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vaut rien: worth nothing | read the about page please | indie dangan ronpa oc | multiship | multiverse | oc friendly | fc is ryuko matoi from kill la kill | one-liners, para, and novella |

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hELLO! UP D ATE TI ME on mY SITUATION!

loTS HAS HA PPENED OkAY. So the basics first. My father came home from Vegas saturday. I initially took a vow of silence against him but my will is fucking weak so I talked to him today. I’m pissed as hell at him still but we’re on speaking terms. 

Most of my teachers know. It’s helping me out a lot in school because this stuff has been so fucking tough sometimes so you know how things go. My parents are doing intensive outpatient for like-90 days???? i think????? iDK it’s not rly my problem sO

my aunt’s being rly strict about bedtimes and stuff but idk not today i think she fell asleep mayb???? but whatever im a good Samaritan i dont need a Bedtime im gonna be driving soon so. ive been seeing my guidance counselor a lot and going to my therapist weekly. my sister went away to a hospital in New York for a while because of sleep deprivation and depression anxiety and maybe bipolar disorder idk????? eH she went for two weeks and she’s back now so that happened

ohh yeah uh ive been getting a lot of old activities in that i used to love doing but stopped doing them in again. i feel less empty with them in my life. vidya games, writing sometimes, making mORE OCS, doing Photoshops u kno the gig. I find writing this stuff out is therapeutic to me, so that’s a nice outlet I have. Really makes me want to get back into RPing and stuff sO

ON THAT NOTE there’s only like four school weeks left for me. I’d like to get back into rping before school ends. so im mOVING blOGS. it’ll be a multimuse blog for my dr ocs but idk i mIGHT MAKE THEM NONFANDOM OCS???? OR KEEP THEM JUST DR????? WH O K NO IM HORRIBLE AT MAKING DECISIONS.

the blog isn’t even clOSE TO FINISHED but the url is sakamxtos if u want to follow it in the meantime. uH

ill probably do some stuff to the blog this week[end] so yeah. home stretch for me. i cant wait to get back into the swing of things. for now ill stick to playing fallout and sHINY HUNTING f OR T HAT D AM N CR

ANYWYA YE AH. if u want to follow me my personal is poopnareff and i made a vent blog too! nanithefvck is the name lmao

also my skype is like... u kno tbh just ask like

idk pom mayb. im throwin u under the bus u fcu kign weeb. my skype name is so embarrassing and i stILL DON T KNO HOW TO CHANGE IT. i mean u could try searching ‘mother of jonathan joestar’ but idk if it’ll work. because that’s me. the mother of jonathan

yEAH I LVOE U all I WANT t o be back soon just checking in ill queue this post i hope my aunt isnt awake i want to die with honor bYE

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i made a cah game play w me

i chose a mishmash of card packs sO WELL SEE HOW THIS GOES YEAH

password is fuckingchrist

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i wish i was sorry

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Ayumi flops down on the nearest soft furniture, “Wow filmin’ can be a bitch.”

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s/o to whoever just voted ur rad

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hi! just wanted to check in today!

well this week is my break. and now i kno a little more as to what is going on with my family.

my mom is doing intensive outpatient at a nearby hospital for about… 90 days? i think? and my dad’s in vegas doing inpatient for 45. so he’ll be home in mid-may. as for talking to them… my mom’s lucky im talking to her. she keeps smoking in her room despite being told consistently not to. she’s not listening and im incredibly pissed at her.

ive been talking to my dad on the phone some days. i dont think ill be talking to him when he gets home for a little bit. hes going back to work (where he continually complained about being treated unfairly) because without him at work my parents thought pawning their jewelry, a giant TV that wasn’t even theirs, and my dad’s guitars was a good idea. (take a guess where that money went)

as for me? i hate them. honestly i think i hate them for what they did to me. they lied, they ruined my life, and now im an absolute mess and embarrassment. the social worker’s back in the picture (so soon after checking us off too) i have my guidance counselor’s numbers on my phone in case anything happens, and honestly im just pissed whenever im in the same room as any of them. my aunt keeps telling me to “move forward” but fuck that. they dont get my trust and respect back until they show me they’ve earned it. they dont get a free pass because they’re my parents.

if either of them relapses im disowning them and… i dont know. lets hope it doesnt come to that. but my aunt is living with me so i have a sober adult w me. my sister is consistently changing her view on my parents so honestly venting online is all i have.

other than this fucking mess ive been alright. ive been playing pokemon (still shiny hunting for that cresselia) and my aunt’s been making me be more active. ive actually been leaving the house and going places. idk how long it’s been since that happened.

i hope i can come back soon but honestly idk when ill be coming back. i will be coming back tho. as for now i think ill be renovating my pages and stuff on all my blogs but not actually being active on them. (still debating on whether i should move my dr muses to one blog or not) ill probably be giving love to my other blogs so ill be promoing them as i slowly return to them.

so yeah that’s ur update on my life and how it’s been going. like i’ve said ten thousand times my personal is poopnareff and ill be there a majority of the time so follow me and hmu if u want to talk lmao!

thanks all! bye! i love u!

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shouLD PROBABLY LIST MY OTHER RP BLOGS HUH

well there’s obviously this one.

justiceportous (ayumi’s sister, planning to renovate)

volatilexbitch (need to give this one a little love. might abandon idk)

cxdet (this ones an snk oc blog. might come back to it. for now it’s uncertain because tbh i’m rly not too sure how into snk i am. maybe if they make season 2 or smth idk)

xhno (a jjba oc blog. im definintely gonna rp on this one. need to work on links and stuff. there isn’t a whole lot on there but ill be working on this one a lot.)

lxtzebuerg (my own interpretation of luxembourg. a hetalia oc blog. giving this one some love too. need to rly work on a couple of these)

these r where i might be if im not on poopnareff. give them a look over (not a whole lot on some of them bUT EH)

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hi! just wanted to check in today!

well this week is my break. and now i kno a little more as to what is going on with my family.

my mom is doing intensive outpatient at a nearby hospital for about... 90 days? i think? and my dad’s in vegas doing inpatient for 45. so he’ll be home in mid-may. as for talking to them... my mom’s lucky im talking to her. she keeps smoking in her room despite being told consistently not to. she’s not listening and im incredibly pissed at her.

ive been talking to my dad on the phone some days. i dont think ill be talking to him when he gets home for a little bit. hes going back to work (where he continually complained about being treated unfairly) because without him at work my parents thought pawning their jewelry, a giant TV that wasn’t even theirs, and my dad’s guitars was a good idea. (take a guess where that money went)

as for me? i hate them. honestly i think i hate them for what they did to me. they lied, they ruined my life, and now im an absolute mess and embarrassment. the social worker’s back in the picture (so soon after checking us off too) i have my guidance counselor’s numbers on my phone in case anything happens, and honestly im just pissed whenever im in the same room as any of them. my aunt keeps telling me to “move forward” but fuck that. they dont get my trust and respect back until they show me they’ve earned it. they dont get a free pass because they’re my parents.

if either of them relapses im disowning them and... i dont know. lets hope it doesnt come to that. but my aunt is living with me so i have a sober adult w me. my sister is consistently changing her view on my parents so honestly venting online is all i have.

other than this fucking mess ive been alright. ive been playing pokemon (still shiny hunting for that cresselia) and my aunt’s been making me be more active. ive actually been leaving the house and going places. idk how long it’s been since that happened.

i hope i can come back soon but honestly idk when ill be coming back. i will be coming back tho. as for now i think ill be renovating my pages and stuff on all my blogs but not actually being active on them. (still debating on whether i should move my dr muses to one blog or not) ill probably be giving love to my other blogs so ill be promoing them as i slowly return to them.

so yeah that’s ur update on my life and how it’s been going. like i’ve said ten thousand times my personal is poopnareff and ill be there a majority of the time so follow me and hmu if u want to talk lmao!

thanks all! bye! i love u!

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hi.

i should probably explain what the fuck is going on with me.

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hi.

i should probably explain what the fuck is going on with me.

okay so i went through a breakup mid-march. i needed time to recover from it and as soon as i started feeling better about myself…

my parents started acting the fuck up.

i dont think theyve stopped using heroin

they get sleepy all the time and can barely keep their eyes open. my parents are both drowning in debt. and my parents-finally finishing our move-have exhausted themselves so much they started using benadryl and xanax again.

my mom nearly killed me and my sister yesterday. she claims she saw a small animal in the road but i know she fell asleep. she drove into a persons yard and knocked a tree over.

today my dad crashed his father’s cadillac (a car older than me mind you) on the highway. now they need 3000 dollars and my aunts here. i dont fucking like this.

i wanted to get back to rping soon but i just… i can’t. so much is going on, my grades are dropping, my aunt my sister and i are just…. i odn tknow how to cope.

my dad’s going to be institutionalized for a month. my mom’s going to go while im at school, then come back and “be a parent”

i dont want a damn addict for a parent.

and i certainly dont want two.

im putting all my blogs on hiatus until further notice. i need to focus on my studies and try to get my life back to some of what it once was.

ask around for my skype if you really want to talk to me. ill be on my personal poopnareff a lot too so

i dont know what to do.

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hi.

i should probably explain what the fuck is going on with me.

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so as of now im gonna stop checking this account until further notice. im sorry you have to pay for my parents’ mistakes but i just need to have time to figure out what im gonna do. where im gonna go

the post explaining what’s happening has been queued (i think for some reason i suck at queueing) and that’ll be that.

like i said hmu on poopnareff if u wanna talk to me and for my skype search shsl gay and my skype is the one with oras shelly as the icon

see u all soon! uwu i love u all!

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hi.

i should probably explain what the fuck is going on with me.

okay so i went through a breakup mid-march. i needed time to recover from it and as soon as i started feeling better about myself...

my parents started acting the fuck up.

i dont think theyve stopped using heroin

they get sleepy all the time and can barely keep their eyes open. my parents are both drowning in debt. and my parents-finally finishing our move-have exhausted themselves so much they started using benadryl and xanax again.

my mom nearly killed me and my sister yesterday. she claims she saw a small animal in the road but i know she fell asleep. she drove into a persons yard and knocked a tree over.

today my dad crashed his father’s cadillac (a car older than me mind you) on the highway. now they need 3000 dollars and my aunts here. i dont fucking like this.

i wanted to get back to rping soon but i just... i can’t. so much is going on, my grades are dropping, my aunt my sister and i are just.... i odn tknow how to cope.

my dad’s going to be institutionalized for a month. my mom’s going to go while im at school, then come back and “be a parent”

i dont want a damn addict for a parent.

and i certainly dont want two.

im putting all my blogs on hiatus until further notice. i need to focus on my studies and try to get my life back to some of what it once was.

ask around for my skype if you really want to talk to me. ill be on my personal poopnareff a lot too so

i dont know what to do.

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You must be pretty damn special if I...

Stay up late to talk to you.

Share food with you.

Say I love you before I hang up.

Let you call me names.

Give you a nickname.

Text you good morning and good night.

Tease you.

Can be completely natural around you.