summary: despite you and robby agreeing to keep your strictly physical relationship under wraps, you self-combust when your attending keeps calling you 'sweetheart'.
wc. 1k
notes.this is completely based off my lab partner calling me 'sweetheart' and me nearly breaking a vial. enjoy :)
Sweetheart. Sweetheart. Thanks, sweetheart.
It replays in your head like a cursed audio loop as you meander your way through the Pitt. You stay focused but your mind circles back to it. Sweetheart.
The nickname (petname? Term of endearment? The fucking key to the unraveling of your psyche?) continues to echo around your head that Dana mistakes your distracted countenance for exhaustion and hustles you to the break room with a protein bar in hand. You take the few minutes of reprieve in hopes to recalibrate your headspace, prep yourself for the remaining hours of your shift, but instead you chew on that small little instance that rocks the world beneath your feet instead.
Dr. Robby had called you sweetheart.
It's not the first time he's called you anything by your name, given the fact that the two of you have been sleeping together by the time your final year of residency kicked off a few months ago. But the two of you have been detached and professional outside of the bedroom, managing to find time even when you've been moved over to the night shift to avoid any suspicion.
Covering a double means seeing Robby and you didn't realize how it rearranges the neat order of your life to see him in daylight after your midnight trysts.
"Hey."
Speak of the devilâ
"Hi," you wave your half eaten protein bar, already leaning forward to get to your feet from where you've been hiding in the break room. "Did you need me for something?"
He shakes his head, a warm hand pressing on your shoulder to sit you back down while he remains standing. The distance, the way your head tilts up to meet his gaze, makes his head shortcircuit. The image flickers and the hospital is replaced with his bedroom, your chair replaced with his floor as he gazes down at youâ
He blinks and the hospital shifts back into view. "No, Dana told me you were in here takin' a breather. You okay?"
You nod and take another chomp of your bar. "Yeah, she said I got a little spacey. Oh, the woes of a double."
A chuckle rumbles through his chest as he absentmindedly tucks a strand of your hair behind your ear. It's done casually, like he didn't even think about what he's doing. Second nature. "Make sure you get some sleep tonight, sweetheart. Did you need a ride?"
"Iâ" Your lashes flutter, mouth parting slightly in shock. "Um. Yeah. Yes, please."
Something settles in his chest at your easy compliance. "Good. Meet me at the ambulance bay after handoffs then."
The door shuts behind him when he leaves you but you're still staring at the door in utter befuddlement. When did Dr. Robby get so⌠boyfriend?
â
The rest of the shift goes by smoothly, enough traumas (and even a degloved foot) to keep your mind on the fact that the attending you've been fucking has suddenly taken on the boyfriend mantle. It's disarming to say the least, garnering attention from the other day shift residents and nosy nurses whenever Robby hovers close enough to touch.
"Sweetheart, go finish charting," he interrupts your conversation with McKay, steering you away from chairs where you've been headed to help triage. "Your shift's almost over and you've been dead on your feet."
Exhaustion has you nodding in easy agreement as the older woman enlists Joy instead to help out but the familiar petname zaps you awake the moment you settle behind the computer.
Beside you, wheels scrape against linoleum floors and Trinity is immediately hissing in your ear in absolute giddyâ "'Sweetheart'?"
You wince and shove her shoulder to push her off before glancing up to see Princess and Perlah nowhere to be seen. "Shut up."
"Since when did you and Dr. Grumpy make things official?"
The cursor blinks in front of you as you try to recall your last patient. "We didn't. And stop talking so loudâ!"
"Pleaseâ the entire department know you two have been messing around, I just didn't think he's been promoted to boyfriendâ"
"Who got promoted to boyfriend?"
Your stomach drops and you peek over your shoulder to see the man in question, holding his bag and yours. Trinity's grin is downright villainous as she rises from her chair to make her exit. "Nothing, Dr. Robby. Have a good night, you two."
Your fingers fly across the screen to finish and submit before getting to your feet. When you reach up to grab your bag, he angles his shoulder away to stop you. "Dr. Robbyâ"
"No, I got it. Come on, I took the car with me today."
You trail behind him in slight apprehension but upon feeling the curious looks from incoming night shift (as well as Dr. Abbot's amused stare), you scurry faster to walk beside Robby.
"Did I do something?" you blurt out before the two of you can get too far.
Robby pauses, chuckles and gives you a confused but easy smile. "No� Do you think you're in trouble, sweetheart?"
"That!" You jab a finger up at his lips, feeling the double hit you all at once; your brain to mouth filter is non-existent now. "Sweetheart! You don't call me that, you don't make me take breaks during a busy shift, you fuck me 'til I cry and give me coffee before I leave. Did I miss something important?"
His smile falls and dread creeps in. You ruined it now. "I⌠didn't realize it wasn't as smooth as a transition as I thought."
"What?"
He sets down the bags to hold you gently by the shoulders, slightly lowering himself to meet your eyes. The simple action makes something warm twist happily in your stomach. "I thought I could've started hinting at wanting more instead of just scaring you off by asking you out on a date."
"⌠what?"
Robby frowns now and he gently holds your cheek. His gaze is clinical and you realize he's trying to diagnose whatever the hell's wrong with you and not the fact that he's flipped your world upside down. "Did you hit your headâ"
"No! I'm fine, I justâ I didn't expect you to⌠want more." You shrug, seeking out this newfound type of attention. "Your seven-week threshold for dating isn't exactly a secret. In fact, I was expecting you to start ghosting me."
A wry chuckle escapes him. "Sweetheart. We've been fooling around for nine weeks now."
"⌠oh."
"Mhm. So, you ready to head home and get some sleep?"
When the flu hits the night shift nurses at PTMC, you agree to pull a double and work a night shift before your scheduled day shift. Robby decides to still sleep at your house that night. Thereâs no way that will lead to everyone finding out youâre in a secret relationship with the day shift attending - right?
Warnings/Notes: Secret relationship trope (duh) unspecified, but implied age gap. Slight scent kink. Mentions of smut (but no actual smut). VERY brief mention of pittfest (one line - for a backstory). Cannon typical mention of ([kid] patient) death(s). Slight season 2 spoiler - blink and you miss it. Michael Robinavitch is a goofball. Medical and hospital inaccuracies (all medical things I know are from two medical shows with one Noah Wyle and some Dr Google bullshit). Mention of garsantos. this idea came to me because ya girl only has peppermint body wash from Christmas đ. Thanks to my night shift @atlaslapis for listening to this idea when it popped into my mind & being the best beta. I love you the most.
Michael sat at central trying to catch up on charting. It had been a hectic day in The Pitt. Everytime he turned around, someone else was saying his name.
âDr. Robby, can I present to you?â
âHey Dr. Robby, I need an extra set of hands.â
âTrauma ETA 5 minutes Dr. Robby.â
He didnât want to be Dr. Robby anymore. He wanted to be Michael. And the one place he was Michael was in your arms.
âHey, whatâs the IV whisperer doing here?â Trinity asked as you walked in. Trinity quickly learned during the PittFest shooting that you could always find the veins for an IV - earning you the nickname IV whisperer. Most the staff had shortened it to IV.
Robby looked up. He swore it was your day off. Why are you walking into The Pitt?
Robbyâs eyes met yours as you walked past him. A silent âIâll tell you laterâ in your eyes, as you approached Dana.
âReady to do hand off, brother?â Jack asked Robby, as he approached. The quickly turned his attention to you. âThanks for coming in. Iâm saving all the IVs for you.â
You laughed. âYeah. Not a problem, Abbot.â
âHey, IV, thanks for coming in,â Dana said as she patted you on the back. âMight have to stay myself if I canât find anyone else to come in.â
âWho all on night shift is out?â You asked.
âThe list of who isnât out is shorter. Lena and Mateo. Vivi is going to work a double, sheâs getting some Zâs in on call 1.â
âNot anymore Iâm not,â Vivi said as she stretched and walked to you. âHey IV.â
âHey Vi,â you replied. The two of you had become close since she started working in The Pitt.
âSince we are finally working together you can tell me how that date went.â
You froze and closed your eyes. You felt like everyone around you stopped, and all eyes were on you. You were hoping she wouldnât mention it in front of everyone, or at least in front of Trinity Santos.
âDate? You has a date?â Trinity asked.
âYes,â you hissed.
âWith who?â
âMy boyfriend,â you said like it wasnât a big deal. âFirst name none, last name of your business.â
âOh! She got you!â Dennis said.
âYouâre such a fucking huckleberry,â Trinity mumbled.
âHey, a patient in triage needs an IV, and I canât find a -â Donnie didnât have to finish his sentence before you were up and on your way.
You were throwing your gloves away in the trash, and using the sanitizer from the dispenser when you felt a hand ghost across your lower back. You turned to see Michael, walking backwards, motioning for you to follow him with his pointer finger, before turning down the hallway.
You followed, making sure to stay far enough behind that it didnât look suspicious. You looked around at the hospital as you walked, looking into various rooms. Once at the lockers, Michael turned back to face you.
âGot rung into working tonight?â Robby asked.
âYeah. Kim texted me about 2, asked if I could cover. Then Dana called and asked me. Then I tried to get a little sleep,â you sighed. âIâm sorry.â
âHey, donât be sorry. I was just,â Michael sighed as he ran his hands over his face. âToday was shit. Lost a kid first thing this morning.â
âOh, Michael,â you said as you reached up for him. You frowned as you looked at him. It was always the kids that hurt the most. You looked around to make sure no one was coming.
Michael caught on and he took you in his arms, as he buried his face in your neck. He inhaled taking in the scent of your peppermint body wash. âI was just looking forward to holding you. And smelling you.â
He started to pepper your neck with kisses.
You hummed at the pleasure, before you began trying to push him away. âMichael, stop.â
âHmm, since when donât you like the thrill of getting caught?â Michael asked as he pulled away.
You sighed. âSince Vivi asked how my date went in front of Trinity.â
âSo. Youâre saying if I place my bet now, I could win the betting pool,â Michael wiggled his eyebrows at you.
âI hate you,â you said as you laughed.
âLiar,â Michael said as he smiled at you. âYou mind if I crash at yours tonight?â
âOf course, go ahead.â
âGreat. Thanks. Iâll pack you a bag. So you can stay at mine tomorrow, and our day off.â
âIf I have the day off,â you mumbled as you yawned. âSorry. I- Iâm tired already.â
âIâll send you money to DoorDash Dunks,â Michael said as he pulled out his phone.
âYou donât have to.â
âBut I want to.â Michael locked eyes with you as the two of you smiled at each other. âI love-â
âBrother, what are you still doing here?â
You both froze at the sound of Jackâs voice.
âI-â Michael was trying to think of an excuse.
You looked at his phone in his hand. âM-Dr. Robby left his phone at central. I uh, brought it back to him,â you explained as you looked at Jack, and then back to Robby. âI should, uh, get back,â you said as you looked at Michael. A thousand unspoken words trying to beam through your eyes.
âThanks for, uh, my phone. I will,â Michael cleared his throat, âsee you in the morning,â he said as you turned to walk away.
âYou know, sheâs dating someone,â Jack said.
âWho is?â Michael said.
âIV. Apparently she had a date Saturday.â
âDid she now?â Michael asked with a smirk.
âYeah, thereâs a betting board.â
âIs there now?â
Jack studied the smirk still on his friends face. âYou wouldnât know anything about that, would you?â
Robby patted Jack on the shoulder as he walked past him to exit The Pitt. âSee you in the morning, brother.â
A few hours later - you finally had time to DoorDash your iced coffee from Dunkin. You pulled out your phone and sent Michael a picture, and a text.
You: Thank you, handsome.
MichaelđŠşđŤ: You are so beautiful, you know that?
You: Night shift and an iced coffee? Just call me Shen.
Michael đŠşđŤ: Shen is the last person I want to think of when I think of you.
Followed by a selfie, his glasses on his nose, the latest book he was reading in his hands.
You: So, you want to think of other people when you think of me? Rude.
You: good book?
MichaelđŠşđŤ: Would be better if you were in my arms while I read it.
Then, he replied to your previous message.
MichaelđŠşđŤ: Iâm ignoring this, by the way.
You: Youâre ignoring me? đĽş
MichaelđŠşđŤ: not what I said.
MichaelđŠşđŤ: You know I love you.
You: I guess I love you too, handsome. Thanks for the coffee money.
MichaelđŠşđŤ: of course. Iâll bring you another in the morning, Sweetheart.
You: Do you do this for all your nurses?
MichaelđŠşđŤ: Just the ones Iâm sleeping with.
MichaelđŠşđŤ: That sounded sexier in my head..
You: I wish I was sleeping with you right now.
MichaelđŠşđŤ: Me too. You have no idea how much I miss you, sweetheart.
You: you gonna show me how much you miss međ¤đ
MichaelđŠşđŤ: Tomorrow. After shift. In my bed.
âHey IV, Myrna is asking for you, and only you, to start her -â Vivi started to say, when she noticed you smiling at your phone. âWhoâs got you smiling like that? OHMYGOD is it your boyfriend?â Then she noticed your Dunkin âOHMYGOD did he buy you coffee?â
âTell Myrna I will be right there and yes maybe he did.â
âLet me see him! Let me see him!â Vivi said as she reached for your phone.
âNo!â You hissed slipping it in your pocket.
You walked up to central, and set your coffee down. You looked over at Myrna.
âIâll be right there for the IV.â
You shot Michael a quick text.
You: I have to go - Myrna was just brought back. Wont let anyone else do the IV. Get some sleep? I love you, handsome. Thanks again for the coffee.
You shoved your phone in your pocket as you got back to work.
When Michael walked into The Pitt the next morning, he spotted you in the trauma room with Abbot. He couldnât see the patient you were treating. But he could see the monitors - and you pushing what he assumed wasnât the first round of Epi.
âTheyâve been coding that kid for an hour,â Lena said, as she noticed Michael staring too long. âEllis just went into check on them.â
âThink heâll call it?â
The words werenât all the way out of his mouth before the sound of metal on metal as Abbot kicked the trash can with his prosthetic.
âLooks like he did,â Lena said as she got back to work.
Jack walked up to Michael. âIâve never been so glad to see you?â
âRough shift?â Michael asked.
âActually- just a bad last two hours. Rest of the night was typical. We had a 2 car MVA come in. 1 major 3 minor,â Jack started to explain. âKid was one of the minors. In the back seat. IV checked him out with Ellis. He was fine. No bruising or swelling. Ultrasound didnât show anything. 20 minutes later he was on the floor. Injury to the kidneys. Caused internal bleeding.â Jack shook his head at the memory.
âHell of a way to end a shift,â Michael said drawing his attention back to you.
âYeah. Canât imagine being on for a double after this,â Jack said as he patted Robby on the back. Both men watched as you went inside the double doors and up the stairs leading to the rooftop. âTake care of her?â
âI always do,â Michael whispered, low enough so Jack didnât catch it.
Michael watched those doors, waiting for you to come back. It had only been five minutes, but he couldnât take it anymore.
âHey Robinavitch, are you listening?â Dana said bringing Michael back to current day.
âUh, sorry, what?â Michael asked.
âI asked if you were going to start rounds,â Dana said.
âGive me 5. I need to uh, get some air first.â
âThis wouldnât happen to have anything to do with a certain nurse would it? Who you happen to smell identical to?â Dana asked with a raised eyebrow.
âDonât start,â Michael said as he started to walk away.
Once you reached the roof, you sat on the side of the door, bringing your knees to your chest. The morning Pittsburgh air was cool. When you heard the doors to the roof open and close. You sighed. âIâm fine Abbot,â you said between the tears.
âItâs not Abbot, and youâre not fine.â
You looked up and tried to smile at Michael through the tears. âHey,â you whispered.
âAbbot told me what happened,â Michael said as he sat next to you. âWanna talk about it?â
You shook your head.
Michael nodded as he put his arm around you. âCâmere.â
You leaned into him. The minute you were in his arms - you lost it. Sobbing into his chest.
âShh, let it out, Iâm right here, sweetheart. I got you,â Michael said as he held you close, while rubbing a hand down your back and kissing your forehead. âYou did everything you could.â
âI told him he was okay, then he died.â
Michael pulled away and cupped your face in his. âHey. This isnât on you. You did everything you could. Baby, this isnât on you, sweetheart. Youâre the best fucking nurse in this hospital.â
âYouâre just saying that because weâre dating,â you mumbled.
âIâm saying it because itâs true. Youâre the best fucking nurse in this hospital. Do you hear me?â
You nodded your head, as you leaned into hug him.
âBaby?â
âHmm,â Michael responded.
âDid you use my body wash?â
Michael smirked. âYeah. I uh, just missed you and wanted to smell like you.â
You rolled your eyes. âYouâre such a freak.â
âIf I recall, you happen to like when I get freaky.â Michael wiggled his eyebrows.
âI fucking hate you,â you said as you laughed.
âI love you too,â Michael said with a smile. âReady to go back down?â
You nodded, as you took Michaelâs hand, intertwining your fingers together down the first few flights of stairs, and unhooking them the closer you got to The Pitt.
âThink Dana will let me get at least an hour in? I dunno if I can sleep without being cuddled next to you and the tv on, but I just want to-â
âDecompress?â Michael said, finishing your sentence.
You nodded.
âYeah, go ahead. Iâll cover for you with Dana. Iâll page you if we need ya.â
âThank you,â you whispered, as Michael held the door open for you.
âNot a problem,â Michael said as he smiled and watched you walk away.
You donât know how long you were asleep before you heard the door open and close. You soon felt a hand moving a stray hair into place.
âSweetheart?â Michael whispered as you started to stir.
You slowly blinked your eyes open. âHmmm. Hey handsome.â
âWe got a triple MVA trauma coming in. We need - I need you out there.â
âNo please? No kiss?â You asked as you stretched.
âPlease,â Michael said as he bent down and gently pecked your lips.
âOnly for you, Robinavitch.â
âHm, theyâll be here in 5. We gotta go. Plus we canât get caught.â
âItâs not getting caught if you were coming to wake me.â
Michael rubbed the back of his neck, âSomeone in the hospital is winning the betting pool, the longer weâre gone-â
â-The more apt someone is to put two and two together,â you said finishing his sentence.
âYeah,â Michael said as he stood at the door.
You met him at the door as he opened it for you. The two of you walked down the halls to the ambulance bay, and out the doors to await the arrival of the EMTs.
Your worked the trauma seamlessly with Michael - the two of you dancing around each other as you helped the patients. While working on a patient with Trinity, and Jessie, you had a hard time starting the IV.
âThe tourniquet is too tight, I canât get a vein,â you said as you went to fix it.
âTourniquet is fine. Iâm the one that put it on,â Trinity said. She rolled her eyes and walked over to assist you. âMaybe you slept too long.â
âWhat was that?â You snapped.
âOh or maybe not long enough,â Trinity said with a laugh.
âIt wasnât that long,â you said as you rolled your eyes.
âJust saying. Robby left you alone longer than any one. Iâd love to get almost two hours uninterrupted in the on call room,â Trinity said as you turned around and locked eyes with Michael.
Michael began walking towards the two of you, past Jessie.
âDoes anyone smell peppermint?â Jessie asked.
âWhat are you implying Dr. Santos?â Michael asked, feeling defensive by her comment.
âJust saying,â Trinity said as she threw her arm up.
âIV is in,â you said, as Mel walked into the room.
âNeed any help in here?â She asked.
âCheck the belly, Yoyo will probably be in here soon to check if she needs surgery,â Michael said. He watched as Trinityâs eyes lit up.
You shook your head. âGirl-â
âStop Miss secret boyfriend,â Trinity said.
âWhat do we got?â Yolanda said as she walked into the trauma room.
Mel ran the patients stats to Yolanda, adding the belly tenderness.
âAlright. Letâs get her up to surgery,â she said as they started moving the gurney out.
âWeird question but does anyone smell peppermint?â Mel asked as Michael walked past her.
âI just asked that,â Jessie said.
âYeah itâs just the IV whispererâs body wash. Apparently, she thinks itâs always Christmas,â Trinity said.
âThen why does Dr. Robby smell like peppermint?â Mel asked.
Michael dropped utensils tray he was taking care of, as the two you locked eyes with each other.
âOh. My. God,â Trinity said, as you turned your head towards her.
âDonât,â you said.
âOh. My. God.â
âTrinity,â you were pleading with her - this wasnât how you wanted everything to get out.
âYouâre fu- your boyfriend is - oh no wonder you wouldnât say who it was. Damn IV girl,â Trinity said as she patted you on the back.
âBoth of you,â Michael said pointing to the door.
âWhat just happened?â Mel asked as Jessie shook his head.
âI canât believe you two are dating,â Trinity exclaimed loud enough for the whole ER to turn around.
Michael rubbed his eyebrows. âI brought you out here to ask you not to tell anyone yet.â
âOh i figured,â Trinity said. âOh man but wait until Vi finds out!â
âTrin, let me tell her,â you said.
âToo late.â.
Your phone began going off with a string of texts
Trinityâď¸: ITS DR ROBBY
Trinityâď¸: DR ROBBY IS HER BOYFRIEND.
Trinityâď¸: đ¨
Viâ¨: WHAT
Viâ¨: GIRL YOU GOT EXPLAINING.
You: đđ¤ my lips are sealed.
You: Also - I hate you both.
Viâ¨: love you too. This is definitely the topic of girls night next week!
Trinityâď¸: â¤ď¸ reacted to a message.
You put your phone back in your pocket and groaned.
âYou good?â Michael asked.
You nodded. âYeah just not how I wanted to tell them, or anyone.â
âI know. Me either. We have to tell HR. But I have some good news,â Michael said as he put his arm around you.
âWhatâs that?â You asked as you walked into the elevator to go disclose your relationship to HR.
âI won the bet,â Michael said with a smirk as the elevator door closed.
cw: f! reader, alludes to smut, kinda bossy rabbot (they just want to take care of you!!!), sugar baby reader? kinda?, reader doesnât know what a day off is to save herself, these two are gonna get more gray trying to take care of you i swear
a/n: babyâs first smau !!! just a little idea i had in mind and wanted to see how it would flow as a text chain !! i hope yâall enjoy it xoxo
Immediately drops the whole sabbatical idea when he finds out. He was still on the fence about it, and the two of you argued about it every day. You knew something wasn't right whenever he brought it up. He'd tell you to take good care of yourself while he was gone, like he would never come back. Eventually, you broke down and told him: "Why do you keep bringing it up then, huh?! I told you it'll be fine!" he yelled, walking around with his hands in his hair. You were crying already, tears streaming down your face. "YOU CAN'T LEAVE, I'M PREGNANT!. The room went dead silent; he couldn't even speak. He comes over and hugs you, your wrecking sobs against him and he just holds you tight rubbing your back up and down. "I won't go, I won't go, I promise, baby," he coos.
2. Helicopter husband and dad already. He doesn't mean to be, but he feels such a sense of responsibility for you. He texts you every hour to ask how you're doing. "Did you take your prenatals?" he asks very sternly. "...Not yet," you whisper, knowing you're about to get chewed out. "Honey. I set a timer on your phone for a reason. How much have you eaten today? You can't just live off one meal anymore; you're carrying a baby." He monitors everything, not because he's an asshole, but because he wants the pregnancy to go as smoothly as possible.
3. Tries all your cravings with you. You feel bad about eating weird shit by yourself, so he chugs it down with you. "Mmh, oh fuck yes, that hits the spot," you moan in complete bliss, meanwhile poor Robby is trying not to throw up the most disgusting combo of his life. He'll never tell you he hates it, though; he sees your face light up, and that's enough for him to keep eating.
4. Reads about 10,000 parenting books. He never had good or devoted parents, so he makes sure he gets all the help he can. He always leaves them on his nightstand so he can read them before and after bed.
5. Spends all the time he can get in the pediatric department; if there's a case with a baby or a kid, he immediately snatches it up. He gets so happy interacting with them, knowing he has his own little one on the way. He is also much more temperamental in situations involving kids. He used to be bulletproof, but now when he even senses abuse of neglect he has to physically hold himself back from punching them.
6. Talks to your bump any time he's free. When he gets home late and you're asleep, he'll crawl next to your stomach and softly rub it. "Hey, it's your dad. You okay in there? Good. I had a long day, sorry I was gone for so long, angel," he'll softly whisper, not wanting to wake you up. You were awake a few times, but you pretended to stay asleep till he was all done. He looks forward to it every single day.
7. Loves buying clothes for the baby. He doesn't care whether it's a boy or a girl; he just wants his baby dressed in outfits he picked out. He buys little scrubs and is so excited to show you. "Robby, honey, you're buying clothes like we're having triplets! There's one baby." You huff after coming home to 4 bags of onesies, shirts, pants, socks, and shoes.
8. Keeps a photo of the ultrasound and you in his backpack. Whenever days are harder and he feels like he wants to hurt himself, he'll take them out and look at them till he calms down. They are the only things that can get rid of his panic attacks now. Looking at his whole world in his hands makes him know everything will be okay and that he has so much now.
older neighbour!robby who gets worried about you when youâre home alone, so he knocks on your door, bowl of popcorn in one hand and two glass bottles of coca cola in the other. you obviously invite him in, both of you settling down on your couch to watch a movieâyour choice of course, because thereâs no way he would choose legally blonde as a movie to watch on a saturday night.
he doesnât overstep, just wants to make sure youâre safe while you live alone. when he leaves at the end of the night, he gives you his number, letting you know that if you ever need anything, heâs only a phone call away. you smile and thank him, watching as he crosses the patch of grass between your houses and enters into his own house. youâre totally giddy and you immediately call your best friend and tell her all about him.
âheâs like.. a bit older, but heâs so hot and heâs super nice..â
âyou sure heâs not perving on you?â
âabsolutely not, we watched legally blonde and shared some popcorn.. just made small talk, that was it..â
âokayyyyy.. well maybe he might like you.. flirt with him a little.. plus, you said he was a doctor right.. think of the money!â
âoh shit, youâre right.. oh my god..â
you talked with her some more before you yawned and called it a night. you made your way back downstairs to clear up the popcorn and the bottles, when you noticed his grey jacket slung over the arm of the couch. picking it up, you headed out your front door and looked over at his house, there was no light on so you figured he had gone to sleep and you would just take the jacket back over tomorrow. you walked upstairs to your bedroom, throwing it at the end of your bed before going into your ensuite, brushing your teeth and getting ready for bedâand as soon as your body hit the mattress, you were out like a light.
a loud knock at your front door jolted you awake as you turned to look at your alarm clockâ6:35am. you groaned and grabbed the jacket laying on your bed, before slipping it on, forgetting that it wasnât actually yours. you grumbled as you made your way to the front door, swinging it open ready to complain about whoever decided to wake you at this ungodly hour of the morning. but then you were met with robby, the very man whoâs jacket you were currently wearing.
âmorning.. i was about to ask if i had left my jacket here last night, but.. i can see that i did..â
âwhat? oh.. oh.. sorry⌠shit, here you go..â you mumbled out your words, frantically taking off his jacket and handing it to himâsuddenly feeling slightly cold. you looked down and realised you were dressed in barely any clothing. robbyâs mouth fell slightly agape, before he coughed and swallowed thickly.
âi.. uhm.. thanks.. i.. yeah, thanks..â
âyour uhm.. your welcome..â
robby nodded at you, turning to step away before you stepped out your front door, grabbing his arm. he turned back to you, cheeks slightly flushed red as he stared into your eyes.
âdo you.. uhm.. do you wanna come over again tonight? after work? your choice of movie this time?â
robby hesitates for a second, knowing heâll have to leave early again since he has work early in the morning tomorrowâbut when he got home last night, itâs been the first night in a while that he felt lighter, happier, calmer. you would laugh at funny parts of the movie and he could feel his heart lurch every time he heard that sweet noise coming out your mouthâand now heâs sure he wants nothing more than to hear you laugh all the time, his face buried in your neck as his beard tickles your skin, causing you to burst into a fit of giggles. he knows youâre like half his age but heâs never been more sure that youâre the one he wants to spend the rest of his life withâhe doesnât really believe in soulmates, but heâs starting to believe you might be his. so, he smiles at you, pulls his arm slightly back until his hand is now in yours, squeezing slightly when he speaks.
âpopcorn and two bottles of cola?â
you smile back at him, before leaning up on your tiptoes and pressing a small kiss to his cheek, watching his cheeks flush red again.
smutty blurb request for agegap robby where he likes to end the day with you riding his thigh/dry humping until you make a mess on his lap so he can clean you up before bed? đľâđŤ
blurb requests are open â âĄ
oh sweet nonnie...... this was so much fun to write omfg.
quick warning: excessive daddy kink and indulgent uses of petnames!
robby likes to think he's doing better now, finding new routines to have a healthier work-life balance. he doesn't stay later than his alotted shift and he's got something else to help him destress once he gets home.
you.
"fuck, daddyâ!" you squeal as your legs slot around his thigh, your panty-clad clit rubbing against the firm muscle beneath you. robby grunts as you push his shoulders back against the headboard from your eagerness. you're like a bunny on his lap, young and overeager in the way you chase your pleasure like this.
"feels good, princess?"
his tone is condescending, dark eyes glimmering with poorly-hidden lust behind his readers, as his large hands grope your perky ass to guide your squirming hips. his own cock is stiff, pressing against his thigh, but he ignores it in favor of the way your tits bounce in the white negligee you have on.
"mhm, so so good," you mewl and one hand leaves your ass to grope your tits instead, greedy in the way he skims a thumb along your nipple before it travels up your neck to hold your jaw. a self-satisfied moan escapes you, leaning into his palm before he's pulling you in to swallow each sweet noise with a filthy, open-mouthed kiss.
"yeah?" he murmurs against your mouth, gasping into his while he finally slides down a hand to rub your clit with a merciless precision that has you cumming hard in your panties and on his lap. "made a mess, baby."
"sorry, daddy," you whimper but he tsks gently, shushing you again with feather-light kisses along your cheek and jaw. he lays you onto your back before he settles between your legs, pushing the lacy fabric up your chest just for his own sick viewing.
"s'alright, darling, just let me see the mess you made, hm?" his voice is velvet across gravel, pushing your inner thighs apart to see the sopping fabric that greets him. he kisses your clit through the cotton panties, your hips jolting upwards from the sensitivity. "nuh-uh, stay still. how can i clean you up if you keep moving, baby?"
you offer another pathetic apology but it falls on deaf ears when robby makes a home of his face between your legs, his beard rasping deliciously against your slick inner thighs when he tugs your panties aside to lick up the sides of your lips to capture the slick with his tongue. his large hands brace along your inner thighs, the fabric of your panties hooked into one finger to keep them in place so he can delve the tip of his tongue through your folds.
"daddyâ!" you gasp as you squirm and wriggle but his arms are steel, keeping you in place against the mattress. it leaves you in the mercy of his tongue, his scruffy mouth determined to lick and lave every drop you've left behind. the low grunts coming from him are muffled but doesn't lessen the obvious enthusiasm he has for eating you out.
"love your fuckin' pussy, sweetheart, so so sweet for me," he mutters, pussy-drunk now as he leans his cheek against your thigh, his calloused fingertips dragging your labia aside to stare at your cunt with the same lovesick expression he holds for you. "look at her, so fucking pretty..."
"ngh, daddy..." you whine as he gives your cunt another slow drag, purposely missing your entrance to spoil your clit with attention. your toes curl as it skyrockets you into your second orgasm of the night but robby doesn't stop, spreading your folds so he can capture every bit of your cum.
when he pulls away, utterly satisfied, his beard is damp with your slick and his readers a tad bit crooked on his nose. "all clean, princess. time for bed, hm?"
was thinking about robby and how he loves how swollen and puffy your pussy looks after heâs done with you, how it would be drooling out both yours and his arousal onto the bed.. how you would be trembling and reaching for him to hold you after literally turning your brain to mush just from drilling his cock into you.. how the older man laughs when you whine for him to fill you up again because your sloppy hole feels all empty without him, and robby declines because he knows his drowsy girl isnât in the right headspace right now hmm..
pairing: michael "robby" robinavitch x nurse!reader
synopsis: You are a newly hired nurse whose dating preferences shake up the whole ER; little do you know, your new attending is exactly your type. And little does Robby know how guilty as sin he feels around you. Will you both let your guards down long enough to let the other in? Or will this just be a quick fling?
warnings: 18+ mdni, age-gap, reader is in her 25+'s, I have no medical knowledge so sorry for innacuracies, this is a series so serious slowburn, angst, both of them have trust issues, reader has daddy issues lowkey, maybe eventual smut? stay tuned
here is it on ao3 if you prefer
a/n: I started writing this in 3rd pov but have decided it's probably better in 2nd so this is the 2nd draft of this chapter. this is my first published work on tumblr and my first published work since like 2022 so go easy on me please. First time writing for Robby and as much as I know this first chapter is kinda meh I have better stuff lined up! hope you enjoy!
March 20th 6:49am
You came in the spring. Petals opening up with their vibrant colors, leaves flushed with sage, sun blazing and unforgiving. Your hair fell from your face in a beautiful mess, claw clip enclosing the rest of it. Skin smelling like vanilla and florals, scent enclosed by the navy scrubs you adorned, little keychains hanging from your breast pocket. Although you were a younger soul, you weren't blinded by optimism. Nor were you calloused like someone finishing up their residency. You knew deep down that some wounds couldnât heal, the physical and the emotional ones. You weren't familiar with this particular ER, but you knew eventually you would be. Giving time and dedication to it, this would be your new home. You were ready and willing to dedicate yourself to its desires.
The doors shut behind you, and you don't hesitate, walking to the main section of the desks. Some might call it a bullpen, others have labeled it âThe Pitt.âÂ
âGood morning to you too,â said the woman with platinum blonde hair pulled back loosely in a clip, clearly noting your eagerness. She lowered her black readers to get a good look at you, size you up, you were fresh meat after all.
âGood morning,â you replied, hand flexing on your tote bag.
âYou must be my new nurse, right? Nameâs Dana, welcome to The Pitt.â Dana flashed a smile and immediately went to work with you. She gave you the lowdown of the place, names and faces almost overwhelming you.
âHi âFresh meatâ,â said the woman with a mean mug and sassy eyes.
You gave a once-over; dark locks were pulled into a tight, low ponytail. She wore navy scrubs with a teal long-sleeve underneath, and her blue eyes gleamed with mischief.
âDoctor Santos, she mostly barks, but she also bites so be careful.â Dana said it half-sarcastically, but you were pretty sure she meant the biting part. Santos playfully mimicked a bite before walking away, seemingly lost interest in the new toy thrown into the playpen.
âSheâs just like that,â a boy, no, a man, a man with eyes of a boy, responded. He gave out his hand to be shaken and you took it. âWhitaker, welcome.â His lips curled in a small smile, his eyes kind. You noticed he had mousely features, big eyes, and floppy golden hair. Cute. He was endearing in a boyish way, like a brother you'd tease.
But Dana had no patience for your moment, rushing you through the halls, clearly no time to waste. So many tasks to memorize, procedures, code names, and actual names; Mohan, McKay, Javadi, Langdon, King, Nolan, Princess, Perlah, Jesse, Ogilvie, Kwon, Al-Hashimi, Donahue. Some with doctor in front of it, some with nurse. And just when you thought you'd had enough, exhausted by the information overload, one more person appeared.Â
âGood morning,â the man said sing-song-ingly, seemingly in a good mood. Everything about him drew you in. His voice like whiskey, dark and smooth. You watched as he placed his thermos down at the desk, the bitter smell of pure black coffee hitting you in contrast to the disinfectant smell in the air. He was leaning against the counter, his large frame towering over the computers. Calloused, large hands had grabbed a chart that had been sitting in a stack behind the desk and began perusing, perching round glasses atop his strong nose. The bags under his eyes indicated his lack of sleep, wrinkles in his skin announcing his weathered age. He had a navy blue zip-up jacket over pitch black scrubs, a white tee underneath it all with a gold chain peaking out. Even from a distance you could smell him; a deep, woodsy smell mixed with leather and the clean scent of a dove soap bar. All in one. All manly. Classic American.
âLast person to know, this is our chief attending, Dr. Robinavitch.â His face was buried in a chart before briefly looking up, locking eyes with yours. Deep brown meeting your gaze. âPlease, just Dr. Robby.â He flashed a tight-lipped smile. You weren't nervous, but you released a deep breath you hadnât realized you'd been withholding. Smiling in return, your name dropped from your lips. He repeated it and it felt like a homemade syrup to you; natural, arguably too sweet, and yet left wanting more.
âNew nurse, first day.â Dana said flatly, snatching the chart up from Dr. Robbyâs grasp. âWell, The Pitt welcomes you,â He said softly, genuinely, a gentle gaze in his eyes but a distance in his soul when he said it. âThank you.â You responded, just before Dana sent you off to a new task, too far away to hear the conversation being had about you.Â
âYour replacement?â Robby said jokingly, paying no mind to you walking away but couldnât help but note the lingering scent of vanilla and lilies. The older woman chuckled, âYou wish.â She watched as his eyes lingered to the room you had walked into. âGuess they finally listened to you.â It was Robbyâs turn to chuckle now, as if Gloria would actually listen to him. âJust glad sheâs here.â Dana finished, walking off. Your laugh echoed; he couldnât help but notice its sweet tone. Robby watched as you interacted with the patient, giving them a soft smile and gentle eyes.
âMe too.â
April 29thÂ
Most of your interactions went the way you'd met. Short. Brief. Little. He paid you very little attention at first, waiting to see if you could stomach the demands of the needy emergency department. And you did. Give into its every need with a high head and soft smile.
You earned trust and respect easily, you were dependable, clearly a quick âfanâ favorite when you brought homemade sourdough cinnamon rolls to the break room. A new recipe you saw floating around on tiktok. Or "the tweenybopper app," so loving called by Jack Abbott.
People quickly lost bets as they realized you weren't going anywhere, you were determined to stay. But your private life was elusive; you weren't quick to open up and even slower to speak about anything romantic.
So safe to say everyone was surprised when your boyfriend came in to visit one day.
1:32 pm
âNo fucking way,â Santos said, leaning back in her chair to see a 50+ year old giving the newbie a deep kiss, his withered hands resting on your back pockets. âThereâs no way⌠right?â Whittaker said, popping into the little gossip circle that was beginning to form, Perlah and Princess placing bets on exactly who this stranger was and the label he would have. When he walked away, and you drew near to them they scattered like mice, all pretending like they werenât just gawking at the uncanny sight.
You couldnât help but feel the tension; it was so thick you were practically drowning in it. Turning, you saw them quickly look away, âOkay, what is it?â
Santos piped in first, âSo who was that?â You immediately rolled your eyes and turned away, going back to whatever charts you had initially come for.
âIf you simply must know, that was my boyfriend, yes, boyfriend.â You dragged the last words out just for them to understand. This was not your first rodeo, nor did your think it would be your last. You were very used to having to justify your elderly taste in men to others, so it didnât necessarily bother you to explain; it was just a hassle. Saying, âthey just get me better,â âless drama,â and âtheyâre better in bed.â
May 4th 2:34 pm
Robby was rushing off to the next task, but couldnât help but notice a stranger who didnât seem like a patient in his ER, clearly looking for someone. The man had his eyes set on the latest hire.
It truly didnât dawn on him that this couldnât have been anyone but a friend or relative. So he took a wild guess.
You were too busy typing something to truly notice Robby's bewildered stare at you, but you felt his presence next to you. As well as that classic scent, a little more tobacco smelling today, you wondered if he switched cologne's. Regardless, you waited patiently for him to speak up. Â
âLooks like your familyâs waiting for you,â he said, head bopping in the other manâs direction.
You stopped what you were doing immediately, eyes growing wide, âFamily? Dr. Robby, I have no family here.â
It was here you could see it in his eyes; his false assumption and how he regreted making it now.Â
âFriend?â He pointed in the manâs direction. When you turned your attention to the person, seeing your boyfriend smile and wave slightly, you then also pointed to the man, âFriend? Boy-friend.â
âBoyfriend?â Robby was pretty stumped; it seemed childish to call a 50+ year-old a young 20-something-year-oldâs boyfriend.
âIâm a big girl Dr. Robinavitch.â You only said his full name when you were teasing or cross with him; in this instance, he couldnât tell the difference.Â
You left your task momentarily, practically leaping into the older manâs jacked arms who lifted you with ease. And right there, within sight of the entire ER, your boyfriend had the gall to stick his tongue down your throat. To which you responded with equal passion.Â
âYou seem surprised,â said Dana, practically materializing out of thin air next to Robby. And he was; eyes widened and brows lifted, practically frozen in place, glasses drooping and nearly falling off his nose as he suddenly closed his gaping mouth.
âDoesnât take much to surprise me these days, but that is a little shocking.â He straightened up, taking the glasses off his face, at least trying to ignore the sudden ache in his back.
âHow so?â
âSheâs just so-â
âYoung?â
He closed his mouth tightly, scrunched his nose, and tilted his head. Like sheâd nailed him.
âWas thinking more lively.â
âAnd he doesnât seem lively to you?â She was just teasing him at this point, pushing his buttons. Your boyfriend continued to chase down your mouth, deepening the kiss at any opportunity he had and you let him; you loved it. Until you could hear some whoops and claps from your coworkers who all suddenly began noticing the spicy scene between you and your man. You giggled and pushed him back, a blush creeping to your cheeks as he whispered something into your ear.Â
âCause he sure seems it.â
May 9th 4:36 pm
âSo whatâs the deal with Grandpa?â
âYou canât just ask that!â
âHeâs not an actual grandpa⌠right?â
You chuckled for a moment before responding to Santos, Javadi, and King. âYes, weâre dating. Yes, itâs fine to ask. And no, heâs not an actual grandpa⌠yet.â With the last statement, you walked away, trying to avoid that last conversation at all cost.
But Santos followed in your wake, âYou canât actually be serious, right?â She had that subtle edge to her words, she didn't mean for it to come across mean, it's just how she was.Â
But you didn't care, your life experiences influencing your life. âWhat? Yeah, heâs not exactly Prince Charming-â
âHeâs like 80!â
âAnd yet none of us batted an eye when we were making theories about Samira and Dr. Abbott?âÂ
âFair point.â Santos stopped, thinking it over for a split second before continuing. âBut câmon, youâve gotta admit itâs kindaâŚâ
âKinda what?â You huffed, already fed up with having to re-explain it to her.Â
âI mean, he could be your dad, dude.â
This was a bruise for you; an unseen injury to others, but a tender spot to you, something Trinity couldnât have known but unknowingly dug into. You stopped walking, confronting her dead on.
âBut heâs not, and my dadâs not around, so who really cares? Look, Iâm not a minor, I have a fully developed frontal lobe and I don't need you to judge me." âI donât mean to yuck your yum-â
You breathed out heavily and quickly, hands up in a "stop" motion. âDr. Santos." You hadnât spent enough time together outside of the fluorescent lighting for you to say her first name. In her eyes you could see the sorry she wouldn't be able to say.Â
"I don't need to justify myself to your or anyone else." You began, "But, they're good listeners, they're good lovers, they're sexy as hell-" Santos lifted her hand up in defeat, face drawn in disgust.Â
âOkay, okay, now Iâm yucking your yum if you use any more descriptives.â It was your turn to laugh off her statement. You both began walking again, going to your respective tasks.
âIâm happy right now, thatâs what matters to me.â And Santos nodded, understanding in a way what you meant. That even if itâs momentary, itâs something.
May 16th 5:42 pm
âOkay, would you just say what you're thinking?â You slammed the chart you'd been working on at the desk, not even paying attention to the clatter it made. No, you were too bothered by the subtle side eye your attending had been giving you the past couple of days. Small enough gestures that made you feel like you were going crazy. It was a particularly slow day, and there werenât as many people around, so it just made Robbyâs moments stand out more. Leaving her frustrated and frazzled, until she felt like she just broke.Â
âI didnât say anything?â Robby responded, hands up in surrender.Â
âExactly.â You weren't letting up, a genuine upset contorting your face. Robby couldnât stand that, the subtle pout you were giving. He sighed, recognizing his defeat and running a hand down his face. He took the opportunity to sit, leaning backwards in a chair and holding his face up with his palm, the other hand gesturing.
âHe just seems-â now what word could he possibly use without offending her? This was a battle he surely would lose. And what could he say anyway? That the guy was probably as old as him? What would that insinuate? Yet she was waiting on an answer, eyebrows lifted, and your head bobbed in anticipation of his response.Â
âOlder.â
You had to roll her eyes at that. As if you hadnât heard that before. âAnd?â
He looked at you, like actually stopped and looked into your eyes. âYou donât think you could do better?â
You let out a hearty laugh; as sweet as he was being, you just had to think it was funny. âDr. Robby, this is me doing better. Donât think youâve seen the modern dating scene. We donât meet in drive-ins and mixers anymore.â It was his turn to laugh now.Â
He shrugged his shoulders and turned back to charting something down. âYouâre right, youâre a big girl.â
âYes, I am Dr. Robinavitch. I am a big girl.âÂ
June 10th 7:12 am
Until you weren't. Until you came in with teary eyes and a broken heart, hair a mess, miscolored socks and dried up mascara staining your cheeks.
âWoah what ran you over?â McKay questioned, putting her hand on your shoulder; a gesture you clearly needed.
âI wish I were run over.â McKay took that as a sign that the shoulder touch wasnât enough; this was a hug knd of situation.
Seeing the physical gesture from a distance, everyone took it as a sign that something was very much off. News spread like wildfire; Robby being the last to know, like normal. Jack broke the news to him as they were switching shifts, âYou hear about the girlâs boy toy?â
Robby cussed quietly, trying to ignore the burn on his tongue and throat from drinking his coffee too quickly. He swallowed the burning liquid fast because he had to respond, especially since Jack had used the expression "boy-toy."
âWhat?â Abbott said her name, put up two fingers and split them, then motioned crying. What an idiot. But Robby couldnât care less, or at least thatâs what he said to himself and anyone who asked. âOkay?â And it was partly true. Why would he care? He was just glad that old freak wasnât coming around anymore and feeling up his latest nurse. Not like he had any emotional investment in how things were going, how the guy kept showing up and bringing you flowers, how he would drive you off in his little sports car, squealing out of the ambulance bay.
No, he only noticed how happy you were and how it came out in your work. But even now, with a broken heart, you were still putting on a smile. You wiped your face and showed up to work; it was just in your character; you refused to let anyone down. It was admirable, and he respected that.
1:23 pm
You were taking a minute in the break room, inhaling a long breath, and clutching onto your mug of warmth. Robby walked in suddenly, going straight to the dripping coffee pot, grabbing the half-full pot and refilling his thermos. There was silence, a weird tension. He cleared his throat, wondering if he should say something. But how could he be comforting? He didnât know the first thing about comforting a 20-something-year-old going through a breakup.
âYou good?â Dumbest question asked ever.
You let out a small chuckle and placed the mug down. âIâve been better, Dr. Robinavitch.â Cross. And you walked out.
Yeah, there was no winning that one. So he sighed, looked at the time on his watch, and walked back out.
8:42 pm
The sky lit up like a Christmas tree in November; stars painted the sky in their different hues, tiny specks of white, blue, and yellow. You found solace in the stars; maybe they were lonely tonight too?
The creak of the rooftop door would've startled you, but the sirens in the night drowned its heavy thud. Heavy footsteps followed in its wake, that familiar sigh youâd gotten used to hearing behind you now. You had been sitting, palms behind you, feet planted on the roof. Turning only your head, you watched as your attending stopped and stood beside you, looking out to the cityâs skyline.
âPlease donât jump, I donât think I can take any more today.â She said, half-joking, half-serious. His chest rumbled with his chuckle, a small grin on his lips, crows feet present when looking down.
Pushing yourself off of your palms, you leaned forward, knees pressed up to your chest.
âListen, Iâm sorry about earlier,â you began. Robby looked down, unsure of what you could possibly be apologetic for, having a bad day? You couldn't look at him, eyes fixated on the skyline now. âIâd been pissy with you all day. Thatâs not cool.â He chuckled again, the usage of "not cool," ringing in his mind and displaying your age. Suddenly, the memory of you calling him âDr. Robinavitchâ all day appeared in his mind. Although you were never outwardly mean, you just weren't overly kind like you normally were.
âYouâre allowed to have a bad day, kid.â It just spilled out of him, the three-letter word he wasnât sure he was supposed to call her. Feeling kind of icky when he said it but also endearing.Â
You chuffed a laugh, a small smile creeping up to your lips. Nodding in response, you got up, dusted the concrete off of you and began walking away. You were ready for this day to be over.
Robby didnât turn, but he did say, âIâm sorry, breakups, they suck.â He paused in between each saying, emphasizing his lack of experience in this particular area.
Sighing, you shrugged and with that same smile said, âItâs whatever, Iâll get over it.â
It hit him, your smile. The one you gave when something clearly ached, a pain underneath the surface. It was almost worst than if you were crying, because at least then maybe he wouldn't feel so torn. So he tries his best to do what he thinks is comforting.Â
âFor the record, heâs an idiot.â He didnât mean for it to sound so flirtatious. âAn old idiot.â He adds.Â
And you erupt in laughter, clutching on to your chest as a couple of tears stream down your face, âYouâre one to talk, Dr. Robby.â
Your comment caused him to fully turn towards you now, lips parted slightly, as if he was actually shocked. âIâm not that old.â
You covered her mouth, knowing it would surely get you in further trouble if you spoke, âRight, right.â
He couldnât help it, seeing the little grin on your face, the way you were holding back your laughter and trying to be polite but hardly keeping it in; he had to laugh too. Then you both erupted in laughter. Sounding like hyenas in the night, squealing and cackling, both letting out the long day in the form of an audible release of air. Minutes pass by, and you finally wipe the tears that had formed at the corners of your eyes away, trying desperately to regain your breath. A heavy exhale left your chest and you stood back up straight, looking at Dr. Robby noticing his eyes looked a little more clear in the night sky then they did before.Â
There was distance in his gaze still, but there was a genuine kindness you could see. Almost as if he was trying to reach you, trying to meet you where you were. It was sweet, you were grateful.
âThank you, Dr. Robby.â You turned to leave again, feeling resolved, hand on the door.
âPlease,"Â he began, "When weâre not in there, itâs just Robby.â
It surprised you, hearing him be so vulnerable. You turned your head, his gaze still reaching out, you nodded.
author's note: This is my first ever smau, so please bear with me. This is just for fun, but I hope you enjoy it anyway. Dana and Jack are Robby's number one supporters here. Also, Santos mentioned because she's my favourite pittling, and Mohabbot is here. :) x
credit: The cute divider used was made by @robinavitchslut.
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âHoly shit, M-Mikey!â you screeched into the pillow, your moans muffled against the soft cushion. Robby's large hand snaked from your hip to the back of your head, gathering your hair at the root into his fist, and gripped it harshly. You whimpered out in surprise when he yanked at your scalp to lift your head off the pillow. His thrusts did not falter as you moaned out into the bedroom, the wanton sound echoing throughout his apartment.
âMikey-â you gasped as he tugged harder on your hair until your arched back was pressed against his coarse, hairy chest. He wrapped his arm around your waist and moved his hand from your hair toward your neck. Grabbing it gently to hold rather than to squeeze. The possessive gesture makes you even wetter, and the squelching sounds between you get louder.
âThe whole point of bringing you to my place," he grunted with his lips against your ear, "is so that you can be. Fucking. Loud." His thrusts were timed perfectly with his words.
âO-okay, Iâm sor- Ow! Ow, fuck!!â You blubbered at a particular thrust that felt uncomfortably deep.
"Oh, Shit. Baby, are you okay?" Robby asked urgently before immediately pulling out, holding you more gently against his chest. Both the palms of his hands are now resting against your ribs, gripping you as delicately as possible to keep you from falling onto the mattress.
You panted heavily with your eyes closed as you tried to catch your breath, waiting for the dull ache inside you to go away. Robby was getting desperate; your silence and lack of confirmation that you were okay were eating at him.
He gently grabbed your cheeks and forced you to turn your head back to face him behind your shoulder, needing eye contact to read you properly.
"Talk to me," Robby pleaded with a soothing tone, while his chocolate brown eyes bore into you. Anxious for an answer while trying not to stress you out, "Where does it hurt?"
"My-my-" you mewled softly as you made an effort to answer him properly. His encouraging nod helped you find the words you were looking for. "M-my cervix."
Robby tsked softly before leaning in to place a gentle kiss on your full cheek.
"I'm sorry, baby. I'm so sorry," He murmured, his salt and pepper beard scratching your skin as his lips brushed tenderly against your soft and sweaty skin. The gesture made your eyes flutter closed to enjoy the intimacy of the moment, making you feel closer to him than when he was inside you.
"Do you want to stop?" He cooed against your cheek, the immediate shake of your head to his suggestion made him chuckle softly.
"No, just s-slow down. Please?" Robby nodded before placing one more kiss on your cheek.
âAlright. I need to check your pretty pussy first, okay?â He cooed, not making a single move to position you until he got your consent.
You nodded gently, and he moved his grip down to your waist as he lowered you down carefully onto your stomach and flipped you over with ease. His strength always surprised you, given that his only workout consisted of being constantly on the go at the Pitt. Robby grabbed your knees and pushed them up until they were inches from your shoulders, pressing against your breasts.
âHold it,â He ordered, his role as an attending physician bleeding into his dominance in the bedroom. Your brain began to go all fuzzy and slow to process his command. Robby sensed your hesitance and glanced up at you with an arched brow, making you quickly obey and place your hands behind your knee to hold your legs back for him.
âGood girl,â He growled lowly as he kept his gaze on your soaked folds.
As he continued his inspection, your cheeks began to flush in this position. It always made you feel a little shy despite the numerous occasions heâs fucked you in a mating press. Except now you were exposing yourself to him instead of being covered by his tall and burly build.
A startled gasp escaped your lips as you felt the pad of his thumb circle your bundle of nerves. It quickly snapped you out of your anxious thoughts. You noticed his eyes were trained on your folds with his brows furrowed in concentration.
âWhat-what are you do-â Robby interrupted you before you could finish your sentence.
âNeed to lube you up before I check you properly,â He continued to stimulate your engorged clit with slow and controlled circles, not stopping until you were weeping. Despite this technically being a clinical check-in, you didn't even try to hold back the desperate mewling coming out of your parted lips. Robby was borderline teasing you, and it was driving you insane.
It wasn't until he glanced down and saw the wet spot forming under your ass from your arousal dripping down your folds and onto his sheets. He finally decided that you were wet enough, and he scooted closer on his knees before carefully working one thick finger into your folds. It was a tight fit, but he didn't stop until he circled the tip of his finger around for your cervical opening.
Robby grunted softly once he located your opening, feeling the small dent.
âHow does that feel?â His cock twitched against his thigh at the soft feeling of your opening, a sign that you were ovulating.
âA-a little weird,â you strangled breathlessly as you clenched around his finger, feeling more turned on than before.
âBad weird?â He inquired, trying his hardest not to pull his finger out and go back to fucking you until you were filled up.
âNo-no, l-like awkward weird not painful w-weird,â you panted heavily as your thighs began to shake in your grip.
Robby nodded before pulling his finger out, watching your slit clench around nothing and your clit twitching for contact. He placed his palm on one of your knees and spread you further open, allowing you to release your hold one of the backs of your knees.
You watched as he fisted his cock at the base and pressed the tip of his circumcised shaft against your clit. The sensation sent a shiver through your body, your thighs shaking in his grip.
"You ready pretty girl?" Robby growled, his voice hoarse from the frantic need to be inside you again.
"Yes."
A broken moan escaped your parted lips as he pushed his length all the way in in one thrust.
"Fuck-" Robby groaned through clenched teeth.
"I'm not gonna last," He panted heavily, "touch your pretty little clit for me."
You nodded quickly before reaching down to circle your clit with your fingertips, watching him groan at the sight and the way your slit flutters around his cock. He quickened his pace with a groan while he kept his fist at the base of his cock. Despite the lustful monster in him taking over, he was not going to make the same mistake of almost bruising your cervix again.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck. Cum for me, baby, please. Fuck, I'm so fucking close," Robby practically begged before leaning in to latch his lips around your nipple and suck on the soft nub until it hardened against his tongue.
"Daddy! Fuck me!" You whined as you came around his cock, your cum leaking onto his sheets, and adding to the puddle below your ass.
"That's it, baby," He groaned against your nipple before burying his face between your breasts.
"Where do you want it? Tell me now."
"Inside. Inside me, please," you pleaded as you wrapped your legs around his hips and hooked your feet to keep him inside.
"FUCK." Robby growled against your chest as he buried as much of himself as he could. His cock pulsated inside you as he kept moving his hips in shallow thrusts to fuck his cum further into you.
You gasped as he collapsed his full weight on top of you, his face buried into your chest, and he panted heavily. He reached forward to wrap one of his arms around you, making you arch your back to allow him to snake his arm under and hold you.
A comfortable silence settled in the room; the only sounds were you both finally catching your breath, mingled with the busy streets at midnight in Pittsburgh.
âYou know weâll have to tell your old man.â
With wide eyes, you turned your head to catch his gaze. You stared in wonder at his sudden determination while he returned his gaze in awe and a playful smirk.
âDo you know what youâre saying?â You watched as he leaned in to suckle on your sweet spot, the place on your neck just above your collarbone. The feeling caused you to slide your hand up his shoulder and run your fingers through the hair on the back of his neck.
"Mikey," You whispered his name so lowly he almost didn't hear you.
âMm?â Robby hummed without breaking contact from his lips on your neck, the sensation of his teeth biting down a little too hard made you clench around his softened length.
âHeâs gonna look at you differently. As a friend and an employee-â
âI know,â Robby interrupted as he pulled away slightly to cup your face and leaned in to peck a kiss on your lips before murmuring, âI donât care. I just want you in my life. Even with all the noise and bullshit. I've fucked enough cum into you and shared too much of myself to let you go.â
It was obvious now that this was more than sex. He didn't get his high off the secrecy and shame of fucking his supervisorâs daughter under the radar. Robby was getting his high from just being with you, touching, and connecting with every part of you that you were willing to give him. He couldn't get enough of it, and now he wanted the whole world to know.
Request - Do you know what I can't stop thinking about? Pissing off robby... like nothing serious, just having fun. Just being a bit of a brat and getting him all riled up during the day. đ
thanks for the request, I might have made it slightly serious đŤś
The emergency department had been open for exactly seven minutes when Dana looked up from the charge desk, watched you walk through the ambulance bay doors with entirely too much confidence, and sighed.
âOh, no.â
Mel glanced over from the coffee machine. âWhat?â
Dana nodded toward you.
âYouâve got that smile.â
âWhat smile?â
âThe one that says Robbyâs about to have a bad day.â
You looked positively radiant. Hair neatly tied back. Gray scrubs freshly pressed. Trauma shears clipped to your waistband. Coffee in one hand. Breakfast sandwich in the other. You looked like every other nurse arriving for a twelve-hour shift. Except for the mischievous glint in your eyes.
âI resent that,â you said, dropping your backpack beside the nursesâ station.
Dana folded her arms.
âNo, you donât.â
ââŚNo.â
She pointed a finger at you.
âI mean it. Robbyâs already buried in staffing issues because two nurses called out, radiologyâs running behind, and administration wants his quarterly report before lunch.â
You took a thoughtful bite of your breakfast sandwich.
âSoâŚheâs vulnerable.â
Dana pinched the bridge of her nose.
âLord, give me strength.â
Before you could answer, the doors to the physician workroom opened. Dr. Michael Robinavich stepped into the department already reading something on his tablet.
Six-foot-four. Dark green attending jacket. Stethoscope looped loosely around his neck. Salt-and-pepper beginning to claim the hair at his temples and the beard that framed an annoyingly handsome face. His brow was furrowed in concentration. He hadnât even looked up yet. You smiled wider.
âOh, this is going to be fun.â
Dana muttered under her breath.
âI shouldâve called in sick.â
Robby reached the nursesâ station without looking away from the chart.
âMorning.â
âMorning, Doctor.â
âMorning.â
âMorning.â
ThenâŚ
âGood morning, Chief.â
His eyes finally lifted. There it was. That smile. Small. Far too innocent. He knew that smile. He narrowed his eyes.
ââŚGood morning.â
You leaned casually against the counter.
âYou look nice today.â
ââŚThank you.â
âThe grayâs coming in a little more.â
McKay choked on his coffee. Dana slowly looked toward the ceiling. Robby blinked once.
âExcuse me?â
You smiled sweetly.
âI said the gray looks distinguished.â
âIt sounded like you said I was getting old.â
âI would never.â
âYou absolutely would.â
âI absolutely did not.â
Silence. Then he looked at Dana.
âHas she had caffeine yet?â
Dana didnât even hesitate.
âTwo cups.â
âThat explains it.â
You gasped dramatically.
âI compliment you first thing in the morning and this is the thanks I get?â
âI donât trust compliments before seven-thirty.â
âYou wound me.â
âYouâll recover.â He turned back toward the physician workroom. âRounds in ten.â
You watched him disappear around the corner.
ââŚThat was easier than I expected.â
Dana looked horrified.
âMaâam.â
âHm?â
âDonât.â
âIâm not doing anything.â
âYouâve already started.â
******
The first trauma arrived just before eight. Motorcycle accident. Middle-aged male. Open tib-fib. Stable airway. The organized chaos of the trauma bay swallowed everyone whole.
For twenty-five minutes there wasnât room for jokes. You moved with practiced precision, handing instruments before Robby asked, anticipating medications, calming the patientâs terrified wife. It was one of the things Robby admired most about you. When it matteredâŚ
You never played games. By the time the patient rolled upstairs, everyone let out the collective breath theyâd been holding.
âNice work,â Robby said quietly as he peeled off his gloves.
âYou too.â
He offered a tired nod before heading toward the physician station. You watched him reach into his scrub pocket. Then pause. He frowned. Checked another pocket. Then another.
ââŚWhereâs my pen?â
You looked down at your own scrub pocket. Three identical black pens peeked out. Mel saw them first. His shoulders immediately started shaking. Dana noticed next. She covered her face with both hands.
âOh, no.â
Robby slowly turned.
âYou.â
You looked around innocently.
âMe?â
âMy pens.â
âWhat about them?â
âYou have them.â
âI do?â
âYou know you do.â
âI donât think Iââ
He walked over. Close enough that his shadow fell across you. Close enough that only you could hear the quiet warning in his voice.
âGive.â
âWhat?â
âMy.â
You smiled.
âPen?â
âMy pens.â
âI donât know what youâre talking about.â
He sighed through his nose.
âYou are thirty-six years old.â
âAnd thriving.â
âYou stole all three.â
âI donât recall doing that.â
âI watched you.â
âWhen?â
âWhen you hugged me good morning.â
ââŚThat was a hug?â
âYou literally emptied my pockets.â
âI was being affectionate.â
âYou committed theft.â
Dana was openly laughing now. Frank Langdon happened to walk past. He glanced between the two of you.
ââŚDo I want to know?â
Without looking away from you, Robby answered flatly.
âNo.â
Frank looked at the three pens clipped neatly into your pocket.
ââŚActuallyâŚâ He grinned. ââŚI think I already do.â
You finally surrendered them one by one. Robby held out his hand.
âOne.â
You placed one in his palm.
âTwo.â
Another.
âThree.â
You hesitated.
âIâve grown attached.â
He raised one eyebrow.
âYouâve known that pen for six minutes.â
âWeâve been through a lot.â
âYou are impossible.â
âIâve been told.â
He slipped all three back into his pocket before taking exactly two steps away. Then he stopped. Without turning around, he said quietly,
âIf another pen goes missing todayâŚâ
You folded your arms.
âYes?â
âIâm writing your performance evaluation with a crayon.â
The entire nursesâ station erupted into laughter. Even you couldnât help it. Robby shook his head as he continued walking toward his next patient, and despite himselfâŚThe corner of his mouth twitched upward. Dana leaned over beside you.
âI saw that.â
âSaw what?â
âHe smiled.â
You looked toward Robbyâs retreating figure, warmth blooming in your chest despite yourself.
âI know.â
Dana sighed.
âThis shift is going to be twelve hours of foreplay disguised as workplace harassment.â
You nearly spit out your coffee laughing.
âDana!â
âWhat?â She shrugged. âIâm just calling it like I see it.â
Across the department, Robby looked back over his shoulder just in time to see you doubled over laughing with Dana. He couldnât hear what sheâd said. He wasnât sure he wanted to know. But he had the distinct feelingâŚThis was only the beginning.
******
By ten-thirty that morning, the emergency department had settled into its familiar rhythm. There was no such thing as quiet in an emergency room. There were only different levels of loud. Monitors chimed in different keys. Phones rang incessantly. EMS radios crackled with incoming reports. Families asked anxious questions. Residents hurried from room to room balancing coffee, clipboards, and the ever-present fear of being called on by the Chief Attending. And somewhere in the middle of all of itâŚ
Dr. Michael Robinavich was beginning to suspect he was being hunted. Heâd caught you watching him at least six times. Every time he looked up, you looked away with exaggerated innocence. Every. Single. Time.
He wasnât imagining it. Frank noticed first.
âYou know,â he said quietly while reviewing labs beside Robby, âsheâs stalking you.â
âIâm aware.â
âYou gonna do something about it?â
âIâve considered transferring hospitals.â
Frank laughed.
âBit dramatic.â
âYou werenât here when she stole my pens.â
âI was.â
ââŚThen you understand.â
Frank looked across the department. You were helping Mel splint a wrist while carrying on an animated conversation with an elderly patient that had the woman smiling despite being in obvious pain. You noticed Robby looking. Without missing a beat You smiled. And waved. Frank followed the exchange before looking back at Robby.
ââŚSheâs definitely doing this on purpose.â
âI know.â
âSo why are you smiling?â
âIâm not.â
ââŚRobbyâ
âIâm not smiling.â
Frank just stared.
âYouâve got it bad.â
Robby answered without looking away from the chart in front of him.
âIâve had it bad for a while.â
******
The opportunity presented itself fifteen minutes later. A first-year resident was presenting a patient with abdominal pain.
ââŚCT is pending. Labs are reassuring. Vitals are stable.â
Robby nodded.
âWhat are you thinking?â
The resident hesitated. You happened to walk behind them carrying a medication tray. The resident looked terrified. Robby waited patiently.
âI think discharge is reasonable.â
Robby nodded slowly.
âI think thatâs defensââ
You cleared your throat. Both men looked over. You blinked.
âSorry.â
Silence.
ââŚDid you need something?â Robby asked.
âNo.â
âThen why did you interrupt?â
âI justâŚâ You looked thoughtfully toward the resident. âI donât know if Iâd discharge him.â
The poor resident looked like heâd just been told to defuse a bomb. Robby folded his arms.
âAnd why is that?â
You shrugged.
âPainâs migrated.â
âIt has.â
âHe guarded when I gave him IV medication.â
âHe did.â
âIâd probably wait for imaging.â
Robby looked at you for a long moment. Then he looked back at the resident.
âWhat do we learn from this?â
The resident swallowed.
ââŚListen to experienced nurses?â
âCorrect.â
You smiled victoriously. The resident escaped before Robby could ask another question. Once the two of you were alone, he looked at you over the top of his reading glasses.
âYou enjoyed that.â
âI donât know what youâre talking about.â
âYou absolutely do.â
âI was advocating for my patient.â
âYou were showing off.â
âI can multitask.â
His lips twitched.
âYou realize every resident in this department thinks you just challenged the Chief Attending.â
âI did challenge the Chief Attending.â
âYou won.â
âI know.â
âYou look entirely too pleased with yourself.â
âI am.â
He sighed dramatically.
âI miss when you were intimidated by me.â
You laughed.
âI was never intimidated by you.â
âYou shouldâve been.â
âI thought you were handsome.â
He blinked.
ââŚThat wasnât the answer I expected.â
You leaned in just enough to lower your voice.
âIt was the truthful one.â
For just a heartbeat neither of you moved. The department disappeared around you. It was only the two of you standing beside the physician workstation. Then Dana walked by carrying a stack of charts.
Without even slowing down, she deadpanned, âChildren, there are patients.â
The spell shattered instantly. You burst into laughter. Robby rubbed a hand over his beard.
âDana.â
âWhat?â
âIâm trying to have a professional conversation.â
She looked between the two of you.
âSure you are.â
******
Just after lunch, Robby was reviewing chest X-rays with another attending when his pager disappeared. Not the noise. The entire pager. He patted one pocket. Then another. Nothing. He frowned.
âFrank.â
âHm?â
âHave you seen my pager?â
âNope.â
Mel happened to overhear.
âOh, thatâs not good.â
Robby looked up.
âWhy isnât that good?â
Mel pointed silently toward the nursesâ station. You were charting. Completely focused. Absolutely innocent. With something clipped discreetly to the waistband at the back of your scrub pants. Robby closed his eyes.
âNoâŚâ
Frank followed his line of sight.
âOh, she didnât.â
Mel started laughing so hard he had to lean against the counter.
âOh, she absolutely did.â
Robby crossed the department with long, determined strides. You looked up as he stopped beside your chair.
âHi.â
âMy pager.â
âWhat about it?â
âYou have it.â
âI donât.â
âIt is literally attached to your waistband.â
You reached behind yourself with exaggerated confusion.
ââŚThis?â
âYes.â
âI wondered whose this was.â
âYou wondered.â
âI thought maybe Dana got me an upgrade.â
âYou thought I accidentally clipped my pager to your pants?â
âWhen you say it out loudâŚâ
He held out his hand.
ââŚIt sounds unlikely.â
âLook, sweetheart.â
âYes, honey.â
âMy pager.â
âIâll trade.â
He narrowed his eyes.
âFor what?â
You looked at him thoughtfully.
âHmm.â
âYou are negotiating with hospital equipment.â
âI am.â
He pinched the bridge of his nose.
âWhat do you want?â
âA coffee.â
âYou have coffee.â
âA better coffee.â
âYou can buy your own.â
âI could.â Silence. ââŚBut I donât want to.â
Frank was openly eavesdropping now. So was Mel. Even Cassie had stopped charting. The entire nursesâ station had become an audience. Robby noticed.
âYou all have jobs.â
Nobody moved.
âYou are literally waiting to see who wins.â
Dana looked up from her computer.
âWeâre heavily invested now.â
Robby looked skyward for a moment, as if silently asking for patience. Then he stepped closer. Close enough that only you could hear him. His voice dropped into that low, calm register that somehow always made your heart race.
âYou enjoy making me chase you.â
You smiled softly.
âMaybe.â
âYou enjoy seeing how far you can push me.â
âMaybe.â
His eyes held yours.
âYou know what I think?â
âWhat?â
âI thinkâŚâ
He reached past youânot touching you, but close enough that you caught the clean scent of cedar and soap that always clung to himâand effortlessly unclipped the pager from your waistband. His knuckles brushed the fabric of your scrub top for the briefest instant.
ââŚI think youâve gotten a little too confident.â
Heat rushed into your cheeks before you could stop it. He noticed. Of course he noticed. A slow, satisfied smile finally broke across his face.
âNice.â
Your confidence faltered just enough to make him chuckle.
âI was wondering if you were capable of blushing.â
âOh, shut up.â
âYou started this.â
âI know.â
âAnd now youâre embarrassed.â
âI am not embarrassed.â
âYou absolutely are.â
You folded your arms.
âI hate when youâre observant.â
âI know.â
He turned to leave. Halfway back to the physician station, he called over his shoulder without looking back.
âIf my stethoscope goes missingâŚâ
You couldnât resist.
âNo promises!â
He laughed. It was quiet. Warm. The kind of laugh that escaped before he could stop it. The entire department heard it. Dana looked from himâŚto youâŚand slowly shook her head.
âThis is going to end in one of two ways.â
Cassie grinned.
âWedding bells?â
Dana snorted.
âNo.â
She watched the two of you continue stealing glances across the bustling emergency department.
âOne of them is either going to murder the otherâŚâ
A beat.
ââŚor kiss them.â
Frank smiled to himself as Robby disappeared into Trauma Two, still shaking his head.
âIâve got fifty bucks on the second one.â
Dana didnât take her eyes off the trauma bay doors.
âSo do I.â
Neither of them noticed the way Robbyâs smile slowly faded as he reached for the next patientâs chart, the weight of a busy department settling back onto his shoulders. You did. But from across the nursesâ station, all you saw was him disappearing back into the role everyone depended onâthe calm, steady Chief Attending. You didnât yet realize that beneath that calm, you were occupying far more of his thoughts than either of you had intended.
******
By three oâclock, the emergency department had become exactly what everyone expected it to become on a Thursday afternoon. Completely relentless. There wasnât a single open bed. EMS was stacked three ambulances deep outside. A toddler with croup screamed in Room Nine. An elderly man in septic shock was waiting on an ICU bed. Orthopedics was behind. Radiology was behind. Lab was behind.
Everyone was behind.
The playful atmosphere that had carried the morning had slowly dissolved into focused efficiency. Even you had stopped teasing him. Mostly. You were hanging fluids in Room Fourteen when Dana stepped beside you.
âYouâve been quiet.â
You finished programming the pump before answering.
âItâs busy.â
Dana looked toward the physician station.
âNo.â
You followed her gaze. Robby stood surrounded by two residents, an intern, and Frank. He was answering questions while simultaneously reviewing CT images, signing orders, speaking with a consultant on his phone, and listening to EMS call in another trauma. He hadnât stopped moving in nearly an hour.
ââŚHeâs busy,â you corrected.
âHe always is.â
âI know.â
Dana bumped your shoulder.
âSo whatâs different?â
You watched him rub a tired hand across his forehead before immediately moving toward another patient.
âI donât know.â
But something in your chest tightened anyway.
******
The next trauma rolled through the ambulance bay doors at 3:27. Construction accident. Forty-eight-year-old male. Fallen approximately fifteen feet. Complaining of chest pain. Possible pelvic fracture.
The department shifted instantly. Everyone moved with practiced choreography. You met EMS at the door, taking report while helping transfer the patient onto the trauma bed. Robby arrived a second later.
âAirway?â
âPatent.â
âBreathing?â
âEqual bilaterally.â
âPressure?â
âOne-oh-eight over sixty.â
He nodded once.
âOkay, large bore IV.â
âAlready in.â
âGood.â
âDana, blood.â
âOn it.â
The room hummed with controlled urgency. The patient groaned as you cut away the last of his work shirt. You glanced toward the cardiac monitor. Sinus tachycardia. One-twenty. Nothing alarming. Yet. Robby leaned over the patient.
âIâm Dr. Robinavich. Can you tell me your name?â
âGary.â
âGary, stay with me.â
The man nodded weakly. Everything looked routine. Busy. But routine.
Twenty minutes later the trauma was stabilized. CT had been completed. Orthopedics had accepted the consult. The patient was waiting for transport upstairs. You stepped out of the room to grab another bag of fluids.
Across the nursesâ station, Robby stood at the physician workstation reviewing Garyâs chart. He looked exhausted. Not physically. Mentally. Like his brain was running six tracks at once. He clicked through allergies. Medications. Imaging. Lab results. Someone interrupted him.
One resident. Then another. Frank asked a question from across the desk. The phone rang. His pager vibrated. Someone from radiology called his name.
You watched him answer every single one without missing a beat. Or so you thought. He clicked an order. Signed it. Started to turn away.
âMichael.â
Jack Abbottâs voice wasnât loud. It didnât need to be. Robby stopped immediately. Jack was standing beside him, tablet in hand.
âYou ordered cefazolin.â
âRight.â
Jack didnât move.
âHe has a documented anaphylactic allergy.â
Silence. Your stomach dropped. Robby looked back at the screen. His face didnât change. Not even slightly. He canceled the order immediately. Replaced it with another antibiotic. Signed it
âGood catch.â
Jack nodded once.
âNo harm done.â
âNo.â
Another beat.
âYou alright?â
âIâm fine.â
Jack studied him for a second longer.
âYou sure?â
âIâm sure.â
Jack gave a slow nod, though he didnât look convinced. Then he walked away. The exchange had lasted maybe fifteen seconds. No raised voices. No patient had received the medication. No one else even seemed to notice. Except you.
Because youâd been watching him. And because in nearly two years of working beside Michael Robinavich. You had never Seen him miss something like that.
Your chest felt strangely heavy. You finished hanging the fluids in silence. Finished documenting. Finished helping discharge another patient. But your mind kept replaying those fifteen seconds.
âHe has a documented anaphylactic allergy.â
âGood catch.â
âYou alright?â
âIâm fine.â
No. He wasnât.
******
An hour later you found Frank restocking airway supplies.
âHey.â
He glanced up.
âHey.â
You kept your voice casual.
ââŚHas Robby seemedâŚoff today?â
Frank frowned.
âWhat do you mean?â
âI donât know.â
You hesitated.
âHe almost missed an allergy.â
Frank was quiet for a moment.
âI saw.â
ââŚDoes he ever do that?â
âNo.â
The answer came too quickly. Too confidently. Your heart sank. Frank leaned against the supply cart.
âHeâs human.â
âI know.â
âHe caught himself before anything happened.â
âJack caught him.â
Frank nodded.
âYeah.â
Neither of you spoke for several seconds. Finally Frank sighed.
âI think heâs just distracted.â
The word hit you like a punch. Distracted. By what? You already knew.
You found Dana sitting at the charge desk reviewing staffing for night shift. She looked up immediately.
âWhatâs wrong?â
You sat down beside her.
ââŚI think I screwed up.â
Her expression softened.
âWhat happened?â
You stared at the computer screen without seeing it.
âIâve been messing with him all day.â
Dana stayed quiet.
âI thoughtâŚâ You laughed weakly. âI thought it was funny.â
âIt was.â
âI kept distracting him.â
âYou werenât the only thing distracting him.â
âI didnât help.â
Dana reached over and squeezed your forearm.
âNo, but you werenât trying to.â
âI know.â
You swallowed.
âIâve never seen him miss something like that.â
Neither had Dana. It showed on her face.
âHe puts a lot of pressure on himself.â
âI know.â
âHeâll probably blame himself all night.â
âAnd Iâll blame myself.â
Dana sighed.
âYou two are exhausting.â
Despite yourself, you smiled faintly. She smiled back.
âButâŚâ
Her voice softened.
ââŚIf youâre worriedâŚâ
âI am.â
âThen tell him.â
******
The shift stretched on. The laughter from earlier never really returned. You still worked together seamlessly. You anticipated his orders before he gave them. He thanked you automatically. You answered. He answered. Professional. Efficient.
But something had changed. Every now and then youâd catch him standing still for half a second longer than usual, staring at a chart before forcing himself back into motion. Checking things twice. Sometimes three times. As though he no longer trusted his own instincts.
That hurt more than anything. Near the end of the shift, you passed each other outside Trauma Three. He handed you a chart without looking up.
âCan you take Room Eight?â
âOf course.â
ââŚThanks.â
His voice sounded tired. Not irritated. JustâŚdrained. He finally looked at you. For a brief moment, the noise of the department faded into the background.
âIâm sorry I havenât been much fun this afternoon.â
The apology caught you completely off guard. He thought he was the one who had something to apologize for. Your throat tightened.
âMichaelâŚâ
He gave you a small, weary smile.
âWeâll talk later.â
Then he was gone again, disappearing down the hallway toward another patient before you could say a single word. You stood there with the chart clutched against your chest, watching him walk away. Dana came to stand beside you.
âYou waiting for him after shift?â
You didnât take your eyes off the end of the hallway.
âYeah.â
âWhat are you going to say?â
You let out a slow breath.
âThe truth.â
âAnd whatâs that?â
You finally looked at her, your eyes shining with quiet regret.
âThat I was trying to make him laugh.â
A pause.
âAnd somewhere along the wayâŚâ
Your voice fell almost to a whisper.
ââŚI forgot that the man I love carries everyoneâs worst day on his shoulders before he even starts carrying mine.â
******
The night shift had officially taken over twenty-three minutes ago. The organized chaos of the emergency department had begun to settle into a new rhythm as fresh faces filtered through the doors, exchanging quick reports and tired smiles with the day crew. You should have been halfway home by now. Instead, you sat sideways on the seat of Robbyâs motorcycle in the far corner of the physician parking lot.
The summer evening was warm, the concrete still radiating the heat it had collected all day. The Pittsburgh skyline glowed faintly in the distance, the fading sunlight giving way to the first hints of dusk. Your helmet rested beside you. His helmet hung from one handlebar. You stared at your hands. Youâd rehearsed this conversation at least twenty times since leaving the department.
Every version sounded wrong. A car door slammed somewhere across the lot. You looked up. Robby. His shoulders were slumped in a way they almost never were. His jacket was slung over one shoulder, stethoscope tucked into the pocket, backpack hanging loosely from one hand. He lookedâŚ
Spent. Not angry. Not frustrated. Just empty. He didnât notice you at first. His gaze stayed on the pavement until he reached the motorcycle. Then he stopped. His eyes lifted. You were sitting on his bike. Waiting.
For several seconds neither of you spoke. Finally he sighed.
âI figured youâd be here.â
âYou did?â
âYouâve never been very good at letting things sit.â
A tiny smile threatened your lips.
âNo.â
âYouâve also never apologized over the phone.â
âI havenât.â
âNo.â
Another silence settled between you. He rubbed a hand over the back of his neck.
âYou gonna move?â
You looked down at the motorcycle.
âEventually.â
âOkay.â
âIâm working up the courage.â
His expression softened just enough that you almost missed it.
ââŚYou donât need courage.â
âI think I do.â
He set his backpack on the ground before crossing his arms.
âIâm listening.â
You looked anywhere but at him. The asphalt. The handlebars. Your own shoes.
âIâm sorry.â
He didnât answer. You continued.
âI know I was being ridiculous today.â
Still nothing.
âI thought I was making your day a little lighter.â
Your voice caught slightly.
âI wasnât trying to make it harder.â
The evening breeze stirred a loose strand of hair across your face. You tucked it behind your ear.
âI never wanted you distracted.â
âI know.â
It was the first thing heâd said. You looked up hopefully.
âI really am sorry.â
He nodded once.
âI know.â
âButââ
âI said I know.â
The gentleness in his voice somehow hurt more than if heâd snapped. You slid off the motorcycle until you were standing in front of him. He still hadnât moved closer. The distance between you suddenly felt enormous.
âI keep replaying it.â
âThe allergy?â You nodded.
âI canât stop.â
âYou donât need to.â
âI do.â
âNo.â
His answer came quietly. Firmly.
âYou donât.â
You frowned.
âBut if I hadnâtââ
âStop.â His voice stopped you. âYou didnât almost order the wrong medication.â
âNo.â
âI did.â
âYou were distracted.â
âI was.â
âBecause of me.â
He finally met your eyes.
âNot because of you.â
You blinked. He took a slow breath.
âI was distracted because I let myself become distracted.â
Another pause.
âThatâs on me.â
âIt still feels like itâs on me.â
âI know.â
He looked away toward the hospital for a moment. The ambulance bay doors opened again in the distance, another crew rushing another patient inside. Neither of you moved. Finally he spoke again.
âDo you know why it scared me?â
You shook your head.
âBecause for fifteen secondsâŚâ
His jaw tightened.
ââŚI wasnât the doctor my patients deserve.â
The words landed like stones. Not dramatic. Not angry. Simply honest.
âIâve built my whole career on being the calm one.â
He laughed once. There wasnât any humor in it.
âThe guy who doesnât miss things.â
âYou donât.â
âI did today.â
âNo, Jack caughtââ
âI shouldnât have needed Jack.â
His eyes closed briefly.
âIâve trained residents for years to slow down. Double-check. Never assume.â
His shoulders rose and fell with a tired breath.
âAnd today I almost became the example I warn them about.â
Your heart broke a little. Not because he was disappointed. Because he was carrying the entire weight of it alone. You stepped closer. Slowly. Carefully. Until only a foot separated you.
âMichael.â
He looked at you again.
âYou know what I saw?â
âWhat?â
âI saw the best emergency physician Iâve ever worked with manage forty impossible things at once.â
His expression remained unreadable.
âI saw someone answer every question.â
âI saw someone comfort terrified families.â
âI saw someone teach residents.â
âI saw someone save lives.â
Your eyes stung.
âAnd I saw one tiny mistakeâŚâ
You reached out carefully, your fingers brushing the sleeve of his jacket.
ââŚthat never reached a patient because medicine is a team.â
He stared at your hand for a long moment before looking back at your face.
âI know all of that.â
âDo you?â
He didnât answer. Of course he didnât. Because he held himself to impossible standards. Because that was who Michael Robinavich was. You closed the remaining distance and rested your forehead lightly against his chest.
âI hate that I added to your day.â
He stayed perfectly still.
âI hate that I couldnât tell when youâd stopped having fun.â
Your voice had become little more than a whisper.
âI shouldâve.â
For several long seconds, he simply stood there. Then, almost hesitantly you felt his chin rest against the top of your head. One hand came to your back. Not pulling you closer. JustâŚthere. Solid. Steady.
âI was having fun.â
You looked up.
âYou were?â
âThe first half of the day.â
His lips curved into the faintest smile.
âYou stealing my pensâŚâ A tiny shake of his head. ââŚwas objectively ridiculous.â
A watery laugh escaped you.
âThe pager was pretty good too.â
âI was very proud of the pager.â
âI know you were.â
His thumb absentmindedly brushed against your shoulder.
âI havenât laughed that hard at work in a while.â
Your chest loosened.
âButâŚâ
His smile faded.
ââŚI shouldâve recognized when I needed to put it away.â
âAnd I shouldâve recognized it first.â
He looked at you for another long moment.
âYou knowâŚâ
âWhat?â
âI think weâre both apologizing for something that belongs to both of us.â
You considered that. He was right. It hadnât been one personâs mistake. It had been two people who loved each other enough to forget, for a little while, where they were. You let out a slow breath.
âSoâŚâ
âSo.â
âI forgive you.â
His eyebrow lifted.
âYou forgive me?â
âI was getting there.â
A corner of his mouth twitched.
âI appreciate your generosity.â
âYou should.â
âIâll write you a thank-you card.â
You smiled for the first time in hours.
âCan I come home with you know?â
His eyes softened in a way that made your heart ache. He glanced at the motorcycle.
âIâm exhausted.â
âI know.â
âLetâs go home.â
You nodded immediately.
âOkay.â
He picked up his helmet and held yours out to you. No teasing. No jokes. Just a quiet invitation.
âCome on.â
You took it from him. The plastic felt cool in your hands. A moment later, he climbed onto the motorcycle. You settled in behind him, wrapping your arms carefully around his waist like you had countless times before.
For a second, neither of you moved. Then you felt his hand cover yours where they rested against his stomach. He squeezed gently.
âIâm not mad at you.â
Relief washed over you so suddenly your eyes filled again.
âI know.â
âI was never mad at you.â
âI know.â
He smiled to himself.
âYouâve said âI knowâ a lot tonight.â
âBecause I finally believe you.â
He nodded once. Satisfied. The engine rumbled to life beneath you, low and familiar. As the motorcycle rolled out of the parking lot, you rested your cheek against the broad expanse of his back.
The ride home was quiet. Not because there was anything left to say. But because some apologies didnât end with words. They ended with trusting someone enough to simply hold on.
******
The ride home was as quiet as the drive to work had been loud. The city lights blurred past as you held onto Robby from the back of the motorcycle, your helmet resting lightly against his shoulder every time he slowed at a stoplight. His gloved hand would occasionally slide back, giving your knee a reassuring squeeze before returning to the handlebars. It was a small thing. The kind of touch that said Iâm here.
The kind of touch that only mattered because it was him. By the time he pulled into the parking garage beneath his building, neither of you had spoken another word. You climbed off first, handing him his helmet.
âGo shower,â he said, locking the motorcycle. âIâll be up in a minute.â
âYou arenât coming?â
âI need to clear my head.â
You hesitated.
ââŚOkay.â
He leaned down and kissed your forehead. Brief. Gentle. Almost absentminded.
âIâll be up.â
You nodded, though something in your stomach tightened.
The apartment was familiar enough now that it felt as much yours as his. You kicked off your shoes by the door. Changed into one of his old Pittsburgh Medical Center T-shirts that hung nearly to your knees. Pulled your hair down from its ponytail. Washed away twelve hours of hospital and antiseptic and adrenaline.
Normally, by this point in the evening, Robby would already be teasing you about stealing his shirt or insisting you were going to stretch out the collar.
The apartment was quiet. You climbed into bed. Waited. Ten minutes passed. Then fifteen. You heard the front door. The shower in the guest bathroom. Cabinet doors opening and closing. Eventually the bedroom door eased open.
Robby stepped inside wearing gray sweatpants and a faded black T-shirt, his hair still damp from the shower. He looked cleaner. Still tired. He glanced toward you.
âHey.â
âHey.â
He crossed the room. Plugged his phone into the charger. Set his watch on the dresser. Folded his attending jacket over the chair. Methodical. Calm. He hadnât looked at you again.
Your stomach sank. He climbed into bed. Stayed on his side. Rolled onto his back. Folded his hands across his stomach.
ââŚGoodnight.â
You blinked.
ââŚGoodnight?â
âMhm.â
Silence. The bedside lamp clicked off. The room fell into darkness. You stared at the ceiling.
Five seconds. Ten. Twenty.
ââŚMichael?â
âHm?â
ââŚAre you still upset?â
âNo.â
âYou donât sound like âno.ââ
âI said Iâm not.â
âYou also havenât looked at me.â
âI looked at you.â
âYou glanced.â
âI observed.â
âYou observed?â
âMhm.â
You turned onto your side to face him.
âI donât like this.â
âI know.â
âYouâre being weird.â
âSo Iâve been told.â
âMichael.â
Silence. You reached across the mattress and poked his shoulder. Nothing. You poked him again. Still nothing. You frowned.
âYouâve cuddled strangers in hallway beds more enthusiastically than this.â
âI have excellent bedside manner.â
âIâm serious.â
âSo am I.â
Your heart began to sink all over again. Maybe he really was still hurt. Maybe heâd only said he wasnât angry because he didnât want you to feel worse. You scooted closer.
ââŚCan we please talk?â
âIâm listening.â
âYou keep saying that.â
âBecause I am.â
âBut youâre not saying anything back.â
âI donât believe thatâs how listening works.â
You groaned into your pillow.
âThis is torture.â
âI know.â
âYouâve barely touched me.â
âI held your hand on the motorcycle.â
âThat was forty minutes ago.â
âHm.â
Another silence.
âIâm sorry.â
He turned his head just enough to look at you.
âFor what?â
âFor making your day harder.â
âYou already apologized.â
âI know.â
âAnd I forgave you.â
âI know.â
âButâŚâ
You looked down at the blanket between you.
âI hate when I feel like Iâve disappointed you.â
His expression softened almost imperceptibly.
âYou havenât.â
âIt feels like I have.â
âYou havenât.â
âYou donât seem convinced.â
âIâm very convinced.â
âThen why are you acting like this?â
He didnât answer. You sighed.
âFine.â
You threw the blankets back dramatically.
âIf youâre going to be all stoic and emotionally unavailable, Iâm sleeping on the couch.â
You swung your legs over the side of the bed. You made it exactly one step. A warm hand closed gentlyâbut firmlyâaround your wrist. You stopped. You looked over your shoulder
Robby was sitting up now. Still holding your wrist. There was the smallest hint of a smile tugging at one corner of his mouth.
ââŚMichael.â
âWhat?â
ââŚAre you smiling?â
âNo.â
âYou liar.â
âIâve been told.â
Your eyes narrowed.
ââŚYouâve been messing with me.â
âI donât know what youâre talking about.â
âYou absoluteââ
Before you could finish the sentence, he gave your wrist a gentle tug. You let out a surprised laugh as you lost your balance, landing back on the mattress with an undignified bounce. He followed immediately, bracing himself on one arm above you before you could escape again.
Not trapping you. Not pinning you. JustâŚclose. Very close. Close enough that you could see the tiny flecks of amber hidden in his dark brown eyes. Close enough to smell cedar soap lingering from his shower. Close enough to feel the warmth radiating from him after a day spent carrying an entire emergency department on his shoulders. You stared up at him in complete disbelief.
âYouâŚâ
His composure lasted all of three seconds. Then he laughed. A real laugh. Deep. The kind that made the corners of his eyes crinkle.
âYou should see your face.â
âMy face?â
âYouâve been panicking for twenty minutes.â
âI have not.â
âYou started apologizing again.â
âI thought you were upset!â
âI know.â
âYou werenât?â
âOh, I was.â
He leaned just a fraction closer, his voice dropping.
âBut then I remembered something.â
âWhat?â
His smile grew.
âYou spent twelve hours seeing exactly how much patience I have.â
ââŚUh-oh.â
âSo I thoughtâŚâ
His nose brushed yours in a teasing nudge.
ââŚmaybe it was your turn.â
You smacked his shoulder, tryingâand failingâto hide your smile.
âI cannot believe you.â
âI can.â
âI was about to cry.â
âI know.â
âYou are impossible.â
âSo Iâve heard.â
He was enjoying this far too much. You folded your arms stubbornly across your chest.
âI donât think I like this version of you.â
âNo?â
âNo.â
âI think you do.â
âI absolutely do not.â
âOh?â
âNo.â
His eyebrow lifted.
âYou keep looking at my mouth.â
Your cheeks immediately warmed.
âI am not.â
âYou just did it again.â
âI hate that youâre observant.â
âI know.â
For a moment, the teasing gave way to something quieter. The laughter faded. His smile softened. His hand, still loosely around your wrist, slid upward until his fingers intertwined with yours.
âI did miss you today.â
Your expression changed instantly.
âWhat?â
âI was standing three feet away from you most of the dayâŚâ
His thumb traced a slow circle over the back of your hand.
ââŚand somehow it still felt like I couldnât have you.â
The confession settled gently between you.
âI had to be Chief.â
You nodded.
âAnd you had to be one of Danaâs best nurses.â
Another nod.
âSo every time you stole a penâŚâ
He smiled to himself.
ââŚor challenged me in front of a residentâŚâ
ââŚor clipped my pager to your scrubsâŚâ
You laughed.
ââŚI wanted to kiss you.â
Your breath caught.
âBut I couldnât.â
The room felt very still.
âYou know how unfair that is?â
You smiled softly.
âA little.â
âA little?â He shook his head. âIt should be illegal.â
You laughed again, quieter this time.
âIâm pretty sure HR would agree.â
âTheyâd have paperwork.â
âSo much paperwork.â
He chuckled, then leaned in and pressed a lingering kiss to your forehead. Then another to your temple. Then finally, after a beat where he simply looked at you with all the affection heâd held back through the entire shift, he kissed you softly.
It wasnât rushed. It wasnât driven by the frustration of the day. It was slow. Intentional. A promise more than anything else. When he finally drew back, he rested his forehead against yours.
âI love that you make me laugh,â he murmured.
âBut tomorrowâŚâ His grin returned. ââŚleave my pens alone.â
You smiled innocently.
âI canât promise that.â
âI knew you were going to say that.â
âAnd your pager?â
He groaned dramatically.
âYou are insufferable.â
âAnd yetâŚâ
You wrapped your arms around him, pulling him the last inch closer.
ââŚyou still let me wear your shirts.â
He laughed again, the last remnants of the difficult day finally melting away as he held you close.
âYeah,â he said with a contented sigh. âI really do.â
Wearing this whilst cuddling up to Robby whilst heâs reading to you and you play with his beard and then your hand trails down to play with his gold chain (i feel like the chain is not talked about enough) đđŠ
Pairing: Alpha!Dr. Robby x Omega!Travel Nurse Reader
Summary: Eager for a change of scenery following a messy break-up, you accept a travel nursing contract in the emergency department of Pittsburgh Trauma Medical Center. You think this new job will be a soft place to land. However, you quickly find that you may have bitten off more than you can chew when you meet Dr. Michael Robinavitch, the protective, stubborn Chief Attending with misplaced Alpha instincts who treats the entire ED like his pack.
Robby never thought he would want an Omega, and frankly, itâs been a long time since he has been stable enough to care for one properly. You certainly arenât looking to jump into anything after the disaster that was your previous relationship. There are plenty of reasons why the two of you ought to give each other a wide berth.
The only problem isâŚyou canât seem to stay away from each other. No matter how hard you try.
Chapter Summary: On the first day of your contract with PTMC, you meet Dr. Robinavitch, an Alpha with dark, sad eyes and a tarnished reputation who is struggling to lead his pack.
Chapter Tags/Warnings: Omegaverse AU. Alpha/Beta/Omega dynamics. Moderate/heavy angst. Depictions of depression, anxiety, and PTSD. Robby is not in a good place, y'all. (Nothing explicit or violent, but still 18+ like the rest of my blog.)
Chapter Word Count: 10K
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Robbyâs relationship with the Pitt isâŚcomplicated.
Sometimes, the Emergency Department of Pittsburgh Trauma Medical Center feels more like home than his own house. All of the most significant moments of his life over the last 20 years have occurred within the sterile white walls of his ED. His promotion to attending. His career-defining relationship with Montgomery Adamson. A significant portion of Jakeâs childhood. Countless lives saved, residents mentored, students guidedâŚ
In spite of living in his Mexican War Streets rowhouse for more than a decade, however, itâs nothing more than a glorified landing pad â perfectly comfortable but impersonal. It boasts an oversized bed with an orthopedic mattress and a shower with killer water pressure, but thereâs also a refrigerator that rarely sees more than a case of beer and leftover takeout containers, a television that never turns off, and a distinct lack of photographs or pieces of art on the walls. So there are some days when Robby arrives for work and feels less like he is about to clock in for a 12-hour shift and more like he can finally breathe again.
Other days, the Pitt is a prison.
Every exam room a cell, every corridor lined with a memory Robby wishes he was strong enough to suppress. Or perhaps callous enough to forget.
The pandemic, of course. Endless weeks, months seen through a foggy plastic face shield, trapped behind layers of scrubs and gloves and sanitary gowns, strung tight enough to snap, haunted by the endless noise of heart monitors and pulse-oxes and ventilators.
The helpless sound of Adamsonâs lungs seizing, his heart stopping. The brittle silence that followed.
The crash and burn of his dalliance with Heather Collins. The death of Jackâs wife. The wide blue eyes of his star resident, his protĂŠgĂŠ, his heir apparent, frantic and desperate and rimmed with unshed tears as Robby shoved the contents of his locker into his arms and banished him from his sight.
And then thereâs the blood. The chaos. The impotent, sickening agony of Pittfest. Cold crimson pooling, dripping, spilling onto the floor as poor Leah bled out under his trembling hands.
No.
Robby pauses and draws a deep breath through his nose, eyes falling shut, steeling himself before the memories can overtake him.
Flashbacks, his last therapist had called them. A characteristic symptom of post-traumatic stress disorder.
As if he didnât know. As if such a thing was a revelation to him. Heâs a doctor, for fuckâs sake. He knows what PTSD is.
Robby is never sure precisely which version of the Pitt will greet him as he swings through the public doors and breezes through security with a nod to the officers stationed there. Itâs the walk through the waiting room that usually tells him. He likes to take a quick pass through the press of bodies there, to scan the crowd and feel its energy, to use it to gauge what he might encounter on the other side of the triage doors. Today, the energy is restless and tense. Itâs busier than usual â not holiday busy, thank god, but certainly more than an average Monday morning at 7 AM.
On Mondays, the GP offices re-open, marking the start of the new week. If a patient has waited until Monday to seek medical attention for whatever ails them, they tend to seek it with their own providers. Though he supposes having a GP at all is becoming less and less common.
Regardless, Mondays are typically moreâŚthe q-word than this.
He offers nods and half-smiles to the colleagues he encounters on his way to the lockers. Lupe at the reception desk, Ellis doing hand-off with McKay outside Central 10, Kim chatting with a patient in a wheelchair, Esme pushing an environmental services cart in the direction of the South corridor.
If he focuses hard enough, he can sense each of them. Thereâs the bite of antiseptic, the sterility of the ultra-filtered air, the muted dullness of medical-grade scent blockers and the metallic tang of too many suppressants in too many bodies. But underneath all of the olfactory noise, thereâs his people.
One in particular catches his attention as he makes his way toward the Hub, a head of silvering curls accompanied by the faintest whiff of leather, patchouli, and gunsmoke. Subdued, nearly deadened by the white, cotton-backed patches on his wrists and at the base of his neck, but so familiar, Robby feels confident he could pick it out of a crowd of thousands.
If Jack had been on shift the night before, perhaps there is hope that the state of chairs had misled him. Perhaps his ED is in better order than he thought.
One peek at the board, however, squashes that hope in less than a second.
Okay, Robby thinks to himself, allowing his backpack to slip off his shoulder and rest on the counter in front of him. Prison it is.
âThere you are,â he groans, pinning Abbot with a frown. âThis boardâs a nightmare. Surprised I didnât find you on the roof this morning.â
The other Alpha doesnât look up from his computer screen and instead continues to chart as he offers Robby a quirk of his lips. Itâs not quite a smile, but itâs pleasant, and itâs enough to crinkle the corners of his eyes.
âIf youâd been paying attention, brother, youâd know I havenât taken a trip up that way in months,â he replies easily.
Robbyâs frown deepens, and he picks up a tablet from the charging station. âMonths? It canât have been that long.â
âJust havenât felt the need.â A quick, decisive couple of keystrokes, and Abbot logs out of the terminal. âI can flirt with the abyss in plenty of other ways. Think there might be something to the idea of tempting fate too many times.â
The declaration startles a snort from the older man, and he shakes his head, pulling his glasses from his jacket pocket and sliding them up his nose.
If such a thing were true, Jack Abbot would have been dead a hundred times over. As would Robby.
He proceeds to log in to the tablet, but he doesnât make it far before taking note of the burn of narrowed eyes on the edge of his periphery. Glancing up, he finds his friend staring at him with an unreadable expression on his lined face, arms folded thoughtfully across his chest. Thereâs tension in his jaw, and a mild flare of frustration colors the air around him.
âWalk with me,â Jack says, ticking his head further down the corridor, toward the relative privacy of the far east end of the department.
âHm?â
His eyebrows arch, pointed and insistent, and he gets to his feet. He doesnât check behind him to see if Robby follows.
Robby follows anyway.
The two walk in silence until they reach the narrow stretch of tile where the employee lockers have been tucked away, wedged between Behavioral Health and Trauma 2. Jack pauses there, leans back against the cool metal, and shoves his hands into the pockets of his cargo pants.
âWhat is it?â Robby asks.
The other Alpha is blocking his locker, his sharp hazel gaze steady and knowing. âWhatâs this I hear about you dropping the therapist Caleb recommended?â
The question lands like a boulder to the older manâs chest â heavy and forceful enough to knock the wind out of him for a beat or two. Itâs a shock to the system, and while some days, itâs easy enough for Robby to laugh off such expressions of concern, to deflect and project and crinkle-eyed smile his way out of confrontational conversations, today, it takes him by surprise.
So instead of meeting the question with laughter, he greets it with scorn instead.
âWhat? How the fuck do you know that?â he barks, brow pulled low. He hasnât had the opportunity to put on his hospital-issued scent patches yet, and itâs apparent by the way the burn of Alpha anger crackles through the air.
Jack, unsurprisingly, does not cow in the face of it. Instead, he simply stares, quirks a single brow, and waits for a real answer.
âJesus Christ.â Robby crosses his arms over his chest, looks down at his feet and shakes his head. âSo much for doctor-patient confidentiality.â
At that, the other man rolls his eyes. âDonât be ridiculous, it wasnât her. Or Caleb, for that matter,â he adds, before Robby can protest. âBut if you want to keep yourâŚexperiments with mental health treatment a secret, youâve gotta stop bitching about it to the good doctor every time he comes down for a psych consult. The nurses hear everything â you should know that by now.â
Ah. Well.
âOf course.â Sighing heavily, the chief presses his fingers to the pressure points on either side of his nose.
âSo. Whatâs the deal?â
Robby looks away with a dismissive shrug. âJust wasnât a good fit.â
âThe others âwerenât a good fit,â either,â Jack counters. Pushing himself away from the lockers, he takes a step closer, ducking his chin as he looks up into Robbyâs eyes through his graying eyebrows. âStarting to sound like a bunch of excuses to me.â
This is one of Robbyâs favorite traits of Abbotâs. The man is a dog with a bone â focused, determined, stubborn as hell. It had made him a great soldier and an even better doctor. In the friendship department, howeverâŚ
He scoffs a laugh, the sound humorless and hollow. âYeah, well, maybe if I could find somebody who didnât look at me like Iâm about to walk into oncoming traffic every thirty seconds, I could actually get somewhere.â
Fuck, Robby hates therapy. The way the therapists always start out with this blandly pleasant expression on their faces, blank and generic and disingenuous. The inane questions they ask, the probing and the poking and the prodding into his every thought and feeling and memory. And of course, like clockwork, the longer he talks, the more honest he allows himself to be, the more offput they all seem to become.
Truthfully, he can never make heads or tails of it. The only conclusion he has managed to come to over his many months of test-driving various providers and modalities is that therapists have no idea what to do with him.
Sometimes, itâs concern he senses, the scent of it warm and lactic â something that might have once been comforting but these days feels cloying and discomfiting. Other times, itâs more like fear, and thatâs even worse â astringent and sharp and evoking in him the immediate need to soothe, to comfort, to shield and protect.
How can he be honest with someone who fears for him? His pride wonât allow it, nor will his instincts.
Or at least, thatâs what he tells himself when he inevitably calls the therapistâs office and informs them that he wonât be continuing his care.
âWell, are you?â Abbot asks bluntly.
Robby blinks. âAm I what?â
âAbout to walk into traffic.â
For a moment, he is speechless, stunned into silence by the baldness of the question. However, it doesnât take long for aggravation to rush in to replace the shock, and then Robby is turning on his heel to return to the Central Hub. âI donât have time for this.â
âMake time, Robinavitch.â
The words are cold and commanding, the other Alpha sounding every bit the retired Army captain he is, and Robby stops in his tracks, hackles up immediately. Thereâs a rare challenge in his tone, in his scent.
âReally?â The word comes out like a growl, and he has to swallow thickly to rein in the sound. âThatâs how weâre playing this today?â
Behind him, Abbot sighs. The sound is heavy with exhaustion, the first hint of fatigue he has allowed himself to show in spite of just coming off of a 12-hour shift. âTake a breath, quit stinking up the place, and just listen to me for a second, will you?â
Although he is far from the only other Alpha in the ED, Abbot is singular in that he is the only one who could get away with talking to Robby like this. Whether itâs his own rank in the department, or his strength of will, or his seasoned age that makes it possible, he isnât sure. Jack likes to think itâs a testament to their friendship, to the respect that they have for each other. Regardless, the scolding is enough to stop Robby in his tracks, to force him to turn back around and meet his gaze.
Encouraged by the silent capitulation, Jack spreads his hands wide, putting on a show of making himself open and approachable.
âLetâs take therapy off the table,â he agrees. âClearly, itâs not doing anything for you. And I know better than to offer the medication route.â
Robby grits his teeth. âBecause they make me feel like a fucking zombie, man. Iâd rather fuck a cactus than take any more pills.â
Jackâs open hands become a gesture of surrender. âI know, I know. I got it â no pills.â He pauses, then takes a handful of steps to close the distance between them. Voice dropping low, close and confidential, he adds, âBut there is one treatment you havenât tried yet.â
For a moment, the older man frowns in genuine confusion. The way Jack looks at him⌠There is significance there. There is weight and meaning. Admittedly, embarrassingly, whatever silent message his friend is attempting to convey is lost on him.
He opens his mouth, a question on the tip of his tongue, a plea for the other Alpha to please be so kind as to spell it out for him because this attempt at discretion is quickly losing its practicality, but before the words can form, a delicate note of sweetness reaches his nose.
Omega.
His jaw snaps shut, nostrils flaring, tongue feeling wet and swollen in his mouth as he instinctually starts analyzing the scent. Thereâs a medical compulsion there, of course; you could tell a lot about a personâs biology from their scent. More than that, however, the impulse wasâŚprimal.
It was unfamiliar, he noted â not one of his staff. Unfiltered â perhaps a low-dose suppressant, but no blockers, no patches. A patient, mostly likely. Or a family member.
He draws another breath through his nose and allows his eyes to fall shut.
Red roses. Citrus. Something green and fresh, like cut stems and summertime. Itâs not to his particular taste, a bit tooâŚperky, perhaps? But pleasant all the same. Itâs just enough to smooth the edges of his aggravation, to soothe the barbs of his defensiveness. He feels his shoulders softening, dropping from around his ears. His fists unclench, and the tightness in his chest eases.
The realization shoots down his spine like a bolt of lightning, and Robbyâs eyes fly open.
âYouâre out of your mind,â he rasps, soft and dangerous and final.
Jack Abbot, however, must have seen the refusal coming. He is there, hot on Robbyâs heels as the latter takes off down the hall, determined to put some distance between him and the mere implication of what Jack is suggesting.
âThere wouldnât be any shame in it,â he insists. He keeps his voice quiet, but it doesnât matter â the two of them are still attracting looks, and the ED is a hotbed for gossip. Robby focuses his gaze on the Hub, clinging to the hope that if he can just get there, something, someone will need his attention badly enough that he can discontinue this conversation and then hopefully shove the roundabout proposal deep into the far reaches of his mind where it wonât be able to surface again.
But still, his best friend is stubborn.
âLook, I hate to break it to you, Mike, but youâre not special,â he hisses. âYou are far from the first Alpha to ever struggle with their mental health. Seeking an Omega for emotional support is just about the oldest move in the book.â
At a nearby terminal, Robby notices Princess freeze in place. She does him the courtesy of keeping her eyes on the screen in front of her, but her fingers still, hovering over the keyboard as she subtly pauses in her charting.
Fucking hell.
Robby comes to an abrupt halt, Jack nearly colliding with his back. Quickly, wordlessly, the older man turns, wraps his fingers around the otherâs elbow, and ushers him into the closest empty exam room.
Only once the door has clicked shut behind them does he meet Jackâs flinty stare.
âThis isnât the fifties anymore, Jack,â Robby growls. âI donât need a sweet, submissive little Omega at home just waiting for me to take out my aggression on them. I am not that kind of Alpha.â
And he isnât, truly. He knows that he might not always be the most reliable judge of his own behavior, but he has been around enough regressive asshole Alphas in his life to know that for all his many, many faults, he has never fit that particular mold. Even as a young pup, freshly presented and bursting at the seams with needs and instincts and desires he had had no idea what to do with, he had felt certain that the path of the stereotypical Alpha was not one that interested him.
It had taken him years to find his own way â to figure out what might suit his natural inclinations, what might sate the need to protect and provide in a way that didnât involve settling down right after undergrad, bonding with the first Omega that could tolerate him, and keeping them round with his pups. It wasnât until the start of medical school when he got his first taste of a different sort of pack, one based on competence, mutual respect, and a formal hierarchy that spoke to the deep-seated thing inside him that so desperately needed to understand his place in the world.
In that sort of pack, Robby had excelled. And now he is the Chief of Emergency Medicine at a Level 1 trauma center. Every day, when he walks through those doors, he gets to be a teacher, a mentor, a guide. He is an advocate and a protector. A leader â valued, admired, respected.
What more could an Alpha want?
âI know youâre not,â Jack sighs. Thereâs frustration in his tone now, his annoyance souring the stale exam room air. âI never said you were.â
Robbyâs neck flushes a deep red. âWell, it sure as hell sounded like it!â
At that, Abbotâs hand shoots out and grips him by the shoulder. His palm is warm and broad, fingers firm and insistent as he compels the older man to meet his gaze. âWill you stop posturing at me and give me a chance, here?â
Goddamn it.
He is posturing isnât he? Drawn up to his full height, shoulders wide and intimidating, throwing the stink of rage and dominance into the atmosphere so carelessly that he knows heâs going to need to have Esme put a portable air filter in here if any of his Omega staff are going to be able to work in here at all today. Not to mention the potential patient impactâŚ
Swallowing the lump of embarrassment in his throat at the realization, Robby rubs the back of his neck in a self-soothing gesture and forces himself to settle down.
âFine. Say what you need to say,â he rasps.
Something like relief colors Jackâs expression, and he wastes no time making his case. â2022 meta-analysis on the effects of pair-bonding on stress hormone production in sexually mature Alphas.â
The chief releases a deep sigh. Of course, Abbot the niche medical research fiend would come prepared to cite his sources.
âConsistent exposure to Omega pheromones over the course a single month significantly reduced the production of cortisol, epinephrine, norepinephrine, and CRF in Alphas,â he continues, ignoring Robbyâs exasperation. âMating, however, had a multiplicative effect, resulting in benefits to the emotional and physical well-being of both parties.â
Itâs all he can do not to roll his eyes. âBrother, I am not a fucking JAMA study.â
âThis is what we do, man. We conduct the research. We study the research. We implement the research,â Jack counters, an accusatory finger now pointing at Robbyâs chest. âThis is legitimate medicine, and you know it.â
In spite of his attempts to get his temper under control, his tone has Robbyâs hackles rising again. He feels flayed open, picked apart and placed under a microscope for all of the tender, vulnerable parts of him to be examined. It makes him mean, makes him want to bite.
âYou sure you arenât just chomping at the bit for me to find an Omega because youâve got one now, and you want to see me all settled down and domesticated like you?â His words come out derisive and cold, and he thinks for a moment that Jack might actually yell at him now. His chest and neck, sun-weathered and freckled, are starting to flush, immediately drawing Robbyâs eye to the complimentary bite marks on either side of Jackâs neck. Partially hidden by his scent patches, one is decades old and faded white, barely visible with the unrelenting passage of time. The one on the opposite gland, however, is practically brand new â mostly healed but the scar still a vibrant red, no more than three months old.
However, when his eyes flick back up to meet Jackâs, the other Alpha looks at him not with anger, but with a mix of exhaustion andâŚ
Jesus. Pity.
âLook,â he sighs, the sound of his voice coarse and worn like gravel through a sieve. âAll Iâm saying is, speaking from experience, sometimes healing for your own sake isnât enough of a motivator. Sometimes, you need somebody to heal for â somebody you care about enough to actually give a shit about getting better. And then, eventually, over time, maybe youâll feel good enough to start looking after yourself for you.â
Thereâs something in the timbre of his words â something in the weight they carry, heavy in the way that only someone who has clawed their way out of their own darkness can convey â that brings Robby pause. For the briefest moment, he considers it.
Jack certainly paints a romantic picture. What kind of love would that have to be? What kind of devotion could inspire one to heal? If such a thing exists, Robby knows he has never experienced it.
âIf that were true,â he says tentatively, âdonât you think I would have already done it? This placeâŚâ He wraps his long arms around his torso and looks away. His throat feels thick and dry, his eyes pricking dangerously. âItâs the closest thing to a pack Iâve ever had. Iâd give my life for each and every person in this department.â
The vulnerability nearly chokes him, and he coughs loudly. He can feel Jack watching him, can feel the fondness and the warmth of his gaze even as he stands at a distance, giving Robby his space. Thereâs no frustration or anger in his scent now, which upsettingly only makes the attention more difficult to bear. Robby could handle rage. Softness, however, makes his palms itch.
âI know you would,â Jack acknowledges.
âThen why isnât it enough?â
The other man sighs, scratching his graying stubble thoughtfully. âI donât know. But what I do know â from one Alpha to another â is that youâre dropping the ball.â
The admonishment comes without malice or cruelty. Itâs matter-of-fact, almost kind in its earnestness, but it doesnât matter. Robby thinks that if the other man had punched him across the jaw, it might have hurt less.
âYouâve gotta be fucking kidding me.â
Jack plows onward, undaunted. âAnd Iâve never aspired to the kind of leadership youâve taken on, but these are my people, too, and until you start making some real progress on those demons youâre carrying around in your head every day, I canât sit by and watch you consistently fail to show up for them the way they deserve.â
Every word is a dagger. An accusation. A fear made real, acknowledged out loud and thereby given body and substance. Robby feels as though the other Alpha has cracked open his ribs and reached his fist into his chest cavity, his thick fingers wrapping tightly around every forbidden anxiety and dragging it out into the daylight, hissing and spitting.
Robbyâs eyes remain fixed firmly on the floor. âYou donât know what the fuck youâre talking about.â
The words themselves are aggressive, but they land softly â without acid, without bite. Itâs only 7:15, the shift has barely begun, and yet he suddenly longs for his bed. Heâs so goddamn tired.
Sensing his exhaustion, his hopelessness, Jack brings himself into Robbyâs space, grips each of his biceps in his palms, and squeezes.
âYouâre my brother, Mike,â he declares gruffly. âI love you.â
Robby makes a wordless noise of disbelief, but the other man wonât hear any of it.
âDonât fucking scoff at me, man, you know itâs the truth. Just like I know, underneath all the shit you think youâve buried, that youâre a good man. This place is lucky to have you.â
Wetness gathers at the corners of Robbyâs eyes, and he grits his teeth against the threat of it spilling onto his weathered cheeks.
âBut believe me when I tell you â whether you choose to take an Omega or not, if you donât get your shit figured out, I will petition the administration to have you put on a leave of absence. And I will take over the ED.â
The older manâs eyes flick upward, finally meeting Jackâs. âWhy not just do it now? Save us both the trouble?â he asks softly, bitterly.
Jack offers him a sad smile in response. âBecause I really donât fucking want to.â Releasing one of Robbyâs arms, he reaches up and pats him on the cheek. âSo please donât make me.â
Abbot ducks out of the exam room soon after. The slight limp in his stride is the only indicator he gives that he is fatigued, that the day may have worn on him. Otherwise, his shoulders are square, his eyes clear, and Robby thinks he catches him giving a wave and a half-smile to someone out of sight as he shuts the door behind him.
Robby, for his part, takes a few more moments to collect himself. Heâs later than he wants to be getting out onto the floor, but heâs worn thin enough by the early morning confrontation as it is; he decides he can afford to give himself a minute or two to clear his head.
As he emerges into the corridor, however, the first thing he notices isnât the hustle of his staff or the barely-controlled chaos of his patients. Itâs the faint, homey fragrance of clean laundry and drugstore lipstick that lingers directly outside the door. The scent clings to the nearby walls, like someone had hovered there for an extended period, perhaps just out of line of sight from the exam room window.
And he would know that scent anywhere.
Clearing his throat, swiping his hands under a hand sanitizer dispenser on the way by, he makes his way back toward the Central Hub.
There, glasses low on the bridge of her nose, ostensibly concentrating on a staffing chart on her computer, is Dana Evans. Sheâs got nicotine gum between her teeth, the only indicator that perhaps she also is not having the morning she wished when she arrived today; otherwise, her ironed scrubs, tidy bun, and freshly-applied makeup paint the picture of someone eminently in control. The ringleader of the circus, the navigator at the helm.
Robby approaches her silently then pauses to lean against the counter where she sits. âHow much of that did you hear?â
âGood morning to you, too,â she replies with a wry smile. âI donât know what youâre talking about.â
âPlease. I know better than that.â
At that, Dana shrugs. She turns in her chair, looking up at him over the rim of her glasses. If she was honest with herself, she would get a pair of bifocals. As it is, she makes do with the same lenses sheâs worn for the last 10 years.
âI heard enough,â she admits quietly. The Hub is empty with the exception of her, the rest of her staff dispersed around the floor receiving report from the night shift nurses, but she still keeps her voice down. Itâs one of the innumerable things Robby appreciates about his favorite charge nurse; she knows when to be discrete.
He tucks his hands into the pockets of his jacket. âWell?â
âWell what?â
âDo you have anything to add?â The end of his question tilts up facetiously, and Dana damn near rolls her eyes as she gets to her feet and starts bustling around the station.
âYouâve known me long enough to know what Iâm gonna say to that,â she quips in reply, snagging a tablet off the nearest charging bank.
Of course, after so many years working side-by-side with her, Robby does. âAlpha business is none of your business,â he quotes.
âThatâs right. If I spent all my time trying to figure out why you all do the things you do, Iâd never get anything done.â
He recalls the first time he had met her, decades ago now, he had falsely assumed that she was an Alpha, as well. A supremely self-possessed woman, even before she had been given the formal authority to back it up, she had been so comfortable stepping up, taking charge, creating order out of madness, setting an example for others with her level head and gentle hands. Her scent, of course, hadnât been quite right, but at the time, Robby had just assumed she had found herself some powerful suppressants. He would never forget the way she had lined him out in front of the entire department for the presumption.
âWhat, because only an Alpha knows how to be a leader?â she had snapped. âOnly an Alpha can be trusted in a crisis? Sure, because all those raging hormones make you all so stable and reliable. Donât make me laugh, Robinavitch. Now get out of my face, your embarrassment is stinking up the nursesâ station.â
The memory draws a weak, nostalgic grin to his lips. His gaze flickers down to the telltale bareness of her wrists. Her neck, too, is naked, save for the golden cross pendant he has never seen her without. She has no need for scent patches as a Beta, her pheromones too neutral to have any emotional or behavioral impacts on patients.
âAnd what about not as an Alpha, but as a friend?â he asks.
Dana softens at that, reluctantly matching his fond expression.
âAbbotâs a good friend,â she says easily. âHe cares about you. If thereâs something he thinks mightâŚhelp? Might be worth listening to what he has to say.â
Robbyâs jaw works back and forth, a humorless smile twisting his lips. âThought you were on my side.â
âAlways.â
He know she spots the furrow of his brow. Itâs been years since he has bothered to put on the same masks with her as he does everyone else; he knows she can see the frustration, the confusion, the hints of betrayal lingering in the downturn of his mouth, the wrinkles on his forehead.
âLook,â she sighs, stepping closer, voice soft and raspy from her last cigarette. âYou know Iâm in your corner. But Abbotâs right. You havenât been yourself. Not for a long time.â
Defensiveness flares hot and tight in his chest, and he shakes his head. âJeeeesus, not you, too.â
âStarted during COVID, but after Pittfest, and Jake â â
âDonât.â For all that he is burning up inside, anger and grief and self-loathing threatening to consume the core of him, the word comes out frigid. Itâs solid, sharp, and pointed as a shard of ice.
Dana, however, appears entirely unmoved. âLook, I canât claim to understand what youâre going through as an Alpha. Not exactly my area of expertise. But I know people, and I know you. And youâŚâ She reaches out, palm patting his chest, blue eyes sharp and knowing. ââŚneed help.â
âDana.â
If she registers his protests, she does not react. Instead, she continues, âWho am I to say what form that should take?â
âAllll right,â he groans as he pushes himself away from the counter and claps his hands together. Gesturing with two thumbs over his shoulder, he says, âI think thatâs my cue.â
âHold up, I got one more thing to say.â
But Robby is already rounding the nursesâ station, already retreating back down the corridor. âAs long as it doesnât have anything to do with me!â he calls back over his shoulder.
âIâve got a new nurse starting today.â Itâs not quite a shout, but her voice is the kind that carries, and itâs loud enough to reach him even as he gets to the other end of the Hub. âA traveler on a three-month contract.â
He pauses then to look back at her with a frown. âOkay. And?â
âSheâs with HR for a couple hours doing her onboarding, but I want to introduce you when she gets down here. Sheâs good, I think youâll like her,â Dana explains.
At that, Robby merely shrugs. âSure, fine. Come find me when the time comes.â
Travel nurses come and go, even more frequently these days in a post-pandemic world. Often he finds that just about the time he gets accustomed to their presence â to the way they move around the department, their skills and their quirks and their scents â itâs time for them to move on. It keeps him on his toes, if nothing else. Keeps him from sinking too deep into the routine.
Still, he tries not to get too attached. Travels are impermanent, transient things. And the loss of a team member (a pack member, a soft, insistent voice whispers) always leaves him feeling a bitâŚoff.
Sometimes you wonder why itâs taken you so long to accept a contract in Pittsburgh.
Itâs not as though there is a shortage of available opportunities in Pennsylvaniaâs second-largest metropolitan area. There was a need for skilled nursing staff here just like there was everywhere else, and Pittsburgh provided the added benefits of familiarity and proximity to your parents. It is your motherâs hometown, the place where you had spent countless summers with your grandparents, the home of your second choice for universities back when you had been up to your eyeballs in SAT study material, spending your weekends applying all up and down the east coast. You know the city fairly well for somebody who still had yet to unpack her suitcases.
But as you emerge from the elevator into the buzzing madness of PTMCâs Emergency Department, a folder of HR paperwork clutched in your hands and a backpack slung over your shoulder, you meet the all-knowing eyes of Dana Evans, and you remember.
Dana quickly finishes the instructions she had been giving two other nurses and shoos them on their way. Smiling widely, she beckons you forward, thin arms spread wide as she emerges from behind the nursesâ station counter.
âThere you are, kid!â she says affectionately, pulling you into a motherly embrace. âI was about to send the cavalry after you.â
Itâs well past the time you were meant to have reported for your shift; your meeting with HR had dragged on longer than anyone had expected.
âI wish you would have,â you reply as you return the hug. Just like the bedroom you had woken up in this morning, she smells like nostalgia, like childhood. Soft, comforting, bittersweet. âThe orientation is always a nightmare.â
At that, the older woman chuckles. âWell, glad to hear weâre living up to your expectations. Remind me again what number contract this is for you?â
âFive.â You can hear the weariness in your voice with the admission. Still, you smile wryly as you count them off on your fingers. âCleveland, DC, New York, and Baltimore. Iâm a one-woman traveling circus.â
It has been over a year now since you broke your lease in Philadelphia, shoved almost all of your belongings into a storage unit, and hit the road, and youâve been on the move ever since. You had never felt the urge the run before that day, never looked at the city and the people that raised you and thought to yourself, âI need to be somewhere else â anywhere else.â The choice to upend your entire life hadnât exactly been planned, but heartbreak had proven to be a powerful catalyst.
It had taken months to stop feeling like you were running away from something and to start feeling like you were running toward something. Freedom, independence, a sense of self-competence and capability that you had never been given the opportunity to develop. Youâve grown so much over the last year that youâve begun to wonderâŚwould this new version of you be strong enough to go back?
Of course, Pittsburgh isnât Philly. But here, in your godmotherâs ER, is the closest you have allowed yourself to get to âgoing homeâ in months.
Oblivious to your inner turmoil, Dana â your motherâs oldest friend, your aunt in all but name â pats you on the shoulder and gestures for you to follow her. âCâmon. Iâll show you where you can put your stuff.â
The rest of the morning flies by in a blur of new names and new faces, both staff and patients alike. Dana fetches you a set of scrubs in the PTMC-standard nursing gray, checks to make sure your brand-new badge works to log you in to all of their systems, then cuts you loose to shadow with another nurse named Perlah. Itâs all par for the course, standard first-shift stuff; by now, youâre deeply familiar with the feeling of drinking from a firehose that comes with trying to digest everything you need to learn and remember about your new workplace. Thankfully, the Beta woman has a sincere, steady energy, and although she doesnât go out of her way to make anything easier for you, she also doesnât do anything to make your life more difficult, which is more than you can say for the reception youâve received on other assignments.
By lunchtime, your impression of the PTMC ED is one of a highly-competent, close-knit staff with a diverse range of personalities and skillsets that are all trying desperately to keep their heads above water amidst the chaos. To your eyes, they seem to be succeeding, though you suspect it is a hard-won success. Itâs clear that the lean headcount and the scarcity of beds is wearing on everyone.
You are about halfway through the lunch that Benji had packed for you that morning when you get pulled back out onto the floor. Shoving your lunchbox into the staff refrigerator, brushing crumbs off your scrubs, you find yourself smiling. In your experience, the departments with the biggest staffing problems are the fastest to soften toward your presence. On the one hand, they are the ones who would benefit the most from more permanent, full-time nurses, which can foster more than a little resentment toward those on travel contracts. On the other, however, the sooner you have the opportunity to prove yourself useful, the sooner the team will be willing to bring you into the fold. And goodness knows there are plenty of opportunities here to be useful.
Something else you notice right away is the distribution of designations among the staff. You wish, in this day and age, that it wasnât such a notable feature of this department, but having now worked in more than your fair share of Emergency departments, you know well enough how their staffing protocols tend to heavily favor Alphas and Betas. There tends to be this antiquated mentality among hospital leadership that the ED is too high-risk, too fast-paced, too physically dangerous for the tender sensibilities of Omegas. Not to mention the potential liability issues of allowing unmated Omegas in the presence of volatile Alpha patients. Intoxication, withdrawal symptoms, psychiatric events, sudden-onset ruts, just regular old aggression, all of it posed an increased risk to Omega healthcare workers in comparison to Alphas and Betas.
You have grown used to being one of perhaps two (if you were lucky) Omega staff members in an ED at a given time. In contrast, during the first few hours of your first shift at PTMC, you meet no less than three Omega doctors and two other Omega nurses, and they all seem fully integrated into the social structure of the team. Perhaps you might actually be able to make a few friends while youâre hereâŚ
You catch a spare moment here and there to connect with Dana, which is both pleasant and deeply bizarre, as you have only ever known her as family and not as your superior in a work environment. Still, you quickly find that there isnât much difference between the two sides of your motherâs friend. Even if Charge Nurse Dana comes with a tougher hide and a sharper tongue, at the heart of her, she is still the same warm, empathetic, powerful woman you have known since childhood. Having a familiar face nearby â even when you know she has a million priorities other than you â is strangely comforting.
During one of these rare minutes of downtime, you find yourself deep in conversation with Dana and a medical student named Victoria when a tall, broad-shouldered figure sweeps by the Central Hub, two other staff members hot on his heels. Theyâre all clad in black scrubs â EM physicians then â though the man leading the charge appears to be wearing cargo pants instead of a typical pair of scrub bottoms. He is dark-haired, middle-aged, and seemingly in a hurry, but even in the handful of seconds it takes for him to breeze by and disappear into Trauma 2, he catches your attention immediately.
Thereâs something in the way he carries himself, the way he moves with urgency and absolute clarity of purpose. There is an air of authority to him that is unmistakable, the weight of it solid and heavy, seasoned with age and experience. Granted, heâs too far away and gone too soon for you to deduce much more, but regardless, you would bet your first paycheck that this man is an Alpha.
The errant thought crosses your mind that he must smell divine.
Victoria follows your gaze, watches you as you watch him duck into the trauma bay, and nods knowingly.
âThatâs Dr. Robby. Heâs the attending on shift today,â she explains, answering your unspoken question.
At that, Dana glances up from her computer screen. âIâve been trying to pin him down all afternoon â I want to introduce you.â
You nod in easy acquiescence. Even if Perlah had kept you away from the major traumas for your first shift, filling your hours with triage and lower-acuity cases, it was only a matter of time before you would be given the same freedoms and the same responsibilities as any of the other nurses on staff. It would make sense for you to meet as many of the physicians you would be working with as possible.
The opportunity doesnât come until hours later.
Around you, the day shift draws to a close as members of the night shift staff begin to trickle in one by one. Perlah hovers at your shoulder as you wrap up your charting, her supervision required by policy but not in practice; youâve used the same charting system in three other hospitals. You are in the middle of documenting the wound care you had administered to an 83-year-old diabetic manâs foot when Dana taps you on the shoulder and beckons you to follow her. Quickly as you can manage, you save your work, lock the computer, and jog after her.
You catch up to her at the South nursesâ station, only to find that itâs not a case that has prompted her to pull you away from your terminal. Instead, she seems to have finally cornered the mysterious attending from earlier. The older man has his hip propped against the nearest work surface, his feet crossed at the ankles, and his head bent over a tablet as he reads lab results. His high forehead creases with a deep frown as he reads, a distorted reflection of the screen visible in the lenses of the round-framed glasses perched on the end of his nose.
âRobby,â Dana says pointedly, hitting him an arched-brow stare that you recognize from your childhood. Long summer weekends at your parentsâ lake house with Dana and Benji and their two daughters taught you well enough what it looks like when Dana Evans has run out of patience.
Thankfully, Dr. Robby appears to recognize it, as well. His eyes â a deep, soft brown â flick up to meet hers over the rim of his glasses.
âDana,â he replies, just as pointed and more than a bit facetious. You smother a smile.
If the charge nurse is irritated by the response, she doesnât give it away. Instead, she gestures to you. âTold you weâd have a fresh face today. This is our newest traveler.â You duck your chin at him in greeting as she introduces you by name. To you, she adds, âDr. Robinavitch, Chief of Emergency Medicine.â
Chief. You add that new piece of information to the model you have created of this man in your mind, and it slots right in with the rest like a puzzle piece. Of course, heâs the chief. He would have to be. Only someone with institutional power and all the baked-in clout that came with it could carry themselves with suchâŚcasual gravitas.
You offer the chief attending a polite, personable smile and reach to shake his hand. âItâs a pleasure to meet you,â you say as he grips the meat of your hand in his own. His grip is strong but not domineering, and his hand is huge. You wouldnât consider yourself to be especially small, but his grasp dwarfs yours in a way that makes you feel almost dainty. It brings heat to your cheeks, makes your mouth run dry.
This close, even with the hospital-issued scent patches clinging to the insides of his wrists, even with the layers of antiseptic that cloak everyone in the hospital, you can finally smell him. You resist the sudden heaviness in your eyelids as you take in his scent â earthy, grounded, comforting. You detect oakmoss and cedarwood, perhaps a whiff of high-quality black tea. It reminds you of an old library or perhaps a cabin nestled in a damp wood.
It makes you feel strangely safe, like you could unclench your jaw in his presence.
Now that you have identified the source, you realize that the whole department smells like him. His scent all over everything â the computer terminals, the Pyxis, the exam rooms. Beneath the bleach and the hand sanitizer and the metallic notes of suppressants, everything carries the scent of this man. He permeates the air, leaves faint traces everywhere he touches. A silent claim â his territory, his people.
Still holding your hand, Dr. Robinavitch blinks. His dark, weary eyes pin you to the spot. âThe, uh â pleasureâs all mine,â he replies. Thereâs a question in the pitch of his voice, and you watch as the frown returns to his brow. His nostrils flare, a gesture you ought to find rude, but instead, it merely makes your neck feel warm. âI â uh, Iâm sorry, have we⌠Have we met? Thereâs something familiarâŚâ
He glances between you and Dana then, as though trying to add up something in his head, and for the first time, you realize that Dana hasnât shared anything with him about your relationship. Heâs wondering why you smell like his charge nurse. And of course, he canât ask you outright; a male Alpha attending asking a female Omega nurse anything about her scent was the sort of thing anti-harassment trainings were made of.
For the span of a breath, you consider brushing off the question. Really, itâs none of his business. It isnât as though Dana had been a part of your hiring process, and while close, you arenât technically family, which means that there were no policies in place that would prevent the two of you from working the same shifts. From a staffing perspective, there is no conflict of interest here.
But thereâs something endearing about the confusion on his face, something that gives you the insane urge to pat him reassuringly on the head. You got the impression that nothing happens in this ED without this manâs knowledge; his ignorance in this situation must be maddening for him.
So before he can open his mouth and say something he might regret, you find yourself offering, âDanaâs my godmother. Iâve been travel nursing for about a year now, but I chose PTMC for my next contract because I knew I would have someone local I could stay with. Iâm crashing in her and Benjiâs guest room. Much cheaper than trying to find a sublet or an Airbnb.â
You can feel Danaâs eyes on you, and though she says nothing, youâre certain you have surprised her with the disclosure. For the sake of your reception by the rest of the department, you know she would never have revealed your relationship without your blessing. You love her for it, of course. But you were equally certain that if anyone had any misconceptions about any favoritism you might receive, those concerns would be quickly put to rest the more time you spent under her authority.
Dana was far more likely to push you harder because of your relationship than she was to coddle you.
As for the Alpha still holding your hand, this seems to provide him with enough pieces of the puzzle that the deep wrinkles between his eyebrows smooth, and the slight downturn at the corners of his mouth softens.
âAh,â he says, eyes darting back and forth once more between you and the woman at your side. âThatâŚcertainly explains a few things. Well.â He clears his throat and finally drops his grip on your hand, letting it fall limply back at your side. âWelcome to the Pitt. I, uh, hope we havenât scared you away after your first day.â
âNot at all.â You offer him an earnest smile. âItâs intense, but nothing I canât handle. And everyoneâs been very welcoming and helpful so far. Iâm excited to be part of the team.â
Loosing a breathy sound somewhere between a scoff and surprised laugh, the attending scratches the back of his neck and shifts on his feet. âHa. Well. Iâm glad to hear it. You know, normally Iâd justâŚdirect you to Dana, give you the same spiel I give everybody about how she runs the place and how you can go to her if you need anything, but something tells me you already know.â
The wry expression on his face makes you laugh. âI do,â you agree. âThough if you have any other pieces of advice, Iâll happily take them.â
The question seems to take him aback for a moment, and you watch as he gives you a once-over with his eyes. He doesnât linger too long anywhere, doesnât hesitate on any of the bits of you that typically get the attention of men, but you arenât naĂŻve. Heâs scanning for evidence of your designation.
You know what he will see. The scent patches on your neck, partially hidden by the collar of your baby pink undershirt. The matching ones on your wrists, these fully exposed by your rolled-up sleeves. The distinct lack of bite marks.
With his proximity, you wonder if he can smell you the way you can smell him.
You wonder what he thinks. You wonder if he likes it.
Blinking rapidly, Dr. Robinavitch seems to shake himself out of a stupor as he says, âUh⌠I guess I would say donât be afraid to lean on your team. This place isnât for the faint of heart. Weâre all here to support each other, so donât feel like you have to go it alone.â
You recognize the platitude for what it is, the easy thoughtlessness with which he delivers this nothing-burger nugget of wisdom. But you would be lying if you said you didnât feel a twinge of annoyance at his words. Itâs exactly the kind of gentle, well-intentioned condescension youâre familiar with â as a woman, as an Omega, as someone who is perpetually the newbie, who never sticks around long enough to accumulate the kind of respect earned by those with greater tenure. This man has only just met you, and there is a part of him that already thinks you soft.
You are soft, of course, but he cannot possibly know that.
You wrap up your pleasantries with a close-lipped smile and the unexpected weight of disappointment in your gut.
Each of you goes your separate ways then, eager to tie up the shiftâs loose ends as best as you can. Dana greets the incoming charge nurse with an arm around her shoulders, the redhead clearly a friend, while you give report to the night shift nurse taking over Perlahâs patients. In spite of your exhaustion and what you feel is a rather lack-luster presentation, you earn yourself a pleased smile and an approving pat on the shoulder from your Beta mentor. Embarrassingly, the implicit praise gives you a zing of energy that reinvigorates you, and you find yourself humming a tune as you gather your backpack and water bottle from your new locker. Itâs nice to be recognized, to be appreciated.
You spot Dr. Robby one more time on your way out the door, the older man chatting with one of the other Omegas you had met earlier that day â a young male resident, friendly and kind, with wide blue eyes and mousy-golden curls. The attendingâs arms are folded across his chest, but he looks at the resident with such softness in his gaze that it almost stops you short. Itâs nothing like the way he had looked at you earlier, with confusion and mild bewilderment, as though he hadnât quite known what to do with you. You had wondered whether that might be an Alpha quirk of his, if he struggled to interact with Omegas in the workplace, but apparently not.
Apparently itâs just you.
Something tightens in your chest at the realization, though you donât allow yourself to pause and examine it further. Instead, you pull the keys to your beat-up old CRV from the pocket of your backpack and head for the parking garage.
Itâs for the best that you keep thingsâŚdetached, you think as you wave good-bye to Dana, promising to park on the curb so she would be able to pull into the driveway. This job is temporary; PTMC is only one of many hospitals you have called home over the last year. Youâre good at what you do â good at learning quickly, good at earning the trust of your coworkers, good at turning yourself into exactly what the team needed until it was time to move on. Itâs a hard-won skillset, being able to connect and separate, connect and separate, over and over. And youâve created a good life for yourself doing it.
The last thing you need right now is a man messing up your plans, you remind yourself. Especially when the man in question is an unmated Alpha.
That night, for the first time in months, Robby stops and picks up groceries on his way home.
Well, not exactly on his way home. He goes quite a bit out of his way, all the way to the other side of the Allegheny to the Squirrel Hill neighborhood. He tries not to visit this part of town too often â too many childhood memories, too sweet and too painful and too much when he is already worn thin from the weight of his work. But he finds himself there anyway, at the same kosher grocery his grandmother had favored when he was a child, and he thanks the bone-deep fatigue he had awoken with that morning that had prompted him to drive to work today rather than walk.
He shops thoughtlessly, allowing his limbs to take him where he needs to go. His body seems to know what heâs looking for even if Robby himself hasnât given it any conscious consideration. By the time he arrives at the checkout counter, there is a modest collection of ingredients in his shopping basket that he pays for in cash.
By the time he stumbles through the front door of his house, itâs nearly 9:00 PM.
There was a time â perhaps not so long ago, though it feels like lifetimes now â when Robby loved to cook. There are cookbooks in the little cabinet above his refrigerator; some are glossy and modern, while others curl and yellow with age, precious heirlooms inherited from his grandparents. There are heavy-bottomed stainless-steel pans hanging from a rack mounted to the kitchen wall, their exposed surfaces collecting layer upon layer of dust. There is an oversized, over-featured gas grill on his back patio rusting beneath a protective tarp. He hasnât touched any of it in years.
For a moment, he pauses, bags of groceries in his arms, backpack still slung over his shoulder, and wonders. Heâs exhausted. The sun set long ago. His house is dim and quiet. On most nights like this, he barely has enough energy to shower the scent of the hospital off his skin and collapse into bed.
What has gotten into him?
When he poses the question to himself, he comes away empty-handed. All he knows for certain is that the day had opened up a pit of longing in his chest. Itâs a homesickness that hollows him out, that makes every heartbeat feel effortful, that makes him feel unmoored and fragile in a way that knocks the breath out of him. The feeling does not bear dwelling in for long; otherwise, he will surely fall apart.
So instead, he turns on the TV for some much-needed background noise, and he moves.
He grabs a deep, high-walled sautĂŠ pan from the rack and scrubs it until it shines. He dices chicken thighs, minces onions, and grates carrots. He rinses buckwheat over the sink until the water runs clear, dumps it into the pan, and douses it all in vegetable broth. Itâs so simple, so easy it almost shocks him, but in the end, it is precisely as he remembers. The memories have not left his muscles after all this time, and those memories guide him now. The rich, nutty, savory fragrance of the kasha fills his kitchen, reaches behind his ribcage, and softens something there.
It smells like his grandmotherâs kitchen. It smells like home.
He plates up a serving for himself, packing the rest into a small stack of meal prep containers Heather had bought him years ago. He can count on one hand the number of times heâs used them, but heâs grateful for them now. Perhaps he will actually take the time to eat something during his next shift if he knows he has a home-cooked meal to look forward to.
As he takes the first bite, he nearly chokes and needs to reach for a glass of water as he struggles to swallow. Not because of the food, he realizes, but because of the feeling, and it is then that he understands.
He still has them.
All the parts of himself he thought he had shed so long ago. The parts that had granted him the softness that nearly killed him when Adamson died, the parts that had hurt too badly to keep. Those parts of him hadnât abandoned him. They had been smothered, scorched, excised like a malignancy that threatened to poison the rest of him, but he hadnât gotten them all. He is, it seems, still human. Still a man.
Robby takes another bite of kasha, his eyes prick with the threat of tears, and for the first time in recent memory, he feelsâŚalive.
thinking about people witnessing the bossman michael 'robby' robinavitch turning into a softy, submissive, pushover when he's with you
like asking him to fetch you something (perhaps a drink) without saying please, only a soft "mikey, can you..." and he immediately gets up without a word and follows your command with a "yeah honey"
at a bar or at a party, robby sitting with his legs spread wide open, you standing in between them facing him, his head smushed against your lower abdomen as you play with his hair, robby's arms wrapped tightly around your legs to keep you still
people hearing the way he whispers to you a soft and pleading "give me one?" when he's leaning in, a giddy smile on his face, theres literally twinkles in his eyes as he's trying to steal a kiss from your lips, eager to show his affections even when theres an audience around
witnessing as you sit on his lap, the way you walk up to him and order him to 'lean back' and settling on top of him, robby constantly planting his lips on your shoulder, looking up at you adoringly (and so so whipped) as you continue the conversation with colleagues and friends while sitting comfortably on his thighs
pulling him towards places by the fabric of the front of his shirt or at the sleeves and he lets you, following your lead happily without protest, sometimes you pull so abruptly he gets a lil bit of whiplash but he just chuckles in response to your excitement or eagerness
most hilariously, and specially when its jack or dana being the ones who witness it: when you're talking or telling a story and robby chimes in on impulse or without warning and you snap at him "baby- dont interrupt me" and robby stops immediately, only a small little amused huff in response
Jack and Robby made sure to always take care of you, and now that you were pregnant that was exasperated ten fold. And you, you just wanted this baby out by any means necessary.
Note: take it easy on me please this is my first piece since taking my break and I feel so rusty!!! Loll, but this was done for an ask that has been sitting in my inbox for soooo long, it is technically a continuation or epilogue of âThe Betâ so I will link the other parts as well. Again I am so sorry for the wait but I hope you enjoy!
38 weeks had gone by too fast and excruciatingly slow at the same time. By now it was the middle of July in Pittsburgh meaning you were sweaty, hot, pissed, and way too pregnant to cope. Even though Robby and Jack have been so sweet and kind throughout your pregnancy. Neither caring who the true biological father was, they were both just ready to love this child and you forever. Always making sure your needs were met and that you were comfortable at all times while carrying precious cargo.
It was a sentiment that warmed your heart. At least it was until you had hit the third trimester. Being unable to tie your shoes or put on pants without help tended to put you in a bad mood. All of this along with a small scare at 36 weeks. You hadnât felt your baby girl kick for a whole day, this had you taking a cab to the hospital to where both Robby and Jack were. Thankfully after a quick scan in south 5 done by none other than the two men who put you in this position, it was confirmed everything was okay, she was most likely taking a long nap.
However, you about strangled both of them when you saw them measure her more than twice before giving each other an odd look. When Robby finally looked over at you and gave a sheepish smile as he reluctantly told you what had them wide eyed and cherry red. Your sweet baby girl was measuring about 10 whole pounds already.
You wanted her out now.
But you werenât exactly in your right mind to care about their feelings for very long. Seeing how it was 90 degrees with not a cloud in the sky, and your AC was rattling while working overtime. Robby was at work so it was just you and Jack, who hadnât woken up just yet since he had a shift tonight. So after struggling for about ten minutes to get off the couch you made your way towards the bedroom on a mission. Operation get this baby out of you in the next 24 hours.
As silently as you could, you settled onto the bed grateful that Jack rarely wore more than his boxers to bed. Taking a moment you took in the peaceful expression that settled across his face, counting the freckles that spanned across his skin. Each one had mapped by yours and Robbyâs lips at some point.
Soft snores escaped his slightly ajar mouth, making you almost feel bad for what you were about to do. Not completely bad, just a teeny bit. Or at least it did until a sharp kick was delivered to your ribs and you were reminded of what you came here to do.
Jack was both a heavy sleeper and a light sleeper all at once. It depended on the kind of day he had, and today seemed to be a deep sleep kind of day seeing as you were able to reach into the front of his boxers and grip his cock without even a change in his breathing. It wasn't until you pulled it out and gave the already flushed pink tip a few licks that he showed signs of rousing.
A small scrunch of his brows and a slight groan emitted from him as you enveloped his now half hard cock in your mouth, wasting no time you wrapped your lips around him starting with a faster than normal pace. You didnât have time to spare seeing as his shift was drawing nearer and your needs grew with each touch.
With his length now at full attention you made sure to keep your gag reflex down, mostly because if you gagged you were very likely to pee yourself at this point in your pregnancy and that wasnât something you wanted to have happen and interrupt your plans.
Swiping your tongue at the little ridge of his cockhead, you knew that would alert him to open his eyes. And it was an almost immediate reaction letting out a gruff moan as his eyes struggled to open under the sheer pleasure that consumed him the moment he became conscious.
âFuck, baby w-whatâs, shit, slow d-downâ his voice low and rough from just waking up and strained as he was trying his best to not cum in .2 seconds after waking.
Pulling off him with a slight pop you gave him a sly smirk, âGood morning Jackie!â you sat back on your knees before swinging one leg over his torso so that your back was to him. In one smooth movement you didnât know you were still capable of, you lined him up with your enterance before sinking down halfway with very little resistance, âOh fuck, sâbig Jackie!â
âH-hold on baby, we shouldnât be-â
âOh yes we should, Jack Christopher Abbot! You and Mike fucked this baby into me and the two of you will be getting it out the exact same way you got it in. And I will not hear another word unless itâs no, do I make myself clearâ Your voice gave him no room for argument but a pause for his answer. With zero hesitation he found himself nodding in agreement and letting you continue.
With a satisfied nod of your own, you dropped your body weight down onto him. The rest of his length sliding into you and pushing the breath out of your lungs at the overwhelming sensation of having him so deep. A moan left your own throat as pleasure overtook your body, Jack letting his own noises out as he couldnât help but grip your hips in an attempt to slow you down.
âI donât w-want tâhurt youâ his words low as he voices one last concern before giving into the feel of you completely as you grind your hips against him, âbut shit, that feels so goddamn good babyâ
His words spurred you on enough to use as much energy as you could to brace your hands on his knees and start riding him within an inch of his sanity. Up, down, grind. That was the rhythm you kept until Jack could tell you were getting tired. Not wanting you to overexert yourself he began sitting his body up and wrapping an arm around your shoulders. He pulled your upper body flush with his before tipping over to one side as he repositioned the two of you onto your left.
âHeard from a nurse that laying on your left side can help induce and advance laborâ Jack's words were fairly clinical before following up with the start of his thrusts.
Keeping his pace, Jack brought your top leg back and over his hip. Hooking his other hand around your jaw so that he could turn your head toward his. This new angle had his cock pushing deep into your cunt, pleasure forcing your eyes shut as you laid there letting him do all the work.
âOpenâ
And without a second thought you obliged, warmth filled your senses as you felt his spit hit your tongue. Swallowing it without needing to be told.
âThatâs it, such a good girl once you get what you want arenât you?â the hand that rested at your shoulder traveled down over your swollen belly caressing the taught and stretched skin. He stayed there for just a moment longer before bringing two fingers down and straight to your clit. Creating tight circles around the sensitive bundle of nerves.
âFuck Jackie!â Your body unintentionally trying to jerk away from the overstimulation. âSâtoo much, h-hold onâ
âShh, shh, you can take it baby. You wanted it so bad and now youâre trying to run away, I don't think soâ Jack was now determined to give you exactly what you wanted, because who was he to deny his precious girl. âIts your turn to shut up and listenâ
His pace sped up, hips thrusting and fingers circling your clit at a brutal speed you didn't know he was capable of. However, Jack made sure that he kept a slightly shallow depth not wanting to injure your cervix. Jack was still a doctor after all, and if this was successful you didnât need anymore trauma.
Everything was overwhelming for you, especially seeing as it had been the first time he or Robby had touched you like this in a long time. And with the addition of pregnancy hormones your whole body was responding to the arousal coursing through you. You werenât alone though, Jack was in the same situation (minus the hormones). And as a direct reflection of this, the two of you were already on the edge of cumming. His hips stuttered as your walls fluttered around him, both of you desperately trying to hold off for just a bit longer.
You were the first to lose. One hand gripping the sheets and the other wrapped tightly in his short grey curls as your body seized with pleasure, toes curling at the same time your walls clenched in rhythmic pulses choking his thick cock. Moans clawed their way through your chest as your body fully let go, allowing your orgasm to rush down our spine.
The tight squeeze of your body sends him catapulting into his own edge, balls drawing up tight as he releases his hot cum as deep as he can get it. Your bodies were flush and slick against each other leaving no trace of space between. Heavy pants filled the room as the two of you came down from your shared orgasm.
Jack saw how you laid there with a satisfied expression on your face, content that he had you fucked out and tired. But despite your exhausted expression, it wasnât long before Jack felt you shift and squirm. Still stuffed full of his thick cock and his cum leaking slowly from the space you two were still connected, didnât stop you from squeezing your pelvic floor. Hearing Jack hiss as you tightened around him once more. With one look into your eyes he knew he was in for a long few hours.
ââââââââ
It was safe to say that a few hours later Jack was walking into his shift stiff, limping, and halfway asleep. And while he was taking report from Baran, Robby spotted how exhausted he looked from across the room where he was sat at the nurses station. His long strides had him beside Jack within moments, concern marring his expression.
âYou ok, brother? Look like youâre about to drop where you standâ a small huff of a laugh left Robbyâs lips as he tried to lighten Jack's seemingly worn out mood while easing his own worry.
But instead of humoring him with a response that addressed his demeanor, Jack just patted Robbyâs shoulder and placed a chaste kiss to his lips before walking away mumbling a âgood luckâ under his breath. An ominous send off for the man who was already having an off day.
Robby had been on edge since he left you this morning, wishing he had just called off so that he could finish some things around the house and keep you company. A thought he wished he had listened to when his fourth trauma rolled through, accompanied by two pregnant patients. Finally finishing with one amputated limb that brought Park the shark down to the ED which was never a good thing.
As Robby walked through the door of your shared home he was ready to heat up food he knew was left for him on the stove and crash on the large California king bed that was practically calling his name. So imagine his surprise as he let his eyes drift closed for only a split second while leaning back against the kitchen counter when he felt a small and eager hand gripped his heavy cock through his scrub bottoms.
âWoah there kid!â Robby's voice cracked and his knees buckled slightly in his stupor âAnd what exactly do you think you're doing?â
His brow raised in question while he simply watched your bottom lip stick out right before you slipped behind the waist band of his scrubs. Your hand finding exactly what you wanted in seconds, connecting instantly with the warmth of his soft cock. Pumping him at a languid pace feeling how he began to stiffen. Your approach was similar to earlier yet slightly different. Jack needed to be given permission, but Robby, he needed to be begged. He needs to know how much heâs wanted.
âPleasee Mikey, I need you so bad!â you pleaded with him while lifting up onto your toes and kissing your way up his chest, âjust wanna feel you, itâs been so long. Need you to fill me up so badâ
You dragged the syllables in a whiney tone, an attempt to coax him further into you. But Robby just let out a sharp tsk at your behavior, he had absolutely pieced together Jackâs behavior at shift change and your current display of affection.
âThis must be why Jack was about ready to drop as soon as he walked through those doorsâ Robby held your face with both his hands, âtell me what you want sweetheartâ
Placing an innocent pout on your face you went to shake your head and tell him you didnât know what he meant. But you shouldâve known he wasnât as easily manipulated as Jack was.
âAh ah ah, donât play dumb with me. We both know you want somethingâ using his hands that rested on your face he tilted your head so that you were looking straight at him, âtell me what it is and Iâll make sure you get exactly what you want.â
His gruff tone had you body buzzing and mind almost blank, but as he walked you backwards towards the couch you finally found your words.
âPlease Mikey, I want this baby out of me, and I want you so badâ your body was being gently lowered onto the couch before you were even done speaking. Expertly Robby was able to sneak a pillow behind your lumbar spine so that any pressure was removed in this position.
Rough hands gently slipped off the oversized shirt you wore, revealing your bare and flushed body underneath. Those same hands ran a similar trail that Jacks had hours ago. From your full aching breasts and down to your swollen stomach, his lips placing gentle kisses where his hands leave.
Your gaze followed his movements until you made a sound that was between an annoyed and aroused moan. This was due to the fact that once he had set his lips to where you needed him most he disappeared from your view. Your stomach obscuring his face, but that was quickly forgotten as he gave a harsh suck over your clit and teased two fingers at your entrance.
âYou always taste so good sweetheart, I can still taste Jack tooâ plunging his fingers as deep as they could go, Robby set a new rhythm to your sensitive nerves.
âFuck Mikey, right there!â You were already breathless at just the start of his ministrations, still so responsive after yours and Jack's escapades.
It didnât take long before he could feel the telltale flutter of your walls around his fingers. Robby took that as his sign to crook his finger up and to the front, right where that specific spot of yours he knows is located.
âD-donât stop! Fuck, I-Iâm gonna cum Mikey!â
It only took two more strokes before your orgasm seized up your body, choking his fingers with everything you had. Arousal covered his hand and beard when he finally pulled away. By this point he wasted no time before slipping off his pants and boxers in one go.
Spreading your slick up and down his now fully hard cock and moving your legs to rest over his shoulders. Not quite bending you in half seeing as your belly wouldnât allow it. But enough for you to feel a stretch in your hips, the pillow he placed doing wonders for your back in this position. Notching his leaking tip at your cunt he reminded you to breathe before slowly pushing his way into you.
The feeling of his heavy cock finally pushing his way into you had caused your eyes to roll back so far you swore you could see the inside of your brain. It didnât matter that Robby had just pulled a mind blowing orgasm from you, it already felt as though you were seconds away from cumming once more. You were doing your best to hold it off, wanting it to last but he was making that task very difficult.
Robbyâs pace began a deep and slow, his tip pushing ever so slightly against your cervix with each thrust. Not enough to bruise, but just enough to hopefully help you along. And the amount of arousal coating his cock told him just how much you were enjoying yourself. That and the noises that were constantly ringing through the room.
âPoor baby, went so long without us touching you didnât you?â You nodded at Robbyâs words, âsuch a desperate little thing begging me to make it better, even after Jackie took care of youâ
He felt how your body clenched at the memory that mustâve passed through your mind at the mention of the missing man. Finding himself wishing that Jack could be here as well, he decided to include him. Reaching for his phone Robby snapped a quick photo of the two of you and sent it to Jack. It was mere seconds before the chime of a new message came though. Jack had simply responded âshe got to you too huh?â
Robby just chuckled before focusing back on you. You whoâs eyes were still screwed shut while trying your best to meet his thrusts. Releasing one of your legs to rest at his hip Robby settled forward just a bit more so that he could reach just a little further. His soft tummy resting against yours.
Pulling back until just his tip was left inside you, before pushing back in slow. The friction of his coarse hairs against your clit sent shivers down your spine. Balls pressed up against your bottom with each thrust, every movement had your senses on overdrive.
With one hand securing the leg he kept over his shoulder, his other wandered back towards your chest. Grabbing a hand full of your breasts giving a light squeeze before focusing on your nipples. Rolling the sensitive buds between his fingers before tugging slightly.
âF-fuck, feels so goodâ Robby pressed a kiss to the inner part of your ankle, âone more fâme, you can do itâ
Shaking your head you felt like all your nerves were going off. Too sensitive for another, too tired. But Robby was having none of it. Tilting his hips just slightly and grinding into you with a bit more pressure had you giving in. The leg that was left around his hip you wrapped it tighter bringing him closer as you finally let go.
Your whole demeanor released as this orgasm took over your mind and body. A shudder ran through you as a burst of fluid soaked the two of you and the couch below. Robby not far behind as your body tightened around him. Giving a few more thrusts before he was more than content to simply shove himself as far as he could go before releasing himself into you.
âSo full of us in every way now arenât you sweetheart?â His words went in one ear and out the other as you were too busy trying to stay awake, âletâs get you cleaned up and to bed okayâ
With an absentminded nod you allowed him to help you up and to the bathroom. After cleaning you up he tucked you into bed before cleaning the mess the two of you made in the living room and finishing his meal. All the while you were none the wiser to the conscious world, snuggled peacefully in the warm blanket satiated to your hearts content.
The peace however didnât last long. It was around 1:30am that you woke up in a slight panic. It wasnât immediately clear what had your unconscious mind in such a worry. Not until two minutes later when you were just about ready to go back to sleep was when you felt a deep cramp flow through your body. Breathing your way through the wave of pain you settled a hand to your stomach, which was now rock hard.
You may not have been an L&D doctor but you knew enough about labor to know it was time to go. Especially when another contraction seized your body less than five minutes later. After punching Robby awake and watching him scramble around the house for the needed bags, he loaded everything and you into his truck before heading to the hospital.
In the frenzy of everything neither of you had remembered to text Jack. Not until the two of you walked in through the ambulance bay doors and were met with his wide eyes and confused expression.
âW-what, is t-that? BABY!?!â
âFuck!â Clenching your jaw as another contraction hit you, âYes Jack, wonderful observation skills now get me a damn wheelchair! And if you tell me to breathe one more time Michael Iâm going to castrate you!â
It only took five hours before the three of you became a family of four. Your sweet baby girl came in weighing 10lbs 4oz and 23inches with a full head of dark hair and large hazel eyes. And while you cursed them out every moment you could while pushing your little bowling ball out. As soon as she was placed in your arms, and you saw the loving looks fill Jack and Robbyâs eyes you were ready to do it all over again.
(fauxcest) dad!michael "robby" robinavitch x fem!reader
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summary: robby spots you alone, injured one cold, fateful night; it's kismet. he's always wanted someone to take care of.
content warnings/description: 18+ MDNI, explicit sexual content, AFAB reader, HEAVY fauxcest, reader calls robby "dad," codependency, robby genuinely thinks heâs reader's dad, power imbalance, age gap (robby is canon age and reader is in her twenties), oral sex (m!recieving), unprotected (piv) sex, breeding with the intention of impregnating, robby has a thing for feet, hurt/comfort, some religious themes, alternating POVs, mentions of blood, reader is gravely injured in the beginning (not because of robby)
author's note: please read the tags for this one, lol. if you don't like, don't read! i think i need a cigarette after this (i donât smoke). sorry if the ending is a bit rushed and disjointed. i wanted to get this away from me. anyway, enjoy!
A wounded stray. A miserable, mangy thing you are. Lost, directionlessâhungry to be tamed. Your feet trek through the snow-ridden streets in search of salvation you canât guarantee youâll find.
Itâs been some time since youâve crossed paths with a mirror or glass to view your reflection. But youâre sure the image staring back at you would not be a pleasant sight.
The City of Steel, on the other hand, looks quite beautifulâparadoxically softâcovered in the thick blanket of snow. Snowflakes land on your lashes and the tip of your nose, and you wonder if itâd be all that bad to stay outdoors in your remaining moments.
Maybe not. It wouldnât be so far a leap from what youâre used to. Youâve always been an outsider and are used to the coldâto being iced out. You walk instead of run because youâre tired, and no one will notice or care that youâre gone.
Empty streets littered with a path of your footprints converge to a park where the warm lamp lighting does anything but warm. Before you can sit on a dust-covered bench and stain it crimson, you see a man approaching ahead.
He's aged, grizzled, weary but handsome and walks with either purpose or a long gait because of his lanky proportions. His coat is incorrectly buttoned, as if haphazardly thrown on, his thinning hair a mishmash on his head from brushing his fingers through it one too many times.
He turns his head up from his boots, sees you, stops in his tracksâthen his speed hastens as his limbs recover from their momentary lapse. Straight away heâs in front of you, holding you by your elbow, and telling you with concern etched across his faceâ
âHey, youâre going to be okay.â
His grip tightens as he examines your wounds but slackens and hesitates when he examines your features (sees something he likes, something you thought no one ever could, perhaps?). Then he turns his head over his shoulder to eye the entrance of the hospital he just walked out of.
It only occurs to you then how close you are to safety. But the man got to you first. Primus inter pares.
He returns his gaze upon you, and his hesitation breaks. Something good inside of him breaks.
âLet's go. I'm taking you somewhere else. Hold on for a little longer.â
The sad, cow-eyed man on the wrong side of fifty decides to pluck you up off the street. You have to walk a little more before you make it to where youâll be calling âhome.â
Robby doesnât do this. Not like this.
Heâs picked up a mutt here and there, the occasional feral felineânurtured them, then sent them on their wayâbut never a pretty, youngâtwenty-somethingâthing like you.
And this time, he thinks heâll keep what heâs found.
He had the opportunity to do the correct thing. Walk the few yards back into the hospital with you and admit you as a patient.
But he didnât want to hand you off to his colleagues. Or give you the opportunity to slip through his fingers. He didnât want to be later filled with regret if he let you go, either.
He was as resolute in taking you as he was shameless in doing so.
He didnât and doesnât plan to ask what circumstances led you before him. They donât matter to him. Your past will be overwritten.
Youâll only know⌠Robby.
Because as he leads you into his home, strips you of your tatters, bathes you, clothes you, licks your wounds, feeds you, allows you into his bed to rest beside himâheâs begetting you anew.
Fathers are meant to be everlasting. All-encompassing. The good ones are. A forever imprint left upon their progeny that defines who they are and who theyâll become.
Who you are is his. And who youâll become is his to care for.
Caregiving suits him. Fatherhood... suits him.
Your eyes peel open against the harsh winter rays filtering in through the carelessly drawn blinds. Winds rap the window on the far side of the room, naked branches tap against the glass; both noises are a nuisance to you now that youâre awake. You sit up in bed, finding yourself in a much clearer state of mind than the night prior.
Itâs to do with the lumbering man snoring softly beside you.
You donât remember all of what occurred. But you do remember the important bitsâthe ones that cemented him as your salvation.
He stripped and bathed you. Bandaged you thereafter.
He pushed your hands away when you tried to pry your rags off on your own and instead did it for you. Filled the tub and sprinkled in bath salts in lieu of roses you remember whispering you wish someone would do for you. He said heâd remember it for next time. You fought hard, writhing beneath his heavy hands as he scrubbed his wash rag over your dirt-caked and bloodied skin.
He wrapped loose pieces of gauze over your bigger woundsâband-aids everywhere elseâand kissed them reverently when you flinched in the instinctual fear that yet another would hurt you.
His words were like a lullabyâcalming your racing heart.
"Iâm just trying to make it better. Let me.â
He changed you into his clothes.
You remember his lithe fingers dancing over the skin of your ribs as he slipped his large cotton T-shirt over your head. The same fingers trailing up your legs as he settled his sweats over your hips. The hesitation in both actions when your breasts and pussy were exposed, wet with drops of bathwater, enticing before his eyes. Something youâre not used toâbeing wanted. Lusted after.
At least, that was what you told yourself his eyes were communicating to you.
He fed you.
Though he doesnât seem to be the most gifted cook, the food, while visually unappetizing, came to life when he himself dug his fingers into the slop to slip it in between your lips. Your gums, teeth, tongue, the space he could reach past your uvula without choking were thoroughly examined and memorized by him by mealsâ end.
He told you, âYou donât know how precious you are, do you? Even on the inside,â to which you responded with heat rushing to your cheeks.
He led you to bed.
He fluffed your pillow, tucked you in before slipping under the covers with his chest pressed to your back. Caged you in his arms and littered kisses over the nape of your neck before whispering, "Goodnight, sweetheart."
Sleep seemed to come easy for you, as you hadnât had much of it in the days, weeks, years, or life priorâprior to him. And when you fell asleep, you think the man finally did too.
You cut to the now as the man stirs beside you, pulling you from your musings. But the memories linger, their effects having taken root in you.
He was so kind to you. Too kind, to no one less than a stranger.
You owe him your life.
Robby wakes to you staring down at him, sitting on your knees, hands clasped in your lap. His shirt is loose at the collar, exposing your bit of shoulder he would like to leave bite marks on.
An idle morsel of thought. One he shouldnât feed into. It isn't something a father does to their daughter.
He has a conscious desire to share his depravity with you, invite you to indulge in his dreams of being so needed by someone that even his faults canât push them away. Bestow upon you the knowledge that he's who you should consider your keeper. But youâre still too fresh off your bender.
Who knows how youâd react if he asked you to call him âDad?â
A good sign, though, that youâre still in bed with him. In this large, lonely house. In a prayer position like heâs your heavenly father.
He knows heâs not God. Nowhere near close. And God knows not of Robby, as their line of communication was severed too many years ago now. Still, if itâs youâand only youâwho views him this way, heâll allow himself to pretend.
Fatherhood. Godhood. One could argue theyâre similar states of being.
He reaches a hand from tucked under his pillow to cradle your cheek and thumb away the tears that dried down overnight.
Poor thing, crying away your pain, knowing you were safe with him to do so.
In all his years of treating patients, animals, heâs never encountered a living being like you. People yell, scream, kick out their feet, refusing help. Animals whine, nip, bare their teeth in fear of it.
Not you. No war was fought with him. Structurally unsound, you effortlessly buckled under his concern. He pulverized your only choicesâto die or to be saved by anotherâin the palm of his hand when he held you by the nape of your neck to guide you home.
Your eyes rake over his face with innocent curiosity, in appreciation, and maybe in guilt that you might be burdening him. Heâd never think that.
He barely registers your words when you suddenly sayâ
âYou never told me your name.â
Heâs too busy admiring your features: your eyes, the slant of your nose, your lips. He's engrossed, enraptured; pride blooms in his chest for who heâs been gifted.
You proceed to place your palm over the back of his hand while he continues to rub your cheek, snapping him back to reality.
Pondering for a moment, he responds, âWhat I want you to call me isnât something youâre ready for yet, honey. But why donât we start with Robby?â
Your brows furrow, but you donât press for an explanation. âRob-ee. Robby. Okay. Itâs nice to meet you, Robby.â
You must find his name odd. Unassuming for the man you placed your utmost trust in in your time of need.
But âRobbyâ is all heâs willing to offer at the moment.
His name is like overcooked meat sliding between canines; it takes some time to chew and break connective tissue before you can taste the savory flavor hidden and packed within.
After youâve had your fill of him, he volleys back, âWhatâs yours?â
He didn't have time to ask, nor were you able to offer it to him last night. His heart breaks when you seem surprisedâas if you donât think itâs worth anyone knowing your name.
You tell it to him anywayâbeautiful, he thinksâthen chew on your lower lip. Robby abhors thatâsees it as a way of covering yourself up. He thumbs your lip free and rests his hand by his side again. Yours slips back into your lap to join the other.
âWhat now, Robby?"
It's Robby's turn to furrow his brows. âStay,â What else? âthat's all you need to do. Stay and forget last night. I'll take care of the rest.â
Forget last night and beyond. But remember him.
You hum, nod, and he pats your knee. The matterâs settled.
Your life passes you by in twelve-hour intervals.
From when you wake to sundownâwhen the space between every wall is tinged blue from the frigid cold outsideâyou wait for Robby.
It isnât as isolating as one might think. A far cry from a past life when you were kicked out, abandoned by the people who you thought loved you but only ended up hurting you.
Theyâre long forgotten now.
The gap Robby's employment creates is filled with literature: many words collecting dust in his library consumed by the fireside on days when you miss him, feeling the flames lick against your skin as you curl up in his reading chair and flip through pages.
You run out the clock with the mundane. Chores around the house and the occasional walk to the corner grocery store so he can fail in making you yet another recipe that you devour in delight anyway.
"Make sure youâre bundled up, baby. And be careful. Thereâs bad people out there. Get yourself something sweet.â
You always find something to do. And when he finally comes home, you drop those somethings and run barefoot across the hardwood floor into his arms.
âWhatâd you do today, sweetheart?â
His rare time off is spent in bed with you. Tracing geometry into your back and counting the number of lashes on your lash line.
When your stomach grumbles, so does he, and he makes the arduous journey from the bedroom to the kitchen to attempt his next dish for you, with you nipping at his heels the entire way.
If heâs feeling up to it, some days he takes you both somewhere. Anywhere. For him to get away from the sterile hospital air, which he swears he feels inflating his lungs even from home, and for you to get away from the monotony of it all. Though, youâve yet to complain.
The force of your weight upon the blade of your ice skate melts a thin layer of the glacier beneath, allowing for an easy glide across the rink.
Robby's content in watching you from the sidelinesâbouncing like a water strider from rink fillet to fillet, occasionally stopping to stare at the large Christmas tree planted in the center.
Itâs not as fun without him. You skate past beginners and experts alike to stop in front of him, spraying the glass boards with powdered ice.
"Robby, why donât you join me?" you pout as you clasp the board directly in front of you.
He scoops your hands in his and warms your gloveless fingers. "I like watching you, honey. You're so good at this.â
You pull your hands free from his and say before resuming your skate, "Join me, Robby. Please?"
He does because he canât say no to you. You have to hold one of his hands while his other clutches the boards as you slowly make your way around the perimeter.
You feel as though you have a new lease on life. Youâre cherished and cared for after believing for so long you were undeserving of love.
You want for nothing. Money matters little to him when it comes to youâthe expensive clothing and jewelry and skincare products he buys for you make you certain of that.
But⌠it isnât long before you start to feel a dull ache deep inside the innermost layer of your heart. The money, the material, the nourishment, the warmth he provides you have developed a rot that harrows its way inside of you. Robby's spoiled you rotten. You want more of himâ
More more more more more
As weeks pass, the malady intensifies and your heart is eaten through. Degenerated. Youâre bedbound, shackled by chains of linking tears. You miss him too much. Time spent without him is too much. Starting and ending the day with him in bed isnât enough. Nor are the platonic hugs and kisses he dares not indulge in.
Despite never having known this kind of loveânever having experienced itâyour affections for Robby have evolved into a marrow-deep, soul-crushing craving that can only be described as romantic.
Something has to give. He has to give.
Robby leaves the hospital after a double shift he had no choice in working. He follows his routine path home through the park, faltering when he notices you sitting on one of the benches.
It's spring now. Early spring. Fuzzy sepals encasing flowers on the verge of bloom are coated in iceâas temperatures are still below freezing. Especially now, not too long after dawn has cracked.
He jogs up to you when he sees you shivering.
How long have you been sitting out here waiting for him?
Leaning down to meet you at eye level, he asks, with admonishment in his tone, âBaby, whatâre you doing here?â
âIâI was waiting for you, R-Robby. Y-youâre late,â you say with chattering teeth, then pout as you wrap your arms around yourself.
Robby huffs, shakes his head, and looks to the ground at your boots. He'll need to have a discussion with you about this once you both get home, but for nowâŚ
He glances back up at you and warms your cheek with his palm. âIâll make it up to you. But letâs get you out of the cold first, okay?â
He offers you his free hand, and you take it.
Once through his front door, he hangs up your coat on the rack, gets down on a knee to unlace your boots, shimmies them off, and directs you to turn on the fireplace.
He comes over just as youâre setting aside the fireplace lighter and poker, taking a seat in his reading chair and patting his knee with a curt âsit.â
As you place yourself comfortably in his lap, he asks, âWhyâd you wait for me out there? Freezing your butt off for no good reason.â
âI missed you,â you sniffle.
The wood slowly burnsâthe promise of heat yet to deliverâand in the meanwhile, you unzip Robby's sweater so you can warm your hands under his shirt and on his soft, furry belly.
Youâve been downcast as of lateâyour heart fond and aching in his absence. Heâs so attuned to you, he couldnât turn a blind eye to the change if he tried. While he understands your plight, heâs responsible for your well-being. He canât let what you did slide and allow it to become common practice.
âYou canât do that. Youâll get yourself sick. I want you to wait for me at home.â
âYou were gone too long this time, Robby.â
Fat tears well up in your eyes, and you bury your face to cry into his shoulder, the feel of them landing heavy on him tugging at his heartstrings. He cradles the back of your head with one hand, the other settling low on your hip.
You continue, voice muffled, âAll I ever do is wait for you.â
He turns his head to whisper directly into your ear, âYou donât think I miss you too, sweetheart?â
A downpour of tears before you respond, âThen why am I the only one crying?â
Something akin to remorse clips him, tears a hole right through him. He wasnât expecting the guilt to come now... or ever.
Ample time has passed since that fateful night he met you. You're conditioned to him. Robby has you wrapped around his fingerâso much so that youâre stretched thin.
Despite the pang of guilt he feels, it invigorates him to know you need him so wholly. This is what he wants from you.
Sweet for him. Helpless without him. Like any daughter should be without her father.
He canât go backârewrite history. He doesnât want to do that.
He does think, however, that maybe now is a good time to prove how devoted he is to you. Reassure you youâre his sole purpose in life. That he canât imagine going on without you.
Itâs time to bring you in on the fantasy heâs been watching play out so perfectly.
âI have something I want to try with you. Will you hear me out?â
You look up from his shoulder, furrow your brows from the sudden change in topic, but nod. He shifts the hand cradling your head to thumb away a few of your stray tears, then sucks the appendage into his mouth, humming at the salty tang.
A wet pop, then his lips are free to ask, âRemember when you first asked me my name? How I told you there was something else I wanted you to call me?â
It takes you a few harsh blinks to recall the memory. âI remember. You said I wasn't ready yet.â
âThat's right. But I think you are now,â he takes in a deep breath, flaring his nostrils, and on the breath out asks, "what if⌠what if you called me Dad, hm?â
âD-DadâŚ?â
âYeah, baby. Dad.â
A head shake before you respond, âButâbut you⌠you arenât my dad.â
âReally?â he cocks his head in faux confusion, âI thought I took care of you. Keep your belly full and your hands warm. You donât think I do that?â
âNoâI mean⌠of course you do, butâ"
ââSo Dad it is then.â
Your instinct to chew your lower lip makes itself known as you consider his response. Robby despises that. Hasn't he told you that already? But he doesnât get the opportunity to do anything about it because you ask,
âYouâre not Robby anymore?â
He chuckles lightly, forgiving and forgetting your crime. An innocent question from such an innocent girl. âI am. I will always be Robby. But when itâs just you and me, call me Dad, okay?â
Like a curtain being paged to reveal a prized jewel at an auction, the uncertainty in your eyes washes over, revealing what Robby can only interpret as pure, magnificent acceptance.
âOkay... Dad,â you giggle as the title rolls off your tongue.
He praises, âGood girl," then squeezes your hip harshly, making you yelp. He canât help himself. Hearing you call him Dad triggers a cuteness aggression in him like no other. Makes his cock sinfully twitch and his balls throb too.
The princess has crowned her king, and all feels right in Robbyâs world.
With the flip of a switch, Robby's back to getting his point across to you. âI know you miss me, sweetheartâbut I gotta work so I can keep taking care of you. And just because I'm not a crybaby like you doesn't mean I don't miss you. I donât want to see you out there waiting for me again.â
You laugh lightly at his teasing and nod, looking down to where your hands move beneath his shirt, stealing his warmth. "Alright, alright. I won't do it again. I promise."
It seems youâre appeased and think the conversation is finished, because your head dangerously jerks back up to meet his eyes when he says,
âGood. Now give me a kiss, and we'll put this behind us.â
Robby thinks you deserve it after holding back from acting on your urges for so long.
He doesnât miss how you lean into his touch whenever he graciously gives it to you. How you rub against him like a pampered cat in bed. Or how your sweet pecks of hello and goodbye linger and feel more charged than they should between a dad and his girl.
And with every dayâsince the day he met youâhe too feels the gnawing inside of him grow. A hunger so profound only you can satiate it. He does his best to be fatherly with you, but perverted thoughts pass him uncontrollably by, and all he can do to tamp them down is stroke his cock and pump his load into the toilet or shower.
Only one kiss. It should relieve you both. After months of pining, of being such a good father to youâand you such a good girl to himâyou both could benefit from something a little... forbidden.
Both of his hands reappear on your hips, and he waits for you to claim your reward.
When he sees your hesitation as clear as day on your face, he urges, "Go on, honey. I know you want this."
The gears start turning, and you slowly lean in, Robby willing himself not to close the distance. Your breaths mingleâhis controlled and yours hot and heavyâand then your lips are on his.
The kiss is chaste, innocentâa peck in disguise. You soon pull back but immediately plant another one on him in regret for not taking advantage of the opportunity heâs giving you.
The second time, you press into him more forcefully, pillowy breasts to chest, nails dragging down and low near the waistband of his pants, mouth opening slightly against his as he loses himself in you and returns the kiss with fervor.
You pull back againâalmost as quickly as the first timeâhe thinks to tease, but in honesty because youâre overwhelmed with joy and paralyzed by nerves. But you just as quickly kiss him again. And retreat again.
And you repeat the pattern again. And again. And againâ
And suddenly (he doesnât know if itâs you or him that takes it further), heâs nipping your lower lip, youâre sucking on his tongue, and youâre both swapping too much saliva.
But itâs Robby whose fingers dimple your ass as he gropes one cheek, his other hand holding the back of your head to stop you in the event you want to separate again.
Robby's hunger only seems to grow with the kiss, not abate. Breakfast needs to be prepared soon, but it isnât food heâs keen on devouring.
Heâs aware enough to know this is an appropriate time to stop.
But... your lips are so soft, your whimpers are like a medley of his favorite music spinning his head and spurring his groin, your hands sear him as they bravely dip fingers below his waistbandâ
This needs to stop immediately. Because if you dare touch him, even barely, you both will goâno, he'll take you bothâto a place you can't come back from.
He lets the back of your head go and breaks the kiss, fanning your name across your lips. He'd like nothing more than to take this further. Much, much further, but he's decidedly being good.
His voice rattles out of him, gruff and a little breathy, âOkay, thatâs enough.â
âRobâDad, please. I missed you so much today," your sneaky fingers dance along his pubis area as they tug on his bottoms, ruffling the untamed tuft of dark hair there, "IâI think if you let me kiss you a little more, I'll feel better."
He huffs a laugh as he encloses your wrists with his fingers, pulling them away from him. He finds delight in your neediness and humor in your clumsy attempt at manipulation, but heâs already made up his mind. âDonât be greedy, honey. It isnât proper.â
He shifts and adjusts you so that youâre the one sitting in the chair and heâs standing in front of you.
The sight of you before him nearly makes him fall to his knees. You look wrecked: eyes blown out, lips swollen, sweaty and flustered, and not because of the burning logs right behind him.
He doesn't fare any better. Besides the blush he feels creeping down to his chest, he alsoâ
Robby excuses himself, âGotta start on breakfast. Let me shower and get changed first, alright?â
But your eyes quickly shift from his down to his crotch before he can step away. âD-Dad, yourâyourâŚâ
He glances down at the dark spot on his cargos, then palms himself through the thick material, catching how your eyes widen in his periphery. He feels his cum start to leak down his shaft and balls, sticky and plentiful, and winces,
âYeah, baby. Hence why I gotta shower. You made your dad fucking come in his pants.â
Robby hasnât kissed you since then. But you donât protest. He was right before.
It isnât proper for you to want more with your dad. You should be grateful you had the opportunity to share breaths and feel his thin lips capture yours.
Your maladyâs healed. Or rather, has stopped spreading. The little bit of intimacy Robby gave you was enough to block it from eating the rest of your insides.
For now. But one day not so far in the future, you know it will return with a vengeance.
Youâre greedy for Robby. You need him like you need air. Your feelings for him are absoluteâas guaranteed as the sun rising every morning. Heâs unwittingly made your yearning for him worse, despite the improvement in your ailment. Heâs given you an inch, and at some point in time, youâll be wanting a mile.
Luckily for you, one evening, against his better judgment, Robby decides to take advantage of your desires.
The front door slams shut. Robby's home. And you can feel the fury radiating off him in waves.
You greet him by the foyer with an uneasy smile. He doesnât normally allow himself to be upset around you. Bad shift after bad shift, and the worst youâve ever seen him afterward is tired, maybe on a bit of a short fuse, but not like this:
He's red in the face. Pupils blown outâeyes darker than the cozy brown youâre familiar with. His hair is a mess as per usual, but even the skin around his graying beard looks raw with how much heâs pulled it.
He callously tosses his bag onto the floor, toes off his sneakers, and tromps toward you. When the bulk of him is only a hairsbreadth distance away from you, he looks down into your expectant eyes.
Youâre not sure what he sees, but you notice the dark clouds in his eyes lift, as if enlightened. The wrinkles around them soften, and his shoulders loosen.
Maybe his change in demeanor is because the weatherâs finally right for the season: spring is well underway. You're out of his sweaters and sweats and in a flowy shift dress. He likes you barefoot around the house, and your toes are manicured in a shade of his favorite colorâblue.
One long look at youâall of youâand his hard exterior is shucked, leaving behind his warm, gooey center.
Still, itâs plain to see Robby's had the kind of day that needs a little good to offset the lot of bad.
He greets you, cupping the nape of your neck with his large paw and weighing you down, âHi, sweetheart. My angel. I just had a shift from hell. Wanna do me a favor and make me feel better?â
You nod adamantly, replying breathlessly, âYes, Dad.â
He curses a quick "fuck" beneath his breath at your eagerness, then urges you down onto the floor. â'Kay. Get down on your knees then, baby.â
As you do, he emphasizes, âThis isnât a thing you should be excited to do with your dad. Remember that. Itâs just this once.â
Your knees hit hardwood floor as you nod your agreement, and Robby directs you, âPull out my cock. Get the tip wet.â
You unbuckle his belt, unzip his pants, all while thinking to yourself: heâs being⌠crass.
Robbyâs trademark is to be appropriate with you. Heâs your dad. Of course, there have been times where exceptions were made, but itâs only as of recently as the kiss that youâve noticed a dramatic shift toward something he always reminds you is wrong.
Settling his hands under your nightgown to rest low on your warm belly overnight, you wake to find a hand cupping your sex.
âYour cuntâs warm, sweetheart. That's all. Sheâs like my little hand warmer.â
Joining you in the shower after a shift that ran long one evening, he rubs your nipples and spreads your ass under the guise of rinsing you.
âSorry Dad was late today. I know I interrupted your shower, but itâs faster this way.â
Again, you donât protest. Even if Robby's being unfair.
Pathetic and desperate as you are for him, you take what little he decides to give you and ask for naught in return.
Even now, as you pull him from his briefs and wet his glans with your tongue, you won't take more of him into your mouth unless he says to do so.
Seeing you kitten-lick his cockhead appears to spur him on, and heâs run dry of patience.
Instead of guiding you, letting you do all the work, he grabs the sides of your head and starts a relentless pace, fucking your throat with the sole purpose of bruising your esophagusâforcing himself so deep you'll have no choice but to swallow when he comes.
Your eyes sting with tears and your nails claw into Robby's thighs, yet you moan and feel yourself slicken by being used like this. The sound of your chokes and his wet thrusts in and out of your mouth make you forget the bite of the floor sinking into your knees.
This is what you want from him. For him to use you. To find pleasure in your body. To treat you like you're more to him than his to care for.
All it took was one extremely awful shift for Robby to allow himself to be taken care of by you instead. He deserves your worshipâhe saved you. But heâs been too good of a dad to allow himself to seek solace in you.
Until now.
One of Robby's hands moves from the side of your head to your throat, feeling himself distend the delicate skin there with every harsh snap of his hips.
âFuuuck,â Robby, close to coming, rasps, âyour mouth is⌠fuckingâamazing. Shit, Dadâs going to⌠come.â
Your throat muscles constrict around him as you fruitlessly attempt to breathe, careening him over the edge. He pushes you into his pelvis, your nose landing heavily against his musky, sweat-soaked pubes as his cum floods your throat.
The scent of him is heady, salty and dirty yet addicting, and makes your eyes squeeze shut to isolate your senses and focus solely on it. As predicted, his cock is shoved so far down your throat youâre forced to swallow his spend.
After what feels like minutes of Robby unloading in you, he extricates himself from your warm mouthâa mixture of saliva and cum leaking from his shaft to the floorâand hooks your mouth with a single finger, forcing you to loll out your tongue and open wide.
The sight of his cum coating your tongue and stringing between your set of pearly whites makes his eyes roll into the back of his head and his softening cock spasm against his thigh.
âFuck, sweetheart. Iâyou don't know how badly I needed that. You did so fucking good for me. IâI love you.â
Be still, your beating heart.
You've known you've loved Robby since the day you met him, and he's confessed it to you too... but not like this. This seems honest. Beyond parental.
Where will things go from here, you wonder?
You can only hope that soon enough... he'll give in and take you to bed. If he really loves you, he'd help offset your insecurities with the promise that what you have is more than transactional.
While you need Robby, Robby needs you to need him. Beyond that, can you say for sure he loves you?
Wiping your mouth with the back of your hand and giggling, you say, sweet and saccharine, âAnything for you, Dad. I love you too.â
Itâs the cusp of summer.
And Robby has done everything under the blazing sun with you except slam you down onto his cock. Barring the single, ultimate stone, every other sexual act has been unturned.
He lied to you.
After you sucked his cock, he couldnât fathom going back to how things were: laughably "virtuous"âlaughably "familial." Heâd punish himself, berate himself, and say heâs been a bad father, but whoâs he kidding?
Things were always going to lead here with you.
Youâre more to him now than the first someone who stuck around. More to him now than his sick need to care for someone other than himself because itâs easier than facing his own problems.
No⌠he loves you. He'll forever be Dad to you, but he also wants to be your beloved. He wants to introduce you to his colleagues as his wife, kiss you in publicânot paying mind to the insurmountable age gapâand when you're both home, hear you call him Dad when he fucks you.
His last thread of restraint is pulled when he comes back home after his last shift before his and your vacation together.
Youâre not by the door waiting for him like you usually do. He settles in and makes his way upstairs. Maybe youâre packing.
Youâre both getting away from the City of Steel for a week, heading out west to explore the north rim of the Grand Canyon. Itâll be your first time out of state, let alone out west. He's more excited for you than himself.
Though your loneliness has abated since the start of your sexual escapades, he knows itâs not completely disappeared. A vacation with no one else but each other to keep company will do you some good but is not a permanent solution.
An invasive thought has been rearing its ugly head as of late: knocking you up.
A more permanent solution that may solve both of your problems. Robby doesnât want you to be lonely, but he can't quit work. Heâd love to be a daddy to a fat baby, and he reasons youâd have a purpose beyond waiting for him to come home every day.
But this isnât something he can force upon you if it isnât what you want.
He trudges up the stairs. The loud sound of the soles of his feet connecting to the floorboard should alert you to his arrival, but youâve yet to make an appearance.
Odd. Even if you were packing, youâd have come out by now.
The door to your shared room is closed. Another oddity. He opens it, and the sight before him makes his insides feel like molten lava.
No... you're not packing. Youâre masturbating. Not even under the covers through your clothes, but completely naked and exposed on the bed, comforter thrown to the floor.
You whimper with eyes squeezed shut, âD-Dad⌠Dad, please, fuck me.â
You donât even realize Robby's watching you fuck yourself pathetically on three fingers.
He considers himself a lenient father. You're a good girl. Rarely does he have any trouble with you. But heâd be stupid to think you donât touch yourself when heâs gone. He's never enforced any rules saying you canât, but he never thought youâd have the gall to do it like... this.
Still, he isnât upset. Rather, this perfectly tees up the opportunity to discuss with you his solution to your problems.
He crosses his arms over his chest as he stands before you by the foot of the bed. "Whatcha doing there, pretty girl?"
You unsurprisingly gasp upon hearing him, shooting up from the bed and glaring at him while knuckle-deep in your own cunt.
âD-Dad? Youâreâyouâre home?â
Robby jerks his chin toward the clock on the nightstand.
You should know he gets home around this time. And if he were running late, he wouldâve told you ahead of time.
Heâs already learned that lesson.
âIâm usually home at this time. You know that. Now answer my question. Whatâre you doing?â
You wince as your fingers pull out of your wet, twitchy, tightâ
âIâI was justâŚâ
Robby sighs, shaking his head. âYou miss me again today? Even after ate your cunt last night? Youâre spoiled rotten, sweetheart.â
You sniffle and gather yourself up to hug your knees. Your legs fall open the slightest, and he can get a peek of his shangri-la, the eighth natural wonder of the worldâand far better than the Grand Canyonâright in between your legs.
Your essence seeps out of you onto the bed, and all Robby can think about is licking you clean.
âAre you disappointed in me?â
âNo, honey,â he coos, âin fact, this is good timing.â He pulls you closer to the edge of the bed by the ankles, and you squeal. Now leaning over you and caging you in by his arms, palms resting by the sides of your head, he asks, âWhat say you to us having a baby?â
Your eyes go wide, and he chuckles. âA-a baby?â
âYeah,â he pokes his tongue into his cheek before expanding, âthink youâd be less lonely with a little us running around. Wanna make your dad a daddy, sweetheart?â
You lungs collapse on an exhale, and you whimper, the prospect of it apparently appealing to you, which Robby is happy about, but thenâ
âB-but⌠I thought you said dads donât fuck their little girls.ââ
He cocks his head and exhales through his nose with closed eyes, âI know what I said. Dad isnât supposed to be touching you at all, remember? But weâre past that, pretty. You gonna let me fuck a baby in you or not?â
His eyes open to you nodding, a bright smile adorning your face, and he chuckles, mumbling, âGiving me lip when youâre the one who wants this as much as me.â
Robby doesn't do you the justice of stripping. You both have to sleep early tonight for your trip tomorrow, and thereâs plenty of packing and check listing to do until then.
He hooks his hands in the crooks of your knees and lifts until your legs dangle in the air, allowing him space to get between them.
Your cuteâpaid for by himâmanicured feet hang by either side of him, and he canât help but lean down and kiss each delicate arch, regretful he canât pay them any more attention. Not since your wet hole winks at him, punily stretched open on your fingers that don't compare in length to his, begging for his fat cock to fill her up.
He instructs you, âGet your dadâs cock out. Put it in that sweet pussy of yours.â
Thereâs plenty that Robby doesnât know about you still. Most mysteriously, the circumstances that brought you to him bloodied and on the brink of death all those months ago.
He stubbornly refused to pryâand you stubbornly refused to open upâbut⌠he can admit to being curious of your past as of late.
He doesnât need to know if youâre a virgin, though. He can make do with pretending you are. It doesnât matter. As far as heâs concerned, you havenât had sex if it wasnât with him.
âLetting Dad take your virginity, honey? Ohoho,â he chuckles, âyouâre bad.â
You donât confirm or deny; simply smile as you reach a hand to pull him out of his pants, then rub his length over your viscid folds to lubricate him. Your hand is wrapped around the thickest part of him as you guide him into your dewy entrance, and he slowly pushes inch by inch in.
You release a shuddering gasp as you feel Robby punch past your inner walls, stretching you to your limit. Heâs impressed you havenât scooted up the bed to run away yet and have managed to take him this far.
Heâs had partners in the past who were, frankly, too scared to allow him to stick his dick inside them. Amusing as it may be, itâs affected himâmarked special moments like these with shame and embarrassment.
Youâre truly his one and only.
Once his cock is sheathed inside you, and his cockhead is nestled comfortably against your cervix, you gift him his ninth natural wonder:
The sight of you coming untouched, moaning unabashedly, legs quaking in his grip, toes curling, death gripping the sheets, only the sheer size of his pulsing length inside of you making you reach your peak.
He coos sweetly while shifting your legs so they wrap around his waist and his hands are free to grope your tits, âMy angel, my cock feel that good inside you, huh? Who knew youâd come. So. Fucking. Easily. Itâs okay, enjoy it. âS what Iâm here for.â
Your pussy clamps down on him, sucks him impossibly deeper inside of you, and even he canât help but lose his grip a little.
You feel like fucking heaven.
"Fuckâshit. I gotta start moving, honey, or Iâm gonna come inside without having fucked you."
And he can't have that. Heâll never forgive himself if thatâs how you get pregnant. Simply dripping his seed into you without having put a little effort to fuck it into you himself.
Robby tweaks your nipples one final time, earning a whine from you, then settles his palms on the globes of your ass to ground himself but also to lift you up slightly from the bed to adjust for your height difference.
âIâm gonna start slow, okay? Iâll be gentle.â
At your slight nod of approval, Robby withdraws from your hole just so his cockhead is still stretching your lips, then eases back in until heâs to the hilt.
He repeats the process a few more times, each time easier to sink inside you than the last.
All the while, he makes sure to take note of your facial expressions, your noises, the way your pussy loosens around himâand greets Dad like heâs coming home.
âYou alright, sweetheart?â
âY-yes, Dad. Pleaseâgo f-faster.â
Robby is not one to disappoint.
He speeds his thrusts and grips your fleshy ass so harshly heâs sure heâll leave bruises, just so you donât rock up the bed.
Your hands have disappeared from where they were clutching the sheets and reappeared on his biceps, clutching the fabric of his sleeves, stretching them to their yield point.
âD-Dad⌠nghâfuckâholyâitâsâitâs too much!â
Robbyâs spine tingles with his impending orgasmâbuzzes in combination with the sound of your voice and his heavy balls slapping against the curve of your ass.
Though still fresh off your previous orgasm, Robby pays ample attention to your clit, forgoing squeezing one of your ass cheeks to blaze a trail to the swollen nub, massaging it with the pad of his coarse thumb.
You have a lapse in thinking and nearly call him by his name as your mind moves a mile a minute trying to keep up with his rough pace and his incessant rubbing.
âRobâDad⌠fuck! Pleasepleasepleaseââ
To think that someone he took in to be a father to is beneath him, asking him for his babies, drunk on lust and sober in love, is beyond what heâs ever imagined for himself.
Fuck, he loves you. And he knows he had a major part in shaping your love for him, but seeing you out there, bleeding in the snow⌠you needed someone like him to sweep you off your feet.
Every dog has its day, and that was yours.
Your dumb babbling suddenly silences, and he has to look up from where youâre connected to understand why.
Youâre biting your lip, muffling the pretty noises he likes so much. He loathes that. Itâs the last time heâll allow it.
He neglects your clit in favor of forcing his thumb into your mouth.
âStop fucking biting your lip. You need something to do with your mouth? Ask me. Thatâs what good girls do.â
Your eyes shut in pleasure as you suck on his thumb, tasting yourself on him, and he grins.
Pretty. And impossible to stay mad at.
Once youâve cleaned your juices off his thumb, he abruptly pulls it from between your lips to grip the side of your face, his huge hand encompassing your entire cheek and chin.
âIâm getting close, sweetheart. Want to hear you say it.â
He doesnât have to explain what he means.
As you clamp down on him, you squeal, âFuckâDad, please! Please come inside me! G-give me your babies!â
"Christ, sweetheart. Okay. Touch yourself. Want you to come with me."
Hearing you call him Dad, hearing you beg him for his babies, does unspeakable things to him. It hurtles him over the edgeâhis care for whatâs right and wrong long goneâand comes inside his sweet girl.
He makes sure to fill you as deeply as he can, grinding his pelvis into you so itâs more likely you take, enjoying the feel of your walls sucking him in and pumping him of all his cum.
Balls empty, he pulls out of you and lets you go after unhooking your legs from his waist and depositing your ass back onto the bed, where you soon follow with your own orgasmâafter swiping a few fingers over your twitchy, pert clit.
Robby watches in awe as you let it wash over you. You're a spasming, sweaty, gorgeous, cock-drunk mess, and he can feel his cock stirring again.
Remnant dribbles of his cum and your essence have creamed around the base of him and lead up to his glans, where his tip is ruddy and swollen.
He winces as he swipes a finger over his slit, smears the juices over your parted lips, then scoops you into his arms and flips you so youâre lying over him in bed.
Many exhausted, shared breaths laterâ
"We still gotta pack, sweetheart. Big day tomorrow."
You make a noise of complaint in the back of your throat. "I know. I'm sorry I didn't finish while you were gone. As you already know, I got distracted doing... other things. But can we just lie here for a little longer first?"
He chuckles and kisses your sweaty forehead. "Sure. Just a little longer."
For the first time in what's been a while, you fully address Robby by name, surprising him. "Robby, do you... do you actually want to have a baby together? And not just because you want to give me something to do?"
"Yeah. I do. Because I love you."
You wrap your arms tighter around his neck, shivering from the sweat drying down on your bare skin. Robby holds you closer to him.
"We could've started with a dog or something first," you joke, "but, um, a baby works too."
The corner of his lip twitches into a smirk when he feels your smile forming against his chest. "We have a whole week to make sure it happens."
You deadpan, "It's our vacation."
Robby huffs a laugh and explains, simply, "A few loads in you a day won't take away from our vacation, baby. And we can talk about getting you a pup too. I have a habit of picking up strays."