Step into a world of untold pleasures~

Indie OC RP blog. SFW and NSFW themes present. 18+ only, please read the rules before interacting. Penned by Lilith, 27/03/2025.

[viskixveritas]

Hello all~! Welcome to my little chapel of worship~! My names Lilith, your darling Pastor, and I'm glad to have you here!

This is an SFW and NSFW blog, focused around my most loyal worshipper, Nymphina!

She's a 5'2" human-demon hybrid, one of many who worship the Church of Desideria, a lust-based religious organization centered around enjoying and exploring bodily pleasures, and in such worship, understanding it's place in the human ecosystem.

You can find out more about Nymphina and the Church, Desideria, here. (Please note: for the moment, the Google Document is under construction.) Nymphina's voice-claim can be found here.

The rules for this blog are quite simple:

No god-modding, on either side.

I'm mutually exclusive and semi-selective, but don't let that stop you from approaching!

I work a full-time job, so please understand that I'll be slower with replies. I plan to try and get them done each day, but please do give me a few days grace if needed.

My replies will be at least a paragraph each, excluding funny/joke replies.

The art used for my icons are not my own, and I will happily cease using any icons upon authors request. The colour editing and hearts are mine, however, so please do not use my icons without asking, thank you!

I am not a meme resource; please, if you're going to reblog a meme I've reblogged, do so from the source. Otherwise, I will continue to get notifications.

So please, come on down to the altar! I so hope we can see you there~!

[viskixveritas]

The new hub blog, Tenebris, is live! You can find it here!

For those that have followed here (and, likewise, xnslaved), I'll be following back from my hub. If you follow back, I will take it as a sign that you are happy for me to continue our threads together!

I hope to see you all shuffled over soon! Sorry for the sudden changes!

[viskixveritas]

I've decided to do an upgrade to all of my blogs, and combine them into one; kind of.

I'm going to have one central "hub" for my blogs, a primay blog to follow back off of. It'll house my rules for all of my blogs, as well as a Carrd for my multiple OC's!

Each sideblog, then, will be a dedicated OC. For example, this would look like: [Main Blog] | [OC blog 1] (Nymphina) [OC blog 2] (Lyla)

I feel this will also help with people's NSFW expectations, allowing each blog to act independently with a central blog to tie them all together.

"Why not just write a multimuse", I hear you all ask~.

My issue with Multimuses is that they get cluttered very easily; select muses or replies get lost easily under a flood from another OC, and then the cycle continues. This way, people only follow the content they want to see, and I get to keep it all neat and tidy~!

I plan on doing the shuffle over this weekend; all current threads will be moved over, as will the perm starter call for Lyla. I'll be PM'ing those that've liked it to let them know of the new blog!

All of my other blogs will then be marked as archived and linked to the new central blog!

I'm doing this so I don't have to relog several times to jump between blogs; it'll also let my creativity flow a little easier, too.

Thank you all! I'll still be willing to RP on here until the new blog is fully functional, so please don't hesitate to send in memes or the like!

[lewderandlewderblog]

Ah how good of her words he thought, what a change from how she sounded from before. At least before she sounded like how a church staff would be but now, he couldn't help but smirk at her words.

"I am more than willing to give everything to you and Lilith because who needs to be ashamed of human nature's pure desire, when I have someone as hot as you taking my cock like a good breeding bitch"

He said while his cock would constantly slam into the other's ass while his hands would go around and grope the others tits.

"And you would like wouldn't you, just me filling you not just in your ass but in all of your holes treating you as my personal fuck toy all day and night"

[viskixveritas]

She was glad he was starting to understand, to get exactly where she was coming from! It never took a long time, to be honest, but each time someone clicked with their desires and how the body opperated always felt like a joyous occasion.

As his hands slithered up her body to snake around her breasts, Nymphina couldn't help but let out a small giggle; her breath hitching momentarily before escaping as a moan of pleasure, her bouncing rear tightening up ever so slightly to ensure his maximum pleasure.

"Of course I would, my darling little lamb. It's how everyone comes to treat us here. Because in such release, we give our sins to Lilith for cleansing. Within such cleansing comes purity, a-and within -- haaaa~ - purity comes a sound mind."

Even as she spoke, the sex-addicted Preistess couldn't help but let her innermost moans escape, her body jolting with pleasure each time his cock spread her apart and gorged her insides out.

"Now, no need to h-h-hold back~! Feel free to climax inside of me as much as you want~!"

[soulflatter]

There's a little smirk that crosses her face when this girl finally speaks, having dozed off for a little bit of their trip, by the time they wake up Mirai's back to her normal look, holding them like a princess in her arms.

Though to be called a little lamb is quite the comedy, given her rather tall nature, not the absurdly tall types that some associate with a beast, but by a human's standards over seven feet is tall enough.

"Oh Nymphina so that's why they were calling you 'devil nymph' and the like? How rude for them to misuse a perfectly lovely name like so."

Mirai's hold was gentle, she was walking now, her large and rather generously curvy body offered so much to cling to and snuggle into.

"Less than a die, moving so fast I often forget so many fall asleep or black out from the force. Perhaps you were out of it? A forceful blackout often makes one loss track of time."

"A Priestess however? Might I have committed quite a crime stealing you?"

[viskixveritas]

She was right on the speed; it seemed to have completely forced the Priestess into a blackout, her body unable to fight the energies attacking her form. If she were in her demon form, however, perhaps things would be slightly different.

Alas, for now, she'd keep that little secret tucked up her sleeve; her saviour was soft, incredibly so, much to Nymphina's delight. The holy woman would cling into her a little harder before leaning backwards, like a cat waiting to be let down by its owner.

"The crime, sadly, was already comitted when I was taken; false charges, I assure you, not that my word would mean too much, I suppose."

She was heavily considering just staying here, though Nymphina knew better than most the risks of enjoying pleasures of the flesh for too long. It was ingrained in her name, after all.

A constant reminder of the sins of her past.

Thus, with a gentle groan she'd slip free from the other's grasp; blushing at the height difference between the pair. She was the perfect height to just--

No, no! She couldn't let her thoughts go down that route, not yet! Such enjoyments out of the church needed be consensual between the pair, rather than the Preistess offering herself up to each person walking through her doors.

Not that she didn't enjoy such acts.

"May I ask just where you've taken me, my little lamb? I can only think of a few ways to repay your kindness, to be sure, and you deserve each and every one. However, perhaps we should talk before I jump to... Such pleasures between us."

She'd bounce a little on the spot, showcasing just how supple the Preistess was; though that was for later, to be sure. All of Nymphina's belongings, including any traveling gold and water, had been left at the Inn in that town.

A place she wasn't looking forward to returning to anytime soon.

[viskixveritas]

❝ must i pay for my sins? cry for forgiveness? ❞

Call me a sinner prompt | still accepting!

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It wasn't everyday that someone came into the church to pray as he had; nor was it everyday that they knelt before the altar, eyes cast downwards as they spoke.

She'd listen, for a moment; Nymphina's breath hitched in her throat as she thought of the right words to express to the man ahead of her.

"My darling little lamb, sins... Are a difficult topic of conversation."

Stepping out of the shadow, one would almost think that it flicked back as if whipped by a tail; yet it was surely a trick of the light. Her form showed no such appendages swaying from her body to keep the Preistess upright.

"We need not repent for our sins, but we must acknowledge them. We must take them to heart, and in understanding them, we allow them to pass on."

Heels clacked against the fine marble, eyes closing slowly as she reached his side, kneeling down next to the gentleman before bringing her arms together in equal prayer.

"We are all sins of our fathers; every action, a direct correlation with one mistake or another. But if we allow that to eat at our souls, we will turn into the mindless beasts that roam the forests. What sets us apart from lesser creatures is our ability to internalize them, then repent and bring forth a better outcome because of it. Am I wrong?"

Nymphina would wink, her right eye gazing towards the other before standing, gentle hand extended in friendship to lift him to his feet.

"Shall we dine together, my little lamb? You can tell me what's on your mind; if you can trust in me, it stays between you, myself, and Lilith, my deity."

[aedearly]

✎ . . . 𝑪𝑨𝑳𝑳 𝑴𝑬 𝑨 𝑺𝑰𝑵𝑵𝑬𝑹.

₊˚⊹ a collection of loose poem verses, quotes or lyrics from various books and chansons. most were written originally in portuguese or french, and were translated to english by me. some are extracted from personal poems, as well! they all have some type of religious reference/motif. writing/roleplaying prompts. from fluff to angst and suggestive! feel free to edit as you see fit.

❝ i never felt more alive than when you called me your angel. ❞ ❝ saints above help me… don’t look at me like that. ❞ ❝ admit it, you’d have taken a bite out of eden, too. ❞ ❝ what are you waiting for? pray. ❞ ❝ confess. repent. repeat. ❞ ❝ for you? i will be any believer you want me to be. ❞ ❝ run away with me, where no gods can find us. ❞ ❝ i begged for a miracle. instead, i got you. ❞ ❝ you smell like the devil. ❞ ❝ where is your faith now? ❞ ❝ call me a sinner. ❞ ❝ the way you call my name sounds like heresy. ❞ ❝ in your gaze, i find my prayers answered. ❞ ❝ your lips are scriptures i long to memorise. ❞ ❝ even silence feels sanctified like this. ❞ ❝ when you embraced me, i felt like i was cradled by divinity. ❞ ❝ i do not wish for the stars to hear us now. ❞ ❝ meet me at our shared altar, where our ghosts can dance. ❞ ❝ kiss my hand. make me feel holy. ❞ ❝ your love feels like a fallen angel’s curse. ❞ ❝ please, can’t you be my sanctuary tonight? ❞ ❝ should i kneel and beg you to look at me again? as if you’re a saint? ❞ ❝ worship does not come cheap. ❞ ❝ must i pay for my sins? cry for forgiveness? ❞ ❝ hate me, blame me, crucify me; just please don’t walk away. ❞ ❝ i do not know how else to love you if not like a sinner. ❞ ❝ you were my redemption; now you are my ruin. ❞ ❝ the weight of your absence is my penance to bear. ❞ ❝ i built cathedrals of dreams, and you razed them to dust. ❞ ❝ you’re a hymn that haunts my mind at midnight. ❞ ❝ you left me bleeding for you, devoted—abandoned. ❞ ❝ i prayed to forget you, but even the heavens refused. ❞ ❝ do not tempt me with your promises. ❞ ❝ hellfire has nothing to your touch. ❞

[soulflatter]

@viskixveritas // Local snek savior

There's a thunderous crack, a slap of a tail, the crashing of a staged execution and the escape of a prisoner. Whatever was happening, the archaic sight of seeing all these people lined up to watch someone die?

How silly, the only thing people should gather for, are divinity itself, and communion or joyous reunion.

To gather for death, it didn't sit right. And though Mirai knows not the crimes of this woman, they cannot merit this punishment.

She crashes the ceremony, all most remember if a gigantic tail and a fierce monster that swept through the ceremony. Harming almost no one, but stealing the prize.

When the captive awakes, she's in the arms of a seven foot woman, a snake like tongue, wings adorn her head and he tail follows behind effortlessly despite it's weight being able to crack castle walls.

"Awake? Thatz good.. death awaited you, how lucky I was pazzing by."

[viskixveritas]

She'd been captured by another church; a suprise attack sprung upon the Preistess after leaving the safety of her city. Lilith had sent her on a short pilgrimage, to spread the word of Desideria.

Never, in her wildest dreams, did she imagine that a rival church would be willing to attack her, let alone capture and put her to death.

The trial was swift; the same day she'd been captured. A series of fake accsations arose, merely the means to the end to put her to death; so blood could spilled for their God. Something that Nymphina had, in her 200+ years, never experienced anyone attempt.

"Oh, dear..."

With her arms bound and sight stripped from her, Nymphina could hear the executioner walking behind with axe in hand. The holy missionary shuddered at each heavy footstep that reached her ears; in any other situation, she'd enjoy this.

"... It seems you are desperate to spill blood; but where does this end, my friend? Where does your angst towards others finish? I don't see it ever--"

Her words were cut short, her movement as sudden as the flash in front of her; the growling and angry voices giving way to sudden quiet, yet not the embrace of death; this was far too warm. It took no effort to fall asleep, unflinching as her body was unbound and freed.

With the tape removed from her eyes, she found herself in the safe, soft confines of someones arms. Their sweet scent filled Nymphina's head, overwhelming all of her other senses. It wasn't until the other spoke to her that the ravenette would blink twice, her face slightly flushed in embarasment.

"I-I'm sorry, I-- appreciate your help there, my little lamb. You've saved my life; a debt I shan't soon forget. My name is Nymphina, Priestess for the church of Desideria. May I know my saviours name?"

Now fully awake, she'd take the chance to look around; just where was she? It wasn't anywhere the demon recognized, that was for sure; but there'd be time later for exploration. A list of questions began to form on her lips, though upon gazing over the other's complete form, those went out the door.

"I... How long have I been asleep, please? I feel as if I've rested for longer than a day, yet human concoctions shouldn't effect me so harshly... I appreciate your willingness regardless, my lamb."

[lewderandlewderblog]

If the others words were metaphorically a fire within him, then in this moment and time it was more akin to a blazing storm of heat that wouldn't stop burning.

As he felt himself fully cave into pleasure as his hands grasped the other for support and he slammed his 7 inch hard cock against her ass without any sort of mercy. While his hands went to work, giving her ass a very hard SLAP with the palm of his hand that echoed through the booth.

"God this day is going to be so good I can't wait to hear your moans as you've really pushed me today and I'm giving you all 7 inches of it"

[viskixveritas]

She felt the sting of his spank before she felt his cock penetrate into her; the Preistess's rear burning up as if hit with a beesting, her body shuddering at the sudden influx of pleasure snaking up her spine.

It seemed had a type, at least to Nymphina, and she could relieve him of his stress for said type with her body. Surely Lilith would reward her later for such divine service!

"Haaa... Good Lamb, B~! That's right, you can take out all of those frustrations inside of me. You can fill me right up, there's no need to hold back. L-Lilith will surely reward you for letting your emotions roam free, to not let humanities preconceived notions of sin and lust cloud your j-judgement~!"

Her hands reached out for support, fingers clasping the edge of the doorframe, digits squeezing the frame as she'd tighten her rear just for him.

After all, the more he let go, the more likely he'd be to return later, down the road.

[viskixveritas]

For those of you wondering, Nymphina sounds a little like Circe in this awesome song. Also in this awesome follow-up!

[haemoxin]

""Yeah! Good ol' Tommy boy. He's great, a real nice guy." Lili gave off a little giggle, thinking about how badly the two of them could tease the poor barista. "Thing is, I'm pretty sure he'd just run away if we start teasing him. I mean, I offer him one blowjob for a nice cup of coffee and he just runs to the back!"

She laughs again, this time louder and with her belly in it, thinking about how much fun they could have together. Lili knew Nymphina for all of a few minutes but she could see a fellow tease when she saw it. It didn't hurt that Nymphina was also hot as hell.

"But let's not do that at this place, yeah? I don't wanna get kicked out of a cafe cause we can't stop being two sexy ass babes for half a second. The drinks are nice but I don't think the guy behind the counter would appreciate if we offer to give him a reacharound if we can get a discount for a bottle."

Not that Lili wouldn't mind double teaming someone with Nymphina. She was really selling the whole 'sexy nun' thing. Lili didn't know if she was part of some kinky religion but if she was, Lili would have to start thinking about going to church again.

[viskixveritas]

"There's your problem, my dearest little lamb. You're only offering him one time of oral service, instead of... Say, a lifetime."

She'd cuckle back, the conversation swaying lewd before being veered back onto its original course; it seemed Liliana was also quite adept with her body.

Something Nymphina would love to find out more about, perhaps later over some darker chocolate and fire. Something better to set the mood than morning sun and whistling birds.

Heels clacked as her head bowed in several different directions, her lips curling into a curt smile as the pair passed by other early-risers. Some heading off to work, some out for a jog.

From the clear blush on some of their faces, it was clear they'd visited her church in the past to relief their sins. Some of them were regulars, to be sure, their pants rising ever so slightly as they walked past.

"It is a pleasure to see my past patrons enjoying themselves in nature, free from the sins of their bodies. Free from their preconceived prejudice of their natural attractions."

Now, it was time to choose; what was her drink of choice this morning? After a bite at her lip, she'd grind her teeth against the soft flesh, brain tossing between a few ideas for a mere moment.

"I believe, today is feeling like a white chocolate mocha day. What about you..."

She'd lean up close, her ample breasts clinging to Lili's arm as she pulled the woman closer, tongue gently lashing the other's ear for a mere moment.

"...My darling little lamb?"

[lewderandlewderblog]

With her words wrapping around him like a python wrapping around it's prey, it was a miracle he was able to hold on this long without spraying her entire face with it.

And as such with such good work on his cock, he had fully succumbed to his desires. For it didn't take much for him to cum all over the others face and hands as his cock kept on throbbing without any sort of hesitation. But in spite of that his face was still a flush with pure lust and his cock throbbed with pure desire.

"Man I never thought I would do that with another person let alone someone as hot as you, it's gonna be mighty more fun when I get to bend you over this booth and slam you from behind"

Perhaps he was getting more into it, after all the others had stroked his flame of desire and there was no way of putting it out.

[viskixveritas]

"My, you truly want to see me debased, don't you? Very well, then, just this once."

The smell of semen was always something that flipped Nymphina's switch; the taste and texture the second closest trigger for turning her into the horny nymphomaniac that Lilith had recruited.

Standing from her squat, she'd simply pull her bottom garments to the side, turning around so that her back was towards B; from there, she merely held her arms above her head, chuckling to herself.

"Do what you wish, then."

Her mouth would curl into a grin, her tone dropping several octaves to be as sultry as possible.

"But do make sure I enjoy it by being as rough as possible. Anything less shan't satisfy Lilith, after all~."

[lewderandlewderblog]

With the other doing such good work it didn't take much for the man to grow closer and closer to sending him over the edge. For this woman had him around her finger and he craved more and more of her, to the point where he didn't even realize how much time had passed.

Especially as his eyes gazed lewdly at the other's massive chest, and how he couldn't take his eyes off it.

"Ah fuck I think I can take you up on that offer as I'm getting really close to cumming, where do you want it?"

Indeed much as he wanted to paint her face white with his seed at the very least he wanted to give her a heads up warning before he sprayed her with his cum.

[viskixveritas]

He was such a good boy, wasn't he? Willing to do exactly as she asked at the drop of a hat, without question or thought. Most people would at least give her a little fightback, to have some push and pull.

Though Nymphina didn't mind his almost bold enjoyment, happy to know that he was getting the reilef he deserved.

"You can coat me in your desire, my little lamb~. I truly do not mind, for the next several will be inside, I'm sure. In my warm, welcoming throat, to my delightfully tight slice of heaven. So please, anywhere on me you desire."

Her lips were licked in anticipation, hands and chest working in a synchronious rhythmn in order to get the seed she desired out. Perhaps, in the future, she'd be able to milk it out of him.

But, for now, his pleasure came first, over her own. For now.

[lewderandlewderblog]

For he could feel his own cock throbbing with intense pleasure as the others divine mouth and hands worked on it so greatly, as his cock could not stop oozing precum from it.

"Really now that's a shame I would have loved to hear some of them, would have been super hot"

As the other kept giving him the most amount of pleasure he couldn't help himself , any coherent words went from panting with pleasure and escalated into full on screams of pleasure. Many nights were spent thinking about a moment like this, and never in his life would he ever think a moment like this would ever happen.

"Well there's certainly something else I'm gonna let free in a couple of few minutes if you keep this up"

For a brief moment he was able to let out a few words that weren't just some variant of fuck.

[viskixveritas]

"Oh darling, believe me; there's nothing for me to hide here. Not that I have any. Feel free to climax as much as you'd like."

There's no reprise given as her hand speeds up; plump, heavy breasts joining the foray as soft nipples press into his shaft, dragging up and down B's slickened cock.

Her fingers, softer than any silk, worked up and down tirelessly; in fact, Nymphina hadn't even burnt a droplet of sweat yet, her form immaculate as she gazed up at the young man in the booth with her.

"But, if you want to experience such an orgasm, you'll tell me exactly when you're going to climax, you understand, little lamb? There's no need to be obtuse in Lilith's guidance; let yourself be free."

[haemoxin]

Damn, she even sounded super fancy. Lili was way in over her head but she was going to do her damndest to woo Nymphina.

"Yeah!" She took Nymphina by the arm, holding her close, and started to escort her to the nicest cafe she knew of. It was a bit pricier than she was normally comfortable with but for Nymphina, she was more than happy to go the distance.

"Anyways, my name's Liliana, but you can just call me Lili. It's a pleasure to meet you, miss." Lili was able to stop herself from skipping but there was visible hop to her step as she escorted Nymphina.

Almost instinctively, she started to chat her up, "So, the place we're heading to is real nice. It's all bougie, has booze in addition to all the normal cafe stuff. It's not my usual place to get drinks, that's a nice place called Latte Art on the other side of town but this one is real nice. Has some fancy French name that I never figured out to pronounce and all the people working there have snazzy uniforms..."

[viskixveritas]

Names said a lot about a person; a small glimpse into their life that one could use to appraise their personality. For a name like "Liliana", Nymphina couldn't help but nod in acceptance as the other wrapped herself around the Preistess's arm.

It seemed that Lili had read her mind, however, on their final destination; a small smile crept up her lips as she took broader steps to accomidate the other's slightly faster pace. Be it excitement or just a bubbly personality, Nymphina wasn't entirely sure.

"It seems we're familiar with my establishment of choice! Thomas, the owner, is well known to my Church, you see. He donates quite often."

Not that she had any need to explain just what that meant, it was monetary contributions, nothing else. Not that she'd complain if he wanted to man-handle her a little. Or a lot, in his case.

"A very charitable man, he is. He enjoys working with orphans, giving them work and skills for nothing. It is no wonder, then, that such a wonderful man caught the attention of ladies such as us."

A wink was fluttered in Liliana's direction, a little sexual undertone drooling into her words as she spoke. What would she order from him today? Her usual? Perhaps something extra delicious to tease the young lady on her hip?

"Well, you do seem confident in your directional abilities. I shall followa your lead, my darling little lamb of mine~."

[beltarph-deactivated20250127]

UNSEEN  WAR.

A  collection  of  angst  prompts  that  delve  into  the  struggles  of  soldiers  facing  PTSD,  survivor’s  guilt,  and  the  lingering  scars  of  war.  Themes  of  mental  health,  trauma,  substance  abuse,  suicidal  ideation,  hypervigilance,  combat,  loss,  identity,  and  alienation.  Feel  free  to  add  your  own  edits  as  wanted  or  needed.

" I  keep  his  picture  in  my  wallet,  like  it’s  gonna  bring  him  back. "

" We  were  all  just  kids  playing  soldier,  and  now  we’re  men  with  scars. "

" They  trained  me  to  fight  wars,  but  no  one  trained  me  to  live  after. "

" I'm  not  a  fuckin'  hero...I'm  just  a  guy  who  got  out  alive. "

" Doc  can  his  fuckin'  PTSD  and  shove  it  up  his  ass.  It’s  just  me  trying  to  remember  how  to  survive  in  this  goddamn  world. "

" We  joked  about  not  making  it,  but  it  was  just  that...a  joke.  Until  it  wasn’t."

" You  ever  wake  up  and  think,  'Fuck,  why  didn’t  that  last  bullet  hit  me  instead?'  'Cause  I  sure  do.  Every  single  night. "

" They  called  it  collateral  damage.  Like  it  wasn’t  somebody’s  damn  family! "

" Every  time  I  close  my  eyes,  I  see  his  face.  I  can’t  keep  doing  this. "

" I  miss  home,  but  y'know  what?  Can’t  even  remember  what  home  feels  like  anymore. "

" The  worst  part  isn’t  what  we  did;  it’s  how  normal  this  shit  is  starting  to  feel. "

" Don’t  fuckin'  tell  me  to  ‘man  up.’  You  weren’t  there!  You  didn't  see  what  I  did! "

" Sometimes  I  wonder  if  it  would’ve  been  better  if  I  hadn’t  made  it  back. "

" They  said  we’re  heroes,  but  I  don’t  feel  like  one.  Heroes  don’t  do  what  we’ve  done. "

" There's  nothing  wrong  with  me.  I'm  fine,  I  don't  need  help. "

" Even  back  in  society,  when  I  look  in  the  mirror,  I  still  see  myself  in  uniform;  covered  in  sweat,  dirt,  blood,  gunpower.  I  don't  think  I  ever  truly  came  back  home. "

" Goddamn  it,  I  told  you  to  keep  your  fuckin'  head  down!  The  hell  were  you  thinkin'!? "

" You  can’t  fix  me,  so  stop  fuckin'  trying  to. "

" If  I  have  to  fold  one  more  goddamn  flag  for  a  funeral,  I’m  gonna  lose  it."

" We  didn’t  join  up  to  be  heroes.  We  just  didn’t  know  what  the  fuck  else  to  do. "

" Fuck.  I  shouldn’t  have  told  him  it  was  clear.  It  wasn’t  clear. "

" They  keep  saying  it  wasn’t  our  fault,  but  it  sure  as  hell  feels  like  it. "

" Sometimes  I  forget  why  we  were  even  there  in  the  first  place. "

" I’m  tired  of  waking  up  every  day  wishing  I  hadn’t. "

" We’re  not  soldiers  anymore.  Now  we’re  just  survivors. "

" I  don’t  pray  anymore.  Not  after  everything  we  saw.  God  can't  save  me  from  that  shit. "

" You  can’t  just  ‘leave  it  behind.’  It  follows  you.  Every  damn  step  of  the  way.  It  just—it  just  never  fuckin'  stops. "

" I  don’t  even  know  what  normal  feels  like  anymore,  man. "

" He  didn’t  even  scream.  Just…  lights  out,  done.  Like  that. "

" No  amount  of  patches  and  medals  will  bring  back  what  I  lost  over  there."

" What  the  fuck  was  it  all  for? "

" I  see  that  goddamned  convoy  goin'  up  in  flames  every  time  I  close  my  eyes. "

" The  meds  don’t  do  shit  except  make  me  feel  like  a  zombie. "

" We  laugh,  we  joke,  but  deep  down  we’re  all  just  broken  toys. "

" Every  time  I  hear  a  car  backfire,  I’m  diving  for  cover  like  a  goddamned  idiot. "

" They  gave  me  a  medal but not  a  reason  to  fucking  live."

" Do  you  remember  his  face?  His  fuckin'  face  when  he  realized  he  wasn’t  gonna  make  it? "

" I  can't  walk  into  a  crowded  room  without  sizin'  up  exits  like  I'm  still  in  enemy  territory. "

" We  all  came  home  in  pieces.  Some  of  us  just  hid  it  better  than  others. "

" Don’t  fuckin'  touch  me.  You  don't  know  what  hands  can  do  when  they’re  scared. "

" The  shit  they  don’t  tell  you  about  surviving  is  how  heavy  the  guilt  feels. "

" It’s  just  a  patch  of  dirt  to  everyone  else,  but  to  me,  it’s  where  I  buried  my  best  friend. "

" Stop  asking  me  to  talk  about  it.  Talking  doesn’t  fix  what’s  broken. "

" One  more  person  says,  'Thank  you  for  your  service,'  I'm gonna lose  it. "

" They  say  it  gets  easier,  but  all  I’ve  done  is  get  better  at  pretending. "

" I  don’t  miss  the  war,  but  I  miss  the  people  I  fought  it  with. "

" I  feel  like  I’m  on  patrol  even  in  the  grocery  store,  scanning  for  threats. "

" You  know  what  the  hardest  part  is?  Knowing  they  died  for  nothing. "

" They  say  ‘thank  you  for  your  service,’  and  I  just  want  to  scream. "

" Sometimes,  I  wish  I’d  stayed  in.  At  least  I  knew  who  I  was  then. "

" You  don't  get  to  tell  me  what  I  saw  out  there,  alright?  You  weren’t  the  one  dragging  what  was  left  of  him  back  to  base! "

" Another  goddamn  name  on  the  memorial  wall,  yeah,  that’s  what  this  mission  fuckin'  accomplished! "

" Don't  give  me  that  'chain  of  command'  bullshit.  You  knew  it  was  a  suicide  run,  and  you  sent  us  anyway! "

" Get  your  hands  off  me!  I  said  I’m  fine,  stop  treating  me  like  I’m  fuckin'  broken! "

" You  wanna  keep  yelling,  or  are  you  finally  gonna  admit  you  fucked  up  back  there? "

" We’re  soldiers,  not  fuckin'  machines.  How  the  hell  do  you  not  understand  that  after  all  these  years? "

" I  can  still  hear  their  screams.  Every  goddamn  night.  Do  you  think  I  sleep  like  this  because  I  want  to? "

" Stop  telling  me  to  'let  it  go!'  You  didn’t  watch  him  bleed  out  while  begging  for  his  mother! "

" I  lost  another  one  today,  and  all  you  can  say  is  ‘it  happens’?  Fuck  you! "

" What  do  you  want  me  to  say?  That  I  don’t  miss  them?  That  I  don’t  hate  myself  for  living? "

" You  keep  saying  ‘it’s  over,’  but  it’s  not  over  when  it’s  in  my  fuckin'  head  24/7! "

" It  wasn’t  heroism,  alright?  I  didn’t  want  to  die.  I  didn’t  want  to  live.  I  just  wanted  it  to  fuckin'  end. "

" You  think  I  signed  up  for  this  shit?  No  one  signs  up  for  nightmares  that  won’t  go  away! "

" I  froze  out  there.  I  just…  froze.  And  now  he’s  gone  because  I  couldn’t  move. "

" You  call  it  a  mission.  I  call  it  a  slaughter.  Tell  me  where  the  hell  the  difference  is. "

" Don’t  you  dare  say  it’s  ‘just  part  of  the  job.’  That  was  someone’s  fuckin'  life! "

" You  really  think  any  of  this  ‘therapy’  bullshit  will  bring  them  back?  'Cause  it  won't,  asshole! "

" You  don’t  come  back  from  war;  you  just  bring  it  home  with  you. "

"If  one  more  person  tells  me  to  ‘move  on,’  I  swear  to  God  I’m  gonna  lose  it. "

" Shut  the  fuck  up,  I  can't  handle  your  sunshine  shit  right  now. "

" You  ever  think  about  how  we’re  all  just  disposable? "

" My  hands  won’t  stop  shaking. "

" I  don’t  need  your  pity,  I  need  another  goddamn  drink. "

" It’s  not  PTSD.  It's  just  me.  I’m  fucked  up,  plain  and  simple. "

" Fuckin'  civvies  don’t  understand  a  goddamn  thing  we’ve  been  through. "

" They  want  me  to  talk  about  it,  but  how  do  you  put  hell  into  words? "

" I  hate  myself  for  making  it  back  alive. "

" Don’t  give  me  that  'brotherhood'  bullshit!  Where  was  that  when  you  let  them  ambush  us? "

" Put  the  gun  down,  man.  Please.  We’ve  lost  enough  already. "

" You’re  right;  I’m  angry.  I’m  angry  because  I’ve  had  to  bury  too  many  good  men  because  of  your  decisions. "

" Don't  act  like  you  care  now. "

" The  blood  never  washes  off,  does  it?  It  just  spreads  around  until  you’re  drowning  in  it. "

" You  call  me  weak,  but  at  least  I’m  not  afraid  to  feel  something! "

" I  told  you  not  to  bring  that  up,  so  why  the  hell  are  you  making  me  relive  it  now? "

" Stop  saying  it's  going  to  be  okay!  It's  not,  and  it  never  fuckin'  will  be. "

" I  don't  need  therapy,  I  need  a  fuckin'  drink. "

" You  see  a  fun  fireworks  display,  I  see  flares  'n  mortars  tearing  us  apart. "

" I  can't  even  look  at  my  kids  without  wondering  if  they'd  be  better  off  without  me. "

" I  used  to  takin'  long  drives  at  night,  but  now  I  can't  even  get  behind  the  wheel  without  feeling  like  we're  about  to  hit  an  IED. "

" Every  time  I  close  my  eyes,  I  see  him...my  best  friend,  blown  to  pieces. "

" Yeah,  I  take  the  pills  and  wash  'em  down  with  vodka,  what  of  it? "

" I  didn't  sign  up  for  this  life;  I  signed  up  for  a  job,  and  now  I  can't  get  out. "

" You  want  me  to  talk  about  it?  Alright,  fine.  Let's  talk  about  how  I  watched  my  buddies  burn  alive. "

" The  VA?  Yeah,  they've  got  a  line  for  everything.  Too  bad  it  never  leads  to  real  help. "

" Do  you  have  any  idea  what  it's  like  to  be  terrified  of  your  own  goddamn  mind? "

[haemoxin]

Oof. Ouch, fuck. Ok, that would teach her to let her mind wander in out in public again. Fuck, and it was even a hot babe.

With a blush starting to bloom on her face, Lili got up, shaking off the dust from falling on the ground. "Oh, it's all ok. I should have been looking where I was going. I'm sorry for bumping into you."

Of course, Xenia looked immaculate after everything, like Lili didn't even touch her. Gods, how was it even possible for someone to look so good looking. Lili had to stop looking at her just so she could focus enough to pick herself up properly and unfuck her outfit.

"You don't have to make it up to me at all. In fact, I think I gotta make it up to you. Please, lemme at least get you a drink." Lili's plan was twofold. She did feel pretty bad for crashing into Xenia but also she very much wanted to get to know her better.

[viskixveritas]

"Ah, you wish to apologize to me? I insist it's not necessary... However, I understand how customs may provoke you to act this way. Very well, my little lamb; I'll be in your trustworthy hands."

With her own hand extended, Nymphina would almost latch onto the others side; she'd seen her around town before, the Preistess was certain of it, but where eluded her memory.

There was a nice cafe nearby that she was headed to; perhaps, if it wouldn't be so much trouble...

"My apologies; I was on my way to grab a nice, warm cup of something from the propriotor nearby. Perhaps, if you're so inclined to spoil me, that you'd be willing to come there with me?"

She figured it wouldn't be too hard to convince the other to come along, given the blush currently streaking her face like a banner; not that Nymphina would say anything about it, either. No, such embarassment wasn't needed here, not yet.

The bedroom, however, was a different matter.