heart surgeon ,

[virginadixon]

                                        ❛     I    DO   HEARTS     ❜

                V I R G I N I A     D I X O N ,        of   abc’s   G R E Y ’ S   A N A T O M Y .

001.     private / selective.   i work for a living, so as a disclaimer — this will be a low activity blog.   written by delilah.   she/her.   twenty-seven.   do not interact if you are under the age of eighteen.

002.      virginia is autistic,   but she is not as incapable as the show had made her out to be.   it was unrealistic for someone of her age and position to have such poor coping and communicative skills.   so therefore,   this portrayal is going to be extremely canon divergent.   i am not autistic,   so i will constantly be doing research through scholarly sources to educate myself on autism so that i may portray her properly.   if you have some insight or constructive criticism on my portrayal PLEASE reach out to me,   i heavily encourage it.

003.      another point,   i am not a cardiothoracic surgeon,   nor do i have any medical knowledge background.   i will also be doing my research on this topic.

004.      i haven’t seen past season thirteen,   i probably never will,   so if your character was introduced after that i will look through their wiki for information.

005.     virginia’s main alt verse is written in the lost universe and is affiliated with @julesburke​.

[virginadixon]

julesburke​:

few words have been exchanged since leaving the smaller island.     of course,   there have been stolen glances and subtle guiding touches,   but now they’re alone.   you quietly wait for something           anything.   even if it just a protest or demand to be freed,   at least then you’d know what she was thinking.   instead you’re left studying her face :   the way her features twist and morph in response to little things,   wishing you would be able to make her feel even the slightest bit comfortable.   you care for her.   it’s utterly reckless and given your past track record of love affairs in poor taste,   not to mention wildly bold to assume that her interests would lie anywhere other than the opposite sex.

chest caves in as lungs deflate,     releasing a held breath of anticipation.     “   it’s no trouble at all.   ”     the records provided on this woman had been limited,   little to no information about personal life besides the numerous awards and articles written about her work in the medical field.   her childhood had been normal,   not suspenseful in the slightest way           but early adulthood           that’s where it had gotten interesting.   documentation of virginia’s mid twenties just didn’t seem to exist,   it was like she had been plucked out of thin air after finishing med school,   and then dropped back into the world five years later.   you’re fascinated by her mind,   and greedy for more information.   for the holes in her story, for any mundane detail that would help you get to know her.

“   that’s more than all right   …   i hope you’ll be comfortable here,   with me.   ”     voice carrying a soft,   satisfied tone.   gaze travels along her form,   starting at her mouth and moving down to her arms where hands trembled.     “   why don’t i get the shower started for you ?   or would you prefer a bath ?   a nice long soak always makes me feel better   …   really gets rid of the grimy feeling that this place can leave you with.   ”

it was like experiencing a fever dream — the love of her life finally within arms grasp after countless nights of praying for reunion. appearance identical to the memories her younger self had embedded deep within mind. juliet’s voice just as soothing as honey mixed with tea. subtle touches to skin as soft as silk. and as repulsing the status of prisoner was to virginia, there was zero intention of fleeing. the better part of judgement being hopeful that if anything bad were to happen — the blonde would step in. whatever mission other oceanic members were desperate to seek out, it did not matter. this was enough for the brunette, even if the history shared was never remembered. 

dilated pupils fixate on one of the framed photographs displayed against the wall. showcasing a younger version of woman standing before her, surrounded by other members from the hydra — an aquatic branch from the dharma initiative. heart swelling with fondness but mourning, noting the hope radiating from the smile frozen in time — for she had the same when hired onto the project by horace. mentally pondering total count of victims the island had under its belt. fingers continue to nervously pick at the other before inquiry brings focus back to reality. readjusting tense stance, corners of lips upturn in the slightest amount — unnoticed if not paying attention. desperately wanting to confirm the woman’s intent. 

anything offered from juliet sounded like heaven inside of the brunette’s ears. eyes jumping from the woman’s lips to the interior of bathroom. rouge now tinting down her exposed neck and chest. “just a shower… please?” doing best to not think about the offered bath — for the last time she had been inside that particular tub, the blonde had joined. virginia did best to swallow down the nausea continuing to churn, tucking strands perfectly behind ears out of habit. “you think the island is grimy?” inquiry clearly hesitated prior to leaving lips. following the woman into bathroom and avoiding all acknowledgement of the guest room, allowing the door frame to support some of the weight as arms remain crossed instinctively across middle.

[virginadixon]

it’s the collared jcpenny denim for me

[virginadixon]

@julesburke​ asked: ∗ 91﹕ sender  holds  receiver  as  they  cry.

𝟏𝟎𝟎 𝑵𝑶𝑵𝑽𝑬𝑹𝑩𝑨𝑳 𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑷𝑻𝑺 -- accepting.

the dock had consumed fixation, silently frozen in place watching the tragedy unfold — experiencing everything once more. only this time, virginia was a bystander. frame flinched at the harsh sounds emitting from younger self, sounds she had not made to this day. salty tears burning the inside corner of lids that currently streamed down the face of other. virginia wanted nothing more than to provide comfort — remembering the fear. wanting to forewarn the tremendous loss that would occur several hours later, leaving her bloodied and admitted to hospital. to reiterate the promise of reunion that the blonde was doing best to relay. to provide comfort to not only the loving parents that were pulling her onto the boat — but to herself.

there was no effort of movement, no brave attempt to interfere with the alternate timeline. finding breath that had been withheld once the submarine had submerged completely underwater. the only priority being to eliminate the distance between herself and juliet — the woman she had desperately been trying to get back to. body trembled when reaching her intended destination, parting lips to make noise — to scream out for the lover currently mourning loss — but nothing came. tears continuing to stain her rouged cheeks as legs began to slowly move.

“j-jules...” name trembled from swollen lips, arms immediately wrapping around the blonde’s neck when acknowledgement was made. lids clenching tight as face hid inside the crook of offered neck. inhaling the familiar scent as body wracked over and over again with sobs. 

[julesburke]

the pads of fingers run along the wall as she rounds the corner,     “   and in that closet is fresh towels and linen   …   please feel free to help yourself.   ”     gentle voice accompanying the soft gaze that searches for the brunette,   making sure she was still following after.   what is the true intentions behind her willing staying ?   it’s a question pondered silently,   repeatedly.   if given the opportunity you would have left them long ago and never looked back.   but you cannot deny your selfish joy because of her decision.   from the moment you laid your eyes upon her you were enthralled.   feeling drawn to her in a way that felt like it were fate.   what a silly notion,   @virginadixon​ did not stay for you.

“   if there’s anything i can do for you at all,   don’t hesitate to ask.   ”     stopping in the doorway of her guest bedroom.   turning on heel,   now directing full attention on her guest with an inviting smile.     “   there’s the bathroom,   i’ll get you some clean clothes that you can wear after your shower.   ”      tucking fallen blonde strands behind ear before gesturing to another door.     “   or,   if you’d rather stay with jack,   that can be arranged too.   ”     ( sc )

[virginadixon]

the grand tour of the home was insulting, even when knowing the gesture was not intentional. nothing had changed since virginia, herself, had resided in the home many years prior — give or take a few decor choices. the same colors, fixtures, indiscrepancies still remaining with bandaid fixes. arms wrapping taut across stomach, determined to keep any sign of emotions subsided until a closed door was presented. heart beat ringing choirs inside ears as hues fixated upon the woman standing before her. the ghost of her past, present, and future. 

“oh— thank you,” words spoken with semi-hoarse voice following harsh swallow -- not having realized the turn in conversation had landed upon self. hues move towards the offered room and brows furrow slightly. another slap in the face? the thought quietly pondered. it would be a lie to say that virginia did not jump at the opportunity presented to leave the aquarium. not only would there be a mattress waiting — company would be kept with juliet. stomach churning madly with recollections from life shared before — pressure becoming more centralized. perhaps she was destined to be a glutton for punishment. panic festering at the mention of another location.

“i- i prefer to stay here… with you... if that would be alright?” offering the visual aid of a forced smile as cheeks begin to rouge. tips of fingernail digging anxiously out of habit, fear that offer had already been regretted -- realization that virginia's presense was haunting.

[ohisms]

𝟏𝟎𝟎 𝑵𝑶𝑵𝑽𝑬𝑹𝑩𝑨𝑳 𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑷𝑻𝑺 .    (  a  collection  of  100  nonverbal  action  prompts .   mature  and  potentially  triggering  themes  are  present .   add  “ + reverse ”  to  swap  assigned  roles . )

∗ o1﹕ sender  tucks  hair  out  of  receiver’s  face . ∗ o2﹕ sender  offers  receiver  a  bite  from  their  fork . ∗ o3﹕ sender  places  their  feet / legs  in  receiver's  lap . ∗ o4﹕ sender  offers  receiver  an  earbud  to  share  their  music . ∗ o5﹕ sender  comforts  receiver  in  the  aftermath  of  a  nightmare . ∗ o6﹕ sender  gives  receiver  company  in  the  hospital . ∗ o7﹕ sender  wraps  their  arms  around  a  hysterical  receiver  to  calm  them . ∗ o8﹕ sender  shows  up  at  receiver’s  home  late  at  night . ∗ o9﹕ sender  falls  asleep  leaning  against  receiver . ∗ 1o﹕ sender  wields  a  [ gun / knife ]  at  receiver . ∗ 11﹕ sender  runs  their  fingers  through  receiver’s  hair . ∗ 12﹕ sender  invites  receiver  to  dance . ∗ 13﹕ sender  takes  a  [ picture / video ]  of  receiver . ∗ 14﹕ sender  places  their  head  in  receiver’s  lap . ∗ 15﹕ sender  and  receiver  make  eye  contact  across  a  busy  room . ∗ 16﹕ sender  pushes  receiver  against  a  wall  to  kiss  them . ∗ 17﹕ sender  and  receiver  cook  together . ∗ 18﹕ sender  comes  to  receiver  after  being  injured . ∗ 19﹕ sender  sits  in  receiver’s  lap . ∗ 2o﹕ sender  lifts  receiver's  chin ,  invoking  eye  contact . ∗ 21﹕ sender  overtakes  receiver  in  combat . ∗ 22﹕ sender  finds  receiver  [ injured / bloodied ] . ∗ 23﹕ sender  straightens  an  article  of  receiver’s  clothes . ∗ 24﹕ sender  crawls  into  bed  with  receiver . ∗ 25﹕ sender  rolls  their  eyes  at  receiver . ∗ 26﹕ sender  lights  receiver’s  [ cigarette / joint ] . ∗ 27﹕ sender  is  caught  wearing  receiver's  clothes . ∗ 28﹕ sender  strikes  receiver  with  a  pillow . ∗ 29﹕ sender  writes  a  note  on  receiver’s  skin :  [ note ] . ∗ 3o﹕ sender  wraps  a  blanket  around  receiver’s  shoulders . ∗ 31﹕ sender  runs  and  jumps  into  receiver’s  arms . ∗ 32﹕ sender  shoves  receiver  out  of  anger . ∗ 33﹕ sender  hovers  over  receiver’s  shoulder  as  they  complete  a  task . ∗ 34﹕ sender  is  found  by  receiver  somewhere  they  shouldn’t  be . ∗ 35﹕ sender  curls  up  against  receiver  in  their  sleep . ∗ 36﹕ sender  is  found  drunk  by  receiver . ∗ 37﹕ sender  throws  an  item  of  sentiment  bitterly  at  receiver . ∗ 38﹕ sender  joins  receiver  in  the  shower . ∗ 39﹕ sender  is  caught  following  receiver . ∗ 4o﹕ sender  traces  one  of  receiver’s  [ scars / bruises ] . ∗ 41﹕ sender  twines  their  fingers  with  receiver’s . ∗ 42﹕ sender  barges  into  receiver’s  home  unannounced . ∗ 43﹕ sender  kicks  receiver’s  shin  beneath  a  table . ∗ 44﹕ sender  aggressively  shoves  past  receiver . ∗ 45﹕ sender  kisses  receiver’s  [ forehead / cheek ] . ∗ 46﹕ sender  pulls  receiver  out  of  harm’s  way . ∗ 47﹕ sender  is  found  sobbing  by  receiver . ∗ 48﹕ sender  locks  receiver  out  of  their  room . ∗ 49﹕ sender  brings  receiver  [ coffee / tea ]  in  the  morning . ∗ 5o﹕ sender  rests  their  forehead  against  receiver’s . ∗ 51﹕ sender  plays  a  song  for  receiver  that  reminds  them  of  them :  [ song ] . ∗ 52﹕ sender  takes  a  [ punch / stab / bullet ]  meant  for  receiver . ∗ 53﹕ sender  buys  receiver  a  drink  at  a  bar . ∗ 54﹕ sender  needs  receiver’s  help  getting  in  the  bath . ∗ 55﹕ sender  and  receiver  cross  paths  in  the  kitchen  late  at  night . ∗ 56﹕ sender  twists  receiver’s  arm  behind  their  back . ∗ 57﹕ sender  winks  at  receiver . ∗ 58﹕ sender  is  found  collapsed  by  receiver . ∗ 59﹕ sender  prevents  an  injured  receiver  from  getting  up . ∗ 6o﹕ sender  claps  a  hand  over  receiver’s  mouth  to  silence  them . ∗ 61﹕ sender  cages  receiver  against  a  [ wall / the floor ]  with  their  arms . ∗ 62﹕ sender  storms  away  from  receiver  during  an  argument . ∗ 63﹕ sender  is  found  by  receiver  sleeping  in  receiver’s  bed . ∗ 64﹕ sender  [ applies / touches up ]  receiver’s  makeup . ∗ 65﹕ sender  throws  receiver  into  a  wall  during  combat . ∗ 66﹕ sender  dances  sensually  with  receiver . ∗ 67﹕ sender  strikes  receiver  across  the  face . ∗ 68﹕ sender  places  their  hand  on  receiver’s  leg  while  driving . ∗ 69﹕ sender  pulls  a  chair  out  from  under  receiver . ∗ 7o﹕ sender  catches  receiver’s  wrist  when  they  turn  to  leave . ∗ 71﹕ sender  leaves  an  intimate  mark  on  receiver . ∗ 72﹕ sender  beats  receiver  in  a  video  game . ∗ 73﹕ sender  and  receiver  stand  in  stunned  silence  after  a  fight . ∗ 74﹕ sender  cares  for  receiver  while  they’re  sick . ∗ 75﹕ sender  and  receiver  go  on  a  hike . ∗ 76﹕ sender  is  caught  snooping  in  receiver’s  things . ∗ 77﹕ sender  and  receiver  cuddle  while  watching  television . ∗ 78﹕ sender  throws  something  aggressively  at  receiver . ∗ 79﹕ sender  creeps  up  behind  receiver  to  scare  them . ∗ 8o﹕ sender  and  receiver  go  shopping  together . ∗ 81﹕ sender  helps  receiver  [ dye / style ]  their  hair . ∗ 82﹕ sender  draws  receiver  into  a  kiss  by  the  back  of  their  neck . ∗ 83﹕ sender  is  discovered  having  a  panic  attack  by  receiver . ∗ 84﹕ sender  accidentally  injures  receiver  during  sparring . ∗ 85﹕ sender  grabs  receiver  roughly  by  the  hair . ∗ 86﹕ sender  brings  receiver  to  their  knees  during  combat . ∗ 87﹕ sender  shows  receiver  evidence  of  a  lie  they  told . ∗ 88﹕ sender  winks  [ seductively / mockingly ]  at  receiver . ∗ 89﹕ sender  yells  at  receiver  to  put  their  hands  in  the  air . ∗ 9o﹕ sender  helps  receiver  patch  up  a  wound . ∗ 91﹕ sender  holds  receiver  as  they  cry . ∗ 92﹕ sender  silently  and  angrily  points  receiver  towards  the  door . ∗ 93﹕ sender  gestures  for  receiver  to  sit  down . ∗ 94﹕ sender  pulls  receiver  into  their  lap . ∗ 95﹕ sender  cradles  receiver’s  face . ∗ 96﹕ sender  tackles  receiver  out  of  the  way  of  danger . ∗ 97﹕ sender  has  hidden  an  injury  from  receiver ,  and  receiver  finds  out . ∗ 98﹕ sender  confronts  receiver  about  their  unhealthy  behavior . ∗ 99﹕ sender  proposes  to  receiver . ∗ 1oo﹕ sender  has  just  died ,  receiver  finds  out .

[julesburke]

                                it’s  very  stressful  being  an  other ,

[vandetramp]

GREY’S  ANATOMY ,   5x8   :   these ties that bind.