I used to be a non-smoker. In fact, I was a hardcore anti-smoker throughout my life.
Sexually sub, with a taste for adventure, I explored various avenues of fetish and submission... always with a constant friction with being a devout Christian faith.
This adventurous submissive nature is the factor which led me in my 40s to a chance online encounter with a Dom who identified himself as a leather Marlboro Man.
It's quite incredible how online contacts can sometimes have a major impact - simply by using words in messages. In this case, it was clear from the offset that this man was on a mission. Now that I look back over the years to this event, I know now that fetish smokers have an inbuilt urge to encourage non-smokers to start smoking. Looking at the bigger picture, it's as if there's some sort of 'dark' sexual energy... a sexual programming... which, if looking at it from a more spiritual angle, may come from an external force/energy/entity that uses fetish and addiction in these men to gather others into its sphere of influence and control. This conclusion is reached by how these men respond and act with the same methods and approach to achieve their goals of recruiting new smokers. Think of them as being workers of the force/entity, programmed to feed their sexual urges to recruit.
Within this powerful sphere of fetish stands Marlboro as a cult in itself. The brand and its logo are above all others as a global beacon. The cult of Marlboro has a worldwide 'army' of dedicated disciples.
Being an antismoker with no interest in cigarettes or brands, this online conversation introduced me to this cult. My submissive sexual nature made me an easy target for what was to come. The Leather Marlboro Man targeted my sexual vulnerabilities, taking me into a state of edging as he described how I needed to submit to Marlboro. The fact that I saw cigarettes and smoking as something quite dark and opposed to my own principles made it hornier. It offered a sexually submissive counterbalance to my Christian outlook. The discussion felt dark.
When I told the Leather Marlboro Man of my Christian devotion, he latched onto it, referring to the rising smoke as incense in offering to Marlboro... taking the smoke and power of Marlboro into myself in submission to its superior power.
At the height of my edging horniness, he sent me a link to watch a leather Marlboro smoker on YouTube. For the first time in my life, I viewed a man smoking as being intensely horny. I'd been primed for Marlboro to gain access to my mind and begin a process of sexual reprogramming.
The discussion came to a close with instructions to buy a pack of Marlboro Reds and a lighter.
From this point, most would probably jerk off and think nothing more about it. But, as a sub trained to abstain from cumming, the thoughts he'd put in my head festered. The next day, I plucked up courage and went out to buy my very first pack of cigarettes. In the back of my mind, this was to be no more than a horny thrill to explore, then to put it in the past. It was to be just one pack.
Although the Leather Marlboro Man disappeared after this, he'd implanted something that I had to carry through. Without him, I was alone with the pack of Reds and the lighter. The first secret cigarette smoked was intense, and the words he'd said were wrapping around my mind as I inhaled it and looked at the pack.
But there was something missing. It needed to be shared in order to complete the intensity. I went back to view the video he'd told me to watch, and I edged my dick as I smoked the next from the pack. Then, the thought occurred. I needed to do the same as the man in the video. So, I created a YouTube account and began to video each cigarette smoked. The first video was my 4th from the pack.
Describing in the videos how this was my first pack, and that I wasn't a smoker, the videos quickly began to get attention... from Marlboro smokers.
Over the following videos, smoking one each day in my car as I stroked out of sight of the camera, encouragement and compliments began to fill the comments. I was no longer alone.
Looking back, my smoking technique was clumsy. I was obviously new to smoking, but I inhaled deep, which was why one cigarette per day would make me very dizzy and even feel a bit sick. Yet, the comments from Marlboro smokers of me being a "natural smoker" was encouraging. They knew exactly what they were doing.
After about the 10th cigarette from the pack, I'd progressed to 2 videos per day, with me posting 3 by the time the pack came to an end a few days later.
My last cigarette smoked from the pack was to be my final one in this sexual exploration. I talked in the video, saying this would be my last one. I had all intentions of it being so. Those 10 days of videos of my smoking and stroking had felt like a long time. In that brief period, I'd gained hundreds of likes on the videos, and increasing numbers of encouraging comments. I'd loved the attention and almost felt like I'd got new friends. All the compliments and encouragement had added so much to the experience. I'd sort of got hooked on the attention almost as much as on the new sexual diversion.
There was a bit of a downer to have come to the end of it, but as an antismoker, I'd decided it was the best thing to accept its conclusion.
The next day, I decided to check the video and see people's responses. I was surprised to read a stream of comments, more than any of my videos had.
"You're such a natural horny smoker. You need to smoke"
"You're addicted. You can't quit now"
"You're a Marlboro man. You need another pack"
"Nooo! You can't quit now"
...and the comments went on.
I clearly wasn't a natural smoker. Over that pack I'd developed a technique of holding the cigarettes, and I was inhaling deep, but I was obviously a newbie. But the Marlboro smokers leaving comments were simply doing their job.
The comments made an impact, mentally and sexually. I felt there was now something missing, having put the exploration behind me. Smoking that Marlboro Reds pack had been my sole sexual focus over those two weeks, and now there was just the memory and the videos. But I'd made my decision.
The most unexpected thing happened next. The following day I was at a garage to put fuel in the car. As I went to pay, behind the cashier were rows of cigarettes. I was totally familiar with seeing that, of course. But now it looked different. Something in my head had been changed. In the centre of the rows of cigarettes, the red and white packs of Marlboro Reds stood out. It was as if they were calling to me. As I took out my wallet to pay for the fuel, without thinking, I said "And a pack of Marlboro Reds, please."
It was done. I'd given in without even thinking. As the pack was taken from the row and placed on the counter in front of me, it became clear that I was no longer making the decision. Those two weeks of very focused sexual submission to Marlboro had laid foundations. The initial stage of my conversion had been put in place, and the next stage was about to commence.
In my head, I'd given in to the call of Marlboro from the row of cigarettes at the garage, and I excitedly drove to a quiet place to make the next video. I felt a sense of relief that this horny exploration wasn't ended. The new awareness that Marlboro was now wielding authority over my willpower fed into my sexual submissive nature, and making this next video of my 'failure' was a sexual high.
Quickly, the Marlboro smokers in the comments rushed in with congratulations. I began to feel the sense of 'brotherhood' that became increasingly mentioned in the comments.
"Welcome to the brotherhood, smoker"
"You did the right thing"
"You can never quit now. No point in trying"
The videos continued for the following few months, still with each Red smoked being in a video. I only stopped doing videos for every one I smoked two months later when I got to 8 cigarettes per day. By then, I was in direct contact with some of the dedicated Marlboro smokers and I'd been directed to smokinmen.com.
My addiction was beginning to develop, and I was instructed to watch myself in a mirror as I wanked and smoked in order to focus and develop the fetish. Gradually, all other fetishes fell behind, as Marlboro took primary position in my sexual urges.
But there was more... Remembering the first Leather Marlboro Man telling me how the smoke rises like incense in praise and submission, the spiritual aspect began to develop. The Marlboro pack and logo gradually became the primary focus of sexual worship. My devout Christian faith started to suffer and become weaker as Marlboro harnessed more and more of my adoration. My prayer turned from a selfless quiet ascetic practice into self-indulgent sexual ecstasy as I edged and smoked before the Marlboro logo.
A new 'faith' was being formed and developed, with my online down time being exclusively amongst dedicated Marlboro smokers, sexually charged, with various fetish aspects of cigarettes being developed. I was guided to buy and start using poppers, enabling Marlboro to open up deeper and darker portals of the mind and soul for Marlboro to exploit and develop. I bought Marlboro ashtrays and banners, and Marlboro leather jackets. I'd become a fully-fledged member of the Brotherhood. My computer desk became an altar of Marlboro, flashing smoke porn from the screens, and poppers being introduced which opens up the deeper portals of the mind and soul. Leather and other fetishes became fused into this Marlboro devotion, under the influence of the Marlboro brothers.
Over a decade later, although still involved with the church and all that goes with it, it is that force/energy/entity through the Marlboro pack that commands my real worship. The Christian antismoker of the past has been systematically transformed into a proud and devout Marlboro addict.