2h
ive given up ever living in reality. clearly im meant to rot in bed and live in my dreams. when i do get to go out its always high cost, and doesnt really feel that much better than if i did it in a game or in my head. im always just kinda numb and tired and dont think thats going to change after 30 years of this lol. it feels like this world is physically rejecting me. like im poison its ingested that it wants to vomit back out. i dont think i belong here. maybe it was some kind of mistake i was born at all.
