Jooooooo

Always a little lost 

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Go away

You have taken so much of me

Broken every part

Shattered my identity

And now I want to start

Paving a new destiny

Without you by my side

How many times did I have to tell you?

How many times did we have to part?

You won’t hear my words

You won’t respect my movements

I retract.

Stop giving me things I don’t want

Guilt, shame, lunch

I’m stronger without you

Happier without you

I question why I stayed

Get angry that you walked all over me

And that I let you

As I tip toed on eggs shells around you

You took a hammer to who I am

You smashed what I held dear

Stop blaming me

Stop telling me you’ve changed

You think you’ve given me everything

But you’ve left me with nothing

All you do is take away

I know who you are

Who you’ve always been

I don’t like you

leave me alone.

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2017

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goodbye

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remembering

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I lost you

Somewhere between a new love and a new job

I miss you

Old me,

So full of optimism

Determined to live in love, not fear

Will you return?

I have so much more to learn

From you

Where are you hiding?

All I have left is words

I have lost the feeling

You were the past

That saw the future

With a boldness of heart

A fearless belief

Slowly you faded

Overwhelmed in the present

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I miss you

Hi I miss you. I just wanted you to know that. I wonder what could have been, what it would have been like. I wish I could reach out to you, to make sense of it all. I’m sorry

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Black box

On my screen

You seem so close

Closer than in my head

I spend so much time 

Looking down 

Not around at what’s around me

Longing to be there

Longing to stay here

Tell me how must I go on?

This black box 

Between my fingers and you

Is chained to me

For you live inside of it 

All of you  And the memories  And the creativity 

I am lost without you black box

You are a pocket sized infinite universe 

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Treehouse

You made it to my treehouse.

You made it to my treehouse?

This space inside my heart

You must leave

You should not have entered

It’s not time for this to start

Get out of inside my treehouse

I’m begging you not to stay

My heart is unmapped territory 

It’s so easy for you to stray

So long I lived inside my treehouse

A space of certainty

A space for me to play

How could anybody else enter somewhere they could not see?

I wish it was him not you 

How easier it would be 

Would the space inside my treehouse

Be happier to me?

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Surveying the Queendom (at Pinnacles Summit) https://www.instagram.com/joooowyld/p/Bo-tnL5F-Qz/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=148sqrjpjr8vk

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where the sea meets the sky

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The pain that haunts my chest

Arrives fleetingly

Bring destruction to the peace

The tranquility in my mind

That which was forgotten becomes familiar again

Memories become my present

With the magic of life

Of the sea, birds and air

Of strong willed company

I heal again

3 kingfishers line my path

Lead me to the discovery

That all that is profound

Lies within

I will be a light again

I will shine

With time

And for now, I will be grateful

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Whole

Two parts, two sides

One wholesome

One that cares

Longing to be present

To be immersed in the environment, so beautiful

The other that divides

That critisises

That strives

To be seen, to be acknowledged

To make a mark

A split personality

That can’t be hidden