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I didn’t win that contest I was really excited about. I felt like maybe finally I had a winning idea/concept/execution and yet…not this time, so I’m 0 for 3 in terms of putting my writing ‘out there’ competitively. Which is really humbling but also upsetting.

I want to believe that I’m talented and worth something and capable of doing great things with my writing and it’s nice to get positive affirmations from my friends and family and professors, but it hasn’t seemed to stand up in the real world and I’m obviously doing something wrong. Not revising enough, not writing enough, whatever.

Anyway I’ve been kind of feeling like this blog is done with for a while now. I keep making all these posts about how it totally is but I think that yeah. Really. It’s done. Not just this one but my whole era of obsessively posting and reblogging and spending hours doing jack shit on Tumblr. I want to spend more time actually writing, not rambling in unformatted posts—I want to be good enough to win these contests and get something published and maybe someday make a career out of it. I don’t know how that will go, given my past…lack of success.

I obviously don’t want to disappear from everyone’s lives forever and ever. If we talked, like, at all, and you want to keep talking to me, just drop me a message and I’ll send you some contact info. And this current project that I’m so upset over right now is actually one that I’m really excited about and that I may bring back in a blog form (not on Tumblr, but perhaps on another platform), so…stay tuned for that.

Other than that, though, thnks_fr_th_mmrs.mp3

long but read pls

I didn't win that contest I was really excited about. I felt like maybe finally I had a winning idea/concept/execution and yet...not this time, so I'm 0 for 3 in terms of putting my writing 'out there' competitively. Which is really humbling but also upsetting.

I want to believe that I'm talented and worth something and capable of doing great things with my writing and it's nice to get positive affirmations from my friends and family and professors, but it hasn't seemed to stand up in the real world and I'm obviously doing something wrong. Not revising enough, not writing enough, whatever.

Anyway I've been kind of feeling like this blog is done with for a while now. I keep making all these posts about how it totally is but I think that yeah. Really. It's done. Not just this one but my whole era of obsessively posting and reblogging and spending hours doing jack shit on Tumblr. I want to spend more time actually writing, not rambling in unformatted posts—I want to be good enough to win these contests and get something published and maybe someday make a career out of it. I don't know how that will go, given my past...lack of success.

I obviously don't want to disappear from everyone's lives forever and ever. If we talked, like, at all, and you want to keep talking to me, just drop me a message and I'll send you some contact info. And this current project that I'm so upset over right now is actually one that I'm really excited about and that I may bring back in a blog form (not on Tumblr, but perhaps on another platform), so...stay tuned for that.

Other than that, though, thnks_fr_th_mmrs.mp3

#love y'all

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ummm thats lucy liu

no...that's definitely martin freeman.

#darkaxe

top five times when i wanted a cigarette and refrained

right now

yesterday

right now

#i'm going to bed to avoid going to 7-11 for cigs

hurt by maria: a biography*

#*or a class-action lawsuit #vandesin

opining

This graph, courtesy of the Center on Budget and Policy Priorities, demonstrates the breakdown of the huge “Debt Clock” seen at the RNC. The idea behind that debt clock is to blame President Obama for all of it—but looking at the breakdown of our debt, that’s obviously not the case. Yes, Obama has added to our debt. But that’s only a small increase over massive Bush-led debt increases. And he’s also proposed a deficit-reduction plan that Republicans stonewalled on.

For all of Chris Christie’s bloviating last night about the hard choices we have to make, it’s clear that the GOP’s policies in the eight years before Obama came to office are primarily responsible for a large part of our debt. It’s the Republicans who need to reign in their spending, and the Republicans that need to be more honest about the fact that it was them who escalated our route to this level of debt.

But that would require some difficult honesty on their behalf, and that’s not what the GOP is about.

#rnc #debt

the worst thing that breaking bad has done to me is make me fall desperately in love with aaron paul I KNOW I'M LIKE AT THE BACK OF WHATEVER LINE WE ARE FORMING BUT I DON'T CARE

#angel baby

I'm taking a playwriting class this semester and the prof asked us to go around the room and talk about favorite plays/films that we'd recommend. And I'm sitting here holding, like, Teddy & Apexa up as my standard and sweating bullets that "Rosencrantz & Guildenstern Are Dead" is too obvious a choice for my favorite play or that everyone had already seen "Pariah" or something.

Guy 1: "Christopher Nolan's films are great. He has fantastic character development."

And I breathed a sigh of relief when half the class followed suit.

what a sexual album title you have there one direction

#why yes zayn i will TAKE U HOME #TO MY BED

I love you.

pretty sure i love you too, anon.

#anonymous

my dad (who despite holding some kind of fucked up views on many social issues—although i think without telling me he finally came to the right side of abortion??—has been doing a lot to read up on minority oppression lately which i am happy about) was like telling me how much he hated reagan before i left for school

like he was like "when i came here it was not my country. i didn't feel like america was mine for a long time, and not because i didn't want it to be or i missed home. but because of reagan and his supporters. i felt unwanted here. as if immigrants weren't necessary or important."

and like. that's exactly what republicans want. immigrants are unnecessary and unimportant, if they're not white. the first immigrants, the colonists who committed genocide against those already here and imposed their imperialist tradition upon a country that never asked for it, are the only ones worthy. they brought civility to this continent. they want immigrants to feel unwelcome, because immigrants are not us. so much of this convention is couched in covert racism. all the apologies to president obama don't diminish the fact that the mostly white crowd at the convention is being urged to take back something that was never theirs to begin with.

nikki haley—so much about her speech bothers me. she has to understand, doesn't she? she had to fucking convert and deny her sikhism to get elected. i can't hate her because it's hard for minorities to fucking get anywhere in this country. she wanted to become an elected official. she did what she had to do. and sure, maybe her parents had a charmed arrival in america, maybe they never experienced racially-based setbacks in creating their business, or if they did, they were strong enough to power through.

but republicans want me to believe that this is the only immigrant narrative that exists. they want me to forget that for every nikki haley, for every immigrant like my father who survived hostility to become successful, there exists a hundred, thousand other immigrant families that struggle, push back, falter, and fail. to point to the successes and say "why can't you be like them?" is disingenuous, a blatant cherry-picking that ignores that not everyone can fight. that no one should have to fight the way they did.

it disgusts me that republicans think we have such short memories, that they can pander to nonwhites by trotting out the select few who have succeeded "the republican way" as if they are somehow representative of a broader group of people who have combatted the barriers that republicans themselves have set up in an effort to build a life for themselves in america.

#gop #racism

watching the RNC with republicans is no joke it is a real struggle and i will regret it forever omg I HATE CHRIS CHRISTIE AND REPUBLICANS AND THIS COUNTRY SOMETIMES (oop nvr running 4 office i guess)

#ann romney is perrie edwards in 10 yrs tho omfg #but perrie is superior to ann imo