"Shoutout" to Nonhumans who have issues living because their Nonhumanity impacts them so much
My nonhumanity impacts me everyday. Even when being out with friends and having fun, it's a damn struggle
I can't just go and do stuff and have a nice time. The fact i'm living a human life makes me so depressed that all i can do at the end of a day is cry
I have days where it gets so bad i get physically sick and have to stay home
I love hearing stories about Nonhumans that still live their life like "red panda working at a coffee shop"
But i wish i'd hear more about ones like me too.
Ones like me that cannot go outside sometimes because they can't keep their instincts away. Some days i cannot go outside because i know i'm gonna do "weird stuff" because i struggle to push it aside
My body hurts from having to hold myself back. I sometimes really wonder how others do it. I have two friends that both consider themselves Alterhuman. But they manage to be so casual about it, they can still do stuff like getting ice cream without feeling absolute dread
When i was little i used to have moments like this where i went full on animal and no one could snap me out of it. I'd refuse to eat like a human, i walked on all fours for days, i only communicated with 'dog' noises
This feeling never left. I just managed to supress it
I cannot live a "normal" life. And i sometimes feel like stories like mine get ignored by the community. Yes of course there's a lot of nonhumans who still just do their thing, but there's also just as many that just can't.