[ventilatordrone]

im 25. please leave me alone.

[goodblunt]

(nonchalant) (rock hard) i sense that you kill a lot of people

[ventilatordrone]

im sssopoooo jealous of buffy im ngl like how can i compete with ur nemesis .......

[sanshofox]

Btvs wip sketchpack the fourth. ✨

More facial studies for spike and different eras. And for spuffy I wanted to do smth with an intense stare like in season 4 where she ties him up after he got his chip or in spike‘s dream/love revelation in season 5. And the other spuffy is inspired by the fic the Darkling.

(Have to reblog for more image posting. So this is a 1/2 post. For more look up my reblog.)

[screensland]

SPIKE, Buffy the Vampire Slayer — Season Two.

[ventilatordrone]

writing ts is the most cringe i thing ive ever felt in my life but also its good to have a hobby and i like organizing my thoughts like this

[ventilatordrone]

ok im currently up in my google doc trying to plan my spike fan fiction but i keep running into all these issues planning out the plot 😭😭😭 and on one hand its no rush (since u cant rush these thjngs even if u want to) but i worry ill never really come to good answer n remain stuck w hundreds of timelines swimming around in mu brain where im fucking on that fuck ass vampire

[ventilatordrone]

like literally every single spike fic that comes up the love interest is friends w buffy, fights vampires etc can i please have a fan fiction where im spikes little pet and ONLY spikes little pet like i want the scooby gang to get the #heebies and the #jeebies seeing my hole punched battered ghastly body and be so terrified to think i need saving only to realize im a #freak who loves the abuse. i want vibes like that episode where buffy and her guys are going at it with spikes guys where dru is #weak and buffy threatens to kill her and spike calls tje whole mission off. like i want buffy to at least bluff and pretend shed kill me as leverage over spike not fight vamps with her. #respect if thats your hustle / grind but its not mine and its literally ALL TJE FICS THAT COME UP WJEN I TRU TO FIND SOME FREAK NASTY SHIT

[ventilatordrone]

i caved. im attempting writing something

[ventilatordrone]

i drank 2 or 3 days ago literally ONE DRINK and i feel like my tummy is still feeling the effects of it 😭😭😭

[ventilatordrone]

WHY IS TJIS STILL HAPPENING TO ME

[ventilatordrone]

its 1:05am i should be trying to make my 2 remaining brain cells dress up like me and spike and dry hump each other and instead im on the toilet DIAHREA POOPING MY ASS OUT

[ventilatordrone]

mys stummies hurts sos badsssssssss

[ventilatordrone]

i think im bein flirted with by someone who has confessed to having feelings in the past but they live in california 😩 which isnt a problem for me because i want to move to southern california SO BAD but idk like....they arent very psychically attractive to me. theyve said some things that have made my heart kind of flutter so o went to his ig to see of maybe id changed my mind and the answr was not really #sad but hes a man and its not uncommon for men to be uglier on camera than irl ? something tells me thts not happening here tho. also i inherently dont trust him because hes a man. also biggest thing is even if he was cute in pics to me i strongly believe u dunno if u have feelings for someone unless u have met (in real life)

[ventilatordrone]

ughhh i wish i could either a. find a good evil spike fic or 2. be better/more fullfulled at writing my own... or better yet i wish my thoughts were a little more ceherent so i could just have a fleshed out fantasy again

[ventilatordrone]

we need a support group for evil spike girls where we can exchange fan fiction and talk about how much we love evil spike

[ventilatordrone]

this is getting EMBARASSING

[ventilatordrone]

even tho obviouslyyy they wouldnt look like that

[azizazaza]