I think getting old sneaks up on you like a bad mugging in the middle of the night.
I mean really, think about it.
You go to bed like a normal person, then out of nowhere, boom, You wake up and cant move your neck. AT which point you start reanalyzing every single aspect of your day before. "Did i jump over a wall?" No… no just picked up a few toys "Did i Climb Kilimanjaro? no no, just walked around the block"
Its the part they dont tell you a bout, hat you dont realise. Things are really not what they were, physically and mentally. We cling on so much to our youth thinking we are indestructabble. Assuming we have more than enough time. That there is no "end"to say the least. That what you used to do, just a decent five years ago, you can do now. Well, truth is… the boat has sailed. Everything has impact.
I heard somewhere that what used to be easily dispensible when you were younger, as you begin to get older, isnt so simple. You really have to survey and then leap. To much on the table, so much at risk, and just like that neck, that pain shooting through the course of your body…. thats how much collateral damage there is when your older.
And no, im not saying 70s or 80s im talking that transition from early to late 30s that very tiny gap, has massive factor.
Swallowing that pill and realising those goals set for your life at this "old age"have yet to be achieved. Why? Cause i thought i had more time.
Today i woke up and realised, my son got an inch taller, my daughter is almost out of her diapers and somehow… i seem to have had this false sense of time standing still.
Scary, but true. No its not over, but, everything really counts more. So, yes, im a little more selfish with my time. The doormat has taken the mat out the door. I like my own company more. I tolerate and love my kids better than i do complete strangers and more than anything the time i spend with my mother counts so much more than a meeting or a missed deadline. Why… Time doesnt stand still.
WHats the point of all this? WHen i figure it out you'll know too. But for now, make every moment count, and i think its beyond time to rearrange the goal post. The plan from my twenties ceased to exist about two years ago. ANd a new roadmap has to be set.
When the heck did all this happen? somewhwere between procrastination and i have more time. That bit between the cappucinno and binge watch series cause im just EXHAUSTED.
Sidebar: Have you noticed how tired now is like a hangover in your twenties? Or is that just me? back to the point.
DIrection… Somewhere. Plan… Just simplify the focus. My mom always said, to eat an elephant, you have to do it, one bite at a time.
Terrifying but real. The game has changed.
#IAMRAO #Thirties #BackPain #Age #Mom
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