stars have their moments and then they die

penpal sever ankarali

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My new book is catch-22. I've just started to read and it is already funny.

By the way, i am a PhD graduate now :))

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Which is more like a nightmare, June or Gilead?

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Wise dwarves

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And i think why wouldn't i fuck up this beautiful and sunny sunday afternoon. Then i open Spotify and search this little fucker, i find it and press play button. And that's it, i have a fucked up sunday

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Lol

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Keep writing, keep writing. Even if it's 4 in the morning just keep writing.

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Now its sixteenth week on my out-of-city duty. İt's been very a wearing, boring and depressing journey for me. My doctorate jury was a complete disease, the jury gave me a six month term to make some major improvement on my thesis. The thing is they didn't criticise my conclusion but the entry part of the thesis. That's a relief for me.

Anyway, life is boring and I am bored to death. Take care.

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It's been a long time time since i listen to this song last time.

I've been a big fan of Zoe Johnston since her faithless era. Evergreen was like my anthem. But i didn't hear about her for years and then she come up with those above and beyond guys. And it's a good thing for sure.

And about this song, it turned the meaning of alchemy upsidedown for me. The first time i hear that word was when my teacher give the renowned novel by Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist. I used to give that word an existential meaning but with this song i remember one more time that existent contains of it's own pain.

So long for now, i gotta go to work.

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It's been six weeks since i begin to sleep in hotel rooms. And this is third city I've been in. I couldn't count neither people i met nor things i should report.

It's a depressing job to find people's fault and report them. But on the plus side everywhere i go, i meet new people, i solve problems and surely the best part of this journeys is to have time to read books and listen to music.

Anyhow, now i am in a city in the east of Turkey, reading the return of the king, later i will listen the one and only diana damrau and then go for a walk.

See you later.

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Faramir said it beautifully.

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Last three months have been very hard. My director appointed me to my last year's duty again and that duty is a pain in the *ss. I have to attend dozens of meetings and go to another cities to audit very often. Almost from the start of November to the middle of February.

And my never ending doctorate, i finally hand my draft thesis to institute. So now i am waiting for they inform me about my thesis jury date.

With all this business, no wonder, I can't read, listen or watch anything. It takes almost 3 months to read The Fellowship of the Ring. And tomorrow I will start to read The Two Towers. I guess i will take another 3 months to read.

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I have say that i used to be a big fan of nick cave and the bad seeds. But since the grinderman, with every album they released, they became more and more to be a group of my earlier years, just theme of my memories.

I love this song. It's lyrics, Nick's voice and video, i love everything about this song. But especially Mick Harvey's dance makes me laugh a lot. He looks like a fish just jumps out of the sea.

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Yesterday i heard this sing again. Every single time i think about that song i reach different conclusions.

I reckon, this song may be about the confusion on a ones mind. She is glad to have a friend beside her but she couldn't help to say "still". And of course a few things too help me to think that way but i have time to write long, so, sorry for keeping short.

May be today i would listen again and i will reach a different conclusion.

I love to listen songs that make thing and every time surprise me with their hidden sentences or thoughts.

By the way, i keep working like a race horse again. I not complaining but it would be better to have a few hours to read my looong waiting books.

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I am out of my hometown for work. The city i am visiting is a big seaside city and its popular for its coast.

I am here my four colleagues and i am the head of the group. And one of my best friends is in the group too.

We have been drinking since the day we arrived and best part is we are doing our job great.

I have to say that as a person from ankara, a city without sea, drinking by the sea a great experience.

By the way, i was not drinking rakı for a long time but thanks to my buddy i started again. The best part is hangover is better than beer.

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Unfortunately i started to write my phd dissertation, again. This time will be the last time before i submit it for jury assessment. Of course there will be a correction process but i will be only on minor issues, i guess.

Its kind of funny that my adviser inform me about jury assessment the day my son started to school. So we back to school together!!!

So, while i didnt write here, i read the hobbit and i was reading the lord of the rings. But i put it away of course. After i finish jury process i will start again as a phd graduate.

Wish me luck.

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Feels like a passage from sufi literature if you focus on the mockingbird. But what about bluejays? It is so cruel that it is okey to kill a living creature if it is not pleasing you and it is sin if it is pleasing you. We humans are so hypocrite even we tell it in a very artistic way.