too old for this shit.

october 2022. emma. literally for the love of god get a handle on this shit by the time you're 18 because it only gets worse.

[da1syx0-deactivated20231102]

i am only happy when i starve

[bonelessratzz-deactivated202412]

if you’re a grown adult posting m3ansp0 ur a fkin weirdo !!

[the-poisonwoman-deactivated2023]

If your entire account is m34nsp0 I assume you're actually just some creepy old fetishist or a fucking try hard, miss me with that shit.

[sk-i-nny-ang-e-l]

Is it just me who chews food and spits it out or something

[klowningkiddo]

does anyone else who has any kind of restrictive ed not really count calories??

i didnt at first, and i started trying to do it at one point, but i realized it messed me up more than “”“helped”“” because if i went slightly over number wise id just say “oh well fuck it” and eat way too much. i feel really out of place here tbh.

[want2beless]

Let's talk about the anorexia-stereotype of doing everything perfectly

They typical anorexic is shown as the perfect, smiling student, studying the whole night, getting perfect grades, doing workout after workout and never eating

And while that may be true for some, in my experience most people are totally different from what's known as the perfect anorexic.

For me it's struggling the whole day and night, if I should eat, what I should eat.

It's struggling to even get up because your body can't take starvation anymore.

It's sleeping the whole day, because you're missing nutrients and you were kept awake by your thoughts the whole night.

It's being freezingly cold, which results in you not being able to do anything with your fingers for example writing.

It's the time consumption taking everything away from you. Your family, your hobbies, your school work.

It's binging that makes you feel like you failed as an anorexic.

Not only your organs failing but also your will to live, your energy, your grades, your hygiene, your hobbies, your friends, your family.

Stop expecting perfection from someone with an eating disorder.

[luckysluvs]

-ˋˏ ༻ED Hair Care༺ ˎˊ-

✿ hey luvlies! ✿

if you’re like me and have an eating disorder that causes you to not get enough nutrients for it to be healthy for your hair, you know it can be really stressful to witness it become damaged or fall out. Considering a part of ED’s are often being obsessive of appearance (i am very guilty of this lol) it can lead down bad paths of more stress. Here i am going to list the ways i practice ana harm reduction to keep my hair as good as i can <3

if you are in recovery i am so proud of you and you are amazing, please know this (along with the rest of my blogs content) can be triggering so if you need to scroll or leave now, no judgement, you’ve gotta care for you!

DISCLAIMER: I will just say the things listed below the cut are just my person experiences and what i’ve learned, i am not a trained professional nor do i have plans to become one. also disclaimer i am white and have naturally stick straight hair, if you have curls or a different hair texture it may be different for you! 

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[cockroachmotherfucker10]

[phoneworkstwoways]

why did i scroll through ed tumblr RIGHT AFTER i ate i stg i'm my own worse enemy

[cervicks-deactivated20141013]

not killing myself is a personal achievement but you cant really brag about that at dinner parties

[wake-and-vape]

my girlfriend has been making a lot of comments lately about feeling selfish in the bedroom because they never touch me. like no babes that’s on purpose. i don’t want you to touch me or look at me or perceive me in any way <3

[wake-and-vape]

repulsion to being touched intimately vs need for sexual validation 

unstoppable force meets immovable object

[wake-and-vape]

my girlfriend has gained some happy fat since we’ve been together and they’re the most beautiful perfect person i’ve ever seen no matter what their weight is. but i feel guilty that them gaining weight makes me feel good (like i can’t identify an exact emotion?? i’m not less self conscious. and i’m not necessarily /happy/ about it. something something maybe they will love me more if they get bigger and i get smaller?? i literally have no idea)

[gradually-dying]

cant wait to live by myself so i can starve in peace

[wake-and-vape]

hello i’m back on my bullshit

[cherubg1rl]

honestly don’t know any combo before baggy pant big shoe small top

[cockroachmotherfucker10]