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Why so serious? This is not a two-way-mirror to me.

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3rd failure or 3rd lesson? Well, whatever.

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Pengen nyerah tapi ga pengen nyerah 🫠

I raise, I fall, I raise, I fall, I raise, I ...

shattered into pieces already that it affects my physical health.

I'm so lost.

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Someone did asked me if I was happy with my life and he was no other than my first love.

How could I not fall deeper into him back then.

What a worthy memory to remember.

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https://www.instagram.com/reel/CaFYoilLIuV/?igshid=MDJmNzVkMjY=

😶

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https://www.instagram.com/reel/CbnG2gsMPpV/?igshid=MDJmNzVkMjY=

😮‍💨

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Niatnya cari booster semangat, malah dibuat hancur berkeping-keping (oleh harapan sendiri)

Bodoh, memang :)

Ayo cepat bangkit, waktumu kian sempit!

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Sad.

Shouldn't be brave enough to drown into "that" stream of uncertainty.

I'm breaking into pieces.

Will it last a week, a month, or ....

But hopefully not an eternity.

It's worth it, indeed.

But still, I deserve happiness. Don't I?

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😮‍💨

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Padahal ga pernah ga sibuk, tapi tiap hari selalu worry kalo belum produktif.

Selama belum ada significant growth, rasa resah itu belum bisa mereda.

Tapi setidaknya agak lega dengan penjelasan bedanya finish line dan the end.

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Berani-berani nanya ada preferensi.

Preferensinya itu kamu, iya kamu.

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Kadang iri sama mereka yang nggak do their best tapi tetap bisa chill.

Aku juga seharusnya bisa berlari sambil tetap bisa menikmati pemandangan sekitar.

What should I bring this life of mine? Which way should I take to find a (self) love?

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My jaw literally drops anytime He shows me that my first impression on someone turns to be the truth.

I always try to have a positive mindset, but they kinda radiate something I can't explain but feel.

OMG

well back to the real me, the care-free person.

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Nggak kerjaan, nggak personal life.

Nggak ada yang nggak hadeuh.

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Saat memulai, kamu nggak harus langsung jadi hebat kok. Nggak mesti langsung jadi yang terbaik. Semangat! Nggak apa-apa. Semua butuh proses, yang penting berprogres.

Terima kasih, mentor-mentorku dan semua orang yang punya kepercayaan jauh di atas nalar sama kemampuan yang bahkan aku tidak pernah notice itu ada di dalam diriku.

Bismillah ya..

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Tau nggak sih rasanya?

Pengen sesuatu yang banget-banget, udah diperjuangin, udah dikejar, tapi belum sampai juga.

Tapi kemudian liat ada orang yang jalannya lebih berat tapi syukurnya lebih banyak..

Rasanya pengen peluk erat terus nangis bareng-bareng sambil bisikin, "gapapa capek itu manusiawi, kamu pasti bisa, yuk lari bareng-bareng. Kita kejar sama-sama sampai dapat."

Itu mungkin tidak akan segera menyelesaikan masalahku atau masalah mereka, tapi setidaknya kita akan melewati semua sama-sama.

Dari kecil selalu diajari ini sama bapak :

1 orang penakut + 1 orang penakut = 1 orang pemberani

(pengen banget bantu mereka padahal bantu diri sendiri aja belum tuntas dan sadar juga nggak mungkin menyelamatkan semua orang)

Mixed feeling banget.

Kini aku paham kenapa ada orang yang bercita-cita jadi philanthropist.

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I trust you really do have the same vibe as I love you.

Thank you, pals!

I know I have a big job to return it in the best way possible.