Stefanía

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My first ever crush was the Pink Panther

My second animated crush was Mike Wazowski

I think that says a lot about me, I just don't know what it means

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La Revelación, Mexico, 1986

Yolanda Andrade

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I wanted freedom.

I don't feel regret from the things that I've done in search of my freedom.

I won't regret the stuff I've done, even my worst mistakes, because it means I was free to make them my own.

I am free and in search of what freedom feels like. I've been confused between the meaning of destruction and freedom.

They sound the same to me.

Double-edged sword.

I was locked up inside the tower; but my room wasn't upstairs, I didn't have a window to look out from and yearn.

Instead I was confined inside the merely lit dungeon, where my mind wondered and my heart coveted.

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I've been embalmed

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I like tiny knives I like big knives

I like knives that are sharp

I like knives that are dull and I can grasp

I like slim knives I like butcher knives

I like knives that have teeth

I like knives under my pillow when I sleep

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Bilb blab blib blob

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It's so disgusting, I love gross

Boring, even when I look at you up close

My little act of self destruction, because

He doesn't give me enough still I overdose

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I am on a Self-Destruction journey, because I need to feel; I need death to be reborn.

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Me vi reflejada en el exterior de este portón ⚜️

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I feel cold

And when I'm warm, it's too hot

I uncover myself to feel the breeze

But instead I sense the sharp needles in my skin

I feel cold, i freeze

And when I'm gone it's peace

My head hurts, my eyes can't focus

My blank thoughts take control

And suddenly

I can only hear the white noise my fan is making

It's not that I'm faking

Simply, I enjoy being self destructive

The need to feel something takes over me

So I don't listen, nor do I think

I'm feeling good, but I can feel better or worse

I always need more

My head is pounding and my brain tries to escape

All this thinking makes me feel great

I like to experience it

Even if it's only pain

Because after all

I once hated everything I loved

And maybe I'm wired

To forever feel this cold

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Cut down the source that keeps you alive.

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The human emotion spectrum is so complex... I don't want to ever be human again

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