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…they are all dissolving away and none of them matter anymore. I don’t know them, I have never known them and I am very pure. carrd esfj sx937 sei

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got the lizzo juice layout rn

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Hanif Abdurraqib, "Glamor on the West Streets / Silver Over Everything"

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you’re in her dms im in her car about to get hit by a double decker bus

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stills from Amanda Feilding's "Heartbeat in the Brain"

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For those who don't know- this woman and her then-lover were huge believers in the benefits of trepanation, aka drilling holes in the head to relieve some sort of pressure and reach a state of euphoria, and were such advocates they decided to do it to themselves.

Joey Mellen, the guy she was with, failed at piercing his skull several times and was 5150'd until his eventual success, and he later wrote a book about it called Bore Hole.

Using all of his past failures to not fail so much, Amanda Feilding successfully drilled a hole in her own skull and filmed the entire thing for a self-made documentary, Heartbeat in the Brain. The full documentary is lost media, but a few shots and stills were used in the OTHER documentary A Hole in the Head.

According to both of them they loved having these holes in their heads and it improved their lives a whole lot. Genuinely fascinated by them.

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i miss myself

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i promise i love you all but i’ve been so braindead that i can’t find the energy to do anything... “the summer that hikaru died” more like the summer i dissociated because in april i was lovely and suddenly i’m a shell of my former self

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will probably just study socionics at this point and then translate it into mbti

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contemplating my mbti this time instead of enneagram 🌹🌹 i’m pretty confident in other systems, socionics might be questionable, and my big 5 i don’t burden myself with since it can change as life goes on

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nvm back on tumblr for my monthly typology crisis again

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nvm. i am sx9 😇🙏🙏🙏🕊️🕊️

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“I come to this land to ride my horse, to try my own guitar, to copy out their separate names like sunflowers, to conjure up my daily bread, to endure, somehow to endure.”

Mother and Jack and the Rain

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i think my need to “merge” was actually due to my ne + so7 fix being prominent, as i reflect on myself and interactions with others, there’s a LOT of ppl that i absolutely don’t wanna merge with despite my fondness for them

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it’s hard to believe i’m growth integrating into 3 when i’m at a low point in my life rn

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would you kill me if i’m starting to believe i’m sx3w2 core

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double positivity, double aggressive, double attachment

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hi tumblr i’m back purely for typology

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deleting tumblr gootbye if you need me then send a msg to god