My Life

this is my safe space where i can come to cry in peace…..32 yr old male

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I want you 🥺

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Idk dude I might have to move on as much as I don’t want to. There’s a lot of things that need to change if we can be in a relationship I just don’t see it happening and I feel heart broken Tbh

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Ts driving me insane :( I just wana be loved

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I’m just trying to get over it honestly. His response to what I said will tell me all I need to know. I want to be emotional and open up to him and confide in him. I want him to be romantic. The sex is great and all but I want more

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Ima just forget about it honestly clearly he don’t care to communicate and just wants sex. I called him out about it one time and he said I can’t believe you said that but it’s like that’s what it feels like you never communicate or anything unless we’re a person even then it’s hard to get a response so what the fuck

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If he doesn’t reply I swear I’m just done trying and I’m gona isolate. It’s not fair to me and I require more than what I’ve been receiving. I’m not even asking for much

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Back to using enemas again yay….fml honestly my body is always in pain and I. Can’t take it anymore it’s so annoying doctors never can find out what’s wrong

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I went tubing for the first time ever with some friends Saturday and half way thru I had a panic attack and the ambulance had to come get me it was so traumatizing and scary honestly never again and I think some of it was the wax I hit

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It’s gona be a good week gang 🤞

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I had a dream where I went up to Zach and this girl he was with. Then later he was humping me around my brother and then he was showing me his ass and I was starting to get turned on but then I felt really betrayed. I hate these nightmares but it’s getting easier to deal with

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My dealer hit me up right after I hit 60 days sober and I’m so tempted to buy something off him. I said not right now but the temptation is so real. I’m doing so good tho I just kno I’ll regret it and I try to think of all the consequences behind it

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Just wanted to pop by to say im proud of you for staying clean! The strongest thing a person can do is remain clean thru frustrating situations whether its work, landlords, relationships, or a million other things. I'm proud of you and I'm rooting for you :)

Aww thank you so much

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Dear diary I’m trying so hard to stay positive but I’m getting weighed down honestly. My gut health is fucked. Nothing seems to ever help and I’m physically in pain all the time. Some days are worse than others. This is so miserable. But I’ve been handling n it well and staying sober but it’s like how much more of this can I take and the smell in my bathroom? Gross dude I feel like they’re not going to address that issue and it’s just going to be like that forever. I’m fucking irritated and I have a colonoscopy soon. I hope they find something so that they can cure my constipation. It really sucks.

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One thing about me I hate a rude ass bitch

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I feel things so deeply. The supervisor of my apartments doesn’t like me and I don’t kno why. I have to let it go and just be the bigger person but it’s so rude. Also idk ab this 70 mg vyvanse its. Lot or im just not used to it yet

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I’m so stressed out!!!!!

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I been doing great but there is one problem . It’s a bad stench in my bathroom and I think it’s from the sewage pipes or something. The supervisor at my complex was like clean and see if it smells better like wtf?? So I cleaned and it still smell like that like it ain’t my cleaning that’s the issue and she so rude I feel. Any little thing she has to do is an inconvenience to her. She’s just unapproachable and I’m tired of the energy she got. But I just gota let it go bc I don’t want drama but fr it’s yo job to do this. And it’s not that hard….