Wrapping Up The Dabba.
Ummm. It’s been a rough year..as far as the fandom life goes. Full of many downs (hence me lovingly calling it a MANHOOS YEAR!!!). But all the downs don’t mean there weren’t any ups. In fact, 6 hours before the date officially changed to 2018, I sat down to look back to the year that was and could only remember the good things. As disappointing RiKara turned out to be, I can’t deny that they were really my muse throughout the year. The one ship that made me write, gif, edit, vm, headcanon - that’s rare for me. Specially the vm part. I’m actually quite pleased that because of RiKara I got over my fear of vming and churned out some decent vms this year. That and of course..they have been the only ship in my life which made me make a whole separate blog for them! And not just make it but maintain it to the best of my ability. That’s HUGE for me people. ME. A lazyass person who can’t stay committed to anything except messing up my life xD
Honestly, I’m no longer the person who celebrates the changing of the date. Life doesn’t overnight become better or even change significantly. But still...12 months is a long time. People do change, sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worst. So it’s alright to be sentimental at this time. Rest assured, I won’t be TOO sentimental but still, bear with me.
Vishwaspur happened..on a whim. And woah..the starting few days WERE a huge a struggle. The amount of times I forgot the switch between my main blog and this one was crazy xD And then filling this blog up with new&relevant content was also a race for me. Cuz I just HATE empty blogs. But before I knew it..the blog was up and running smoothly. Back in those days I was SO into the mess that was Dil Boley Oberoi that I just wanted a place to vent freely without the fear of being judged or questioned. My corner, my space. I just wanted to stan the amazingness that was Gauri Kumari Sharma and savor every little bit of RiKara goodness that I got to the fullest. I didn’t want any jhamela or kit-pit. I knew that there was a decent fandom for Ishqbaaaz on tumblr already so I was happy that I would get enough notes on my gifs/edits to keep me going. Then there was the Dabba Tales! Which just..hah! I sometimes go back to read some of my episode reactions and have a good laugh at them. Ehh..I’m not that bad at humor as I think myself to be xD Or maybe it was just DBO providing me enough fodder to make a whole dum biryani out of every. single. DAY. Either way..what fun!
Back then..I had legit NO idea that VP would grow the way it did. Very soon it wasn’t just me posting my shit on the blog. I was interacting with anons and users alike. Maybe because I haven’t really been active in tumblr fandom but..it was a delightful feeling for me. Actual people interested in my opinions? It’s not a feeling that I get to have in my personal life. EVER. I’ve been part of forums and fandoms before but here it was a feeling of exclusivity. Most of the interaction was one-on-one. And honestly, I did keep it that way deliberately. Almost everyday there would be asks waiting for me to get to and really, they became the highlight of my day. But I must say it also got tiring. Still I did it all cuz it was all so FUN.
And somewhere along the line..what I said actually started holding some weight? Like somehow I began to...influence the fandom if I may say so? Not in a HUGE way but small bits here and there that came to my notice. Like the nicknames and the titles..even the crackships and the brotps xD I’m a very humble person but c’mon..allow me to be gleeful that some of the things that became a part of the fandom dictionary came from this place xD It was a good feeling for me to see my opinions being treated as something worth discussing. It’s a huge thing for anyone in the fandom!
That being said..not every day was a good day. Like the show which is the reason the blog exists in the first place, VP went through many ups and downs. Frustrating topics and repeated explanations. It’s not like this place didn’t give me frustrations and they showed! I have, I confess, been outright rude here multiple times. My bad days are never just confined to real life. They show up in my virtual world as well. And every time I became rude, I felt SO bad afterwards but damn...it became too much sometimes. I had to legit remind myself that this is my space, meant to first and foremost make me happy and I couldn’t do that with all the negativity that was coming my way. Khair..in short, I got the control back but I swear I thought I had driven away all the people with my rudeness. I had pakka thought ke VP toh buss ab band hoga cuz everyone would disown me but imagine my surprise when my outbursts didn’t drive people away. Hayyee..kaash real life mein bhi aisa ho mere saath xD
Vishwaspur has gone through good days, bad days, AMAZING days, lazy days, hectic days and now...well...empty days. At the time of writing this..my inbox has a few unanswered asks ranging from general queries about the show to best wishes for myself, all of which will remain unanswered cuz..urgh...just..I don’t want to ruin this blog by making it something that it hasn’t been since its inception. I don’t want to change tracks. I don’t want to make it my personal blog. Like someone said.. “Let this blog stay up for posterity!” to me in the inbox. I admit I have replied to some non-IB/DBO related stuff around here but dil nahin maanta yaar >.< It’s called “dabba bae” for a reason. Manhoos tha but..apna tha. RiKara I mean..not the blog. RiKara toh well..gaah..I am so done with the show and them on literally ALL levels that I don’t want to do ANYTHING with them. Acha tha, bura tha..jaisa bhi tha..khatam hogaya. If I stay and linger..I know I’ll end up straight up hating everything related to them. So it’s better to just..let go.
Sooo...on that note and staying true to my “I am leaving this shit behind in 2017!!!” with a rather bittersweet heart I announce..this is going to be my last post here on Vishwaspur. The blog will exist, obviously. But I just won’t be active here anymore.I haven’t posted any original content in ages and it sucks for me to see you guys still visiting me like the dear people that you are but I remain unable to properly reply to any of that. And I don’t want to keep being that person. We all have spent some great time here and I don’t want the last impression of this place being as something that just died without any announcement (even if I have said something like this in the past there’s no way I’d have let that happen) So..yeah.
I won’t call out specific names because everyone who has EVER visited this place or has enjoyed what was being done here has made my days...great. It has been fun. All the honest-to-god fangirling and all the savagery and all the annoyance and all the craziness and all the memes and specially..all the FEELS..sharing them with you was fun. Even though blog only existed for 6 months, they were some good six months of my life.
So, thank you. For giving me the time of your day. For giving Vishwaspur the time of your day. If you were a regular visitor of my inbox, thank you. If you were an occasional visitor, thank you. If you were a silent reader, thank you. If you had fun here, thank you. And sorry if I was ever rude to you. Sorry for making promises I couldn’t keep. Sorry for any intentional or unintentional action which might have made you feel bad.
It’s been great.
And it’s been fun.
But it’s time to move on for me.
One last time, thank you.
Sending you all my love and best wishes, Mais.
