Charles Leclerc/ Original Female Character (Viviana Carter)
Fandom - Formula 1 RPF
Warning - None
Style - Social Media AU + Written Chapters
Summary - Charles Leclerc is the popstar of F1, Driver of Scuderia Ferrari, pretty boy of the grid and a generational talent as a driver, in his 5th year driving for the team as of mid 2023. He is a sweetheart to everyone. Except the girls he dates. Charles Leclerc is notorious in the paddock for leaving behind a string of broken hearts without an empathy.
Viviana Carter is an internationally recognized and critically acclaimed singer on a world tour spanning 6 continents and multiple countries, well on her way to become the face of Pop. Sweet and Kind, Vivian is known to be a diva without the attitude of a diva, a true sweetheart of the people.
Their lives are parallel lines, never intertwining with each other.
Until, a shocking scandal regarding the Scuderia Ferrari threatens to endanger Charles career as a driver and brings to spotlight a part of Vivian's life that she had long stopped remembering, but never forgot about.
Search tag - #everything has changed au
Author's Note - this fic is a social media au majorly, and hence is in Outsider's POV. The fic can be read without reading the written text chapters. However, the written text chapters are there to fill in some of the blanks created by the Outsider's POV and provide some bonus scenes for the readers to enjoy.
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πππ π¬ / ππ° β 18+, MDNI, secret admirer au, slowburn romance, mutual pining, radical acceptance and love is the real punk rock, yearning, clark is a softie, smut, piv, oral sex (f!recieving), fingering, creampie, touch starved clark KentΒ
word count: 18k
Summary:Β You start getting anonymous love notes at the Daily Planetβsoft, sincere, impossibly romantic. You fall for the words first, then realize they sound a lot like Clark Kent. And just when the truth begins to unravel, you start to suspect he might be more than just the writerβ¦ he might be Superman himself.Β
notes β not proofread and my first full Clark Kent fic!
β reblogs comments & likes are appreciated
The first thing you notice isnβt the coffeeβitβs the smell.
Sharp espresso. The exact blend you order on days when the world feels like sandpaper. Dark, hot, and just a touch too strong. But when you reach your desk and set your bag down, the cup is already waiting for you, balanced on the corner of your keyboard like it belongs there.
A single post-it clings to the cardboard sleeve, the ink a little smudged from condensation:
βYou looked like you had a long night.β
No name. No heart. Just that.
You stare at it for a second too long. The office hums around youβphones ringing, printers whining, the low buzz of voicesβbut your ears tune it all out as you reread the handwriting. Rounded letters. Slight right slant. You canβt place it.
And no one in this building knows your coffee order. You made sure of that.
Across the bullpen, Jimmy Olsen drops into his chair with a paper bag in his teeth and two cameras slung around his neck.
βSomeoneβs got a secret admirer,β he sings, catching sight of the note.
You glance up, but try to play it cool. βCould be a delivery mistake.β
He snorts. βRight. And Iβm dating Wonder Woman.β
Lois, passing by with a stack of mock-ups under one arm, pauses just long enough to lift a perfectly sculpted brow. βWhoβs dating Wonder Woman?β
βJimmy,β you and Jimmy say in unison.
βRight,β she says, deadpan, and moves on.
You feel a little heat crawl up your neck. You pull the cup closer. The lidβs still warm.
Youβre still turning the note over in your hand when Clark Kent rounds the corner. His hair is a little damp at the ends, like he didnβt have time to dry it properly, already curling from the late-summer humidity. His tieβstriped, loud, undeniably Clarkβis halfway undone, the knot drifting lower by the second. His glasses are slipping down his nose like theyβre trying to abandon ship.
Heβs juggling three manila folders, a spiral-bound notebook balanced on top, a half-eaten blueberry muffin in his teeth, and what youβre almost certain is the entire city councilβs budget report from 2024 spilling out of the bottom folder. Itβs absurd. Kind of impressive. Very him.
βClarkβcareful,β you call out, mostly on instinct.
He startles at the sound of your voice and turns a little too fast. The top file slips. He manages to catch it, barely, with an awkward swipe of his forearm, the muffin top bouncing to the floor with a quiet thwup. He rights the stack again with both arms now locked tight around the paperwork, and when he looks at you, heβs already wearing one of those sheepish, winded smiles.
βMorning sweetheart,β he says breathlessly. His voice is warm. Rough around the edges like he hasnβt spoken yet today. βSorry, Iβm lateβPerry wanted the zoning report and the express line wasβ¦ not express.β
You donβt answer right away. Because his eyes flick toward your deskβspecifically the coffee cup sitting at the edge of your keyboard. And the note stuck to its sleeve. He freezes. Just for a second. A micro-hesitation. One breath caught too long in his chest. Itβs nothing.
Exceptβ¦ itβs not.
Then he clears his throatβloud and awkward, like he swallowed gravelβand shuffles the stack in his arms like it suddenly needs reorganizing. βNewβ¦ uh, budget drafts,β he says quickly, eyes very intentionally not on the post-it. βI left the tag on that one by mistakeβignore the highlighter. I had a system. Kind of.β
You blink at him, watching his ears start to go red. ββ¦You okay?β
βOh, yeah,β he says, waving one hand too fast, almost drops everything again. βIβm fine, sweetheart. Just, you know. Monday.β
He flashes you the smile againβcrooked, a little boyish, like he still isnβt sure if he belongs here even after all this time. Thatβs always been the thing about Clark. He doesnβt posture. Doesnβt strut. Heβs got this open-face sincerity, like the world is still worth showing up for, even when it kicks you in the ribs.
And youβve seen him work. Heβs brilliant. Way too observant to be as clumsy as he pretends to be. But itβs charming. In that small-town, too-tall-for-his-own-good, mutters-puns-when-heβs-nervous kind of way.
You like him. Thatβsβ¦ not the problem. The problem isβ He turns to walk past you, misjudges the distance, and thunks his thigh into the sharp edge of your desk with a grunt.
You flinch. βYou good?β
βYep.β He winces, but manages a thumbs-up. βJust, uhβ¦ recalibrating my ankles.β
Then heβs gone, retreating to the safe, familiar walls of his cubicle, still muttering to himself. Something about rechecking source notes and whether anyone notices when hyperlinks are one shade too blue.
Youβre left staring at the cup. At the note.
You run your thumb over the y again, the way it loops low and curls back. Thereβs something oddly familiar about the penmanship. Not perfect. Neat, but casual. Like whoever wrote it didnβt plan to stop writing once they started. Like they meant it.
You donβt say it aloudβnot even to yourselfβbut the truth is whispering at the edge of your brain.
It looks like his. It feels like his. But no. That would beβ Clark Kent is thoughtful, sure. Heβs the kind of guy who remembers how you like your takeout and always lets you borrow his chargers. He holds elevators and never interrupts, and he stays late when you need someone to double-check your interview transcript even though itβs technically not his beat.
Heβs the kind of guy who brings you a jacket during late-night stakeouts without asking. Heβs the kind of guy who makes you laugh without trying. But he couldnβt be the secret admirer.
β¦Could he?
You glance toward his cubicle. You canβt see him, but you can feel him there. The way his presence always lingers, somehow warmer than everyone elseβs. Quieter.
You tuck the note into the back pocket of your notebook.
Just in case.
-
You forget about the note by lunch.
Mostly.
The newsroom doesnβt really give you space to linger in your thoughtsβphones ringing, printers jamming, interns darting between desks like caffeinated ghosts. Itβs chaos, always is, and you thrive in it. But even as youβre skimming through edits and fixing a headline Jimmy typoβd into a minor war crime, part of your brain keeps circling back to that one y.
By the time you head back from a sandwich run with mustard on your sleeve and a half-dozen emails on your phone, thereβs another cup on your desk. Same order. No receipt. No name.
But this time, the note reads:
βThe line you cut in paragraph six was my favorite. About hope not being the same thing as naivety.β
You freeze mid-step, bag still dangling from one hand.Β
You hadnβt published that line. You wrote it. Typed it, then stared at it for twenty minutes before deleting itβthought it was too sentimental, too soft for the piece. You didnβt want to seem like you were editorializing. And yetβ¦ it had meant something. Youβd loved that line.
And someone else had read it. Which meansβ¦
Your eyes flick up. Around.
The bullpen looks the same as always: fluorescent lights buzzing, keys clacking, the faint scent of stale coffee and fast food. Jimmyβs arguing with someone about lens filters. Lois is deep in a phone call, gesturing with a pen like she might stab whoeverβs on the other end.
And thenβClark. Sitting at his desk, halfway behind the divider. Fiddling with his glasses like they wonβt sit quite right on the bridge of his nose. He glances up at you and smiles. Soft. A little crooked. Familiar in a way that does something deeply unhelpful to your chest.
You stare for a second too long.
He blinks. Looks down quickly. Reaches for his pen, drops it, fumbles, curses under his breath. You see the top of his ears turning red.
Something inside you shifts. The notes are sweet, yes. But this is specific. This is someone who read your draft. Someone who noticed the cut line.
You never shared it outside your initial file. Not even with Lois. You almost didnβt send it to copy at all.Β Soβ¦ who the hell couldβve read it? How could they have seen it?Β
You return to your chair slowly, like it might help the pieces click into place. Your eyes catch the handwriting again.
The loops. The slight leftward tilt.
Clark does have neat handwriting. Youβve seen his notebook, all tidy bullet points and overly polite margin notes.
You tuck this note into your drawer. Next to the other one.
You donβt say anything.
-
Later that afternoon, the newsroomβs background noise crescendos into something louderβLois and Dan from editorial locked in another philosophical brawl about media framing. Youβre not part of the fight, but apparently your latest piece is.
βItβs fluffy,β Dan says, waving the printed article like it personally offended him. βIt doesnβt do anything. Whatβs the point of it, other than making people feel things?β
You open your mouthβjust barelyβready to defend yourself even though itβs exhausting. You donβt get the chance. Clark beats you to it.
βI think it was insightful, actually,β he says from across the bullpen, voice louder than usual. βAnd emotionally resonant.β
The silence is sharp. Dan arches a brow. βListen, Kent. No one asked you.β
Clark straightens his tie. βWell, maybe they should.β
Now everyoneβs looking. Lois leans back in her chair, visibly suppressing a smile. Dan scoffs and mutters something about sentimentality being a plague.
You just stare at Clark. He meets your eyes, then seems to realize what heβs done and looks at his notebook like itβs suddenly the most fascinating object in the known universe.
Your heart does something inconvenient. Because now youβre wondering if it is him. Not just because he defended you, or because he could have somehow read the line that didnβt make it to print, but because of the way he did it. The way his voice shook just a little. The way he looked furious on your behalf.
Clark is soft, yes. Awkward, often. But thereβs something sharp underneath it. A quiet kind of intensity that only shows up when it matters. Like someone whoβs spent a long time listening, and even longer choosing his moments.
You make a show of checking your notes. Pretending like your stomach didnβt just flip. You donβt look at him again. But you feel him looking.
-
The office after midnight doesnβt feel like the same building. The lights buzz quieter. The chairs stop squeaking. Thereβs an eerie sort of calm that settles once the rush hour of deadlines has passed and only the ghosts and last-minute layout edits remain.
Clark is two desks away, sleeves rolled up, tie finally abandoned and flung haphazardly over the back of his chair. Heβs squinting at the screen like heβs trying to will the copy into formatting itself.
Youβre just as tiredβthough slightly less heroic-looking about it. Somewhere behind you, the printer groans. A rogue page slides off the tray and flutters to the floor like itβs giving up on life.
Clark gets up to grab it before you can.
βYouβre going to hurt yourself,β you say as he crouches to retrieve it. βOr fall asleep with your face on the carpet and get stuck there forever.β
He offers a smile, crooked and half-asleep. βIβve survived worse. Once fell asleep in a compost pile back in high school.β
You pause. βWhy?β
βThere was a dare,β he says, deadpan. βAnd a cow. The rest is classified, sweetheart.β
You snort before you can stop it.
Itβs late. Youβre punchy. The kind of tired that makes everything a little funnier, a little looser around the edges. He sits back down, stretching long limbs with a groan, and you let the quiet settle again.
βYou know Clark, sometimes I feel invisible here.β You donβt mean to say it. It just slips out, quiet and rough from somewhere behind your ribcage.Β
Clark looks up instantly.
You keep staring at your screen. βItβs all bylines and deadlines, and then the story prints and nobody remembers who wrote it. Doesnβt matter if itβs good or not. No one sees you.β You tap the corner of your spacebar absently. βFeels like yelling into a tunnel most days.β
You expect him to say something vague. Supportive. A standard βno, youβre great!β brush-off. But when you finally glance over, Clark is staring at you with his brow furrowed like someone just insulted his mom.
βThatβs ridiculous,β he mutters. βYouβre one of the most important voices in the room.β
The words are firm. Not flustered. Not dorky. Certain. It disarms you a little.
You blink. βClarkββ
βNo. I mean it, sweetheart," he says, almost stubborn. βYou make people care. Even when they donβt want to. Thatβs rare.β
He looks down at his coffee like maybe it betrayed him by going cold too fast. You donβt say anything. But that ache in your chest eases, just a little.
-
The next morning, youβre halfway through your walk to work when you find it.
Tucked into the side pocket of your coatβthe one you only use for receipts and empty gum wrappers. Folded carefully. Familiar ink.
βEven whispers echo when theyβre true.β
You stop walking. Stand there frozen on the corner outside a coffee shop as cars blur past and someone curses at a cab a few feet away. You read the note twice, then a third time.
Itβs simple. No flourish. No name. Just wordsβquiet, certain, and meant for you.
You donβt know why it lands the way it does. Maybe because it doesnβt try to dismiss how you feel. It justβ¦ reframes it. You may feel invisible, small, unheardβbut this person is saying: that doesnβt make your truth meaningless. You matter, even if it feels like no oneβs listening.
You fold the note gently, like it might tear. You donβt tuck this one into your notebook. You keep it in your coat pocket. All day.
Like armor.
-
By midafternoon, the bullpenβs usual noise has shapeshifted into something louderβone of those half-serious, half-combative newsroom debates that always starts in one cubicle and ends up consuming half the floor.
This time, itβs the great Superman Property Damage Discourse, sparkedβunsurprisinglyβby Lois Lane slapping a freshly printed article onto her desk like it insulted her directly.
βHe destroyed the entire north side of the building,β she says, exasperated, as if sheβs already had this argument with the universe and lost.
You donβt look up right away. Youβre knee-deep in notes for your community housing series and trying to keep your lunch from leaking onto your desk. But the words still hit.
βTo stop a tanker explosion,β you point out without much heat, eyes still scanning your page. βThere were twenty-seven people inside.β
βMy point,β Lois says, crossing her arms, βis that someone has to pay for all that glass.β
βPretty sure itβs the insurance companies,β you mutter.
Lois raises a brow at you, but doesnβt push it. Sheβs used to you playing devilβs advocateβusually itβs just for fun. She doesnβt know this oneβs starting to feel a little personal.
And then Clark walks in. Heβs balancing two coffee cups and what looks like a roll of blueprints tucked under one arm, sleeves rolled up and tie already loose like the dayβs been longer than it shouldβve been. His hairβs a mess, wind-tousled and curling near the back of his neck, and heβs got that familiar expression onβhalf-focused, half-apologetic, like heβs perpetually arriving a few seconds after he meant to.
He slows as he approaches, catches the tail end of Loisβs rant, and hesitates. Just a second. Just long enough for something behind his glasses to tighten. Then, without warning or warm-up, he steps in like a man walking into traffic.
βHeβs doing his best, okay?β he blurts. βHe canβt help the building fellβthere was a fireball.β
The bullpen quiets a beat. Just enough for the words to settle and sting. Lois doesnβt even look up from her monitor. βYou sound like a fanboy.β
βI justββ Clark huffs. βHeβs trying to protect people. Thatβs notβ¦ easy.β
He lifts his hand to gesture, but his elbow clips the corner of his desk and sends his coffee tipping. The paper cup wobbles, then crashes onto the floor in a slosh of brown across your loose notes.
βClark!β You shove back in your chair, startled.
βSorryβsorryβhang onββ He lunges for a stack of printer paper, overcorrects, and knocks over another folder in the process. Its contents scatter like leaves in the wind. He flails to grab what he can, muttering apologies the whole time.
The tension breaksβnot because of what he said, but because of the way he said it. Because heβs suddenly in a mess of his own making, trying to mop it up with a handful of flyers and an empty paper towel roll, red-faced and flustered.Β
You canβt help it. You smile. Just a little.
Lois glances sideways at the scene, then turns to you, tone dry as dust. βWell. Heβsβ¦ passionate.β
You arch a brow. βThatβs one word for it.β
She doesnβt notice the way your eyes linger on him. She doesnβt see the shift in your chest when you watch him drop to one knee, scooping up wet files with shaking hands, his jaw tightβnot from embarrassment, but from something quieter. Fiercer.
Because Clark hadnβt just jumped to Supermanβs defense.
Heβd meant it.
Like someone who knows what it feels like to try and still fall short. Like someone whoβs carried the weight of peopleβs expectations. Like someone whoβs watched something burn and had to live with the cost of saving it.
You know itβs ridiculous. You know itβs a stretch. But stillβ¦ your breath catches.
He steadies the last folder against his desk, rubs the back of his neck, and looks upβright at you. Your eyes meet for a second too long.
You offer him a look that says itβs okay. He returns one that says thanks. And then the moment passes. You turn back to your screen, heart pounding for reasons you wonβt name. And Clark returns to quietly drying his desk with a half-crumpled press release.
You donβt say anything. But youβre not watching him by accident anymore.
-
Youβve read the latest note a dozen times.
βSometimes I wish I could just be honest with you. But I canβtβnot yet.β
Thereβs no flourish. No compliment. Just rawness, stripped of any careful metaphor or charm. Itβs still anonymous, but the voiceβ¦ it feels closer now. Less like a mystery, more like someone standing just out of sight.
Someone with hands that tremble when they pass you a coffee. Someone who knows how your voice sounds when youβre frustrated. Someone who once told you, very softly, that your words matter.
You start thinking about Clark again. And once the thought roots, itβs impossible to pull it free.
-
You test him. Itβs petty, maybe. Pointless, probably. But you do it anyway. That afternoon, youβre both holed up near the copy desk, reviewing your latest layout. Clarkβs seated beside you, sleeves pushed up, his pen tapping lightly against the margin of your column draft. His knee keeps bumping yours under the desk, and every time, he apologizes with a shy smile that doesnβt quite meet your eyes.
Youβre running on too little sleep and too many thoughts. So you try it. βYou ever hear that phrase? βEven whispers echo when theyβre trueβ?β
He looks up from the page. Blinks behind his smudged glasses. βUhβ¦ sure. I mean, not in everyday conversation, but yeah. Sounds poetic.β
You tilt your head, eyes narrowing just slightly. βI read it recently,β you say, like youβre thinking aloud. βCanβt stop turning it over. I donβt knowβit stuck with me.β
He stares at you for a beat too long. Then clears his throat and drops his gaze, pen suddenly very busy again. βYeah. Itβsβ¦ itβs a good line.β
βYou donβt think itβs a little dramatic?β
βNo,β he says too quickly. βI meanβitβs true. Sometimes the quietest things are the ones worth listening to.β
You nod, pretending to go back to your edits. But his pen taps a little faster. The corner of his mouth twitches. Heβs trying to look neutral, maybe even confused. But Clark Kent couldnβt lie his way out of a grocery list.
And if he did write it, that means he knows youβre testing him.
You donβt call him on it.
Not yet.
-
Later that evening, he helps you file your story. Technically, Clarkβs already done for the dayβhe couldβve clocked out an hour ago, couldβve gone home and slipped into his flannel pajamas and vanished into whatever quiet life he keeps outside these walls. But instead, he lingers.
His jacket is folded neatly over the back of your chair, sleeves still warm from his arms. His glasses sit low on his nose, catching the screenβs glow, one smudge blooming near the top corner where heβs pushed them up too many times with the side of his thumb.
He leans over the desk beside you, one palm braced flat against the surface, the other gently scrolling through your draft. His frame takes up too much space in that warm, grounding wayβshoulder brushing yours occasionally, breath warm at your temple when he leans in to squint at a sentence.
Youβre quiet, but not for lack of things to say. Itβs the way heβs readingβcarefully, like every word deserves to be held. Thereβs no red pen. No quick fixes. Just soft soundless reverence, like your work is already whole and heβs just lucky to witness it.
And his hands.
God, his hands.
You try not to look, but theyβre impossible to ignore. Big and capable, yes, but gentle in the way he uses themβfingers skimming the edge of the printout like the paper might bruise, thumb stroking over the corner where the page curls, slow and absentminded. The pads of his fingers are slightly ink-stained, callused just at the tips. He smells faintly like cheap soap and newsroom toner and something you canβt name but have already begun to crave.
You wonderβjust for a momentβwhat it would be like to feel those hands touch you with purpose instead of hesitation. Without the paper buffer. Without the quiet restraint.
He leans a little closer. You can feel the press of his shirt sleeve against your arm now, soft cotton against skin. βLooks perfect to me,β he murmurs.
Itβs not the words. Itβs the way he says themβlike heβs not just talking about the story. You swallow, pulse jumping. You wonder if he hears it. You wonder if he feels it.
His eyes flick to yours for just a second. Something hangs in the airβfragile, charged. Then the phone rings down the hall, and the spell breaks like steam off hot glass. He steps back. You exhale like youβve been holding your breath for three paragraphs.
You donβt look at him as he grabs his jacket. You just nod and whisper, βThanks.β
And he just smilesβsoft and private, like a secret passed from his mouth to your chest.
-
You donβt go home right away. You sit at your desk long after Clark and the rest of the bullpen has emptied out, coat draped over your shoulders like a blanket, fingers toying with the folded edge of the note in your lap.
βSometimes I wish I could just be honest with you. But I canβtβnot yet.β
Youβve read it enough times to have it memorized. Still, your eyes trace the handwriting againβcareful lettering, no signature, just that quiet ache bleeding between the lines.
Itβs the first one that feels more than just flirtation. This one hurts a little. So you do something you havenβt done before.
You pull a post-it from the stack beside your monitor, scribble down one sentenceβno flourish, no punctuation.
βThen tell me in person.βΒ
You slide it beneath your stapler before you leave. A deliberate offering. You donβt know how heβs been getting the others to youβif itβs during your lunch break or when youβre in the print room or bent over in the archives. But somehow, he knows.
So this time, you let him find something waiting.
And when you finally shrug on your coat and step into the elevator, the empty quiet of the newsroom echoes behind you like a held breath.
-
The next morning, thereβs no reply. Not on your desk. Not slipped into your coat pocket. Not scribbled in the margin of your planner or tucked beneath your coffee cup. Just silence.
You try not to feel disappointed. You try not to spiral. Maybe heβs waiting. Maybe heβs scared. Maybe youβre wrong and itβs not who you think. But your chest feels hollow all the sameβlike something almost happened and didnβt.
So that night, you write again. Your hands shake more than they should for something so simple. A sticky note. A few words. But this one names it.
βOne chance. One sunset. Centennial Park. Bench by the lion statue. Tomorrow.β
You stare at the words a long time before setting it down. This oneβs not a joke. Not a dare. Not a flirtation scribbled in passing. This is an invitation. A door left open.
You slide it under your stapler the same way youβve received every one of his notesβunassuming, tucked in plain sight. If he wants to find it, he will. Youβve stopped questioning how he does it. Maybe itβs timing. Maybe itβs instinct. Maybe itβs something else entirely.
But you know heβll see it.
You pack up slowly. Shoulders tight. Bag heavier than usual. The newsroom is quiet at this hourβjust the low hum of the overhead fluorescents and the soft, endless churn of printers in the back. You turn off your monitor, loop your coat over your arm, and make your way to the elevator.
Halfway there, something makes you stop. You glance back. Clark is still at his desk.
You hadnβt heard him return. You hadnβt even noticed the light at his station flick back on. But there he isβelbows on the desk, hands folded in front of him, eyes already lifted.
Watching you.
His face is unreadable, but his gaze lingers longer than it should. Soft. Searching. Almost caught. You feel the air shift. Not a word is exchanged. Just that one look.
Then the elevator dings. You turn away before you can lose your nerve.
And Clark? He doesnβt look down. Not until the doors slide shut in front of your face.
-
You tell yourself it doesnβt matter. You tell yourself it was probably nothing. A game. A passing flirtation. Maybe Jimmy, playing an elaborate prank heβll one day claim was performance art.
But stillβyou dress carefully.
You pull out that one sweater that always makes you feel like the best version of yourself, and you smooth your collar twice before you leave. You wear lip balm that smells faintly like vanilla and leave the office ten minutes early just in case traffic is worse than expected. Just in case heβs early.
You get there first. The bench is colder than you remember. Stone weathered and a little damp from last nightβs rain. Your coffee steams in your hands, and for a while, thatβs enough to keep you warm.
The sky begins to soften around the edges. First blush pink, then golden orange, then the faintest sweep of violet, like a bruise blooming across the clouds. You watch the city skyline fade into silhouettes. The sun drips lower behind the glass towers, catching the river in a moment of molten reflection. Itβs beautiful.
Itβs also empty.
You wait. A couple strolls past, fingers laced, talking softly like theyβve been in love for years. A jogger nods as they pass, earbuds in, a scruffy golden retriever trotting faithfully beside them. The dog looks up at you like it knows somethingβlike it sees something.
The wind kicks up. You pull your coat tighter. You tell yourself to give it five more minutes. Then five more.
And thenβ
Nothing. No footsteps. No note. No him.
Your coffee goes cold between your palms. The stone starts to seep into your bones. And somewhere deep in your chest, something you hadnβt even dared nameβ¦ wilts.
Eventually, you stand. Walk home with your coat buttoned all the way up, even though itβs not that cold. You donβt cry.
You just go quiet.
-
The next morning, the bullpen hums with the usual Monday static. Phones ringing. Keys clacking. Perryβs voice barking something about a missed quote from the sanitation board. Jimmyβs camera shutter clicking in staccato bursts behind you. The Daily Planet in full swingβordinary chaos wrapped in coffee breath and fluorescent lighting.
You move through it on autopilot. Your smile is small, tight around the edges. Youβve become a master of folding disappointment into your postureβchin lifted, eyes clear, mouth curved just enough to seem fine.
βGuess the secret admirer thing was just a prank after all.β You drop your bag beside your desk, shuffle through the morning copy logs, and say it lightly. Offhand. Like a joke. βShouldβve known better.β You make sure your voice carries just far enough. Not loud, but not a whisper. Casual. A throwaway comment designed to sound unaffected. And then you laugh. Itβs short. Hollow. It dies in your throat before it even fully escapes.
Lois glances up from her monitor, eyes narrowing faintly behind dark lashes. She doesnβt laugh with you. She doesnβt smile. She just watches you for a beat too long. Not with judgment. Not even pity. Justβ¦ knowing. But she says nothing. And neither do you.
What you donβt see is the hallwayβjust twenty feet awayβwhere Clark Kent stands frozen in place. Heβd just walked inβlate, coat slung over one arm, takeout coffee in the other. He had stopped just inside the threshold to adjust his glasses. Heβd meant to offer you a second coffee, the one he bought on impulse after circling the block too many times.
And then he heard it. Your voice. βGuess the secret admirer thing was just a prank after all.β And then your laugh. That awful, paper-thin laugh.
He goes still. Like someone pulled the oxygen from the room. His hand tightens around the coffee cup until the lid creaks. The other arm drops slack at his side, coat nearly slipping from his grasp. His jaw tenses. Shoulders stiffen beneath his white button-down, and for one awful second, he forgets how to breathe.
Because you sound like someone trying not to care. And it cuts deeper than he expects. Because heβd meant to come. Because he tried. Because he was so close.
But none of that matters now. All you know is that he didnβt show up. And now you think the whole thing was a joke. A stupid, secret game. His game. And he canβt even explainβnot without tearing everything open.
He stares down the corridor, eyes fixed on the edge of your desk, on the shape of your shoulders turned slightly away. He watches as you pick up your coffee and blow gently across the lid like it might chase the bitterness from your chest.
You donβt turn around. You donβt see the way he stands thereβgutted, unmoving, undone. The cup trembles in his hand. He turns away before it spills.
-
That night, you go back to the office. You tell yourself itβs for the deadline. A follow-up piece on the housing committee. Edits on the west-side zoning profile. Anything to fill the time between sunset and sleepβbecause if you sleep, youβll just dream of that bench.
The newsroom is quiet now. All overhead lights dimmed except for the halo of your desk lamp and the soft thrum of a copy machine left cycling in the corner.
You drop your bag with a sigh. Stretch your shoulders. Slide your desk drawer open without thinking. And find it. A note. No envelope. No tape. No ceremony. Just a single sheet of cream stationery folded in thirds. Familiar handwriting. Neat loops. Unshaking.
You unfold it slowly.
βIβm sorry. I wanted to be there. I canβt explain why I couldnβtβ
But it wasnβt a joke. It was never a joke. Please believe that.β
The words hit like a breath you didnβt know you were holding. Then they blur.Β You read it again. Then again. But the ache in your chest doesnβt settle. Because how do you believe someone who wonβt show their face? How do you believe someone who keeps slipping between your fingers?
You hold the note to your chest. Close your eyes. You want to believe him. God, you want to. But you donβt know how anymore.
-
What you couldnβt know is this: Clark Kent was already running. Heβd been on his wayβcoat flapping behind him, tie unspooling in the wind, breath fogging as he dashed through traffic, one hand wrapped tight around a note he planned to deliver in person for the first time. Heβd rehearsed it. Practiced what heβd say. Built up to it with every beat of a terrified heart.
He saw the park lights up ahead. Saw the lion statue. Saw the shape of a figure sitting alone on that bench.
And then the air split open. The sky went green. A fifth-dimensional impβnot even from this universeβtore through Metropolis like a child flipping pages in a pop-up book. Reality folded. Buildings bent sideways. Streetlamps started singing jazz standards.
Clark barely had time to take a deep breath before he vanished into smoke and flame, spinning upward in a blur of red and blue. Somewhere across town, Superman joined Guy Gardner, Hawk Girl, Mr. Terrific, and Metamorpho in trying to contain the chaos before the city unmade itself entirely.Β
He never got the chance to reach the bench. He never got the chance to say anything. The note stayed in his pocket until it was soaked with rain and streaked with ash. Until it was too late.
-
Itβs supposed to be routine. Youβre only there to cover a zoning dispute. A boring, mid-week council press event thatβs been rescheduled three times already. The air is heavy with heat and bureaucracy. You and your photographer barely make it past the front barricades before the scene spirals into chaos.
First itβs the downed power linesβsparking in rapid bursts as something hits the utility pole two blocks down. Then a car screeches over the median. Then someone starts screaming.
Youβre still trying to piece it together when the crowd surgesβsomeone shouts about a gun. People scatter. A window shatters across the street. A chunk of concrete falls from the sky like a thrown brick.
Your feet move before your brain catches up. You hit the pavement just as something explodes behind you. A jolt rings through your bones, sharp and high and metallic. Dust clouds the air. Thereβs shouting, then screaming, and your ears go fuzzy for one split second.
And then he lands.
Superman.
Cape whipping behind him like itβs caught in its own storm, boots cracking against the sidewalk as he drops down between the wreckage and the people still trying to flee. He moves like nothing youβve ever seen.
Not just fastβbut impossible. His body a blur of motion, heat, and purpose. He rips a crumpled lamppost off a trapped woman like it weighs nothing. Hurls it aside and crouches low beside her, voice firm but gentle as he checks her pulse, her leg, her name.
Youβre frozen where you crouch, half behind a parking meter, hand pressed to your chest like it can keep your heart from tearing loose.
And then be turns. Looks straight at you. His expression shifts. Just for a moment. Just for you. He steps forward, dust streaking his suit, eyes dark with something you donβt have time to name. He reaches you in three strides, body angled between you and the chaos, hand raised in warning before you can speak.
βStay here, sweetheart. Please.β
Your stomach drops. Not at the danger. Not at the sound of buildings groaning in the distance or the flash of gunmetal tucked into a strangerβs hand.
Itβs him. That word. That voice. The exact way of saying itβlike itβs muscle memory. Like heβs said it a thousand times before.
Like Clark says it.
It stuns you more than the explosion did.
You blink up at him, speechless, heart stuttering behind your ribs as he holds your gaze just a second longer than he should. His brow furrows. Then heβs goneβinto the fray, into the fire, into the part of the story where your pen canβt follow.
You donβt remember standing. You donβt remember how you get back to the press line, only that your legs shake and your palms burn and every time you try to replay what just happened, your brain gets stuck on one word.
Sweetheart.
Youβve heard it beforeβdozens of times. Always soft. Always accidental. Always from behind thick glasses and a crooked tie and a mouth still chewing the edge of a muffin while he scrolls through zoning reports.
Clark says it when he forgets youβre not his to claim. Clark says it when youβre both the last ones in the office and he thinks youβre asleep at your desk. Clark says it like a secret. Like a slip.
And Superman just said it exactly the same way. Same tone. Same warmth. Same quiet ache beneath it.
But thatβs not possible. Because Superman isβSuperman. Bold. Dazzling. Fire-forged. He walks like he owns the sky. He speaks like a storm made flesh. He radiates power and perfection.
And Clark? Clark is all flannel and stammering jokes and soft eyes behind big frames. Heβs gentle. A little clumsy. His swagger is borrowed from farm porches and storybooks. Heβs sweet in a way Superman couldnβt possibly be.
Couldnβtβ¦ Right? You chalk it up to coincidence. You have to.
β¦Sort of.
-
You donβt sleep well the night after the incident. You keep replaying itβframe by impossible frame. The gunshot, the smoke, the sky splitting in half. The crack of his landing, the rush of wind off his cape. The weight of his body between you and danger. And then that voice.
βStay here, sweetheart. Please.β
You flinch every time it echoes in your head. Every time your brain folds it over the countless memories you have of Clark saying it in passing, like it was nothing. Like it meant nothing.
But it means something now.
You come into the office the next day wired and quiet, adrenaline still burning faintly at the edges of your skin. You arenβt sure what to say, or to whom, so you say nothing. You stare too long at your coffee. You snap at a printer jam. You forget your lunch in the breakroom fridge.
Clark notices. He hovers by your desk that morning, a second coffee in handβone of those specialty orders from that corner place he knows you like but always pretends he doesnβt remember.
βRough day?β he asks gently. His tone is careful. Soft. As if youβre a glass already rattling on the edge of the shelf.
You donβt look up. βItβs fine.β
He hesitates. Then sets the coffee down beside your elbow, just far enough that you have to choose whether or not to reach for it. βI heard about the power line thing,β he adds. βYou okay?β
βI said Iβm fine, Clark.β
A beat.
You hate the way his face flickers at thatβhurt, barely masked. He pushes his glasses up and nods like he deserves it. Like heβs been expecting it. He doesnβt press. He just walks away.
-
You find yourself whispering to Lois over takeout later that afternoonβhalf a conversation muttered between bites of noodles and the hum of flickering overheads.
βHe called me sweetheart.β
She raises an eyebrow. βClark?β
βNo. Superman.β
Her chewing slows.
You keep your eyes on the edge of your desk. βThatβsβ¦ weird, right?β
Lois makes a soundβsomewhere between a scoff and a laugh. βHeβs a superhero. They charm every pretty girl they pull out of a burning building.β
You poke at your noodles. βStill. It feltβ¦β
βWeird?β she teases again, nudging her knee against yours.
You shrug like it doesnβt matter. Like it hasnβt been clawing at the back of your brain for three days straight. Lois doesnβt press. Just watches you for a second longer than necessary. Then she moves on, launching into a tirade about Perryβs passive-aggressive post-it notes and the fact that someone keeps stealing her pens.
But the damage is already done. Because you start thinking maybe youβve just been projecting. Maybe you want your secret admirer to be Clark so badly that your brainβs rewriting realityβlatching onto any voice, any phrase, any fleeting resemblance and assigning it meaning.
Sweetheart.
Itβs a common word. It doesnβt mean anything. Maybe Superman says it to everyone. Maybe he has a whole roster of soft pet names for dazed civilians. Maybe youβre the delusional oneβsitting here wondering if your awkward, sweet, left-footed coworker moonlights as a god.
The idea is so absurd it actually makes you laugh. Quietly. Bitterly. Right into your carton of lo mein. You tell yourself to let it go. But you donβt.
You canβt. Because somewhere deep down, it doesnβt feel absurd at all. It feelsβ¦ close. Like youβre brushing against the edge of something true. And if you get just a little closerβ
You might fall right through it.
-
Clark pulls back after that. Subtly. Slowly. Like heβs dimming himself on purpose. Heβs still thereβstill kind, still thoughtful, still Clark. But the rhythm changes.
The coffees stop appearing on your desk each morning. No more sticky notes with half-legible puns or awkward smiley faces. No more jokes under his breath during staff meetings. No more warm glances across the bullpen when youβre stuck late and your screen is giving you a headache.
His chair now sits just a little farther from yours in the layout room. Not enough to be obvious. Just enough to feel. You notice it the way you notice when the air shifts before a storm. Quiet. Inevitable.
Even his messages change. Once, his texts used to come with too many exclamation marks and a tendency to type out haha when he was nervous. Now theyβre brief. Punctuated. Polite.
βGot your quote. Sending now.β
βPerry said weβre cleared for page A3.β
βHope your meeting went okay.β
You reread them more than you should. Not because of what they sayβbut because of what they donβt. It feels like being ghosted by someone who still waves to you across the room.
You try to talk yourself down. Maybe heβs just busy. Maybe heβs stressed. Maybe youβve been projecting. Maybe itβs not your admirerβs handwriting that matches his. Maybe itβs not his voice that slipped out of Supermanβs mouth like a secret.
Maybe, maybe, maybe.
But the space he used to fill next to youβ¦ feels like a light thatβs been quietly turned off. And you are the one still blinking against the dark.
And yet, one afternoon, someone in the bullpen makes a snide remark about your latest piece. You donβt even catch the beginningβjust the tail end of it, lazy and smug.
ββbasically just fluff, right? Sheβs been coasting lately.β
Youβre about to ignore it. Youβre tired. Too tired. And whatβs the point in arguing with someone who thinks nuance is a liability?
But thenβClark speaks. Not from beside you, but from across the room. Youβre not even sure how he could have possibly heard the guy talking across all the hustle and bustle of the bullpen. But his voice cuts through the noise like someone snapping a ruler against a desk.
βI just think her work actually matters, okay?β
Silence follows. Not because of the volumeβhe wasnβt loud. Just certain. Unflinching. Like heβd been holding it in. The words hang in the air, charged and too real.
Clark looks immediately horrified with himself. He goes red. Not a faint flushβcrimson. Mouth parting like he wants to take it back but doesnβt know how. He tries to recover, to smooth it overβbut nothing comes. Just a flustered shake of his head and a noise that mightβve been his name.
The other reporter stares. ββ¦Okay, man. Chill.β
Clark mumbles something about grabbing a file from archives and practically stumbles for the hallway, papers clenched awkwardly in one hand like a shield.
You donβt follow. You justβ¦ sit there. Staring at the space he left behind. Because that momentβthose wordsβit wasnβt just instinct. It wasnβt just kindness. It was him.
The way he said it. The emotion in it. The rhythm of it. It felt like the notes. Like the quiet encouragements tucked into the margins of your day. Like someone watching, quietly, gently, hoping youβll see yourself the way they do.
You think about the phrases heβs used before.
βThe line you cut in paragraph six was my favorite. About hope not being the same thing as naivety.β
βEven whispers echo when theyβre true.β
And now:
βHer work actually matters.β
All said like they were true, not convenient. All said like they were about you.
You start to notice more after that. The way Clark compliments your writingβalways specific. Never lazy. The way his eyes crinkle when heβs proud of something you said, even when he doesnβt speak up. The way he turns the thermostat up exactly two degrees every time you bring your sweater into work. The way he walks a half-step behind you when you both leave late at night.
Itβs not a confession. Not yet. But itβs a pattern. And once you start seeing itβ
You canβt stop.
-
Itβs a quiet afternoon in the bullpen. The kind where the overhead lights hum just loud enough to notice and everything smells like stale coffee and highlighter ink.
Clarkβs sprawled in front of his monitor, sleeves rolled to his elbows, brow furrowed with the kind of intensity he usually saves for city zoning laws and double-checked citations. Youβre helping him sort through quotesβmost of which came from a reluctant press secretary and one very talkative dog walker who may or may not be a credible witness.
βCan you check the time stamp on the third transcript?β he asks, not looking up from his notes. βI think I messed it up when I formatted.β
You nod, flipping through the stack of papers he passed you earlier.Β Thatβs when you see it. Folded beneath the top printout, half-tucked into the margin of a city planning spreadsheet, is a different kind of note. A loose sheet, scribbled across in black ink. Not typedβwritten. Slanted lines. A few false starts crossed out.
At first, you think itβs a headline draft. A brainstorm. But the longer you stare, the more it reads likeβ¦ something else.
βThe city is loud today. Not just noise, but motion. Memory. The way people hum when they think no oneβs listening.β
βI canβt stop watching her move through it like she belongs to it. Like it belongs to her.β
You freeze. Your eyes track down the page slowly, like touching something sacred.
The letters are familiar. The lowercase y curls the same way as the one on your very first noteβthe one that came with your coffee. The ink is the same soft black, slightly smudged in the corners, like whoever wrote it holds the pen too tight when theyβre thinking. The paper is the same notepad stock heβs used before. The same faint red line down the margin.
You donβt mean to do it, but your fingers curl around the page. Your chest goes tight. Because itβs not just similar.
Itβs exact.
You hear him coming before you see himβthose long, careful strides and the faint jangle of the lanyard he keeps forgetting to take off.
You tuck the paper into your notebook. Quick. Smooth. Automatic.
βHey, sorry,β he says, rounding the corner with two mugs of tea and a slightly sheepish smile. βPrinterβs jammed again. I may have made it worse.β
You nod. Too fast. You canβt quite make your voice work yet. Clark hands you your teaβjust the way you like it, no commentβand sits across from you like nothingβs wrong. Like your whole world hasnβt tilted six degrees to the left.
He launches into a ramble about column widths and quote placement, about whether a serif font looks more βestablishedβ than sans serif.
You donβt hear a word of it. You justβ¦ watch him. The way he gestures too big with his hands. The way his glasses slip down his nose mid-sentence and he doesnβt bother to fix them until theyβre practically falling off. The way his voice drops a little when heβs thinking hardβlow and warm and utterly unselfconscious.
He has no idea you know. No idea what you just found.
You murmur something about needing to catch a meeting and excuse yourself early. He nods. Worries at his bottom lip like heβs debating whether to walk you out. Decides against it.
βThanks for the help,β he says quietly, as you shoulder your bag. βSeriously. I couldnβtβve done this draft without you.β
You give him a look you donβt quite know how to name. Something between thank you and I see you.Β
Then you go.
-
That night, you sit on your bedroom floor with the drawer open. Every note. Every folded scrap. Every secret tucked under your stapler or slid into your sleeve or left beside your coffee cup. You line them up in rows. You flatten them with careful hands. And you compare. One by one.
The loops. The lines. The uneven spacing. The curl of the r. The hush in every sentence, like he was writing them with his heart too close to the surface.Β
Thereβs no room for doubt anymore. Itβs him. Itβs been him this whole time.
Clark Kent.
And somehowβsomehowβheβs still never said your name aloud when he writes about you. Not once. But every letter reads like a whisper of it. Like a promise waiting to be spoken.
-
The office is quiet by the time you find the nerve.
Desks are abandoned, chairs turned at angles, the windows dark with city glow. Outside, Metropolis hums in its usual low thrumβsirens and neon and distant jazz from a rooftop barβbut here, in the bullpen, itβs just the steady tick of the wall clock and the slow, careful steps you take toward his desk.
Clark doesnβt hear you at first. Heβs bent over a red pen and a half-finished draft, glasses low on his nose, the curve of his back hunched the way it always is when heβs lost in edits. His tie is loosened. His sleeves are pushed up. Thereβs a smear of ink on his thumb. He looks soft in the way people do when they think no oneβs watching.Β
You speak before you lose your nerve. βWhy didnβt you just tell me?β
Clark startles. Not dramaticallyβjust a sharp breath and a too-quick motion to sit upright, like a kid caught doodling in the margins. βIβwhat?β
You donβt let your voice shake. βThat it was you. The notes. The park. All of it.β
He stares at you. Then down at his desk. Then back again. His mouth opens like it wants to offer a lie, but nothing comes out. Just silence. His fingers twitch toward the edge of the desk and stop there, curling into his palm.
βIββ he tries again, softer now, ββI didnβt think you knew.β
βI didnβt.β Your voice is gentle. But not easy. βNot at first. Not really. But then I saw that list on your desk andβ¦ I went home and checked the handwriting.β
He winces. βI knew I left that out somewhere.β
You cross your arms, not out of angerβmore like self-protection. βYou couldβve told me. At any point. I asked you.β
βI know.β He swallows hard. βI know. I wanted to. Iβ¦ tried.β
You watch him. Wait.Β
And then he says it. Not loud. Not dramatic. Just the truth, raw and shaky and so Clark it nearly breaks you. βBecause if I told you it was meβ¦ you might look at me different. Or worseβ¦ The same.β
You donβt know what to say to that. Not right away. Your heart clenches. Because itβs so himβto assume your affection could only live in the mystery. That the truth of himβsoft, clumsy, brilliant, realβwould somehow undo the magic.
βClarkβ¦β you start, but your voice slips.
He rubs the back of his neck. βIβm just the guy who spills coffee on his own notes and forgets to refill the paper tray. Youβreβ¦ you. You write like youβre on fire. You walk into a room and it listens. I didnβt think someone like you would ever want someone like me.β
You stare at him. Really stare. At the flushed cheeks. The nervous hands. The boyish smile heβs trying to bury under self-deprecation. And then you say it. βI saved every note.β
He blinks.
You keep going. βI read them when I felt invisible. When I thought no one gave a damn what I was doing here. They mattered.β
Clarkβs breath catches. He opens his mouth. Closes it again. He takes a slow step forward, tentative. Like heβs afraid to break the spell. His eyes search yours, and for a momentβfor a second so still it might as well last an hourβhe leans in. Not close enough to kiss you. But almost. His hand brushes yours. He stops. The air is heavy between you, buzzing with something fragile and enormous. But it isnβt enough. Not yet.
You draw in a breath, quiet but steady. βWhy didnβt you meet me?β
Clark goes still. You can see it happenβthe way the question lands. The way he folds in on himself just slightly, like the truth is too heavy to hold upright.
βIβ¦β He tries, but the word doesnβt land. His jaw flexes. His eyes drop to the floor, then back up. He wants to tell you. He almost does. But he canβt. Not without unraveling everything. Not without unraveling himself.
βI wanted to,β he says finally, voice rough at the edges. βMore than anything.β
βBut?β you press, gently.
He just looks at you and says nothing. You nod, slowly. The silence says enough. Your chest achesβnot in a sharp, bitter way. In the dull, familiar way of something you already suspected being confirmed.
You glance down at where your hand still brushes his, then look back at himβreally look. βI wish youβd told me,β you whisper. βI sat there thinking it was a joke. That I made it all up. That I was stupid for believing in any of it.β
βI know,β he murmurs. βAnd Iβm sorry.β
Your throat tightens. You swallow past it. βI justβ¦ I need time. To process. To think.β
Clarkβs eyes flickerβhope and heartbreak, all tangled up in one look. βOf course,β he says immediately. βTake whatever you need. I mean it.β
A beat passes before you say the part that makes his breath catch. βIβm happy it was you.β
He freezes.
You offer the smallest smile. βI wanted it to be you.β
And for the first time in minutes, something in his shoulders unknots. Thereβs a shift. Gentle. Quiet. His hand lingers near yours again, knuckles brushing. He doesnβt lean in. Doesnβt push.
But God, he wants to. And maybe⦠maybe you do too. The moment stretches, unspoken and warm and not quite ready to be anything more.
You both stay like thatβclose, not touching. Breathing the same charged air. Then he laughs under his breath. Nervous. Boyish.
βIβm probably gonna trip over something the second you walk away.β
You smile back. βJust recalibrate your ankles.β
He huffs out a laugh, head ducking. βI deserved that.β
You start to turn away. Just a little. But his voice stops you againβquiet, sincere, something earnest catching in it. βIβm really glad it was me, too.β
And your heart flutters all over again.
-
Lois is perched on the edge of your desk, a paper takeout box balanced on her knee, chopsticks waving in lazy circles while you pick at your own dinner with a little too much focus.
You havenβt told her everything. Not the everything everything. Not the way your heart nearly cracked open when Clark looked at you like you were made of starlight and library books. Not how close he got before pulling back. Not how you pulled back too, even though your whole body ached to close the distance.
But you have told her about the notes. About the mystery. About the strange tenderness of it all, how it wrapped around your days like a string you didnβt know you were following until it tugged. And LoisβLois has been unusually quiet about it. Until now.Β
βIβm setting you up,β she says between bites, like sheβs discussing filing taxes.
You blink. βWhat?β
βA date. Just one. Guy from the Features desk at the Tribune. Youβll like him. Heβs taller than you, decent jawline, wears socks that match. Heβs got strong opinions about punctuation, which I figure is basically foreplay for you.β
You stare at her. βYou donβt even believe in setups.β
βI donβt,β she agrees. βBut youβve been spiraling in circles for weeks, and at this point, I either push you toward a date or stage an intervention with PowerPoint slides.β
You laugh despite yourself. βYou have PowerPoint slides?β
βOf course not,β she scoffs. βI have a Google Doc.β
You roll your eyes. βLoisββ
βListen,β she says, gentler now. βI know youβre in deep with whoever this guy is. And if it is Clarkβ¦ well. I can see why.β
Your stomach flips.
βBut maybe stepping outside of the Planet for two hours wouldnβt kill you. Let someone else flirt with you for once. Let yourself figure out what you actually want.β
You press your lips together. Look down at your barely-touched food.
βYou donβt have to fall for him,β she adds, softly. βJust let yourself be seen.β
You exhale through your nose. βHe better be cute.β
βOh, he is. Total sweater vest energy.β
You snort. βSo your type.β
βExactly.β She lifts her takeout carton in a mock toast. βTo emotionally compromised coworkers and their tragic love lives.β
You clink your chopsticks against hers like itβs the saddest champagne flute in the world. And later, when youβre getting ready, you still feel the weight of Clarkβs almost-kiss behind your ribs. But you go anyway. Because Lois is right. You need to know what it is youβre choosing. Even if, deep down, you already do.
-
The date isnβt bad. Thatβs the most frustrating part. Heβs nice. Polished in that media school kind of wayβcrisp shirt, clean shave, a practiced smile that belongs on a campaign poster. He compliments your bylines and talks about his dream of running an independent magazine one day. He orders the good whiskey and laughs at your jokes.
But itβs the wrong laugh. Off by a beat. The rhythmβs not right.
When he leans in, you donβt. When he talks, your thoughts driftβto mismatched socks and printer toner smudges. To how someone else always remembers your coffee order. To how someone else listens, not to respond, but to see.
You realize it halfway through the second drink. Youβre thinking about Clark again.
The softness of him. The steadiness. The way he over-apologizes in texts but never hesitates when someone challenges your work. The way his voice tilts a little higher when heβs nervous. The way his laugh never lands in the right place, but somehow makes the whole room feel warmer.
You pull your coat tighter when you leave the restaurant, cheeks stinging from the wind and the slow unraveling of a night that shouldβve meant something. It doesnβt. Not in the way that matters.
So you walk. You tell yourself youβre just passing by the Daily Planet. That maybe you left your notes there. That itβs just a habit, stopping in this late. But when you scan your ID badge and push through the heavy glass doors, you already know the truth. Youβre hoping heβs still here.
And he is.
The bullpen is almost entirely dark, save for a single desk lamp casting gold across the layout section. Heβs hunched over itβtie loosened, sleeves rolled up, shirt rumpled like heβs been pacing, thinking, rewriting. His glasses are folded beside him on the desk. His hairβs a messβfingers clearly run through it too many times.
He rubs at his eyes with the heel of his palm, breathing out hard through his nose. You donβt say anything. You justβ¦ watch. It hits you in one perfect, unshakable moment. The slope of his shoulders. The cut of his jaw. The furrow in his brow when heβs thinking too hard.
He looks like Superman.
No glasses. No slouch. No excuses. But more than thatβhe looks like Clark. Like the man who learned your coffee order. Like the one who saves all his best edits for last so he can tell you in person how good your writing is. The one who panicked when you got too close to the truth, but couldnβt stop leaving notes anyway.
And when he finally lifts his head and sees you standing thereβstill in your coat, fingers tight around your notebookβyou watch something shift in his expression. A flicker of surprise. Panic. Bare, open emotion. Because youβre seeing him without the glasses.
βCouldnβt sleep,β you murmur. βThought Iβd grab my notes.β
He smiles, slow and unsure. βYouβ¦ left them by the scanner.β
You nod, like that matters. Like you came here for paper and not for him. Then you walk over, slow and deliberate, and retrieve your notes from the edge of the scanner beside him. He swallows hard, watching you.
Then clears his throat. βSoβ¦ how was the date?β
You pause. βFine,β you say. βHe was nice. Funny. Smart.β
Clark nods, but youβre not finished.
βBut when he laughed, it was the wrong rhythm. And when he spoke, I didnβt lean in.β
You meet his eyesβclear blue, unhidden now. βI made up my mind halfway through the second drink.β His lips part. Barely. You move to the edge of his desk and set your notebook down. Thenβcarefully, slowlyβyou pull out the chair beside his and sit. The air between you goes molten.
Clark leans in a little, eyes flicking to your mouth, then back to your eyes. One hand moves down, like heβs going to say something, but instead, he reaches for the leg of your chairβfingers curling around it. And pulls you toward him. The scrape of wood against tile echoes, loud and deliberate. Your thighs knock his. Your breath stutters.
Heβs so close now you can feel the heat rolling off him. The weight of his gaze. Your heart hammers in your chest. And lower.
βClarkββ But you donβt finish because he meets you halfway. The kiss is fire and breath and years of want pressed between two mouths. His hands come upβone to your jaw, the other to the back of your headβand tilt your face just so. Fingers tangle in your hair, anchoring you to him like heβs afraid you might vanish.
You moan into his mouth. Soft. Surprised. He groans back. Rougher. You reach for his shirt blindly, fists curling in the cotton as he pulls you fully into his lapβinto the chair with him, your legs straddling his thighs. His hands donβt know where to land. Your waist. Your thighs. Your face again.
βYouβre it,β he whispers against your mouth. βYouβve always been it.β
You know he means it. Because youβve seen it. In every note. Every glance. Every moment he looked at you like you were already his. And now, with your bodies tangled, mouths tasting each other, breathing the same heatβyou finally believe it.
You donβt say it yet. But the way you kiss him again says it for you. Youβre his. You always have been.
His hands roam, but never rush. Your fingers are tangled in his shirt, your knees pressing to either side of his hips, and you feel himβall of himβunderneath you, solid and steady and shaking just slightly. The chair creaks with every breath you share. His mouth is still on yours, slow now, like heβs memorizing the shape of you. Like heβs afraid if he goes too fast, youβll disappear again.
When he finally pulls backβjust enough to breatheβitβs with a soft, reverent exhale. His nose brushes yours. βYouβre really here,β he murmurs, voice hoarse. βGod, youβre really here.β
You blink at him, your hands sliding to either side of his jaw, thumbs brushing the high flush of his cheeks. He looks so open. Like youβve peeled back every layer of him with just a kiss. And maybe you have.
His lips find the edge of your jaw next, slow and aching. A kiss. Then another, just beneath your ear. Then one lower, along the soft skin of your neck. Each press of his mouth feels like a confession. Like something that was buried too long, finally given air.
βYou donβt know,β he whispers. βYou donβt know what itβs been like, watching you and not getting toββ Another kiss, right beneath your cheekbone.Β βI used to rehearse things Iβd say to you, and then Iβd get to work and youβd smile and Iβd forget how to talk.β
A laugh huffs out of you, but it melts fast when he leans in again, his breath fanning warm across your skin. βI didnβt think Iβd ever get this close. I didnβt think Iβd get to touch you like this.β
You shift in his lap, chest brushing his, and his hands squeeze your waist gently like heβs grounding himself. His mouth finds your temple. Your cheek. The corner of your mouth again.
βYouβre soββ he breaks off. Tries again. βYouβre everything.β Your pulse thrums in your throat. Clarkβs hands stay respectful, but they wanderβcurving up your back, smoothing over your shoulders, settling at your ribs like he wants to hold you together.
βI used to write those notes late at night,β he admits against your collarbone. βDidnβt even think youβd read them at first. But you did. You kept them.β
βI kept every one,β you whisper.
His breath catches. You tilt his face back up to yours, studying him in the low, golden light. His hairβs a little messy now from your fingers. His lips pink and kiss-swollen. His chest rising and falling like heβs just run a marathon. And still, even nowβheβs looking at you like heβs the one whoβs lucky.
Clark kisses you againβsoft, like a promise. Then a trail of them, across your cheek, your jaw, your throat. Slow enough to make your skin shiver and your hips shift instinctively against his lap. He groans quietly at thatβbarely audibleβbut doesnβt press for more. He just holds you tighter.
βIβd wait forever for you,β he murmurs into your skin. βI donβt need anything else. Just this. Just you.β You bury your face in his shoulder, overwhelmed, heart pounding like a war drum. You donβt say anything back. You just press another kiss to his throat, and feel him smile where your mouth lands.
-
The city is quieter at nightβits edges softened under streetlamp glow, concrete warming beneath the fading breath of the day. Thereβs a breeze that tugs gently at your coat as you and Clark walk side by side, your fingers still loosely laced with his. His hand is big. Warm. Rough in the places that tell stories. Gentle in the ways that say everything else.
Neither of you speaks at first. The silence isnβt awkward. Itβs thick with something tender. Like a string strung tight between your ribs and his, humming with each shared step.
When he glances down at you, his smile is small and almost shy. βI canβt believe I didnβt knock over the chair,β he says after a few blocks, voice pitched low with laughter.
You grin. βYou were close. I think my thigh is bruised.β
He groans. βDonβt say thatβIβll lose sleep.β
You look at him sidelong. βYou werenβt going to sleep anyway.β That earns you a pink flush down the side of his neck, and you tuck that image away for safekeeping.Β
Your building looms closer, brick and ivy-wrapped and familiar in the soft hush of the hour. You slow as you reach the front step, turning to face him.
βThank you,β you murmur. You donβt mean just for the walk.
He holds your hand a beat longer. Then, without a word, he lifts itβpresses his lips to your knuckles. Itβs soft. Reverent.
Your breath catches in your throat. And maybe thatβs what breaks the spellβmaybe thatβs what makes it all too much and not enough at onceβbecause the next second, youβre reaching. Or maybe he is. It doesnβt matter. He kisses you againβthis time fuller, deeperβyour back brushing against the door behind you, his other hand cradling your cheek like heβs afraid youβll vanish if he doesnβt hold you just right.
It doesnβt last long. Just long enough to taste the weight of whatβs shifting between you. To feel it crest again in your chest.
When he finally pulls back, his lips hover a breath away from yours. βIβll see you tomorrow,β he says softly.
You nod. You canβt quite say anything back yet. He gives your hand one last squeeze, then turns and disappears down the street, hands stuffed in his pockets, shoulders curved slightly inward like heβs holding in a smile he doesnβt know what to do with.
You unlock the door. Step inside. But you donβt go to bed right away. You walk to the front window insteadβbare feet quiet on hardwood, heart still hammering. Through the glass, you spot him half a block away. He thinks youβre gone. Which is probably why, under the streetlight, Clark Kent jumps up and smacks the edge of a low-hanging banner like heβs testing his vertical. He catches it on the second try, swinging from it for all of two seconds before nearly tripping over his own feet.
You snort. Your hand presses against your mouth to muffle the sound. And then you smile. That kind of soft, aching smile that tugs at something deep in your chest. Because thatβs him. Thatβs the man who writes you poems under the cover of anonymity and nearly breaks your chair kissing you in a newsroom.
Thatβs the one you wanted it to be. And now that it isβyou donβt think your heartβs ever going to stop fluttering.
-
The bullpen is alive again. Phones ring. Keys clatter. Someoneβs arguing over copy edits near the back printer, and Jimmy streaks past with a half-eaten bagel clamped between his teeth and a stack of photos fluttering behind him like confetti. Itβs chaos.
But none of it touches you. The world moves at its usual speed, but everything inside you has slowed. Like someone turned the volume down on everything that isnβt him.
Your eyes find Clark without meaning to. Heβs already at his deskβglasses on, shirt pressed, tie straighter than usual. He mustβve fixed it three times this morning. His sleeves are rolled to the elbow, a pen already tucked behind one ear. Heβs doing that thing he does when heβs thinkingβlip caught gently between his teeth, brows drawn, tapping the space bar like it owes him money.
But thereβs a softness to him this morning, too. A looseness in his shoulders. A quiet sort of glow around the edges, like some part of him hasnβt fully come down from last night either. Like heβs still vibrating with the same electricity thatβs still thrumming low behind your ribs.
And then he looks up. He finds you just as easily as you found him. You expect him to look awayβbashful, flustered, maybe even embarrassed now that the newsroom lights are on and youβre both pretending not to be lit matches pretending not to burn.
But he doesnβt. He holds your gaze. And the quiet that opens up between you is louder than anything else in the building. The low hum of printers. The whirr of the HVAC. The hiss of steam from the office espresso machine.
You swallow hard. Then you look back at your screen like it matters. You try to focus. You really do.
Less than ten minutes later, heβs there. He approaches slow, like heβs afraid of breaking something delicate. His hand appears first, gently setting a familiar to-go cup on your desk.
βI figured you forgot yours,β he says, voice low.
You glance up at him. βI didnβt.β
A smile curls at the corner of his mouth. Soft. A little sheepish. βOh. Wellβ¦β He shrugs. βNow you have two.β
You take the coffee anyway. Your fingers brush his as you do. He doesnβt pull away. Not this time. His hand lingers for half a second longer than it shouldβjust enough to make your pulse jump in your wristβand then slowly drops back to his side. The silence between you now isnβt awkward. Itβs taut. Weightless. Like standing at the edge of something enormous, staring over the drop, and realizing heβs right there beside youβready to jump too.
βWalk with me?β he asks, voice barely above the clatter around you. You nod. Because youβd follow him anywhere.
Downstairs, the building atrium hums with the low murmur of morning traffic and the soft shuffle of people cutting through the lobby on their way to bigger, faster things. But hereβbeneath the high, glass-paneled ceiling where sunlight pours in like gold through waterβthe city feels a little farther away. A little quieter. Just the two of you, caught in that hush between chaos and clarity.
Clark hands you a sugar packet without a word, and you take it, fingers brushing his again. He watchesβnot your hands, but your faceβas you tear it open and shake it into your cup. Like memorizing the way you take your coffee might somehow tell him more than youβre ready to say aloud.
You glance at him, just in time to catch itβthat look. Barely there, but soft. Full. He looks at you like heβs trying to learn you by heart.
You raise a brow. βWhat?β
He blinks, caught. βNothing.β
But youβre smiling now, just a little. A private, corner-of-your-mouth kind of smile. βYou look tired,β you murmur, stirring slowly.
His lips twitch. βLate night.β
βEditing from home?β
He hesitates. You watch the way his shoulders shift, the subtle catch in his breath. Then, finally, he shakes his head. βNot exactly.β
You hum. Say nothing more. The moment lingers, warm as the cup in your hand. He stands beside you, tall and still, but thereβs something new in the way he holds himselfβlike gravityβs just a little lighter around him this morning. Like your presence pulls him into a softer orbit. Thereβs a beat of silence.
βYouβ¦ seemed quiet last night,β he says, voice gentler now. βWhen you saw me.β
You glance at him from over the rim of your cup. Steam curls up between you, catching in the morning light like spun sugar. βI saw you,β you say.
He studies you. Carefully. βYou sure?β
You lower your coffee. βYeah. Iβm sure.β
His brows pull together slightly, the line between them deepening. Heβs trying to read you. Trying to solve an equation heβs too close to see clearly. Thereβs a question in his eyesβnot just about last night, but about everything that came before it. The letters. The glances. The ache.
But you donβt give him the answer. Not out loud. Because what you donβt say hangs heavier than what you do. You donβt say: Iβm pretty certain heβs you. You donβt say: I think my heart has known for a while now. You donβt say: Iβm not afraid of what youβre hiding. Instead, you let the silence stretch between youβsoft and silken, tethering you to something deeper than confession. You sip your coffee, heart steady now, eyes warm.
And when he opens his mouth againβwhen he leans forward like he might finally give himself away entirelyβyou smile. Just a soft curve of your lips. A quiet reassurance. βDonβt worry,β you say, voice low. βI liked what I saw.β
He freezes. Then flushes, color blooming high on his cheeks. His gaze drops to the floor like itβs safer there, like looking at you too long might unravel him completelyβbut when he glances back up, the smile on his face is small and helpless and utterly undone. A breath escapes him, barely audibleβbut you hear it. You feel it. Relief.
He walks you back upstairs without another word. The movement is easy. Comfortable. But his hand hovers near yours the whole time. Not quite touching. Just⦠there. Like gravity pulling two halves of the same secret closer.
And as you re-enter the hum of the bullpen, nothing looks different. But everything feels like itβs just about to change.
-
That night, after the city has quietedβafter the neon pulse of Metropolis blurs into puddle reflections and distant sirensβthe Daily Planet is almost reverent in its silence. No ringing phones. No newsroom chatter. Just the soft hum of a printer in standby mode and the creak of the elevator cables descending behind you.
You let yourself in with your keycard. The lock clicks louder than expected in the stillness. You donβt know why youβre here, really. You told yourself it was to grab the folder you forgot. To double-check something on your last draft. But the truth is quieter than that.
You were hoping heβd be here. Heβs not. His desk lamp is off. His chair turned inward, as if he left in a hurry. No half-eaten sandwich or scribbled drafts left behindβjust a tidied workspace and absence thick enough to feel.
You sigh, the sound swallowed whole by the vast emptiness of the bullpen. Then you see it. At your desk. Tucked half-under your keyboard like a secret trying not to be. One folded piece of paper.
No envelope this time. No clever line on the front. Just your name, handwritten in a looping scrawl youβve come to know better than your own signature. A rhythm youβve studied and traced in the quiet of your apartment, night after night.
You slide it free with careful fingers. Your heart stutters as you unfold it. The ink is darker this timeβless tentative. The strokes more deliberate, like he knew, at last, he didnβt have to hide.
βFor once I donβt have to imagine what itβs like to have your lips on mine. But I still think about it anyway.β
βC.K.
You stare at the words until the paper goes soft in your hands. Until your chest feels too full and too fragile all at once. Until the noise of your own heartbeat drowns out everything else.
Then you press the note to your chest and close your eyes. His initials burn through the paper like a touch. Not a secret admirer anymore. Not a mystery in the margins. Just him.
Clark. Your friend. Your almost. Your maybe.
You donβt need the rest of the truth. Not tonight. Not if it costs this fragile thing blooming between youβthis quiet, aching sweetness. This slow, deliberate unraveling of walls and fears and the long-held breath you didnβt realize you were holding.
Whatever youβre building together, itβs happening one heartbeat at a time. One almost-confession. One note left behind in the dark. And youβd rather have thisβthis steady climb into something realβthan rush toward the edge of revelation and risk it all crumbling.
So you tuck the note gently into your bag, where the others wait. Every word heβs given you, kept safe like a promise. You donβt know what happens next. But for the first time in weeks, maybe months, youβre not afraid of finding out.
-
Youβre not official.
Not in the way people expect it. Thereβs no label, no group announcement, no big display. But youβre definitely something nowβsomething solid and golden and real in the space between words.
Itβs not office gossip. Not yet. But it could be. Because you linger a little too long near his desk. Because he lights up when you enter a room like itβs instinct. Because when he passes you in the bullpen, his hand brushes yoursβjust barelyβand you both pause like the air just changed. Thereβs no denying it.
And then comes the hallway kiss. Itβs after hours. The building is quiet, the newsroom lights dimmed to half. Youβre both walking toward the elevators, your footsteps echoing against the tile.
Clark fumbles for the call button, mumbling something about how slow the system is when itβs late, and how the elevator always seems to stall on the wrong floor. You donβt answer. You just reach for his tie. A gentle tug. A silent question. He exhales, soft and shaky. Then he leans in.
The kiss is slow. Unhurried. Like youβre both tasting something thatβs been simmering between you for years. His hands find your waist, yours curl into his shirt, and the elevator dings somewhere in the distance, but neither of you move.
You part only when the second ding reminds you where you are. His forehead presses to yours, warm and close. You breathe the same air. And then the doors close behind you, and he walks you out with his hand ghosting the small of your back.
-
You start learning the rhythm of Clark Kent. He talks more when heβs nervousβlittle rambles about traffic patterns or article formatting, or how heβs still not entirely sure he installed his dishwasher correctly. Sometimes he trails off mid-thought, like heβs remembering something urgent but canβt explain it.
He always carries your groceries. All of them. No negotiation. Heβll take the heavier bags first, sling them both over one shoulder and pretend like itβs nothing. And somehow, he always forgets his own umbrellaβbut never forgets yours. You donβt know how many he owns, but one always appears when the clouds roll in. Like magic. Like preparation. Like heβs thought of you in every version of the day.
You donβt ask.
You just start to keep one in your own bag for him.
-
The third kiss happens on your couch.
Youβve been watching some old movie neither of you are paying attention to, his arm slung lazily across your shoulders. Your legs are tangled. His fingers are tracing idle shapes against your thigh through the fabric of your leggings.
He kisses you onceβsoft and slowβand then again. Longer. Like heβs memorizing the shape of your mouth. Like he might need it later.
Then his phone buzzes.
He stiffens.
You feel the change instantlyβthe way his body pulls back, the air between you tightens. He glances at the screen. You donβt catch the name. But you see the look in his eyes.
Regret. Apology. Something deeper.
βIβIβm so sorry,β he says, already moving. βI have toβsomething came up. Itβsββ
You sit up, brushing your hand against his arm. βGo,β you say softly.
βButββ
βItβs okay. Justβ¦ be safe.β
And God, the way he looks at you. Like youβve given him something priceless. Something he didnβt know he was allowed to want.
He kisses your temple like a promise and disappears into the night.
-
It happens again. And again.
Missed dinners. Sudden goodbyes. Rainy nights where he shows up soaked, out of breath, murmuring apologies and curling into you like he doesnβt know how to be held.
You never ask. You donβt need to.
Because he always comes back.
-
One night, youβre curled into each other on your couch, your legs thrown over his, your cheek resting against his chest. The movieβs playing, forgotten. Your fingers are idly brushing the hem of his shirt where itβs ridden up. He smells like rain and ink and whatever soap he always uses that lingers on your pillow now.
Then his voice, quiet in the dark, βI donβt always know how to beβ¦ enough.β
You blink. Look up. Heβs staring at the ceiling. Not quite breathing evenly. Like the words cost him something.
You reach up and cradle his face in your hands.
His eyes finally meet yours.
βYou are,β you whisper. βAs you are.β
You donβt say: Even if you are who I think you are.
You donβt need to. You just kiss him again. Soft. Long. Steady. Because whatever heβs carrying, youβve already started holding part of it too.
And he lets you.
-
The night starts quiet.
Takeout boxes sit half-forgotten on the coffee tableβone still open, rice going cold, soy sauce packet untouched. Your legs are draped across Clarkβs lap, one foot nudged against the curve of his thigh, and his hand rests there now. Not possessively. Not deliberately.
Just⦠there.
Itβs late. The kind of late where the whole city softens. No sirens outside. No blinking inbox. Just the low hum of the lamp on the side table and the warmth of the man beside you.
Clarkβs eyes are on you. Theyβve been there most of the night.
He hasnβt said much since dinnerβjust little smiles, quiet sounds of agreement, the occasional brush of his thumb against your ankle like a thought he forgot to speak aloud. But itβs not a bad silence. Itβs dense. Full.
You shift, angling toward him slightly, and his gaze flicks to your mouth. Thatβs all it takes.
He leans in.
The kiss is soft at first. Familiar. A shared breath. A quiet hello in a room where no one had spoken for minutes. But then his hand curls behind your knee, guiding your leg further over his lap, and his mouth opens against yours like heβs been holding back for hours.
He kisses you like heβs starving. Like heβs spent all day wanting thisβaching for the shape of you, the weight of your body in his hands. And when you moan into it, just a little, he shudders.
His hands start to move. One tracing the line of your spine, the other resting against your hip like a question he doesnβt need to ask. You answer anywayβpressing in closer, threading your fingers through his hair, sighing into the heat of his mouth.
You donβt know who climbs into whose lap first, only that you end up straddling him on the couch. Your knees on either side of his thighs. His hands gripping your waist now, fingers curling in your shirt like he doesnβt trust himself not to break it.
And then something shifts.
Not emotionalβphysical.
Clark stands.
He lifts you with him, effortlessly, like you donβt weigh anything at all. Not a grunt. Not a stagger. Justβup. Smooth and sure. His mouth never leaves yours.
You gasp into the kiss as he walks you backwards, steps confident and fast despite the way your arms tighten around his shoulders. Your spine meets the wall in the next second. Not hard. Just sudden.
Your heart thunders.
βClarkββ
He doesnβt answer. Just breathes against your mouth like he needs the oxygen from your lungs. Like yours is the only air that keeps him grounded.
His hips press into yours, one thigh sliding between your legs, and your back arches instinctively. His hands span your ribs now, thumbs brushing just beneath your bra. You feel the tremble in themβnot from fear. From restraint.
βClark,β you whisper again, and his forehead drops to yours.
βYou okay?β he asks, voice rough and close.
You nod, breath catching. βYou?β
He hesitates. Not long. But long enough to count. βYeah. Justβ¦ feel a little off tonight.β
You pull back just enough to look at him.
Heβs flushed. Eyes darker than usual. But not winded. Not breathless. Not anything like you are. His chest doesnβt even rise fast beneath your hands. Still, he smilesβlike he can will the oddness awayβand kisses you again. Deeper this time. Like distraction.
Like he doesnβt want to stop.
You donβt want him to either.
Not yet.
His mouth finds yours againβslower this time, more purposeful. Like heβs savoring it. Like heβs waited for this exact moment, this exact pressure of your hips against his, for longer than heβs willing to admit.
You gasp when his hands slide under your shirt, palms broad and steady, dragging upward in a path that sets every nerve on fire. He doesnβt fumble. Doesnβt rush. Just exploresβlike heβs memorizing, not taking.
βCan I?β he murmurs against your mouth, fingers brushing the underside of your bra.
You nod, breathless. βYes.β
He exhales, soft and reverent, and lifts your shirt over your head. Itβs discarded without ceremony. Then his hands are on you againβwarm, slow, mapping out the shape of you with open palms and patient awe.
βGod, youβre beautiful,β he murmurs, more breath than voice. His mouth finds the edge of your jaw, trailing kisses down to the hollow beneath your ear. βI think about thisβ¦ so much.β
You shudder.
His hands move againβdown this time, gripping your thighs as he sinks to his knees in front of you. You barely have time to react before heβs tugging your pants down, slow and careful, mouth following the descent with lingering kisses along your hips, the dip of your pelvis, the inside of your thigh.
He looks up at you from the floor.
You nearly forget how to breathe.
βIβve wanted to take my time with you,β he admits, voice rough and low. βWanted to learn you slow. Learn how you taste. How you fall apart.β
And then he does.
He leans in and licks a long, deliberate stripe over the center of your underwear, still watching your face.
You whimper.
He smiles, just slightly, and does it again.
By the time he peels your underwear down and presses an open-mouthed kiss to your inner thigh, your knees are trembling.
Clark hooks one arm under your leg, lifting it over his shoulder like itβs nothing, and buries his mouth between your thighs with a groan that rattles through your whole body.
His tongue is warm and soft and maddeningly slowβcircling, tasting, teasing. He doesnβt rush. Not even when your fingers knot in his hair and your hips rock forward with pure desperation.
βClarkββ
He hums against you, and the sound sends a full-body shiver up your spine.
βIβve got you,β he whispers, lips brushing you as he speaks. βLet me.β
You do.
You let him wreck you.
Heβs methodical about itβlike heβs following a map only he can see. One hand holding you steady, the other splayed against your stomach, keeping you anchored while he works you open with mouth and tongue and quiet, praising murmurs.
βSo sweetβ¦ thatβs it, sweetheartβ¦ you taste like heaven.β
Youβre already close when he slips a thick finger inside you. Then another. Slow, patient, curling exactly where you need him. His mouth never stops. His rhythm is steady. Focused. Unrelenting.
You come like thatβpanting, gripping his shoulders, thighs shaking around his ears as he groans and keeps going, riding it out with you until youβre trembling too hard to stand.
He rises slowly.
His lips are slick. His eyes are dark.
And youβve never seen anyone look at you like this.
βCome here,β you whisper.
He kisses you thenβdeep and possessive and tasting like you. Youβre the one tugging at his shirt now, unbuttoning in frantic clumsy swipes. You need him. Need him closer. Need him inside.
But when you reach for his belt, he stills your hands gently.
βNot yet,β he says, voice like thunder wrapped in velvet. βLet me take care of you first.β
You blink. βClark, Iββ
He kisses you againβsoft, lingering.
βIβve waited too long for this to rush it,β he murmurs, brushing hair from your face with the back of his knuckles. βYou deserve slow.β
Then he lifts you againβlike you weigh nothingβand carries you to the bed. He lays you down like youβre fragileβbut the look in his eyes says he knows youβre anything but. That youβre something rare. Something heβs been aching for. His palms skim over your thighs again, slow and deliberate, before he spreads you open beneath him.
He doesnβt ask this time. Just settles between your legs like he belongs there, arms hooked under your thighs, holding you wide.
βClarkββ
βI know, sweetheart,β he murmurs, voice low and raw. βIβve got you.β
And he does.
His mouth finds you againβwarm, skilled, confident now. No hesitation, just long, wet strokes of his tongue that build on everything he already learned. And thenβwithout warningβhe slides two fingers back inside you.
You cry out, hips jolting.
He groans into you, fingers moving in tandem with his mouthβcurling just right, matching every flick of his tongue, every wet press of his lips. He doesnβt stop. Doesnβt falter. He watches you the whole time, eyes dark and hungry and so in love with the way you fall apart for him.
You grip the sheets, gasping his name, over and over, until your voice breaks on a sob of pleasure.
βClarkβGod, IβI canβtββ
βYes, you can,β he breathes. βYouβre almost there. Let go for me.β
You do. With a cry, with shaking thighs, with your fingers tangled in his hair and your back arching off the bed.
And he doesnβt stop.
He rides your orgasm out with slow, worshipful strokes, kissing your thighs, murmuring into your skin, βSo good for me. Youβre perfect. Youβre everything.β
By the time he pulls back, youβre bonelessβdazed and trembling, your chest heaving as he kisses his way up your stomach.
But the way he looks at you thenβlike he needs to be closerβtells you this isnβt over.
His hands brace on either side of your head as he leans over you. βCan Iβ¦?β
Your hips answer for youβtilting up, chasing the heat and weight of him already pressed between your thighs.
βYes,β you whisper. βPlease.β
Clark groans low in his throat as he pushes his boxers down just enough, lining himself upβhis cock flushed and thick, already leaking, and you feel the weight of him between your thighs and gasp.
βGod, Clarkβ¦β
βI know,β he murmurs, forehead resting against yours, hips rocking forward just barely, teasing you with the head of his cock, dragging it through the slick mess he made with his mouth and fingers. βI know, baby. Justβjust let meβ¦β
He nudges in slow.
The stretch is slow and steady, his breath catching as your body parts for him. Heβs thick. Too thick, maybe, except your body wants himβtakes him like it was made to.
You whimper, and his jaw clenches tight.
βYou okay?β
βYβyeah,β you breathe. βDonβt stop.β
He doesnβt. Not even for a second. Inch by inch, he sinks into you, whispering your name, kissing your temple, gripping the backs of your thighs as you wrap your legs around his waist.
βFuck,β he hisses when he bottoms out, buried deep, balls pressed flush against you. βYou feelβJesus, you feel unbelievable.β
Youβre too far gone to answer. You just cling to him, nails dragging lightly down his back, moaning into his mouth when he kisses you again.
The first few thrusts are slow. Deep. Measured. He pulls out just enough to feel you grip him on the way back in, then does it againβand againβand again.
And then something shifts.
Your body clenches around him in a way that makes his head drop to your shoulder with a groan.
βOh my god, sweetheartβdonβt do thatβIβm gonnaβfuckββ
He thrusts harder.
Not rough, not yet, but firmer. Hungrier. The control he started with begins to slip. You can feel it in his grip, in the sharp edge of his breath, in the tremble of the arm braced beside your head.
βBeen thinkinβ about this,β he grits out, voice low and wrecked. βEvery nightβevery goddamn night since the first note. You donβt even know what you do to me.β
You whine, rolling your hips up to meet him, and he snapsβhips slamming forward hard enough to punch the air from your lungs.
βClarkββ
βIβve got you,β he gasps, fucking into you harder now, his voice filthy and tender all at once. βIβve got you, babyβso fuckinβ tightβcanβt stopβdonβt wanna stopββ
Youβre clinging to him now, crying out with every thrust. Itβs not just the way he fills youβitβs the way he worships you while he does it. The way he moans when you clench. The way he growls your name like a prayer. The way he falls apart in real time, just from the feel of you.
He grabs one of your hands, laces your fingers with his, pins it beside your head.
βYouβre mine,β he grits. βYou have to be mine.β
βYes,β you gasp. βYesβClarkβdonβt stopββ
βNever,β he groans. βNever stopping. Not when you feel like thisβfuckββ
You can feel him getting closeβthe way his rhythm starts to stutter, the broken sounds escaping his throat, the way he buries his face against your neck and pants your name like heβs desperate to take you with him.
And youβre almost there too.
You donβt even realize your hand is slipping until heβs gripping it againβpinned tight to the pillow, your fingers laced in his and clenched so tight it aches. The bed frame is starting to shudder beneath you now, the headboard knocking a rhythm into the wall, and Clark is gasping like heβs in pain from how good it feels.
His hips snap forward againβharder this time. Deeper. More desperate.
βFuckβfuckβIβm sorry,β he grits, voice ragged and thick, βIβm trying toβbabyβI canβtβhold backββ
You moan so loud it makes him flinch.
And then he breaks.
One second heβs pulling your name from his lungs like itβs the only word he knowsβand the next, he slams into you so hard the bed shifts a full inch. The lamp on the bedside table flickers. The candle flame bursts just slightly higher than beforeβflickering hot and fast, the wick blackening with a thin curl of smoke. It doesnβt go out. It just burns.
Clarkβs back arches.
His cock drags over everything inside you in just the right way, hitting that spot again and again until youβre clutching at his shoulders, babbling nonsense against his skin.
βI canβtβI canβtβClark!β
βYou can,β he pants. βPleaseβplease, baby, cum with meβI can feel youβI can feel it.β
Your body goes taut.
A white-hot snap of pleasure punches through your spine, and your vision blacks out at the edges. You tighten around himβclenching, pulsing, dragging him over the edge with youβand he loses it.
Clark cursesβactually cursesβand growls something between a moan and a sob as he slams into you one last time, spilling deep inside you. His body locks, every muscle trembling. His teeth scrape the soft skin of your throatβnot biting, just grounding himself. Like if he lets go, heβll come undone completely.
The lights flicker again.
The candle sputters once and steadies.
He breathes like a man starved. His chest heaves. But you can feel itβunder your hand, against your skin. His heartβs not racing.
Not like it should be.
Youβre gasping. Dazed. Boneless under him. But Clarkβ¦ Clarkβs barely even winded. And yetβhis hands are trembling. Just slightly. Still laced in yours. Still holding on.
After, you lie thereβchests pressed close, legs tangled, the sheets barely clinging to your hips.
Clarkβs arm is slung across your waist, palm wide and warm over your belly like it belongs there. Like he doesnβt ever want to move. His nose is tucked against your temple, breath stirring your hair in soft little pulses. He keeps kissing you. Your cheek. Your jaw. The edge of your brow. He doesnβt stop, like heβs afraid this is a dream and kissing you might anchor it in place.
βStill with me?β he whispers into your skin.
You nod. Drowsy. Sated. Floating.
βGood.β His hand runs down your side in one long, reverent stroke. βDidnβt mean toβ¦ get so carried away.β
You hum. βYou say that like I didnβt enjoy every second.β
He smiles against your neck. You feel the curve of it, his lips brushing the shell of your ear.
A moment passes.
Then another.
βI think you short-circuited my bedside lamp somehow.β
Clark freezes. ββ¦Did I?β
You roll your head to look at him. βIt flickered. Right as youββ
His ears turn bright red. βMaybe justβ¦ a power surge?β
You arch a brow. βRight. A romantic, orgasm-timed power surge.β
He mutters something into your shoulder that sounds vaguely like kill me now.
You grin. File it away.
Exhibit 7: Lightbulb went dim at the exact second he came. Candle flame doubled in height.
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Later that night, long after youβve both dozed off, you wake to find Clark still holding you. One of his hands is under your shirt, splayed low across your stomach. Protective. Possessive in the gentlest way. His body is still curled around yours like a question mark, like heβs checking for all your answers in how your breath rises and falls.
You shift just slightlyβand his grip tightens instinctively, like even in sleep, he canβt let go.
Exhibit 8: He doesnβt sleep like a person. Sleeps like a sentry.
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In the morning, you wake to the scent of coffee.
Your kitchen is suspiciously spotless for someone who swears heβs clumsy. The pot is full, the mugs pre-warmed, your favorite creamer already swirled in.
Clark is flipping pancakes.
Barefoot.
Wearing one of your sleep shirts. The tight one.
You lean against the doorframe, watching him. His back muscles flex when he flips the pan one-handed.
βMorning,β he says without turning.
You blink. βHowβd you know I was standing here?β
βI, uhβ¦β He falters, then gestures at the sizzling pan. βHeard footsteps. I assumed.β
You hum.
Exhibit 9: He heard me from across the apartment, over the sound of a frying pan.
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Youβre brushing your teeth later when you spot the mirror fogged from the shower.
You reach for a towelβand notice itβs already been run under warm water.
You glance at him, and he just shrugs. βFigured youβd want it not freezing.β
βFigured?β you repeat.
He leans against the doorframe, smiling. βLucky guess.β
You donβt respond. Just kiss his cheek with toothpaste still in your mouth.
Exhibit 10: He always guesses exactly what I need. Down to the second.
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That night, he falls asleep on your couch during movie night, head on your thigh, hand around your wrist like a lifeline.
You swear you see the movie reflected in his eyesβlike the light isnβt just hitting them but moving inside them. You blink. Itβs gone.
You look down at him. His lashes are impossibly long. His mouth is parted. His breathing is steadyβbut not quiteβ¦ human. Too even. Too perfect.
Exhibit 11: His pupils did a thing. I donβt know how to describe it. But they did a thing.
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The next day, a car splashes a wave of slush toward you both on the sidewalk.
You brace for impact.
But Clark steps in front of you, faster than you can blink. The water hits him. Not you.
You didnβt even see him move.
You narrow your eyes. He just smiles. βReflexes.β
βClark. Be honest. Do you secretly run marathons at night?β
He laughs. βNope. Just really hate laundry.β
Exhibit 12: Literally teleported into the splash zone to shield me. Probably didnβt even get wet.
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And stillβ¦ you donβt say it.
You donβt ask.
Because heβs not just some blur of strength or spectacle.
Heβs the man who folds your laundry while pretending itβs because heβs βbad at relaxing.β Who scribbles notes in the margins of your drafts, calling your metaphors βdangerously good.β Who kisses your forehead with a kind of reverence like youβre the one whoβs unreal.
You know.
You know.
And he knows you know.
Because heβs hiding it from you. Not really.
When he stumbles over his own sentences, when his smile falters after a late return, when his jaw tenses at the sound of your name whispered too softlyβyou donβt see evasion. You see weight. You see care.
Heβs protecting something.
And youβre trying to figure out how to tell him that you already know. That itβs okay. That youβre still here. That you love him anyway.
You havenβt said it yetβnot the knowing, not the loving. But it lives just under your skin. A second heartbeat. A full body truth. You think maybe, if you just look him in the eye long enough next time, heβll understand.
But still neither of you says it yet. Because the space between whatβs said and unsaidβthatβs where everything soft lives.
And youβre not ready to let it go.
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The morning feels ordinary.
Thereβs a crack in the coffee pot. A printer jam. Perry yelling something about deadlines from his office. Jimmyβs camera bag spills open across your desk, and he swears heβll fix it after his coffee, and Lois is pacing, muttering about sources.
And then the screens change.
Itβs subtle at firstβjust a flicker. Then the feed cuts mid-commercial. Every monitor in the bullpen goes black, then red. Emergency alert. A shrill tone splits the air. Someone turns up the volume.
You look up.
And everything shifts.
The broadcast blares through the newsroom speakers, raw footage streaming in from a local news chopper.
Metropolis. Midtown. Chaos. A building half-collapsed. Smoke curling upward in a thick, unnatural spiral.
The camera joltsβand then there he is.
Superman.
Thrown through a brick wall.
You feel it in your bones before your brain catches up. Thatβs him. Thatβs Clark.
Heβs on his knees in the wreckage, panting, bleedingβfrom his temple, from his ribs, from a gash you canβt see the end of. The suit is torn. His cape is shredded. Heβs never looked so human.
He tries to stand. Wobbles. Collapses.
You stop breathing.
βIs Superman going to be ok?β someone behind you murmurs.
βJesus,β Jimmy whispers.
βHeβll be fine,β Lois says, too casually. She leans back in her chair, sipping her coffee like itβs any other news cycle. βHe always is.β
You want to scream. Because thatβs not a story on a screen. Thatβs not some distant, untouchable god.
Thatβs your boyfriend.
Thatβs the man who brought you coffee this morning with one sugar and just the right amount of cream. The man who kissed your wrist in the elevator, whose hands trembled when he whispered I want to be enough. Who holds you like youβre something holy and bruises like heβs made of skin after all.
Heβs not fine. Heβs bleeding.
Heβs not getting up.
You freeze.
The bullpen keeps moving around youβhalf-aware, half-horrifiedβbut you canβt speak. Canβt blink. Canβt breathe.
Your hands start to shake.
You grip the edge of your desk like it might anchor you to the floor, like if you let go youβll run straight out the door, out into the chaos, toward the wreckage and the fire and the thing trying to kill him.
A part of you already has.
A hit lands on the feedβsomething massive slamming him into the pavementβand your knees almost buckle from the force of it. Not physically. Not really. But somewhere deep. Something inside you fractures.
You donβt know what the enemy is.
Alien, maybe. Or worse.
But itβs not the shape of the thing that terrifies youβitβs him. Itβs how slow he is to get up. How much his mouth is bleeding. How his eyes are unfocused. How youβve never seen him look like this.
You want to run.
You want to be there.
But youβre not. Youβre here. In your dress pants and button-up, in your neat little office chair, with your badge clipped to your hip and your heart breaking quietly.
Because no one else knows. No one else understands whatβs really at stake. No one else sees the man behind the cape.
Not like you do.
Your vision blurs.
You wipe your eyes. Pretend itβs nothing. The bullpen is too loud to hear your breath catch.
But stillβyour hands tremble and your heart pounds so violently it hurts.
And you cry.
Quietly.
You cry like the city might if it could feel. You cry like the sky should. You cry like someone already grievingβlike someone who knows what it means to lose him.
The footage wonβt stop. Superman reels across the screenβhis suit torn, the shoulder scorched through in a blackened, jagged arc. Blood smears the corner of his mouth. Thereβs a limp in his gait now, one he keeps trying to mask. The camera catches it anyway.
The newsroom is silent now save for the hiss of static and the low voice of the anchor describing the damage downtown.
You sit frozen at your desk, the plastic edge biting into your palms as you grip it like it might stop your body from unraveling. The taste of bile has settled at the back of your throat. Your coffeeβs gone cold in its cup.
Across the bullpen, someone mutters, βJesus. He took a hit.β
βLook at the suit,β Lois says flatly, standing by one of the screens. βHeβs never looked that rough before.β
βDudeβs limping,β Jimmy adds, pushing his glasses up. βThat alien thingβwhat even was that?β
Their words feel like background noise. Distant. Warped. You canβt seem to hear anything over the white-hot panic blistering in your chest.
You blink, your eyes burning, throat tight. You canβt just sit here and cry. Not in front of Lois and Perry and half the bullpen. But your body is trembling anyway. You clench your hands in your lap, nails digging crescent moons into your skin.
Heβs hurt.
And heβs still out there.
Fighting.
Alone.
You canβt just sit here.
You shove your chair back hard enough that it scrapes against the floor. βIβm going.β
Lois turns toward you. βGoing where?β
βIβm covering it. The attack. The fallout. Whateverβs leftβI want to see it firsthand.β
Loisβs brow lifts. βSince when do you make reckless calls like this?β
βI donβt,β you snap, already grabbing your coat. βBut I am now.β
Jimmyβs already halfway to the door. βIf weβre going, Iβm bringing the camera.β
Lois hesitates. Then sighs. βHell. You twoβll get yourselves killed without me.β
You donβt wait for her to finish grabbing her phone. Youβre already out the door.
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Downtown is a war zone.
The smell of scorched concrete clings to the air. Smoke spirals in uneven plumes from the carcass of a building that must have been beautiful once. Sirens scream in every direction, red and blue lights flashing off every pane of shattered glass.
You arrive just as the dust begins to settle.
The battle is over but the wreckage tells you how bad it was.
The Justice Gang moves through the remains like figures out of a dreamβtattered and bloodied, but upright.
Guy Gardner limps past, muttering curses. βNext time, Iβm bringing a bigger damn ring.β Kendra SaundersβHawkgirlβhas one wing half-folded and streaked with blood. She ignores it as she checks on a paramedicβs bandages. Mr. Terrific is already coordinating with local emergency crews, directing flow with a hand to his ear. And MetamorphoβGod, he looks like heβs melting and re-solidifying with every breath.
And thenβ¦
Him.
He descends from the smoke. Not in a blur. Not with a boom of sonic air. Slowly. Controlled.
But not untouched.
He lands in a crouch, shoulders tight, the line of his jaw drawn sharp with tension. His boots crunch against broken concrete. His cape is torn at one edge, flapping limply behind him.
Heβs hurt.
Heβs so clearly hurt.
And even through all of itβthrough the dirt and blood and painβhe sees you. His eyes lock onto yours in an instant. The rest of the world falls away. Thereβs no press. No chaos. No destruction.
Just him.
And you.
The corner of his mouth liftsβjust a flicker. Not a smile. Justβ¦ recognition.
And something deeper behind it.
You know know.Β
And he is letting you know.
But he straightens a second later, lifting his chin, slotting the mask back into place like a practiced motion. He squares his shoulders, winces barely perceptible, and turns to face the press.
Lois is already stepping forward, questions in hand. βSuperman. What can you tell us about the enemy?β
His voice is steady, but you can hear it nowβhear the strain. The breath that doesnβt quite come easy. The syllables that drag like theyβre fighting his tongue. βIt wasnβt local,β he says. βSome kind of dimensional breach. We had help closing it.β
Jimmyβs camera clicks. Kendra coughs into her hand.
Youβre not writing.
Youβre just watching.
Watching the soot along his cheekbone. The split in his lip. The way he shifts his weight to favor one side. The way the βsβ in βjusticeβ drags like it hurts to say.
He looks tired.
But more than thatβhe looks like Clark.
And itβs never been more obvious than right now, standing under broken sky, trying to pretend like nothingβs changed.
You want to run to him. You want to hold him up.
But you stay rooted.
When the questions start to slow and the press begins murmuring among themselves, he glances over. Just at you.
βAre you okay?β he asks, barely audible.
You nod. βAre you?β
He hesitates. Then says, βGetting there.β
Itβs not a performance. Not for them. Just for you.
You nod again. The look you share says more than anything else could.
I know.
Iβm not leaving.
You donβt have to say it.
When he flies awayβslower this time, one hand brushing briefly against his ribsβitβs not dramatic. Thereβs no sonic boom. No heat trail. Just wind and distance.
Lois exhales. βHe looked rough.β
Jimmy nods. βStill hot, though.β
You say nothing. You just stare up at the empty sky. And press your shaking hand over your heart.
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You fake calm.
You smile when Jimmy slaps your shoulder and says something about getting the footage up by morning. You nod through Loisβs sharp-eyed stare and mutter something about your deadline, your byline, your blood sugarβanything to get her to stop watching you like she knows what youβre not saying.
But the second youβre alone?
You run. Itβs not a sprint, not really. Just that jittery, full-body urgencyβthe kind that makes your hands shake and your legs move faster than your thoughts can follow. You donβt remember the trip home. Just the chaos of your own pulse, the way your chest wonβt stop aching.
You replay the scene again and again in your mind: his landing, the blood on his lip, the flicker of pain when he looked at you. That not-quite smile. That nearly imperceptible tremble.
Youβd never wanted to hold someone more in your life.
And when you reach your door, keys fumbling, heart still hammering? Heβs already there.
You pause halfway through the doorway.
Heβs standing in your living room, like heβs been waiting hours. Heβs not in the suit. No cape. No crest. Just a plain black T-shirt and flannel pajama pants, his hair still damp like he just showered.
He looks like Clark. Exceptβ¦ tonight you know thereβs no difference.
βHi,β he says quietly. His voice is soft. Familiar. βI didnβt mean to startle you.β
You blink. βDid you break through my patio door?β
He winces. βYes. Sort of.β
You lift a brow. βYou owe me a new lock.β
βIt doesnβt work like that.β He says with a roll of his eyes.Β
A silence stretches between you. Itβs not tense. Not angry. Just full of everything neither of you said earlier.
He takes a step toward you, then stops. βHow long have you known?β
You drop your keys in the bowl by the door and toe off your shoes before answering. βSince the lamp. And the candle,β you say. βButβ¦ mostly tonight.β
He nods like that hurts. Like he wishes he couldβve done better. Like he wishes he couldβve told you in some perfect, movie-moment way.
βI didnβt want you to find out like that,β he says quietly.
You walk to the couch and sit, your limbs finally catching up to the adrenaline crash still sweeping through you. βIβm glad I found out at all.β
Thatβs what makes him move. He sinks down beside you, hands on his knees. You can see it in his profileβthe exhaustion, the regret, the weight heβs been carrying for so long. Youβre not sure heβs ever looked more human.
βIβve been hiding so long,β he says, voice barely above a whisper. βI forgot how to be seen. And with youβ¦ I didnβt want to lie. But I didnβt want to lose it either. I didnβt want to lose you.β
Your throat tightens. βYou wonβt,β you say. And you mean it.
His head turns then, slowly, eyes meeting yours like heβs trying to memorize your face from this distance. You donβt look away.
When he kisses you, itβs not careful. Itβs not shy. Itβs like something breaks open inside himβsoftly. The dam finally giving way.
His hands cradle your face like youβre something heβs terrified to shatter but needs to feel. His mouth is hot and open, reverent, desperate in the way it deepens. He kisses like heβs anchoring himself to the earth through your lips. Like everything in him is still shaking from battle and youβre the only thing that still feels real.
You reach for him. Thread your fingers into his hair. Pull him closer.
It builds like a slow swellβhands tangling, breathing harder, heat coiling low in your stomach. He pushes you back gently against the cushions, his body moving over yours with careful precision. Not to pin. Just to hold.
You feel it in every motion: the restraint. The effort. He could crush steel and heβs using that strength to cradle your ribs.
He undresses you with reverence. His fingers tremble when they touch your bare skin. Not from hesitationβbut because heβs finally allowed to want. To have. To be seen.
You undress him too. That soft black T-shirt comes off first. Then the flannel. His chest is mottled with bruises, a dark one blooming across his side where that alien creature mustβve hit him. Your fingertips trace the edge of it.
He exhales, shaky. But he doesnβt stop you.
Youβre straddling his lap before you realize it, chest to chest, foreheads pressed together.
βAre you scared?β he whispers.
Your thumb brushes his cheek. βNever of you.β
He kisses you againβslower this time. More control, but more depth too. His hands glide down your back and settle at your hips, thumbs pressing into your skin like he needs the reminder that youβre here. That you chose this.
The rest unfolds like prayer. The way he touches youβthorough, patient, hungryβitβs worship. Every gasp you make pulls a soft, broken sound from his throat. Every arch of your back makes his eyes flutter shut like heβs overwhelmed by the sight of you. The way he moves inside you is deep and aching and full of something larger than either of you.
Not rough. But desperate. Raw. True.
And even when he faltersβwhen his hands grip too tight or the air warms just a little too fastβyou hold his face and whisper, βI know. Itβs okay. I want all of you.β And he gives it. All of him. Until the only thing either of you can do is fall apart. Together.
Later, when youβre curled up on the couch in a tangle of limbs and quiet breathing, he rests his forehead against your temple.
The city buzzes somewhere far away.
He whispers into your skin: βNext timeβ¦ donβt let me fly off like that.β
Your smile is soft, tired. βNext time, come straight to me.β
He nods, eyes already fluttering shut.
And finally, for the first time since this beganβyou both sleep without secrets between you.
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You wake to sunlight. Not loud, not harshβjust soft beams slipping through the blinds, spilling across the floor, warming the space where your bare shoulder meets the sheets. You blink slowly, the weight of sleep still thick behind your eyes, and shift just slightly in the tangle of limbs wrapped around you. He doesnβt stir. Not even a little.
Clark is still curled around you like the night never endedβhis chest at your back, legs tangled with yours, one arm snug around your waist and the other folded up against your ribs, fingers resting over your heart like heβs guarding it in his sleep.
You donβt move. You canβt. Because itβs perfect. You let your cheek rest against his arm, warm and solid beneath you, and you just listenβto the steady rhythm of his heart, to the rise and fall of his breathing, to the way the silence doesnβt feel empty anymore. You donβt know if youβve ever felt more grounded than you do right now, held like this. It isnβt the cape. It isnβt the flight. It isnβt the power that quiets the noise in your chest.
Itβs him. Just Clark. And for once, you donβt need anything else.
He stumbles into the kitchen half an hour later in your robe. Your actual, honest-to-god, fuzzy gray robe. Itβs oversized on you, which means it fits him like a second skinβbelt tied loose at the hips, collar gaping just enough to make you lose your train of thought. His hair is a mess, sticking up in soft black tufts. His glasses are nowhere to be found. He scratches the back of his neck, blinking at the cabinets like heβs not entirely sure how kitchens work.
You lean against the counter with your arms folded, watching him with open amusement. βYou own too much flannel.β
Clark glances over, eyes squinting against the light. βIβll have you know, that robe is a Metropolis winter essential.β
βYouβre bulletproof.β
βI get cold emotionally.β
You snort. βYouβre such a menace in the morning.β
βAnd yet,β he says, opening the fridge and retrieving eggs with the careful precision of someone whoβs clearly trying not to break them with super strength, βyou let me stay.β
You grin. βYouβre lucky youβre cute.β
He burns the first pancake. Which is honestly impressive, considering you werenβt even sure it was physically possible for someone with super speed and heat vision to ruin breakfast. But he flips it too fastβlike way too fastβand the thing launches halfway across the skillet before folding in on itself and sizzling dramatically.
You raise an eyebrow. Clark stares down at the pancake like it betrayed him. βI didnβt account for surface tension.β
βDid you just say βsurface tensionβ while making pancakes?β
βIβm a complex man,β he says solemnly.
You lean over and pluck a piece of fruit from the cutting board he forgot he was slicing. βYouβre a menace and a dork.β
He pouts. Full, actual pout. Then shuffles over and kisses your shoulder. βIβll get better with practice.β
You roll your eyes. But your skinβs still buzzing where his lips brushed it.
Later, you sit on the counter while he stands between your knees, coffee in one hand, the other resting warm on your thigh. Itβs quiet. Not awkward or forcedβjust soft. Full of little glances and sips and contented silence. Thereβs no fear in him now. No carefully placed pauses. No skirting around things. He justβ¦ is. Clark Kent. The boy who spilled coffee on your notes three times. The man who kept writing to you in secret even when you didnβt see him.
βYouβre not what I expected,β you say, fingers brushing his arm.
He lifts an eyebrow. βOh?β
βI donβt know. I guess I thought Superman would beβ¦ shinier. Less flannel. More invincible.β
βAre you saying Iβm not shiny enough for you?β
βIβm saying youβre better.β
He blinks. And thenβjust like thatβhe smiles. Not the bashful one. Not the public one. The real one. Small and warm and honest. The kind of smile you only give someone when you feel safe. And maybe thatβs what this is now. Safety. Not the absence of dangerβbut the presence of someone who will always come back.
His communicator buzzes from somewhere in the bedroom. Clark lets out the most exhausted groan youβve ever heard and buries his face in your shoulder like itβll make the world go away.
βYou have to go?β you ask gently, threading your fingers through his hair.
βSoon.β
βYouβll come back?β
He lifts his head. Meets your eyes.Β βEvery time.β
You kiss him thenβslow and deep and familiar now. The kind of kiss that tastes like mornings and memory and maybe something closer to forever. He kisses you back like he already misses you. And when he finally pulls away and disappears into the sky outside your windowβless streak of light, more quiet partingβyou just stand there for a moment. Barefoot. Wrapped in your robe. Heart full.
Youβre about to start cleaning up the kitchen when you see it. A post-it note, stuck to the fridge. Just a small square of yellow. Written in the same handwriting you could spot anywhere now.
βYou always look soft in the mornings. I like seeing you like this.β
βC.K.
You read it three times. Then you smile. You walk to the cabinet above the sink, open the doorβand stick it right next to all the others. The secret ones. The old ones. The ones that helped you feel seen before you even knew whose eyes were watching.
And now you know. Now you see him too.
All of him.
And you wouldnβt trade it for anything.
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Hee joo's devotion and willingness to do anything for sa eon is giving me life she's one in a million and yes sa eon is as devoted as a human can be but that's almost every male lead ever but a female lead like her is practically extinct especially one that matches her otps romantic gestures and sacrifices to an exact degree (her getting down and proposing while remaking the contract? Iconic) do you have any suggestions for other dramas with women like her? The only one I can think of from this year is Dou zhao from blossom who floored me with how she used every tool at her disposal to cherish her husband in a way you only see MLs do.
I'm also totally in love with Hong Hee-joo from When the Phone Rings and Dou Zhao from Blossom! There are some other similar female leads. Spoilers ahead:
Han Ri-ta in Moon in the Day murders her husband's father, expecting to die for it, so she can free him. (And it's even more wild because her husband killed her entire family; best enemies to lovers ever.) In the present, her reincarnation decides to off herself to end a curse/save the people around her. She's also a competent firefighter.
Naksu/Cho Yeong/Mu-deok from Alchemy of Souls. She pursues goals to a suicidal level to help Jang Uk/herself gain her powers. She also gives up her power for love. I will never get over her insane plan to poison Jang Uk and get herself tortured in Ep 3, very unhinged.
Oh Han-byul from Sh**ting Stars. She is more like Dou Zhao from Blossom, very competent at her job and very protective of the male lead (despite finding him very annoying at first). She also does the male lead thing of helping him in secret: phones for help when she sees him being mobbed by fans, gets him his favourite foods but doesn't say it's from her, etc.
Despite starting off as a silly fangirl, Orchid from Love Between Fairy and Devil matures a lot and becomes an equal to her over-powered fiance. She proposes to him too! She drugs him in an attempt to save him, endures a torture cave so they can marry, and sacrifices herself to stop a war.
I'm on Ep 28/68, but A'wu from The Rebel Princess is pretty great. She starts as a idealistic teenager but grows up very fast. She has a great ride or die vibe with her husband, which includes her threatening suicide rather than being used as a captive to sway her husband's decisions.
This is getting long, so I'll add W: Two Worlds, Flower of Evil, Happiness, and Doom at Your Service as fitting this theme. The female lead in Happiness breaking out of a military base to save her infected husband and then telling him she loves him even at his worst? *chef's kiss*
(I think I'm just listing all my favourite dramas.... I have a type)
[ warnings: sex content, oral sex, fingering, smut, angst, arranged engagement, obsession, violence, swearing, bullying, chauvinism, mention of injury, character's death ]
[ description: A cool distance turns into friendship and more when two children see that they can find refuge and understanding in each other. However, naΓ―ve dreams collide with the reality in which every event has consequences and what once could have been love becomes a dark, newly painful obsession.Β Angst, sexual tension, obsession, violence, madness, veryΒ dark Aemond.Β ]
Author's note: The story in this series is an alternate reality from the oneshotΒ Stay and love, leave and die, in which Aemond reads the letters his niece has sent to him over the years. They areΒ the same charactersΒ and it shows what would have happened between them. I have decided that both Rhaenyra and Viserys' children are titled My Prince/Princess/Your Grace, and Baela and Rhaena are titled My Lady. For the purposes of this story, Lord Arryn has a son, to whom the female protagonist was later betrothed.
Part 1 | Part 2 | Rhaenys's Letters | The Song of Lonliness (Memories) | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7 | Part 8 | Part 9 | Part 10 | Part 11 | Part 12 | Part 13 | Part 14 | Part 15 | Part 16 | Part 17 | Part 18 | Part 19 | Part 20 | Part 21 | Part 22 | Part 23 | Part 24 | Part 25 | Part 26 | Part 27 | Part 28 | Part 29 | Part 30 | Part 31 | Part 32 | Part 33 | Part 34 | Part 35 | Part 36 | Part 37 | Part 38 | Part 39 | Part 40 (End) | Aemond & Rhaenys's Children | Duty and Desire | Epilogue | To please, to serve (Years Later)
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summary: Being Rhaenyra Targaryen's heir is a difficult thing, but what happens when you also become one of the Realm's most prized posessions?
pairings: cregan stark x velaryon!reader, reader x platonic targs/velaryon
i. the dear daughter (2.8k) - At one-and-twenty and eight-and-ten, barely a year after their marriage, Ser Laenor Velaryon and Princess Rhaenyra Targaryen welcomed their first child, a daughter, into the world. The girl immediately became dear to the whole court, coddled and spoiled by all, but mostly by her grandsire, King Viserys I. The man saw in his granddaughter her mother, and as the girl grew to look like his late wife, Aemma Arryn, it became even clearer that he doted on her more than he did to his own children or his other grandchildren.
ii. about children and trouble (8.2k) - It is reported that in the year 121 AC, when the Realmβs Jewel was only six summers old, her hatchling Merrax was eaten by the Cannibal in a strange turn of events that found him moving from Dragonstone to the Dragonpit in Kingβs Landing. Princess Rhaenyra demanded to have the dragonβs head cut, but as nobody ever tried nor dared to get close to the Cannibal, it was impossible to do it. Thus, her daughter took the matters into her own hands.
iii. little big lady (5.0k) - Court whispers tell us that during her third pregnancy, Princess Rhaenyra Targaryen was particularly sensitive. She managed to cover it up pretty well, apparently, but she had one weak spot: her daughter, her firstborn and heir, who later on witnessed her little brother Prince Joffrey's birth by request of her mother. Despite openly disliking the experience, it is said that the Realmβs Jewel insisted on being present to future labours in case things went downhill β and she did, attending her mother in giving birth to all her future children.
iv. dragons' scars (6.4k) - And after the events that happened during Lady Laenaβs funeral at Driftmark, two dragons were left scarred.
v. you'll change your name or change your mind (and leave this fucked up place behind) (5.3k) - When the Kingβs Justice β the royal executioner β died, the Realmβs Jewel proposed a perfect replacement: NΔdrΔsy, her dragon, the infamous Cannibal. Even if many eyebrows were raised at the Small Council, the King hastily agreed, happy to have an excuse for keeping his granddaughter close to him, even if it was for only a few days every moon. Or, as it always ended up, for a bit more than that.
vi. but I'll know, I'll know (8.4k) - At the ripe age of ten, the Realmβs Jewel was nominated by her grandsire the King, despite all the protests of the Small Council, the official Royal Ambassador; thus, her voyages throughout the Seven Kingdoms started, and yet another nickname was forged for her by the Smallfolk: the Wandering Princess.
β³ interlude (tbd) - Blood stained sheets. The first thing that comes up to your mind? Burning them and fleeing, obviously.
vii. legitimacy (tbd) - βVaemond Velaryonβs petition holds no sense,β it is said that the Wandering Princess reiterated once she heard of her uncleβs accusations. βMy late father always recognised my brothers as his trueborn sons. Whether they look like him or the Baratheon and Arryn side of the family does not matter: they are legitimate.β
more to come!
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a late night talk sesh. let's talk ferrari & CΒ² duo
disclaimer: this is just my thoughts spilled at 3:30am with drowning assignment in front of me. i support both the drivers and the team and this is not me coming out for dispute or being rude. soo keep an open mind while reading please thank you!
apparently earlier today, i came across the talks on ferrari driver contracts which somewhat mentioned abt charles being signed up for couple years more and sainz wanting to sign up for 2 but the team giving him a year contract.
sure 2023 season wasn't the VERY BEST for the team but lowkey, i also felt like the CΒ² boys were getting treated more like hamilton-bottas duo. Literally felt like Sainz is/was treated as a secondary as compared to Leclerc.
no offence to anyone, i adore the duo every much and i hope they're both on good terms too (apart from all the Spaniard's family dramas). But at times, Ferrari gives out vibes of treating leclerc more highly than sainz but fails on tracks at majority time for leclerc.
but yeah, that's all for today folks! lemme knw what y'all think about
Did y'all forget about how ferrari completely ruined charles' race at SP just to get that win for sainz or does this selective memory only work when it comes to sainz being on the receiving end of this treatment?
Time and again ferrari has not refrained from making Charles play the second fiddle to someone who is essentially the slower driver out of the 2.
If Ferrari really wants a world they would better off with building their team around and giing priority to the faster of the 2 drivers : which evidently has been Charles throughout.
But since many of you like to claim that Charles is always being unfairly favoured, I'd kindly ask you to watch these races and rethink your words cuz the way they've fucked him in these ones is something even red bull wouldn't do to it's 2nd driver.
Hi guys, I'm planning on writing a fic for Charles sometime around this month, for the first time on tumblr (please be kind but also I would love any and all criticisms)
I do have exams coming up but I'm just so excited about this idea that I can't wait to share this fic with you guys.
Updates might be a little slow but I'm gonna be consistent with it because I have the entire thing already planned out (the chapter wise content and all), I just need to properly write everything down and post them.
Planning on a social media au along with written chapters for filling up the details.
Do DM me if you have any ideas you would like for me to write down or even if you just want to talk.
ABOUT ME: she/her, twenty-one, scorpio, infp-t, latina, professional procrastinator, major swiftie, suffering tifosi but a part-time red bull and mclaren fan
βeveryone is a ferrari fan. even if they say they're not, they are ferrari fans.β - sebastian vettel
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the honest series
βββ β i wish you could be honest with me β βββ
meet the leading ladies
an honest timeline
i wanna be yours - c.leclerc
mess it up - m.verstappen
enchanted - d.ricciardo
call it what you want - l.norris
la curiosidad - o.piastri
te quiero besar - c.sainz
bad idea right? - p.gasly
how you get the girl - l.sargeant
say yes to heaven - m.schumacher
different - a.leclerc
bonus tracks
βββ β an expansion of the honest universe β βββ
seven
(daphne's version)
nonsense
the daphlonso scandal
a christmas nonsense
the trophy boyfriends
the end of an era
most likely to...las vegas edition
the honey badger's return
you're losing me
the eras tour
the eras tour movie
family vacation
paddock dad returns
the songs inspired by daniel ricciardo
the songs inspired by max verstappen
other works
βββ β i have too many ideas in my brain β βββ
paint the town red | charles leclerc x stark!oc | fc: nicole wallace
i did something bad | redbull!charles leclerc x horner female race engineer!oc | fc: olivia holt
the blue | oscar piastri x holland!oc | fc: gracie abrams
big reputations | daniel ricciardo x female pop star!oc | fc: taylor swift
okay people i wanna hear ur hot takes for this weekend in vegas
i wana hear podium predictions, i wanna hear who u think is gunna crash out, which teams are gunna struggle where, which teams you think will be surprisingly good
Unless the strategy gods bless Xavi with forces from beyond, charles is, unfortunately, most likely to get a fricking 3 place penalty or something for impeding while coming out of that horrible pit lane exit at the hairpin...
Also (i feel like Iβm ranting on mainπ) we see charles saying in interviews that he wishes he has more privacy then why is he always so public about everything??
Heβs really not helping himself and then he goes and complains. Pick a struggle.
"Pick a struggle" oh mygod the audacity to say this...
Charles has always been public about every single thing about his career and professional life. Career and Professional life ONLY.
Charles has not disclosed anything about his personal life on his own discretion, that is not already public knowledge.
All this guy is doing is requesting privacy regarding his personal life and his decisions regarding them.
Fans waited outside his house in Monaca for signs and autographs...do you think it is too much that he would try and protect his privacy?
Do you think he enjoys reading comments about how his ex is better than his current or how they look so alike or how they prefer which one? And these are constant conversations.
Do you think he enjoys his grief about his father and Jules Bianchi being weaponised against him?? Or for that matter even being pitied for it all the time?? All those sad edits and comparisons being made and shared for your personal pleasures and entertainment??
Do you think he enjoys being harassed out in public places when he is just trying to enjoy a downtime with friends and family??
Dude is already willing to give so much of himself to his fans cuz he does recognize their importance and their feelings and that he is lucky to have our support.
Would you rather he not share anything at all then? You guys would be the first ones to complain about the lack of transparency and content then...
Perhaps YOU should pick a struggle and leave him alone.
You all could try to learn from him and be a little more kind.
Hello! This is a checklist of the ready-made chapters. Like a menu;
Notes: Hi everyone, I want to write this story as a light novel that is happy to read. The narrative focus will be on the romance story of the two characters (less focus on their professions).
INTRODUCTION
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4-4 THE END
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