update??
just remembered my password to the fuckass account and holy cringe omfg, anyways update ig even though probably no one would see this I have since then recovered and it does get better.
I'm 20 now, I have a better relationship with food and my body I haven't self harmed for about 4 months I believe?? healing is a journey, you just need to be kind to yourself because I was at my most miserable during the peak of my disorder. I intentionally avoided interaction resulting in me being at my most loneliest periods of my life. like oh yeah crying on the floor hunched over my fitness pal with Lana del Rey playing in the background is the best way to spend my teenage years. (no shade to Lana I still love her) its a lot to unlearn and I have done permanent damage to my psyche and my body and that's just my consequences.
idk I just wanted to get this all out just for me its like a weight off my shoulders, I won't be tagging this with any of the previous tags I used since it doesn't feel right to me.
:p
