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my diary

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every man i have been with has always asked for me back except him

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having inspirations and idols is so embarrassing for me to have because why am i attempting to write lyrics

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literally feel like the most spiteful bitter bitch alive and i’m convinced that maybe i should just ruin my life

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i. this very moment, i think it would a good idea to sell photos of my body like pft whatever

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having to get therapy becuz of ex boyfriend

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me just watching how my abusive ex boyfriend is forced to be friends with people who he admitted don’t really make a difference to him

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I GOT A BOYFRIEND!!!! IM FREE IM FREEEEE

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it’s 73 today and i am thinking about everything

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dreading work becuz my life is actually enjoyable right now so why would i wanna work

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the concept of me reading leon fanfiction and then proceeding to have sex with a man who is literally leon

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i wanna be his SO BADLY

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Smoking a espresso martini cigar while listening to strawberry casket 2 in a polka dot dress

What happened to me

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i have such severe ptsd from my ex boyfriend i cannot stomach

how much i HATE HIM I HATE YOU

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I’m feeling kinda lonely lately. Been doubting my job and my hyperfixation seems more exciting than real life. I’ve fallen back into retail therapy to help me attempt at satisfaction but I feel like something is missing

I’ve been thinking about him lately. Surely, it’s just the idea of him and nothing more. My brain feels fuzzy about the whole thing. His birthday is this month

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things that are becoming frequent

- hour walks

- listening to oasis

-taking cold baths

- looking at pictures of Liam Gallagher on pintrest

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Thinking about being younger all the time now that things seem so similar to how I was at 18, and even 14. My interests never changed even through all my phases of life, and I’m surrounded by so many people that I can grow naturally and not feel so shamed

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watched a lesbian movie that changed how i freaking function so now all i can think about lie a woman eating me out