Dark Cottage Craft

[verosarey]

Felt the urge to leave offerings tonight.

I left her a plum, my rage, and grief.

Told her I'd love if she was part of my allegiance.

I walked back inside, sat down at the table and then I felt her. I felt the energy in my body and around me change. I suddenly felt like sobbing. She was hugging me

I heard her whisper "All you had to do was ask."

[verosarey]

Today, I Grieve

Last night I went into a meditation. I imagined that my sister and I were small. We were wearing nightgowns and holding hands, looking out at the ocean. We were laughing and pointing to a rainbow that was glittering in the distance. Later we went to bed in one bed, it was purple with a gauzy canopy, had fairy lights glowing in it. We were nestled up together, clutching eachothers hands, our little hearts glowing a happy blue as we sleep peacefully next to eachother. My brown hair surrounding my head and her curlier blonde hair surrounding hers. Two happy little bumps under a blanket.

We didn't know what pain was, was it was like to be pitted against one another. We just knew we were two sisters who loved eachother.

I harnessed that feeling and sent it energetically like a prayer to us in our now adult bodies to help us heal.

And then I was woken up by that same sister screaming, crying, slamming things.

Saying that I'm gross, pathetic, and lazy. (I'm physically injured)

I grieve the sisterhood I never got. I grieve the sister I still don't have. I grieve the actions from her that I thought were love, but were weaponized against me.

But I'll keep my false memory of the life I wanted for us. A small shrine to what we should have been. When my heart needs a rest I can go visit her there.

[verosarey]

Healing/Shadow Work Activity

Write a letter to your current self from the perspective of one or more of your younger or past selves.

Mine were thanking me because they know they are finally safe now.