STRONG / WILLED

[valeriejensen]

reagancastillo:

She chuckled at the other woman’s attempt to turn her comment into a joke. She was rambling a bit, wasn’t she? In a way, it was quite endearing and not really something she had seen on the woman before. But what she heard then made her eyebrows shoot slightly upwards. Drinks? Dinner? Now that was something she hadn’t expected. Admittedly she had been incredibly close to the other woman at the ball, but she hadn’t expected her to make the next move - if a move would have been made at all. Still, her lips finally turned into a small amused grin. “Sounds dangerously like you’re aking me out on a date.”

NOW she was starting to actually get nervous. At first, she was kind of a little wary of the others answer but as soon as the words actually left her mouth it started. Like the worst thing that could happen was that Reagan declined her offer. And that would probably end up being really awkward and she probably never would be able to look her in the eyes again.   ❝ Uh, that depends on the answer. Like I could be asking you on a date or just a friendly night out. Not going to lie but I kind of like the first option more but it’s up to you. ❞

[dailywomen]

[valeriejensen]

reagancastillo:

Had Reagan noticed that she hadn’t seen Valerie around the courthouse? Of course she had. Usually, she had tried to avoid the woman as much as possible. That was until about two weeks ago when the other had seen her more vulnerable than she was ever willing to show herself. And now the air had shifted between them, especially at the masquerade ball. Had she been sick for this week? Maybe. After all, it was flu-season. So really, she didn’t put that much thought into it. It was when she was walking to her car on Thursday when she spotted probably the last person she had ever expected to wait for her by her car — not that she had expected anyone to wait for her by her car. She tilted her head at Valerie as she approached her, a small smile tugging at her features when she heard her speak.

“Sounds dangerous,” she commented, chuckling. “But a promise is a promise. What is it?”

DANGEROUS ?? Well, she hoped it wouldn’t be. Then again this would be the second time they willingly spoke with each other on good terms. But it didn’t feel dangerous. But she probably couldn’t blame Reagan for thinking it would be she did word it kind of odd.  ❝ It’s not dangerous that was just me being a weirdo. I mean like unless you’re into that kind of thing then we could probably make it dangerous.  ❞ If she didn’t already look like a complete fool she probably did right now. As soon as she finished she wanted to slap herself.  ❝ What I actually meant to ask you is uh … Do you maybe want to get a drink with me like tonight or any evening ?? We might even eat dinner before that ??  ❞

[valeriejensen]

sasharuvelle:

[ after the masquerade ball ]

[ TEXT: VALERIE ] so? what do we think? [ TEXT: VALERIE ] do you deem her worthy?  [ TEXT: VALERIE ] after all you two seemed to already have some history ;)  

[ TEXT: SASHA ] maybe it could work ?? [ TEXT: SASHA ] no but really you 2 seem great together [ TEXT: SASHA ] and i’m not sure yet but she did make some plus points so that’s great [ TEXT: SASHA ] it’s not really history it’s more like us being dumb really [ TEXT: SASHA ] i met her in a bar after a long day and we had drinks and made fun of barry [ TEXT: SASHA ] but we both didn’t really think about introducing ourselves so like i seriously didn’t know who she was [ TEXT: SASHA ] probably not one of my smartest moments...

[valeriejensen]

( @reagancastillo​ )

IT had been a couple days after the gala. And sadly that meant that the time of partying was over and a long week of long workdays had started again. But this week she was just counting the days until the weekend. She actually had planned something in advance this time. Or at least kind of. Officially nothing was planned but in her head she had it all figured out. If only she could make it happen. But today was the day. After almost a week of awkwardly avoiding Reagan, she decided to just go for it. By avoiding her she was never making process. She waited until the day was almost finished and decided to wait by her car. She had already spotted her car a couple cars away from hers so she had to pass her. She couldn't help but smile as soon as she saw the other walk up to her car.

 ❝ Hi Reagan. Uh so about that offer you made at the gala. Do you still mean that ?? Like if I were to ask you something right now would you like consider it ??  ❞

[littlelovelymemes]

✰   —  —  —  BUZZFEED UNSOLVED SENTENCE STARTERS

‘  strap in ‘cause this one is rough.  ’ ‘  it’s– it’s yucky.  ’ ‘  i’m aware of some details of this and it’s– it’s yucky.  ’ ‘  i’m not a gambling man, but i don’t really like those odds.  ’ ‘  we could conceivably run into this guy taking a dump in the woods or something.  ’ ‘  are you fucking out of your mind?  ’ ‘  i’m starting to think you want to die.  ’ ‘  you turned a corner on that one pretty quick.  ’ ‘  oh my god, it’s fucking horrifying.  ’ ‘  there’s an elk, though. there’s a deer over there.  ’ ‘  here’s the remains and rubble of one of the greatest unsolved mysteries of all time and you’re looking at the fucking deer in the forrest.  ’ ‘  maybe they were in there telling ghost stories.  ’ ‘  that’s not what pillow talk is, i don’t think.  ’ ‘  pillow talk could either mean something you do after sex or it could mean what’s like sleepover talk.  ’ ‘  do you tell ghost stories after sex?  ’ ‘  all very effective for– for murder.  ’ ‘  they stabbed him so hard that the knife bent.  ’ ‘  you would think that there’d be at least one witness.  ’ ‘  you see someone running through the forrest covered in blood, you’re probably not gonna bat an eye.  ’ ‘  that’s not how the forrest works.  ’ ‘  excuse me, sir. why are you covered in blood?  ’ ‘  i’m glad to know that you would be the worst crime scene witness of all time.  ’ ‘  oh, you were phrasing it in a dramatic way.  ’ ‘  what is it about killers– that they want to be caught so badly… or like they want to get as close to being caught without being caught?  ’ ‘  i can’t put my mind into the mind of a criminal.  ’ ‘  i can put my mind into the mind of a criminal.  ’ ‘  some of them must be friends, others would like to plunge knives into each other.  ’ ‘  i can imagine one friend of yours murdering you.  ’ ‘  i’m pretty sure there was a coverup by the police department.  ’ ‘  70′s and 80′s police were always just like, ‘oh, you murdered someone? you got forty bucks?’  ’ ‘  great! what else do you want?! i murdered people for you! and now… what?  ’ ‘  oh, so i’m the psycho cause i murdered for you!?  ’ ‘  what, the police were just writing fan fiction?  ’ ‘  this is just baffling to me.  ’ ‘  i guess that’s their job, but can you imagine how much goddamn paperwork is involved in that? so much!  ’ ‘  i’m pretty sure we’re being watched, so i kind of wanna leave, to be honest.  ’ ‘  i’ve had enough of this place and i haven’t even been here that long. i hate this place.  ’ ‘  this boogeyman is very thorough.  ’ ‘  i guess we’re lucky he got lazy.  ’ ‘  the greatest safety precautions of our time are written in blood.  ’ ‘  i think they’re tired of this ongoing saga that never ends.  ’ ‘  you know, i actually disagree with that last sentiment.  ’ ‘  this is like straight-up end of days shit going on.  ’ ‘  this could’ve been the beginning of the zombie apocalypse, in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’ve daydreamed about having an amazing bunker that has satellite tv.   ’ ‘  ‘bad advil’ sounds like a shitty indie band.  ’ ‘  the wild west was the 80′s.  ’ ‘  in the 80′s you could walk in a store, pocket a soda, punch a guy in the face, and then be like ‘see ya later. fuck you!’ cops wouldn’t get to your door for weeks.  ’ ‘  he had books that were just titled ‘how to crime’? if he had a book called ‘how to crime’ then there’s your guy.  ’ ‘  oh, yeah… nah, i’m good. eh, bit of a reach.  ’ ‘  some old lady in florida bought the unabomber’s typewriter?  ’ ‘  maybe this guy was really in the dog house and was just desperate for any kind of turn of affection from her so he thought, ‘i know that i’ll do! i’ll write the fbi!’  ’ ‘  no, i didn’t– what, is there anything to suggest that i would chase my mom with an axe?  ’ ‘  i think you wear a mask sometimes.  ’ ‘  maybe you should keep digging and see what happens.  ’ ‘  these are two messed up weirdos who have found each other and it’s almost a shockingly beautiful love story.  ’ ‘  i don’t get it. i just wanna talk about my work and everyone just keeps seeming to bring up all my past of all the shitty stuff i’ve done.  ’ ‘  ugh, this guy’s gross.  ’ ‘  it must’ve been fun to be a criminal in the 80′s.  ’ ‘  everything before the 80′s – just lawless.  ’ ‘  get your sunglasses ready because this one is packed full of bright stars.  ’ ‘  i’m good to go. i’m always ready, baby!  ’ ‘  it came true so she was actually warranted in all these fears.  ’ ‘  this would be like if you were eaten by a shark.  ’ ‘  i thought for a second we were talking about things that are actually scary.  ’ ‘  i’m gonna let this slide because i know you’re just trying to get a rise out of me.  ’ ‘  does that man have a magical penis or something?  ’ ‘  you think the only reason someone would go back to someone is because they have a magical penis?  ’ ‘  i feel like divorce is probably a lot of work.  ’ ‘  do you not know how love works?  ’ ‘  maybe i don’t know how love works.  ’ ‘  i have a hard time imagining someone going gaga over christopher walken.  ’ ‘  i bet when you get in a room with christopher walken, he commands the space.  ’ ‘  i brought some cocktail weenies.  ’ ‘  one of my greatest fears is that someone will trick me into doing heroin.  ’ ‘  that’s the dumbest fear i’ve ever heard in my life.  ’ ‘  how many situations can you be in that would put you up to that potential danger?  ’ ‘  how many parties are you going to where heroin’s involved? it seems like a lot.  ’ ‘  it’s the fear that someone would come up to me on the street and put heroin in me and then i’m hooked forever.  ’ ‘  here’s what must’ve happened… these forty things, in succession.  ’ ‘  what are you trying to do, fuck my wife?  ’ ‘  why would he make this up?  ’ ‘  he– he was just trying to fuck someones wife.  ’ ‘  i can’t imagine murdering someone even when drunk.  ’ ‘  when you drink you can imagine murdering someone?!  ’ ‘  i ate a pumpkin once when i was drunk… i just took a bite out of a pumpkin.  ’ ‘  that’s a rational fear!  ’ ‘  that is not a rational fear!  ’ ‘  these are the musings of a paranoid man.  ’

[rpmemestbh]

Drinking starters

as requested by @ambitionbled (it won’t let me tag you, sorry!)

CONCERN.

❝How much have you had to drink?❞

❝You could have fucking alcohol poisoning!❞  

❝Easy, there. Try to sit up.❞

❝I think I might’ve overdone it on the alcohol…❞

❝We’ve got to go get your stomach pumped.❞

❝I thought you said you were clean!❞

❝Yes, it is a big deal.❞

❝Let me drive you home.❞

❝You are NOT driving like this!❞

❝You are gonna have one hell of a hangover tomorrow.❞

❝Drinking until you puke is not normal.❞

DRUNK.

❝Is this real life?❞ 

❝I want to go to sleep but I can’t find any sheep.❞

❝How do you show fish affection?❞

❝Taco Bell is open 24 hours, right?❞

❝Tequila is not my friend? YOU’RE not my friend.❞

❝Drunk I am not.❞

-glasses on head- ❝Where did I put my glasses?❞

❝How do I tell my parents I’m a mermaid?❞ 

❝I’m not even tired.❞

❝I should call my ex.❞

❝I’m not drunk enough for this.❞

❝Does playing Mario Kart drunk count as drunk driving?❞

-hugging the floor- ❝I’m trying to stop the floor from spinning.❞

❝Can we go out for fried chicken?❞

ANGST.

❝What’s the fucking point anymore?❞

❝Screw recovery. I want a drink.❞

❝I’m too sober for this shit.❞ 

❝I don’t give a shit what you think.❞

❝I seriously don’t feel too good.❞

❝I didn’t even have that much to drink.❞

❝Will you stop fucking interrogating me?❞

❝I can drive. I’m fine.❞

❝There’s a reason I drink so much.❞

❝You’re the reason I drink so much.❞

❝I’m only happy when I’m drunk.❞

FLUFF/FUN.

❝You’re cute, you know that?❞ 

❝You wanna get wasted?❞

❝I’m bar-hopping tonight, wanna come?❞

❝What are you drinking, and why aren’t you sharing?❞

❝I’m having a party for two.❞

❝You’re so hot.❞

❝I’m usually too chicken-shit to say this, but…I really like you.❞

❝I don’t want to kiss you with your alcohol breath.❞

*kisses on forehead*

*kisses on cheek*

*kisses on lips*

[valeriejensen]

sasharuvelle:

[ TEXT: VAL ] i know i didn’t wan it. [ TEXT: VAL ] but i still broke her heart [ TEXT: VAL ] either way, it seems to be going in the right direction at the moment [ TEXT: VAL ] it’s strange, it almost feels lie no time has passed at all [ TEXT: VAL ] thank you, babe [ TEXT: VAL ] that honestly means a lot!

[ TEXT: SASHA ] yeah and you feel really bad about that... [ TEXT: SASHA ] plus you like broke yours as well [ TEXT: SASHA ] but that’s a good thing right  [ TEXT: SASHA ] i mean it sounds like it seems you both really missed each other  [ TEXT: SASHA ] and don't thank me yet [ TEXT: SASHA ] like i need to see her first and talk to her before i deem her worthy  [ TEXT: SASHA ] XD

[evangelinelillyx]

[heyyycarrots]

Even if you’re unhappy, just pretend that you’re happy. Eventually, your smile will be contagious to yourself. I had to learn that. I used to think, ‘I’m being fake.’ But you know what? Better to be fake and happy, than to be real and miserable.

[valeriejensen]

sasharuvelle:

@valeriejensen // @seraphinadupont

“Valerie should be somewhere around here, I’d love for you to meet her,” Sasha said to her date, giving her a smile from red painted lips. After all, her best friend always had her back and in Sasha’s mind, it would have been weird for her not to introduce them if they were at the same event in the same venue. Blue eyes scanned the room, finally catching the sight of Valerie who seemingly had finally been able to separate herself from the attractive brunette she’d been dancing with for the past half hour. “There she is!” Her features lit up at the sight of her best friend. Sasha grasped Seraphina’s hand gently. “Come on, it’ll be fine,” she promised.

“Val!” she exclaimed as they were just a few feet away from her. “Heeey, I was wondering where you went after I didn’t see you on the dancefloor anymore.” Sasha paused, glancing over at her date, before looking back to her friend. “I’d like you to meet Seraphina. My date,” she finally introduced her, giving Valerie a tilt of her head that signalized a simple ‘be nice, please’.

SHE still couldn’t really comprehend what had happened tonight. Did they actually end their petty fight and move towards something else. She hoped they were. She was actually kind of disappointed that she had to leave. She wouldn’t have minded dancing for another hour or two. She was still kind of lost in her thoughts about a certain person and didn’t really hear Sasha until they were literally next to her. But even when she noticed that she had some trouble with speaking noting that it wasn’t just Sasha but also her date. The one person she actually kind of hated even though she never met her. Well did that go wrong... It wasn’t until she saw the look that told her to be nice that she seemed to awake.

 ❝ Oh, so you mean that Seraphina. Yeah uh hi. I am uh Valerie. Uh not sure if you remember but Barry lost his case. Thought you might want to know.   ❝ Was she red ?? she might be like this was awkward. How did she not notice ??  No, she did know how it’s because they were so stupid and didn’t bother to ask names. Like how can she talk a whole night to a stranger she didn’t even know the name of.

[valeriejensen]

reagancastillo:

There it was. The laugh that now ended up hitting her like a lightning. Reagan could hardly tear her eyes away — from the way it was lighting up Valerie’s entire face and made her practically glow, to her soft smile lines and the way the dimple on the right side of her face was now appearing with the way her lips were forming the smile, all of it caused a warm sensation to spread out in the center of her chest. And it was good they were able to laugh about it now. It was certainly better than the constant bickering back and forth. Even though she had to admit that the way she was feeling being so close to the other woman right now was more than just terrifying her. Wasn’t this exactly why she had pushed so hard? Now she was exactly where she didn’t want to be when it came to her emotions. Yet she was tired of pushing, tired of fighting. 

Valerie was right. What if she hadn’t been there? Reagan really wasn’t sure what would have happened. Either way, she was thankful she had been there in that moment of vulnerability, even though it also meant having opened up more than she had wanted to. It was dangerous and she knew it. And yet she didn’t want to fight any longer. With the other mentioning that her offer might come in handy, Reagan shook her head in mild amusement, a smile of her own finally finding its way onto her lips. Was it strange how calm the energy around them was at the moment? Perhaps. However, the one thing she knew was that on the inside the nervousness that was building up within her was not going anywhere as long as she was dancing with this woman this close to her. “Of course you’d say that,” she chuckles. “Well, choose the time you use it wisely.”

SHE couldn’t help but smile at the other. Who would have thought that she would ever be dancing with Reagan ?? If anybody would have said she would about a week ago she would have declared them mad. Maybe deep down she knew she wouldn’t mind but to actually admit it to another person. That probably couldn’t be the case. However now she couldn’t think of a better way to actually spend the evening. For some reason dancing with Reagan felt natural. It didn’t feel awkward at all, in fact, it seemed like it was something she was already used to. It was a nice feeling. And if she was completely honest with herself it was a feeling she could get used to.

❝ Obviously, that’s what I’m planning. It’s an offer I want to use wisely. You know it’s funny I was just thinking that if somebody told me I would be dancing with you I probably would have laughed in their face. But now that I am … I’m just glad we’re not being our stupid selves anymore.  ❞

[valeriejensen]

reagancastillo:

Reagan couldn’t help the chuckle that came from her. Valerie was right. “Yeah, we were quite bad, weren’t we?” They had acted worse than the most immature teenagers she knew. Especially looking back to the conversation they had had in the car, among others. Still, she also knew why she had acted that way towards the woman. From the day she had met her, there had been something about Valerie that Reagan hadn’t been able to put her finger on. She was different than others, and different than other prosecution lawyers she had met as well. Even in court the way she handled her cases was admirable, something that up to this day Reagan had never admitted. Perhaps she had always known that if she didn’t hate this woman she would like her too much. And so she had chosen the other path instead, trying to keep as much distance from her as possible and to keep her heart safe from being torn to pieces once more. And with Valerie saying she shouldn’t apologize for her state a week ago, Reagan awkwardly bit down on the inside of her lip. She wasn’t used to being this vulnerable in front of anyone but her best friend. She swallowed, the momentary silence making her more nervous than it should, so she decided to break it. “You surprised me, Valerie. You were the last person I would have expected to be there for me in that situation. So if there’s ever anything I can do for you… let me know.”

WHEN she heard the other say they were bad she couldn't help but laugh. That was probably one of the biggest understatements of the century. She could still hear herself talk to Sasha as if she was a child. Actually, now that she was thinking about it again she was actually starting to feel a little embarrassed. She normally didn’t act like that and certainly not when other people could actually see her. That never was a great thing for her reputation. Then again she also knew she didn’t act like that around the other because she hated her. Even though that was the reason she gave every time someone asked her. She knew that when she was around the other woman she felt something but that something was is still not clear to her. But whatever it may be she did know it wasn’t hate. Or even dislike for that matter. She actually was glad that the whole car episode happened. In a weird way that was the changing point in whatever game they had going on. And she liked this thing that was happening now a lot better than the snarking and being rude. When she told the other not too feel bad about it and she didn’t answer immediately she started to feel nervous. Had she said the wrong thing because that last thing she wanted was to mess things up when they hadn’t even started.  ❝ What kind of person would I be if I wouldn’t have done anything ?? But I did surprise myself as well I would have imagined myself to just freeze. And not actually do something. I don’t think I have ever done something like that. I’m glad I was there to help you know. What if I wasn’t ?? And I’m going to keep you on that offer. You never know when it might come in handy. ❞

[alexcsofrp]

Evangeline Lilly - Lost

[blaekswan-deactivated20210428]

google search: how to tell someone they mean everything to you but make it sound casual

[valeriejensen]

reagancastillo:

This was the point where Reagan was more than happy she wasn’t wearing a dress. Valerie looked beautiful in the gown she wore, but Reagan also knew that had she opted for a similar option, a dance would have been increasingly difficult. She offered the other her hand to take and gently pulled her out to the dance floor. The music wasn’t super upbeat at least not at the moment. It was more quiet, couples were simply swaying to the music. Perhaps Reagan could have thought of something better than asking her to dance now when the only option was to dance quite, well… slowly. And so she dared to wrap one arm around the other’s waist, the other hand still holding Valerie’s. “So listen,…” she finally spoke, clearing her throat just a moment later. This was more nervewracking than she thought. Never had she ever expected to be this close to this woman, and now that she was, well… Now she was cursing her best friend for predicting the whole thing. “I want to apologize. I was awful towards you and there’s no excuse for that.” Finally, Reagan’s hazel eyes found those bright green ones that sparkled so beautifully in the light. “And I’m sorry you had to see me like that… In the car, I mean. I would have come by to say thank you, but I admit, I was embarrassed. But thank you. It means a lot to me that you were there that day.”

BEFORE she knew it they were on the dance floor. She quickly scanned the room seeing other pairs dancing. And suddenly felt a little self-conscious. She had taken some ballroom when she was younger. It was a joke between her siblings and her. But to be honest when she had trouble forming just normal sentences she wasn’t sure how she would dance today. She would love to just slap herself in the face right now. Where was the confidence when you need it huh. And being this close to her wasn’t helping at all. In fact, it almost as if it was just making it all worse. She also still hadn’t really figured out of that was a bad thing or a good thing. She actually was glad when Reagan started the conversation because if that was her she probably would have made a fool of herself. She frowned a little at the apology. That actually went both ways if she could remember well she herself also made some petty comments and might even have acted a little immature a time or two.  ❝ Please don’t apologize for that. I believe we both acted a little ... not like us. And I’m pretty sure that would call us even. Now if I think back on it we were pretty ridiculous. I have seen teenagers less petty as us. And don’t you dare ever apologize for that? One it wasn’t your fault, two something like that is never something you should apologize for. But uh I’m glad I was there as well. ❞

[valeriejensen]

reagancastillo:

Events like this weren’t usually Reagan’s scene. However, with it being said to be one of the most important events New York City had to offer this year, she had opted to at least attend for an hour or two. After all, this was all for a good cause. Sure, she had expected some people she knew to be here, however, for some reason the thought of seeing Valerie here had not crossed her mind. Why? She wasn’t sure. After her breakdown in her car and Valerie unexpectedly having tried supporting her the best she could, she had sent a small thank you card. In reality, she had had no idea how she should have approached the other otherwise. The card had seemed appropriate and definitely not too pushy. Feeling someone’s eyes on her she turned, only to be met by the shining green eyes of exactly that woman who she had felt too awkward to properly approach since her panic attack one week ago. The truth was Reagan had seen such a different side of her that it was hard for her to continue to try to hate the other. And with the smile that was directed at her, it seemed the feeling was mutual. The smile was returned, somewhat hesitantly. She took the last sip of her champagne and put the glass down, finally making her way over to the other, gathering all her courage as she fought against the nervous heartbeat in her chest when she approached her. An attempt to softly clear her throat later and she found herself in front of the other, giving the guy she was speaking to an apologetic nod, before directing her attention towards Valerie. “Would you… “ Good god, just come out with it, will you, Castillo?  “…like to dance?”

SHE wasn’t sure if she should be glad of the fact that she had seen Reagan or annoyed. Because she did know one thing she had no idea what the man next to her was speaking. It was as if she just lost focus and stopped listening. She did get a smile in return. DId that mean she also believed things were different after their last meet ?? She hoped so there was no way she would be able to look at her the same way as before. What was she doing was she coming here. Maybe she wasn’t and was she just being stupid. Why was she acting like a 12-year old that just found her celebrity crush in a magazine... She swallowed before turning to her male companion but he didn’t seem to be bothered by her lack of concentration he just kept on talking and talking.  It wasn’t until she actually heard her voice that she turned back. So she was walking towards her. The man didn’t seem angry and to be honest she couldn’t get away quick enough. She took a deep breath and waited t speak because there was no way she was going to make herself look like a fool here. Not in front of her. When she was sure she was able to actually form sentences she smiled. ❝  I uh ... yeah sure. I mean I would love to. And uh I got your card. It was no problem really. I hope you are feeling better now. I’m not really a doctor and probably wasn’t that much of a help but that card was nice.  ❞