life has gotten better for me. I still have scars from what happened two years ago, I still feel fear at tumblr notifs and can’t say some words. But I’m getting better.
there is a way out. This “nom” community is built on blood and bodies, children who were abused, it was so easy to say it would never happen to me. But it did.
I have had to come to the realization that I was groomed. I was used by people I thought were friends. I was tricked into producing content that I told myself I was ok with but I wasn’t. I was raw and naked so when they ostracized me, it felt like hell. I almost died. I almost left my partner and real friends behind. All over what is really a kink that I shouldn’t have been playing with, at least not in the way I was. I thought people were safe, but they weren’t. There is no way of twisting Vore that makes it less of a fetish thing, that’s what it is. You don’t need to find it arousing to accept that it is a fetish and children shouldn’t be interacting with it. Children shouldn’t be making art and writing for adults of that content.
i survived. Im still alive, I’ve been accepted into multiple colleges, including my dream college. I don’t feel like offing myself every day, I don’t miss them anymore. Because they were predators. Maybe not on purpose, but that’s what they were. Life goes on. There’s always another thing to enjoy, a safer thing, a fandom that isn’t adults and children pretending that a kink isn’t a kink. I can draw for people who don’t use me for it, and won’t hurt me. I don’t need to do things that make me uncomfortable. I can just be comfortable now. I don’t need to be in pain. I can say “vore is a kink that I developed from being exposed to it repeatedly when I was really little, and that’s ok, if I don’t like it I will just not interact with it.”
there are people out there who won’t hurt you. There are adults that don’t see children as prey and care about them. There are fandoms that aren’t sickening and let predators form from kids and adults. You can feel safe. You can leave, you can stop pretending that this is ok, that you’re comfortable.
life moves on.
this rant gets me nothing, but I have seen people spit on you, VCW, because sometimes it’s hard to believe that there is an afterwards. Children will fight against disillusion because reality hurts at first, they are mad because you show the ugly parts. But your words do mean something, your actions have helped people.
To anyone reading, if you were hurt by the Vore community, there is an after. There is another fandom waiting for you, another group of friends who won’t use you, and real things to live for. I have no grudge against those who hurt me, I would still let them into my life, but I am more careful now, and that is ok.
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