ❝  i know i was never what you wanted.  ❞ ❝  mourn how you wish. leave me to my own.  ❞ ❝  hurry! i’m slipping.  ❞ ❝  do not allow yourself to feel for them. they do not feel for you.  ❞ ❝  do not concern yourself with what might be. focus on what is.  ❞ ❝  we do as we please. no excuses.  ❞ ❝  your father can kill. are you going to be able to do that?  ❞ ❝  accuracy over speed.  ❞ ❝  you left me here. again. why don’t you care?  ❞ ❝  what, you want a hug?  ❞ ❝  finish what you started.  ❞ ❝  you know, for someone so strong, you worry a lot.  ❞ ❝  you are hunting deer - not chasing it.  ❞ ❝  i don’t know you and you don’t know me… don’t seem to want to.  ❞ ❝  killing animals i get. they’re food. but people… they’re just trying to survive too.  ❞ ❝  do you hear that? it sounds like someone screaming.  ❞ ❝  i’m going to cut off your head now.  ❞ ❝  it’s…it’s still alive.  ❞ ❝  we are here because of you. never forget that.  ❞ ❝  do not speak again.  ❞ ❝  your anger…you can get lost in it.  ❞ ❝  you don’t have to be the smartest man in the world to see that.  ❞ ❝  we’ve come so far. there has to be a way.  ❞ ❝  don’t you see? they never gave up hope. and neither should we.  ❞ ❝  you can change your path. it’s not too late.  ❞ ❝  i’ve been to many strange places… but this is a new one.  ❞ ❝  oh, cut it out, princess. you’re gonna get me all weepy.  ❞ ❝  you are too quick to temper. you a rash, insubordinate and out of control.  ❞ ❝  the path ahead is difficult and you are not ready.  ❞ ❝  you are not ready - stay back.  ❞ ❝  think i’m afraid of you?! you’re nothing to me.  ❞ ❝  stay by me. touch nothing.  ❞ ❝  you were gone for so long i thought that you…  ❞      ❝  you will always be a monster.  ❞ ❝  look at me! look at me!  ❞ ❝  you are going to have to kill me for that to happen.  ❞ ❝  can you kill something that big?  ❞ ❝  on our journey we will be attacked by all manner of creature.  ❞ ❝  so we’re gonna go toward the creepy singing?  ❞ ❝  why are there two beds in there?  ❞ ❝  slow down. your haste will cost us.  ❞ ❝  i warned you. you would not listen.  ❞ ❝  no, wait…i’m not giving up. i just…have to catch my breath.  ❞ ❝  well, this is it. it’s been an honor.  ❞ ❝  you left me alone to fight.  ❞ ❝  are you the last of your family too?  ❞ ❝  my mother made it for me.  ❞ ❝  fight until we stop or we are dead.  ❞ ❝  the last in his realm of all this kind and you shoot him.  ❞ ❝  come. no looking back now.  ❞ ❝  you’re more concerned with their safety than our goal.  ❞ ❝  i don’t think we’re supposed to be in here.  ❞    ❝  i’m…sorry for your loss.  ❞ ❝  i hoped that’d you, out of all the people i’ve faced, would make me feel something.  ❞ ❝  slow and old. you should never have come here.  ❞ ❝  that bow’s a little big for you, isn’t it?  ❞ ❝  earlier you said people might kill us. i’ll kill them if they try.  ❞ ❝  pain we endure. faulty weaponry we do not.  ❞ ❝  let me guess…you’re gonna be smug and say we shouldn’t have got involved.  ❞ ❝  no. you’ve been gone a long, long time!  ❞ ❝  if you try, i’ll try.  ❞ ❝  wow, uh…that was something, that fight.  ❞ ❝  you did not think it was important to tell me?  ❞ ❝  death suits you better.  ❞ ❝  is it dishonorable to grow old?  ❞ ❝  so unclean. so, so unclean.  ❞ ❝  you won’t stop me.  ❞ ❝  and i thought my family was fucked up.  ❞ ❝  i’m strong. i’m smart. i’m not what you think i am.  ❞ ❝  when i require your counsel, i will ask.  ❞ ❝  don’t you know when to give up?  ❞ ❝  listen to me. i can help.  ❞ ❝  you’ve taught me so much. let me teach you something.  ❞ ❝  okay. there are a few gaps in my knowledge.  ❞ ❝  the path you walk. vengeance. you will find no peace.  ❞ ❝  you know i love you. you just can be better. i know you can be.  ❞ ❝  let them go. take me instead.  ❞ ❝  i’ve never felt more alive.  ❞ ❝  no…you’re bleeding.  ❞ ❝  do you have any idea, any idea at all, what you have cost me?  ❞ ❝  i used to dream about getting eaten.  ❞ ❝  relax. do not think of it as an animal. it is simply a target.  ❞ ❝  try to find forgiveness, and we can start something new.  ❞ ❝  there is much about me i won’t have you know.  ❞ ❝  have you ever heard the term “tempting fate?”  ❞ ❝  your memory was a comfort in dark times.  ❞ ❝  she meant more to me than you anyway.  ❞ ❝  you are not yourself.  ❞ ❝  if seeing me dead will make things right, i won’t stop you.  ❞ ❝  i’d bow if i could, your majesty.  ❞ ❝  then we will go home. to give up this easily, so close to the start…  ❞ ❝  only fire when i tell you to fire.  ❞ ❝  not my blood.  ❞ ❝ nobody’s killed a dragon for hundreds of years.  ❞ ❝  are they dead…? oh! not dead! not dead!  ❞ ❝  a dangerous beast. we’ll take him down together.  ❞

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the greatest showman starters ✰

❛ It’s only this moment, don’t care what comes after ❜

❛ We light it up, we won’t come down.  And the sun can’t stop us now ❜

❛ Watching it come true, it’s taking over you ❜

❛ It’s everything you ever want, it’s everything you ever need.  And it’s here right in front of you ❜

❛ We can live in a world that we design ❜

❛ A million dreams are keeping me awake ❜

❛ However big, however small, let me be part of it all.  Share your dreams with me ❜

❛ You run with me and I can cut you free ❜

❛ Trade that typical for something colorful ❜

❛ Don’t you wanna get away from the same old part you gotta play ❜

❛ So come with me and take the ride, it’ll take you to the other side ❜

❛ I quite enjoy the life you say I’m trapped in ❜

❛ Now is this really how you like to spend your days? Whiskey and misery, and parties and plays ❜

❛ Forget the cage, ‘cause we know how to make the key ❜

❛ No more living in those shadows, you and me we know how that goes ❜

❛ We’re dreaming with our eyes wide open ❜

❛ You’re just a dead man walking, thinking that’s your only option ❜

❛ You set off a dream with me ❜

❛ I’m trying to hold my breath ❜

❛ All the stars we steal from the night sky will never be enough ❜

❛ I am not a stranger to the dark ❜

❛ I won’t let them break me down to dust, I know that there’s a place for us ❜

❛ I am who I’m meant to be, this is me ❜

❛ I’m not scared to be seen, I make no apologies, this is me ❜

❛ We are warriors.  Yeah, that’s what we’ve become ❜

❛ You know I want you.  It’s not a secret I try to hide ❜

❛ You’re here in my heart so who can stop me if I decide that you’re my destiny? ❜

❛ What if we rewrite the stars? ❜

❛ You think I don’t want to run to you.  But there are mountains and there are doors that we can’t walk through ❜

❛ No one can rewrite the stars ❜

❛ All I want is to fly with you.  All I want is to fall with you ❜

❛ Nothing can keep us apart cause you are the one I was meant to find ❜

❛ We’re bound to break and my hands are tied ❜

❛ I’d follow you to the great unknown ❜

❛ Hand in my hand and we promised to never let go ❜

❛ You pulled me in and together we’re lost in a dream ❜

❛ It’s all an adventure that comes with a breathtaking view ❜

❛ We’re walking the tightrope ❜

❛ A man learns who is there for him when the glitter fades and the walls won’t hold ❜

❛ From now on what’s waited till tomorrow starts tonight ❜

❛ Let this promise in me start like an anthem in my heart ❜

❛ This is the greatest show! ❜

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mitch never liked being stuck in one place. and as big as the estate was, he still felt contained. he understood the need everyone had to figure out what the fuck had gone wrong back in DC; he’d been enough meetings, spent enough time pouring over surveillance and mission reports to no avail, but he was going to have a meltdown if he didn’t get out to do something else at least for a bit. he marched into the room without so much as a knock, “please tell me you’re going to be one of the sane people on this base and actually want to leave for a couple hours with me.”

     “god, yes,” esme hadn’t been idle since becoming an agent, always on a mission, always doing something. for days it’d just been silent, some of the junior agents were even starting to treat this change of scenery as a vacation, and not the refuge that it was. “if i have to sit still one more hour i might finally go completely batshit insane,” she’s been on the training grounds since they got there--- when she was finally scolded to go get some rest, she wandered every square inch of the mansion that she could. she was running out of things to entertain her. “anywhere specific in mind?”

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    she almost wants to cry at the sound of a voice , unfamiliar but it gives her HOPE anyways . ❝ i’m — i’m here ! ❞ andy squeaks out from behind a closed door . she’s been trying to open it for what felt like ages now , but there must have been something blocking it from the other side because it just wouldn’t budge . the small brunette attempts to push it open once more , leaning her shoulder against the the door.  ❝ agent chiron ?? ❞ andy yells between coughs , hand pressed against the warm wood . she supposed that the only good part about being trapped in the copy room was that it took longer for the smoke to get to her , but it WAS starting to catch up . possible worst case scenarios begin to flash through the girl’s head — what if he didn’t hear her and she ended up like fucking rose on the titanic ? what if he did hear her but he couldn’t get the door open ? god , she really would die in a copy room , of all places . andy would’ve laughed if it wasn’t so difficult to BREATHE as it is .

     the sound of a muffled voice shouting out nearly makes him trip over his feet. “i hear you!” he shouts into the hall, head whipping around in a desperate search for the source. there was a limited number of rooms which it could be coming from. luckily. in contrast to the hellishly long stretch of doors he’s just climbed through. only one of them had filing cabinets stacked before it. “alright, there are a few file cabinets against the door. i’m gonna push them off. just sit still and keep your nose and mouth covered,” it wasn’t that the file cabinets were particularly heavy, at least, he’s had to handle heavier things, but he couldn’t exactly do it silently, and there were still kronos agents in the building. he’d just have to be fast. the top cabinet stands with a few shoves, then leans back and lands with an echoing slam against the floor. he winces. luckily, the bottom cabinet moves with a few kicks, sliding across the floor. “alright, kid, the door’s clear, but we have to move.”