[walkwithkings]

𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐆 𝐁𝐄𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐒 𝐓𝐎:

𝑹𝑰𝑪𝑲 𝑭𝑳𝑨𝑮 and reflects his deepest thoughts and emotions. This blog also provides an insight into special moments and events that accompanied and changed his life.

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[suicdesqad]

When you’re a 10/10 but your wife makes you look like a 8/10. @xcrimescenedonotcrossx

[suicdesqad]

Love is not about finding someone you can live with. It is about finding someone you cannot imagine living without. You found a place in my heart long before our little miracle found a place beneath yours. Now, with every heartbeat you carry, I am reminded that the greatest expression of our love is growing within you. You are my home, my peace, and the love of my life. And soon, we will hold in our arms the most beautiful proof that love can become something more than a feeling — it can become a life. @xcrimescenedonotcrossx

[walkwithkings]

….Everything comes to you at the right time.

I’ve started this text at least ten times by now, and deleted it every single time. Not because I can’t think of anything to say, but because I don’t know how to describe something that is bigger than words.

Since our wedding, I keep going over the same moments in my mind. It usually happens when the house has gone quiet and the children are asleep, or when I’m sitting somewhere and nothing demands my attention for a moment. That’s when I think back to those final days before the wedding — and to how much was actually going on inside both of us, even though we didn’t say it all out loud. I remember the beach so clearly, and that damn archway that nearly drove the two of you crazy. You, especially. Anyone else probably would have just seen a few flowers and a piece of wood being buffeted by the wind. I saw something completely different. I saw how much love you had poured into that day. How important every single detail was to you. How hard you tried to hold everything together, even though a storm was already raging inside you, a storm far greater than the one out over the sea.

Back then, you thought you were crying because of the hormones. Maybe that was even partly true. But I think the real reason was something else. I think you were slowly realizing what that day truly meant. That it wasn’t just a wedding. It was the end of a long journey and, at the same time, the beginning of a new chapter in life. It was the decision to place complete trust in another person and to choose love, despite all the risks. And that is exactly why I looked at you back then and fell in love with you just a little bit more. Because behind all your strength, behind your sarcasm, behind the woman who always tries to shoulder everything on her own, I saw the woman who was simply afraid to be happy. Perhaps because happiness is always something precious. Perhaps because people like us have learned that you can lose everything. Perhaps because you knew how much that day meant to me.

On the morning of our wedding, I stood by the window with Steve and Bruce, trying to act as if I were completely relaxed. Steve was teasing me, the way he always does. Bruce was trying to offer some words of wisdom. And I barely registered either of them. Because in truth, I was just waiting for the time to pass. I was waiting to see you. When the doors opened later and you appeared, I actually forgot to breathe for a moment. I know that sounds like something out of a bad romance movie, but that’s exactly how it felt. Suddenly, everything went quiet. The guests and the music faded away. And even the ocean seemed to grow quieter. There was only you. And Kate… you were beautiful. Why? Because in that moment, I could see everything you are to me. The woman who comforts our children at night and cares for everyone she loves. The woman who is stronger than she realizes — who stole my heart a long time ago and still hasn't given it back. When you started speaking and read your vows, I realized something — something I’d likely known for a long time but never truly understood. You didn’t just give me your love; you gave me your trust. And I don’t think you’ll ever fully grasp how much that means to me. Because I know your history, your fears, your walls, and the parts of you that no one else is allowed to see. Yet, you chose to let me in. There is no greater gift.

Something has changed since our wedding. Not my love for you — that was already there. What has changed is the feeling. I used to drive home because that’s where the people I love were. Now, I drive home knowing my wife is waiting for me there. And every time I think of that word, I smile — *my wife*. Not because it implies possession, but because it signifies belonging and the choice we made for each other. The fact that, in front of everyone we love, we declared: No matter what comes, we will walk this path together. And I think the most beautiful part is that I’m no longer afraid of the future. Of course, hard times will come; we’ll argue and make mistakes. But when I think about the future, I no longer see all the things that could go wrong — I see you. When I look back on my life, there are many things I’m proud of, but none of them compare to what we’ve built together.

….Because at the end of my life, it won’t matter what missions I led or what awards I received. Even my rank is irrelevant; all that will matter is that I loved you. And that I had the unimaginable good fortune of being loved in return. @xcrimescenedonotcrossx

[walkwithkings]

….Your eyes and the way you smile.

Do you know what has really hit me again over the last few days? You never left me behind. The energy you put into loving me has never faded. Do you know how unfamiliar that is to me? Whenever I love, I do it with all my heart, and every single time, I never received back what I gave. But you’re different. You’re so full of warmth that I often find myself wondering what I did to deserve you. I think I’m the proudest man on this planet because I can say that I have a woman who invests 1000% into us and never leaves me behind. I always thought that one day I would get over you after we had that time apart. But honestly? I never did. I never experienced again what you were able to give me throughout all those years. And being able to feel it once more now — this time even more intensely — is better than any jackpot in the world.

In just a few days, those 1000% will probably become a million, and that thought alone makes me melt. The thought of you becoming my wife on Saturday still makes my knees weak. Seeing our children carry your last name, becoming your Mr. Beckett — it makes me feel like I’m floating. Kate, you are and always will be the woman who enriches my life in ways I never would have dared to explore. The fact that I’m sitting here again, writing these words to you, shows just how positively you influence me. I’ve never been a master of emotional love letters, but you and your love keep inspiring me to put my feelings into words — just so you can understand how much you truly mean to me. I’d love to let these lines go on forever, but that would mean revealing everything I’ve already written into my wedding vows. And by the way, I’m going to make you cry.

….To keep it short: Thank you, Kate. Thank you for making me feel every single day what a relationship should be like — mutual.

@xcrimescenedonotcrossx

[walkwithkings]

….What‘s your favourite place?

I used to think places mattered. The truth is, they don’t — Not anymore. Because I don’t have a favourite place. I have favourite people. And wherever they are, that’s where I belong.

To my family — I’ve stood in places most people will never see. Mountains, deserts, war zones, cities on the other side of the world. I’ve watched sunsets over oceans and sunrises from helicopters thousands of feet above the ground. And yet none of those places ever stayed with me. You did. Home was never a house, never a city, never a country. It's a feeling.

It's Kate laughing at one of my terrible jokes while pretending she didn't find it funny. It's Dawn rolling her eyes at both of us because we're acting like children. It's Lily, Jack, and Reece filling a room with so much noise that silence suddenly feels wrong. It's our little girl kicking from inside her mother's belly as if she's already trying to join the conversation. It’s family movie nights. Messy breakfasts. Arguments that somehow end in laughter. It’s the sound of everyone being home.

That’s my favorite place — All of you.

Because I’ve learned something over the years: Home isn’t where you are. Home is who you can’t imagine living without. And every single one of you became my home a long time ago. So if anyone ever asks me where my favorite place is, my answer will always be the same:

….Wherever my family is. That’s where I’ll always want to be. @xcrimescenedonotcrossx

[walkwithkings]

…I don’t think there will ever be a moment in my life more terrifying and beautiful than asking you to marry me.

Terrifying because loving you means I suddenly have everything to lose. Beautiful because loving you is still the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. When I stood with you on that mountain overlooking the lake, with the wind moving through your hair and the sunset painting gold across your skin, I remember thinking one thing over and over again:

How the hell did I get this lucky?

You looked at me like I was home and something safe. And Kate nobody has ever looked at me that way before. I’ve spent most of my life surviving, fighting, running toward danger because it was easier than standing still long enough to feel anything real. Then you happened. And somehow this terrifying, stubborn, brilliant woman crashed into my life and turned every part of me upside down. You challenge me more than anyone ever has. You infuriate me. You scare me. You love me harder than I thought a human being could love another person. And somewhere between all our fights, all the chaos, all the nights spent holding each other together after life tried to tear us apart, you became the center of my world.

…Madeira changed something in me.

Not because it was beautiful — although damn, it was. Not because of the ocean or the mountains or those quiet mornings with you wrapped around me while the sun rose over the water. It changed me because for the first time in a very long time, I stopped thinking about survival. I started thinking about forever. Forever with you. I think about growing old beside you. About gray hair and wrinkles and you still pretending you’re always right. About our children making fun of us while you continue terrorizing me over walks for the next forty years. About slow mornings in kitchens that smell like coffee. About your hand still reaching for mine instinctively when we fall asleep. About every version of us that still hasn’t happened yet. And maybe that sounds insane considering the lives we’ve lived. Maybe people like us aren’t supposed to believe in peace this much. But then you look at me the way you do and suddenly I believe in everything.

You once told me that I stayed. The truth is, Kate, there was never anywhere else I wanted to be. Even when we were broken. Even when we hurt each other. Even when we lost our way. It was always you. I think part of me loved you long before I even understood what love really was. You see through every wall I have ever built. Every mask. Every lie I tell myself when I think I have to carry everything alone. And somehow — instead of running, you hold me tighter. Do you know what I realized while watching you here these past days? You are never more beautiful than when you forget to protect yourself. When you laugh without restraint. When you melt into my arms because you’re too tired to pretend you’re okay. When you let me take care of you. When you look at our daughter like she already hung the moon in the sky. I saw you terrified in that hospital bed. I saw you trying to blame yourself for everything. And all I could think was how desperately I needed both of you to stay. That moment broke something open inside me. Because I understood with terrifying clarity that if I ever lost you, there would not be a version of me left afterward that I would recognize.

You are stitched into every part of my life now. And our little girl — f*ck, Kate. Watching your hand rest on your stomach while the ocean moved behind you felt like watching my entire future breathe in front of me. I already know she’s going to have your fire, your stubbornness, your enormous heart. And selfishly? I hope she looks at me the way you do sometimes. Like I’m worth loving even at my worst. I know we’re not perfect. Hell, sometimes we’re a complete disaster. You hide things when you’re scared. I get angry too fast. We both try to carry pain alone until it nearly destroys us. But somehow we still keep finding our way back to each other. Every single time. That has to mean something bigger than luck. I don’t need perfection with you. I don’t need easy. I don’t even need peace all the time.

I just need you. Your voice in the morning, your sarcasm, your warmth in bed. The way you say my name when you’re emotional. The way you still look at me like I’m the man you chose. Because Kate… I choose you too. For every lifetime I get.

So yes, I will marry you. I will love you through every version of yourself. The fearless detective. The exhausted mother. The woman who terrifies grown men with one look. The soft-hearted girl who still misses her mother. The fiancée who clings to me in the middle of the night because she thinks I’m asleep and won’t notice. I notice everything. And I love all of it. Thank you for saying yes on that mountain. Thank you for trusting me with your heart. Thank you for making me believe I deserve a future this beautiful. You once called yourself my Gremlin. But sweetheart — you are also the best thing that has ever happened to me.

…ALWAYS @xcrimescenedonotcrossx

yours Rick

[xcrimescenedonotcrossx]

Rick, @suicdesqad

I don’t think words will ever fully describe what you are to me. And still, I want to try, because you deserve to hear it. Again and again.

You are my home.

Not New York. Not some apartment. Not this world of cases, weapons, blood, and chaos we’ve both spent far too long surviving in. You. Your arms. Your voice. The sound of your heartbeat at night when I can’t sleep and you still hold me like there’s nothing more important in this world.

Maybe that’s exactly why I love you so much.

Because you stayed.

You’ve seen the darkest parts of me. My anger. My obsession. My fear. The walls I spent years hiding behind. And still, you never stopped looking at me like I was something worth loving.

You didn’t save me, Rick.

You showed me that I was allowed to be saved.

And I know I’m not easy.

I know I argue, shut people out, work too much, and try to carry the weight of the world alone. But you… you take that weight from my shoulders piece by piece without ever making me feel weak.

You don’t love me despite my scars.

You love me with them.

Every time I wake up at night and feel your arm tighten around me, I realize all over again how lucky I am to have you. And when I see the way you look at our children with patience, warmth, and so much love …I fall for you all over again.

You are going to be an incredible husband.

And an even more incredible father to our Alien.

Maybe that’s what scares me sometimes.

Because suddenly I have something to lose.

You.

But if there’s one thing I’ve learned through all these years, it’s that love isn’t the absence of fear. Love is choosing to stay anyway.

And I will stay.

For every argument.

Every difficult night.

Every kiss at sunrise.

Every little adventure.

Every ridiculous discussion about going on walks.

I stay for us.

And when I’m old, gray, and somehow even more difficult than I already am, I hope you’ll still hold my hand and pretend you’re not hopelessly addicted to me.

I love you.

With everything I am.

And everything I still have left to become.

Your future Mrs. Beckett

[walkwithkings]

…I’ve read your letter so many times now that I could probably recite half of it from memory.

And every single time it hits me in exactly the same place. Right in the chest. You once told me that I know exactly what to say to make you melt in my hands, but the truth is nobody has ever undone me the way you do. Nobody. You see things in me that I still struggle to see myself. You call me strong, but Kate, you’re the strongest person I’ve ever known. I’ve watched you survive grief that would have destroyed other people. I’ve seen you carry pain, responsibility, fear, and still somehow wake up every morning ready to protect everyone around you. Even when nobody protected you. And maybe that’s why I can never stop loving you. Because underneath all that fire, all that stubbornness and chaos, there’s the most beautiful heart I’ve ever touched.

You love with everything you have. Even when it terrifies you. Even when it hurts. Especially then.

I know you think your scars make you difficult to love sometimes. But they don’t. They tell the story of every battle you survived. Every moment that tried to break you and failed. And God, Kate — I am so unbelievably proud of you. Not because you’re perfect. Not because you always make the right choices. But because you keep trying. You keep fighting. You keep loving.

Do you know what my favorite part of every day is? It’s never the big moments. Not the missions. Not the adrenaline. Not even the victories. It’s the small things. The way you steal my shirts and pretend they’re yours now. The way you roll your eyes before kissing me anyway. The way you instinctively reach for my hand without even thinking about it. The way you curl into me at night like your body already decided years ago where home was. And seeing you become a mother again, seeing the way you already protect our little girl before she’s even here yet. I don’t think I’ll ever recover from how much I love you for that. You once wrote that I showed you that you were allowed to be saved. But sweetheart — you saved me too. You gave me something I never thought I deserved: A family. A future. A reason to come home. And no matter how chaotic life gets, no matter how many arguments we survive or how many times you threaten me over walks. I will stay. For every version of you. The fearless detective. The exhausted woman who overworks herself. The terrifyingly stubborn fiancée. The mother of our children. The woman who kisses me like she’s trying to memorize my soul.

All of you.

…I love you more than words are built to carry.

[walkwithkings]

Your eyes… I lose myself in them every single time. That warm hazel brown has something incredibly calming and fascinating about it – as if the sun and earth were merging within them. When you look at me, there's a warmth in them that reaches me instantly, without a word. Sometimes your eyes sparkle playfully, almost mischievously, as if you know exactly how much you throw me off balance. And then again, they're soft and deep, full of feeling, so that I feel you could see right into me. I love your eyes more than I could ever put into words. They are my home. @xcrimescenedonotcrossx

[walkwithkings]

…Today marks three years. Three years of "us."

And when I try to put it all into words, I realize that even the longest sentences aren't enough to describe what I feel for you. I still remember the beginning so clearly. That cautious getting-to-know-you phase, that feeling of each other's tentative steps — and at the same time, that feeling that there was something there, something bigger than the two of us. Something unstoppable. And that's exactly how it's developed: step by step, day by day, we've grown. Not just as a couple, but as a team. As a family. Three years full of highs and lows. And yes, there have been both. Moments when everything was easy, when we simply laughed as if there were nothing else in the world. But also days when it was difficult. Days that challenged us. Yet it was precisely these lows that showed us what we truly are: unshakable. We never drifted apart — we've only grown closer.

When I look at you, I don't just see the woman I love. I see the mother of our four children, who holds everything together every day with so much strength, patience, and love. I see the woman who, as a captain in the homicide division, makes decisions that demand courage. And at the same time, I see the one who understands me like no other person. And then there are the two of us — partners in crime, in the truest sense of the word. You on your side, me on mine. You bring justice to the world, I defend it. Two lives that seem so different, yet intertwine perfectly. We both fight — just in different ways. But in the end, we always come back to each other. Home. Our home… it's more than just the properties we've built. It's the rooms full of life, full of voices, full of chaos and love. It's our dogs who greet us every day as if we were the most important people in the world. It's that feeling of "arriving," no matter how hard the day has been.

…And right in the middle of it all: you.

You are my anchor and my greatest motivation. You are the one who understands me even when I don't say a word. The one who catches me when I fall. The one who makes me laugh when I've forgotten how. I don't just love what we have. I love who we are. This deep trust, this natural connection between us. This knowledge that no matter what happens – we'll get through it. Together. Three years have passed. And yet it feels like we've only just begun. At the same time, I can't imagine a life where you haven't always been a part of it. Kate, you are my home. Not the houses, not the places – you. And if I wish for anything for the coming years, it's only this: that we continue exactly like this. Honestly. Strongly. Connected. And always side by side.

…I love you - @xcrimescenedonotcrossx

More than words could ever describe,

Yours Rick

[walkwithkings]

It's been quite a while since I last posted… the last few weeks have been very intense for me and marked by disappointments. I don't want to go into detail, because this isn't the kind of post I want to write about. I don't need a big stage to deal with that. I've always been able to handle that privately. I spent the last few days in a special place. A place that has always brought me a certain peace and relaxation.

The Hamptons are a place where I can let go. Recharge my batteries, which I've been lacking lately. I learned a lot about myself and found my way back to myself. My isolation and lack of interest in everything are buried. It feels good to get back on my feet and find my way back to my old self. Now there's only one battle left that I'm going to take on, and I'm prepared for it and making very good progress so far. 2026 will be my year, and the Hamptons my place of origin. Of hope and self-discovery. I'll enjoy a few more days before the harsh realities of everyday life begin again and the next deployments test my mental strength.

At this point, I also want to thank the people who are always by my side and who make this new experience and my journey of self-discovery possible. They help me, listen to me, and show me why this path is worth taking. You were and are people I could never do without. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the hours you have invested in me and for accompanying me on my journey! { @xcrimescenedonotcrossx @xamericanspyx @autor-x @xxthe-dark-knightxx @femmefatle }

[walkwithkings]

…the first time I met you, I had no damn idea I‘d love you this much.

And that's exactly how it was. I really had no idea how much I would love and appreciate you. Nor did I have any idea where we would be a year later. That's right, one year later we are no longer you and me, but us. And it was by far the most intense and beautiful year I have ever had. I couldn't have imagined a better companion than you. You are not only the most beautiful, but also the most intelligent and smartest woman who has ever appeared in my life. I have never felt such intense love. Your love is one of a kind. And baby, you have no idea how deep my feelings for you are. I don't even have an exact idea how you did it all. I could feel the feeling of being wooed before you, but you took that feeling to a new level. I feel like you are planting me, renewed day by day, in a soft bed of unconditional love and watering me with it every day. It's crazy what one person can do to you. I always thought happiness was an invention of the media to encourage us to buy more and feel good, but with you by my side, the word happiness has been redefined.

I think the word was taken to the next level when you took on the role of mother to Dawn, which you do very lovingly. I always thought that a woman who was perfect with a gun didn't look good with children, but you've changed my perspective. You give her so much acceptance and love, I couldn't have imagined a better mother for her. The same goes for Lily, of course. Do you know that my favorite thing about you is your sarcasm? The way you make fun of me? I don't think I've ever dealt with a funnier person than you. I have no idea how, but you manage to make me laugh within seconds. But it's not just the funny moments that I enjoy with you, but also the moments when we talk side by side about deep topics. Offering each other the opportunity to look into our souls and be there for each other. The many facets that our conversations take on. Sometimes I think I'm in a dream that I'm afraid to wake up from, because it could mean that none of this was reality.

Kate, I can't tell you often enough that I love you and will do everything I can to make sure we are forever us. Because only with you by my side am I complete. @xcrimescenedonotcrossx

ALWAYS

[xcrimescenedonotcrossx]

𝑀𝒴 𝒮𝒪𝑀𝐸𝒪𝒩𝐸… <3

There comes a time in life where you come across a person that is a deep breath personified.

… 𝒮𝒪𝑀𝐸𝒪𝒩𝐸 who knows what

you‘re thinking simply by the look in your eyes.

… 𝒮𝒪𝑀𝐸𝒪𝒩𝐸 you can laugh until you cry with.

… 𝒮𝒪𝑀𝐸𝒪𝒩𝐸 you can pour your heart out to and you know they‘ll hold it gently and without judgement.

… 𝒮𝒪𝑀𝐸𝒪𝒩𝐸 who knows how to melt away your stress.

… 𝒮𝒪𝑀𝐸𝒪𝒩𝐸 who challenges you yet handles you with care.

… 𝒮𝒪𝑀𝐸𝒪𝒩𝐸 who reminds you of your strength at your weakest points and you believe them.

… 𝒮𝒪𝑀𝐸𝒪𝒩𝐸 who celebrates you and sings your praises, even when you’re not around.

… 𝒮𝒪𝑀𝐸𝒪𝒩𝐸 who softens your heart when things get tough, but you would go to war for you in a heartbeat.

… 𝒮𝒪𝑀𝐸𝒪𝒩𝐸 who you can share your storys with, deepening your connection with every page.

… 𝒮𝒪𝑀𝐸𝒪𝒩𝐸 who would never allow you to settle because their faith in you is unwavering.

… 𝒮𝒪𝑀𝐸𝒪𝒩𝐸 you feel you’ve known in a past life and that you‘d find in every lifetime.

… 𝒮𝒪𝑀𝐸𝒪𝒩𝐸 you could spend your entire life thanking and it would never be enough.

Thank you for being my 𝒮𝒪𝑀𝐸𝒪𝒩𝐸. My safe space on human form. Thank you for the last 12 months. 𝐴𝐿𝑊𝐴𝑌𝑆.

[walkwithkings]

Love of my life, uff.

[walkwithkings]

…the first time I met you, I had no damn idea I‘d love you this much.

And that's exactly how it was. I really had no idea how much I would love and appreciate you. Nor did I have any idea where we would be a year later. That's right, one year later we are no longer you and me, but us. And it was by far the most intense and beautiful year I have ever had. I couldn't have imagined a better companion than you. You are not only the most beautiful, but also the most intelligent and smartest woman who has ever appeared in my life. I have never felt such intense love. Your love is one of a kind. And baby, you have no idea how deep my feelings for you are. I don't even have an exact idea how you did it all. I could feel the feeling of being wooed before you, but you took that feeling to a new level. I feel like you are planting me, renewed day by day, in a soft bed of unconditional love and watering me with it every day. It's crazy what one person can do to you. I always thought happiness was an invention of the media to encourage us to buy more and feel good, but with you by my side, the word happiness has been redefined.

I think the word was taken to the next level when you took on the role of mother to Dawn, which you do very lovingly. I always thought that a woman who was perfect with a gun didn't look good with children, but you've changed my perspective. You give her so much acceptance and love, I couldn't have imagined a better mother for her. The same goes for Lily, of course. Do you know that my favorite thing about you is your sarcasm? The way you make fun of me? I don't think I've ever dealt with a funnier person than you. I have no idea how, but you manage to make me laugh within seconds. But it's not just the funny moments that I enjoy with you, but also the moments when we talk side by side about deep topics. Offering each other the opportunity to look into our souls and be there for each other. The many facets that our conversations take on. Sometimes I think I'm in a dream that I'm afraid to wake up from, because it could mean that none of this was reality.

Kate, I can't tell you often enough that I love you and will do everything I can to make sure we are forever us. Because only with you by my side am I complete. @xcrimescenedonotcrossx

ALWAYS

[suicdesqad]

The day I met you, I had no idea this would be how it would turn out. I felt that something would happen but didn‘t know I was going to fall this deep in love with you…as time progressed and liked turned to love, I knew I could give my heart to you. Everything about you makes me feel the most comfortable I‘ve ever been. Not just your presence but your actions, your words…the way you make me feel. The way you inspire others. The way you treat those around you. There is nobody better than you…I can try…but still can‘t be any better than you. The way you laugh, the way you look, your personality, the way you try to look away quickly, our amazingly fun times… I can honestly say that there is nobody in this world, and ya a mighty big one… but there is nobody else that I would want in my life other than you…and can say this with all my heart and soul into it, that I do truly love you.

𝝠𝗟𝗪𝝠𝗬𝗦, @xcrimescenedonotcrossx

[xcrimescenedonotcrossx]

I wish I could explain how wonderful you are, Rick. How I could look into your eyes and never get tired of their beauty. How the sound of your voice gives me butterflies. How seeing you walk into a room makes me smile. How much you mean to me. And how much I love you. But you have me at a loss for words. And even if I could find the words to tell you these things, it wouldn‘t come anywhere near to showing how much you mean to me.

ALWAYS <3

[walkwithkings]

𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐘 𝐁𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐇𝐃𝐀𝐘 𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐍𝐔𝐓…

Hey Sweetgirl, hard to believe I'm about to say the following. Today is your third birthday. Wow, I can't believe how quickly you've grown so much. It seems like yesterday when we were in the hospital and you were born and look at you now. You are so incredibly beautiful, so intelligent and inquisitive. And at the same time loving and grateful. I don't really know that you've grown into this amazing little girl. Ten more years and you'll probably find me terribly embarrassing. However, I will always stay by your side and protect you from everything I can.

I've been thinking about what I could give you. The thousandth toy? No, I know how much you like flowers, so I'd rather give you a sea from this tavern and a day full of adventures with Mommy and Daddy. One of the things I also love about you. You appreciate the little things in life. The adventures as a pirate princess, as a little Amazon at Asteria's side and working on a tree house in the garden with your old dad. One day it will be finished and become your little retreat. I will look at this treehouse in twenty years and associate it with endless memories. I hope we can give you the best day of your life so far.

𝑊𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑃𝑒𝑎𝑛𝑢𝑡,

𝑀𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦 & 𝐷𝑎𝑑𝑑𝑦

[suicdesqad]

All my happiness summarized in three pictures. I have to pinch myself daily because I still can't believe I'm not living in a dream. I can't tell you often enough how much I love you and how happy I am to call you my family. You make my life worth living. You are my greatest treasure and my greatest adventure. Thank you for allowing me to experience every day with you. I love you with every fiber of my being. @xcrimescenedonotcrossx

[walkwithkings]

𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐎 𝐍𝐄𝐄𝐃𝐒 𝐀 𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐊𝐈𝐂𝐊!

It was July 24, 2024, around 8:00 a.m. — I was in a doctor's office in the middle of New York. Unusual for me, as I should already be at headquarters at this time. Nevertheless, I was here with my fiancée. A young woman called out the last name of my companion, and her voice still echoes through my head today: "Mrs. Beckett Dr. Faser is waiting for you in treatment room 3." As soon as I entered the room, I realized that this moment was completely real. "Then let's see if you'll soon become parents," said the older man as a greeting. I felt these words were inappropriate, but perhaps he wanted to keep the tension as short as possible in order to congratulate us. Could he do that? Congratulate us? I still remember the uncertainty that arose in me when Dr. Faser applied the contact gel to Kate's slightly domed belly. And then it happened, the absolutely unbelievable — your tiny heart was beating and resounding throughout the room. A feeling was brewing in the pit of my stomach that I can hardly describe. I knew this moment from Dawn, but experiencing it again was just incredibly intense. Kate's eyes and mine met and I thought I saw a lake of tears in them. I had never seen so much happiness in her eyes. Until today...

It is now January 2nd, 2025, around 11:30 p.m. We have had a few crazy hours. Sleepless hours... almost 30 hours to be exact. We are tired and exhausted, especially Kate. But she fought to be able to greet you. The sight of you in your mother's arms is a gift. I am even slightly jealous that our physical contact has only consisted of tiny touches so far. You have a very unique smell that I already enjoy and don't want to miss anymore. The barely audible sounds from your thin lips fill me with happiness. I have tried countless times to imagine what you look like and all my ideas were wrong, because you are even more perfect than I previously thought. I can hardly wait to tell Dawn about you and to bring you together... but there's still time, because now the moment as a threesome is what counts. And then suddenly the time had come. The midwife gave the signal that the umbilical cord had finished bleeding and I was able to cut the umbilical cord and hold you in my arms for the first time a few moments later. There you were: 𝐋𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐍 𝐀𝐔𝐑𝐎𝐑𝐀 𝐅𝐋𝐀𝐆. You burned into my heart and I decided never to let you go again. The scales showed your weight; 𝟑𝟏𝟒𝟎 𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐌𝐒. The measuring tape clung to your tiny body and announced your height; 𝟓𝟑 𝐂𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒 — You are perfect. | @xcrimescenedonotcrossx