screams of consciousness

irl chaos demon amanda, 32, atx

[chandelyer-deactivated20241003]

Versace spring 2024

[vegetable]

Wow. My last day and last interaction with M was genuinely worse than I could have imagined. It was so bad. I drove home absolutely sobbing and questioning what the fuck the past four years have been for. I’ve had toxic relationships before but this is hands down the most confusing and upsetting of all of them.

Even though I have no obligation to even keep up appearances any longer, I tried to make it better and ended up texting her. I just wanted to send her what I had actually planned to say today before things went sideways—I had thought about and rewritten it over and over since the weekend. And somehow it turned into a conversation that continued devolving and now I don’t know that we will speak to one another ever again. I explicitly pointed out a few things she definitely didn’t want pointed out and she deflected and turned everything around on me.

I really thought she was going to act like an adult. I knew there was a not insignificant chance she would be an asshole, but I was hoping so strongly that she would be kind and sentimental that I guess I was kidding myself.

[wexler]

Law and Order: SVU - 1.08 “Stalked”

[whereiseefashion]

WISF ARCHIVE

Best of: jellyfish themed matches (a personal favourite)! More at tagged/jellyfish

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[chandelyer-deactivated20241003]

‘Fascination’ dress - 10% off code: autumn10

[taiturner]

I think I’m gonna… I’m gonna go with. You know, live and die by the buddy system and everything, so I’m… I’m just gonna… Bye.

THE WILDS | 2x03: Day 36/14

[yama-bato]

Pilar Pequeño La obra – naturalezas muertas – vasos

[acuratedlife]

[rivesveronique]

From Working Girls by Robert Flynn Johnson, copyright © 2018, published by Glitterati Editions , 1892 by  William Goldman

[2000-lightyearsfromhome]

Herbert List - Surreal Backyard rendezvous (Munich, Germany, 1946)

[yama-bato]

elena  heatherwick

https://elenaheatherwick.com/A-Country-Vet

[nostalgicamerica]

[guopei]

Moschino Pre-Fall 2022

[vegetable]

I miss Martiina. I miss my cousins. I resent that I had to make the decision to cut my family off for my own mental well-being.

I resent that I have all of this generational trauma and baggage and I get so fucking angry sometimes. I never asked for this—any of it. Not my experiences, not even being born.

[bebemoon]

silver galleon centrepiece look, for @greylette .

alexander mcqueen by sarah burton silver embroidered gown with frothy tulle hem, s/s 2o17

antique english silver coin purse, 1913

vintage silver and pearl bridal earring

alexander mcqueen silver embroidered heel, a/w 2o11 + sterling silver neff centerpiece wheel 

ines di santo “dream boat” ring with hand-applied opal enamel and rhinestone accents 

[slayerbuffy]

Buffy the Vampire Slayer + art [1/?] (insp) Judith with the Head of Holofernes, Fede Galizia (1596) Joan of Arc, Dante Gabriel Rossetti (1882) A Girl with Sunflowers, Michael Ancher (1889) The Blonde Odalisque / Resting Maiden, François Boucher (1751) The Wild Hunt of Odin, Peter Nicolai Arbo (1872)

[velvetdoll]

immoral tales (1973)