I need to apologize to you guys. I can’t keep running this blog. At least, not right now. Last year when I was roleplaying Fullmetal Alchemist, this was a very safe, enjoyable community for me. Everything was fun, no one made me feel unsafe, and there was no drama, as has been the Thing lately.
I love the storyline of this anime. I resonate very deeply and emotionally with it. These characters are in my bloodstream. Watching this fandom fall apart like this is literally tearing me to shreds and I can not stay here to watch it.
I can’t be in a community that repeatedly makes me feel like a monster for the things that I like or ship, despite the fact that I do not associate them in any way with reality, nor do I ever write two characters together in any way unless both are adults because I am morally opposed to that. I also hate that I feel like I’m absolute garbage if I disagree with something. I can’t take care of my mental illnesses if I’m watching people I care about have the thing they love taken from them and smashed to pieces -- and I certainly can’t do that if it’s being done to me. FMA has almost been ruined for me and I have needed to leave before that happened because of how important it is to me.
Garbage like what has been going on recently is what took other things I loved and made me hate them and not want to be associated with them or anything like them again (Homestuck is an example). And I want to say something to all of you guys.
I love you all. And I need you all to please take into consideration before you make a post in that tag for that ship you think is morally wrong whether someone with a mental illness desperately needs that ship to cope with their life because it makes them happy, and ask yourself if it would just be easier to block people who post it. The same goes for any other topic. Don’t ruin the things people love for them and make them suffer intensely, even if you view it as wrong. This is fiction, there is a difference between what people write/draw/like and what they actually find acceptable and okay in real life, and only use to forget that they are suffering on a day to day basis.
Please don’t do this stuff to people anymore. Don’t post mean things because you’re angry with someone. Talk to them in private. If they don’t try to rectify a situation, block them and move on. Don’t attack someone because they like something or disagree with something else. At the end of the day we are all nerds on the internet trying to get away from the things that hurt us away from the computer. Some of us might be sobbing our eyes out even though we’re posting some stupid meme or really cute picture of two characters hugging each other. We are human beings. We need to respect one another.
On that note I will still be participating as a moderator for @fullmetalpositivity. But I just won’t be here anymore. At least not until I’m able to get my muses back and feel like this is a safe place for me to be again. I’m very sorry, everyone.
