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i broke myself. i did it.

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this is so me that i want to fucking throw up

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everything's a little too something

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nsfw

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i honestly thought losing weight would make me happier, but it hasn’t. i still look at myself and then other girls and wonder why i can’t look like them. there is always going to be someone that you wish you looked like and it doesn’t matter how many hours you spend at the gym or how little junk food you ate… there will still be that girl you want to look like or that guy who isn’t interested in your body type. like dude, it happens and i get that now but how the fuck do i get comfortable enough to look in the mirror and not wish I was someone different. seriously this is really annoying and exhausting and i just wanna be happy with my progress 😒😒😒

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cannot escape you in my dreams

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i’ve been having really emotionally draining flashbacks lately and it’s honestly starting to make me sick to my stomach because each time i realize that this place does not feel like home and home is not home anymore. i am in two places and none at the same time. i want to see the lights of ottawa at night and the sun and snow on the fields between there and my hometown. i want my best friends back. i want to see certain people. i’m so unfinished with that place that it takes pieces out of the life i’m living here. where i am in life is absolutely incredible compared to where i’d be if i still stayed there, but it’s just not… me. i don’t know how to explain it, but i dream of it constantly and i just want a second chance. i want to know what it’d be like to still be there, you know. i’m torn by the what ifs.

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