MISS AMERICANA | ELLIE WILLIAMS X READER
MISS AMERICANA | CHAPTER THREE
"Leave with my head hung, you are the only one
Who seems to care"
-Still reeling from meeting Ellie at the party, and seeing her again, Y/n now is dealing with complicated feelings and thoughts of Ellie, all while getting closer and forging a friendship with her.
Content Warning: Cursing, drug use, anxiety, slight homophobia, lmk if I left anything out!
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âYou want me to stay with you, hon? I can stay for like an hour or two.â Oliva offers with a small smile, and you shake your head before smiling wryly.
âItâs okay, Liv, Iâm okay. Iâll see you around.â You say softly, turning around to walk up the steps of your house. Olivia watches you go up steps, your feet heavy and your head hung and she frowns, but still begins to reverse out of your driveway, waiting for you to get inside before pulling off.
The house is dark when you get inside, and the air is still, which is expected; but it always throws you off anyways no matter how used to it you are.
You lie out on the couch, thoughts racing.
Is Ellie a lesbian thatâs interested in me?
Does Ellie want to have sex with me?
Youâve heard things about Ellie before, but theyâve never stuck in your head, and you never been one to truly engage in gossip and drama; not to mention you had your own shit going on.
You heard your friends whisper about her, you heard neighbors and parents talk about her and condemn her.
The things they say about her are awful; and itâs all because sheâs a lesbian.
And now sheâs a lesbian thatâs possibly interested in you, which could make sense actually. No oneâs done anything nice for you out of the goodness of their heart since freshman year. Everyoneâs always trying to work an angle with you, play the long game, figure you out and use you. It would make a lot of sense if Ellie defended you, and was so nice to you to get into your pants.
But youâre not a lesbian, though.
Youâve been dating Grayson since you were both thirteen (courtesy of your mom and his); but even then, youâve never even thought about another girl in a romantic way. You know who you are- and some random girl you just met canât uproot that and âturn you outâ.
But still, you canât stop thinking about it, or her in particular. Ellie is pretty, to say the least. Truth is, sheâs gorgeous, even with the mullet; and the tattoos, scarred pink lips and slit brows only add to her charm. Ellieâs not like any girl youâve ever metâŚsheâs not like any person you've ever met either. If thereâs a slither of a possibility that Ellie defended you because sheâs a good person and is being friendly to you because she wants to be your friend, a part of you wants to believe that.
For another hour, you drive yourself insane thinking of Ellie before you turn the tv on to drown out your thoughts of her.
Until you flick the tv onto another channel, and your once favorite show is on.
And you start to think of her, your mother.
All of sudden, the television isnât interesting anymore, and you quickly turn the tv off, before stalking off to your room; burrowing in your bed and forcing the heavy duvet over your head as you will yourself to take a nap.
You dream of Ellie while you sleep.
You dream of her freckles, the dots on her creamy skin, and her skin against yours. Her scarred lips on your lips, and her tattooed arms and hands, holding yours. Ellie laughs in your dream, a soft laugh, and it brings a smile to your face.
But somehow, it sends a chill down your spine, and youâre shooting up from the bed like itâs on fire, covers splayed across the floor and a sheen of sweat on your forehead and chest.
Youâre panting, and panicking, sitting down on the floor as you swipe your hand through your messy hair, gripping at the strands as you try to think clearly but to no avail.
You dreamt of her kissing you, holding you, smiling at you and it sent the butterflies in your stomach in a tizzy.
âFuck no, fuck no. That was a nightmare, right?â You whisper to no one, trying to gather yourself, but the panic isnât subsiding. You sit up on your knees, trying to lean and reach your phone, feeling for it and pulling it off the cord when itâs finally in your hand.
You unlock your phone with shaky hands, and youâre incessantly tapping on contacts as you search for Ellieâs.
You call her, without any hesitation, and when she picks up, you switch to speakerphone, your breathing heavy and audible.
You think of what to say for a moment, but it doesnât matter, because nothing can stop the words from flying out of your mouth when you finally speak.
âDo you want to have sex with me?â You ask heavily, the words said quickly and the moving on the other side of the phone pauses.
âPretty girl? What the hell are you talking about?â Her raspy voice finally fills the space in your room, and you canât ignore the flash of weirdness you feel at the sound of her voice.
âWhy do you call me that, Ellie?â You ask, exasperated and she chuckles.
âI donât know, âcause youâre a pretty girl. You donât like it?â She asks and you close your eyes for a second before sighing.
âNo, I- I didnât say that.â You say softly and you can hear slight crackles from her end of the phone before her voice becomes clearer.
âY/n, are you okay?â Ellie asks, her voice softer now, a tint of concern in it and you lean your head against the wall.
âI donât know, really. I donât know whatâs wrong with me. I shouldnât have called, Iâm sorry, Iâll go now.â You say, about to hang up the phone but she interrupts you.
âNo, stop. Donât do that, I told you to call. Iâve got a joint, I can come over and we can smoke if youâre comfortable with that?â She suggests and you smile a little, taking a deep breath before responding.
âI thought you told Grayson you donât let just anybody smoke your stuff?â You ask and she chuckles.
âYouâre not just anybody, Y/n.â
You open the door for Ellie, and she steps in smoothly. Sheâs wearing a wife beater, and a pair of shorts, her muscles on display, and you get that feeling in your chest that you had the first time you saw her, all over again.
âMake yourself at home.â You say quietly and she nods and sits down on the couch, before reclining, propping her feet up.
You hover, not really sure what to do or how to move, your body rigid and she looks at you and laughs, before patting the empty space next to her.
âIâm not gonna bite you, I promise.â She says with a grin and you nod before plopping down next to her, glancing at her for a quick second before averting your eyes to a random wood spot on the coffee table.
âSo, what was all of that about on the phone? Are you okay?â She asks and you groan, moving your hands over your face.
âThat was so stupid, Iâm sorry. I donât even know why I called, but I definitely donât know why I asked you that. I let my friends and Grayson get in my head, or whatever.â You say, panicked, and she leans forward before turning to face you.
âWhat did your friends and Grayson say?â She inquires and you finally meet her eyes.
âGrayson said that I shouldnât hang around youâŚI guess because youâre a lesbian or whatever; and my friend said that you probably want to have sex with me or something, I donât know, itâs stupid.â You say quickly, shaking your head and Ellie laughs before scoffing.
âY/n, Iâm not blind, youâre a pretty girl, why do you think I call you that? But Iâm not some creep trying to get into your pants. I want to be your friend, if I wanted to fuck you, Iâd literally just ask if you wanted to fuck.â She says, shrugging and you nod slowly, her words seeping into your brain.
âI swear, people in this town are so bored. Still talking about me being a lesbian like it hasn't been years since I came out.â She says and you put a hand on your shoulder.
âI donât careâŚif you like girls or anything. Youâre a nice girl, Ellie, what you like doesnât change anything for me.â You say softly, and a blush blooms beneath her freckles and you smile at the sight.
âI appreciate that, pretty girl. Now, ready for this?â She asks, pulling a baggie out of her pocket and a lighter.
Ellie helps you like she did the first time, placing the joint between your lips and lighting it for you, while she coaches you through the process so you donât hurt yourself. When you finally get the hang of it, she takes it back to take a hit herself, and you finally get comfortable on the couch, spreading out.
âHowâd you get this scar?â You ask, lazily moving your hand up to touch at the scar, hands moving on the soft skin of her lips, sending shivers down Ellieâs spine.
âI-I got into a fight. He got me good, but I kicked his ass.â She says softly and you hum at her response.
âAre you always fighting people?â You ask, scanning her face with lidded eyes and she gazes at you before blinking.
âOnly people who deserve it.â She says, taking another hit of the joint before giggling absentmindedly.
âWhy are you so nosy?â She teases and you giggle yourself before cocking your head to the side.
âJust curious about you, thatâs all.â You say softly and she nods slowly, eyebrows furrowed like sheâs deep in thought.
âEveryone already seems to know everything about me.â She says quietly, and you shake your head before moving closer to her, closing the space on the couch.
âFuck everyone, Ellie. Everyoneâs full of shit, they donât even try to get to know you.â You say wholeheartedly and she leans her head back against the cushion of the couch, her eyes closed.
âYouâre my friend now, Ellie. You were the first person I called, and I know I called for a stupid reason, but it means something to me.â You say softly and she opens her eyes again, turning her head towards you.
âThat means you have to beat people up for me, now. Like I was going to do for you at the party.â She jokes, a small smile on her face, and you nod your head profusely.
âI am so ready; I will beat everyone up for you if I have to!â You say, giggling and she passes the joint back to you, to which you accept, taking a hit.
âNah, but Iâm just joking. I donât want you getting in trouble and shit for me; only one of us can be a fuck up.â She says, smiling softly and you blow the smoke out.
âYouâre not a fuck up. Ellie, trust me when I say this, you can go and leave all of this shit behind. Itâs never too late.â You say earnestly, before passing the now short joint back to her. Ellie doesnât respond, only getting up to dispose of the joint, and you sigh.
âThis was fun, but I should head home; but I really did have fun, seriously.â She says, hovering by the door and you smile, biting your lip softly as a swell of affection grows in you.
âIâm glad you had fun, but should you be driving right now? Arenât you high?â You ask, concerned and she shakes her head.
âNo, my tolerance is pretty high, and youâre not a smoker so I didnât bring anything strong. Iâm fine, I promise.â She says and you lean over the couch, putting your hand out.
âPinkie promise? Donât make me worry about you, Ellie.â You say, sticking your pinky out and she chuckles, smiling warmly as she approaches you.
âPinkie promise. Iâll text you when Iâm home, okay pretty girl?â She says, locking your pinkie with her and you nod. She grins at you, waves, and walks out the door, leaving you more confused than ever.
WHOOO CHAPTER THREE YAYY! I'm actually excited because things are finally picking up and going in a good direction. I'm so excited to expand more on Y/n and Ellie's personal lives and add more to their friendship!
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