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notoricus.

“ i don’t want you to apologize. “ she replied with a shake of her head. “ i have heard enough i’m sorry’s these past six months, that i don’t need to hear anymore. and i don’t have anymore forgiveness in my heart to say that it’s okay. “ sutton’s heart was completely shattered, with the loss of her brother, and then everything following that drained the brunette. “if this was six months ago, and you came knocking on my door, safeya, i would have fell right into you, but i can’t do this, i can’t do this with you. you come into my life, and then before i can blink something better comes along and you’re gone, you’ve been like this since we were six. i don’t believe you, i don’t forgive you, and i cannot allow anymore hurt in my heart. “

there wasn’t much she could say. guilt felt heavy, now balancing on her chest. she was being consumed, every word and pained expression the girl wore pressing into her heart just enough for it to hurt. the knowledge that she had caused some of that pain was enough to conjure up specks of self loathing. safeya nodded in understanding, because that was all she could do. “i know, i know. i won’t say sorry. don’t forgive me, you should hate me. but you should know that i don’t hate you. that you’re the reason i came back. you’re the reasoniI always come back.”

#┊◗ ° ᴄʜᴀᴛs ᴡɪᴛʜ safeya.#notoricus #this is so cheese and so angst #i love

it was a comfortable silence. neither party urging for information nor begging for the other to speak. remaining at ease, lost in thought, thoughts of which were filled with adoration for the person next to her, only half of which she would admit to. ramona found herself fumbling with the bracelet wrapped around her wrist. gaze directed towards her lap. although she was not looking for something to say realization on a certain topic hit her. the blonde turned her head, brows sewn together in curiosity. “tell me a secret?” she asked.

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notoricus.

sutton shook her head, not daring to look at the other, she couldn’t. “ oh i’m great. “ she replied sarcastically. the past year, had to be the hardest of them all, it felt like her whole world was crumbling right before her eyes, and there was nothing she could do to stop it. “ you shouldn’t have come here. “ sutton told her coldly, she was angry with the other. there had been no contact between the two, no phonecalls, no emails, no replies, sutton felt like she was unimportant, where saf used to mean everything to her. “ why? why are you back? “

excuses were exaggerated, partially fabricated, versions of a story in order to mend guilt. saf didn’t waste her time on them. though that didn’t stop her hands from fumbling with the buttons of her jacket pockets out of nerve. “we’ll i’m here so it doesn’t matter.” she shrugged, it had been a while since she felt so uncertain, so small. her immense amount of self confidence fiddled down to nothing. “ i wanted to see you, and maybe apologize if you’d let me. because i missed you, and i know that doesn’t mean anything to you at this point, but it means something to me.”

#┊◗ ° ᴄʜᴀᴛs ᴡɪᴛʜ safeya.#notoricus

rambunctiious.

sutton was supposed to be back at school, but with the snowstorm she decided to stay home, and wait until the roads are clear. she had zero distractions, her girlfriend was at her school, her parents were at a party with her older siblings, and her nephew was sleeping peacefully upstairs. sutton took this time to study, and watch netflix with a bag of doritos to pick at. her eyebrows furrowed at the knocks on the door, she wasn’t expecting anyone. walking down the long hall and she swung it open. her face froze, her whole body did, when she noticed who was on the other side. “ no. “ she said with a shake of her head, leaning against the door with her arms folding. “ what are you doing here? “

saf had made herself sick with endless possibilities filtering through her conscious on the plane ride home. among the list of things she hoped to achieve once on the ground, this was the first. of course she was well aware of the distance now placed between her and sutton, she wasn’t stupid. perhaps her biggest fault would be hope, wishing for a warm welcome home. now looking at it in such light seemed foolish. Her smile fell, as did her gaze, uncertainty taking over. “i wanted to see you.” she said, half confused. “i wanted to know how you were.” after, and only after, swallowing the lump forming in her throat did she dare to make eye contact once again.

#┊◗ ° ᴄʜᴀᴛs ᴡɪᴛʜ safeya.#rambunctiious #!!

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snow was collecting against pavement and saf had been gone for over a year. it was hard to believe that her neighborhoods homes managed to look so bleak under the weight of winter. though walking from one destination to the next, wrapped up in a bulky jacket and an excessive scarf, she felt the familiarity of it all. only when she knocked on the door of an old friend's house did her hands shake. she stuffed them in her pockets, inhaling deeply in preparation. when the door the opened, a smile pulled at the corners of her lips as if anxiety never touched her. “hey,” words muttered, “can i come inside?”

#┊◗ ° ᴄʜᴀᴛs ᴡɪᴛʜ safeya.#rambunctiious #nice !

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