i’ve watched the person i love grow from the girl i fell in love with to the woman that i love today. i know that what I feel for her is love but the biggest thing for me right now is my lack of trust in myself which reflects across my lack of confidence and trust issues. I’ve been working on being less hard on myself so i’m reflection I will be less hard on others. I’m becoming more patient with myself to expand my elasticity of patience once again. I am becoming more and more resilient everyday. We’re in separation right now and I gave her full acceptance to let her find herself and I pray everyday that she is doing just that, healing and becoming more and more of the woman she wishes to become. I can’t wait to see her again at the end of all this, if nothing works out that’s okay because at least we both will become better versions of ourselves after all of this. I have faith in our connection and i trust that she can handle herself, I worry from time to time because our separation is in a no contact phase but I pray that she is okay. I miss her so much but we’re going to get through this. I’m am becoming a better me to be a better person to the people in my life that i love and to myself to become the person I envision and aspire to be. I am so ready to put in the work and transition into the next stage of my transformation. I am driven to be better than I was, better to me, better to you and receptive to us without letting my core fears get in the way. I am just going to love you, all of you and be myself, express myself and let our connection flow, I don’t need answers love I just need you.
