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I’m exhausted
I’m stressed
I’m lost
I’m depressed
I’m continuing to face the fact the my whole life went to shambles and back. Things don’t ever get easy, they always go down. I can’t keep my head up with my back on the ground. The weight of the world is crushing me hard, I can’t breath anymore. I’m tired. I’m scared. I’m lost in the emotions of day to day life, having to keep a happy face, having to face a fight.
All these things are the ones I feared. The days with you are only my nightmares. I left, I fled, I could finally rest my head.
Then the days of your pain where soon to follow. I scurry around like a chicken with no head. Sometimes I think “ I’d be better fucking dead.”
The strain is too much, the anger boils inside. The girl who I fell in love within myself, has died
I can’t find her
No matter what I say
Maybe
Just maybe
I’ll see her again someday
