Cheer up, Cherub!

David. 21. Proud single parent. Male-presenting non-binary hybrid. Grey asexual. Ex self-harmer. Fucked up, socially anxious, but also quite happy.

[walkwithmedownrubybeach]

Within these edges I hold you. The memories of blood fill my mouth and I can't say a word. But I hold you anyway.

[walkwithmedownrubybeach]

So sad and my eyes go dead. So red, so empty, so red. You smile, I chase my tail. You laugh like hell, but I don't.

Nightingale - Low.

[walkwithmedownrubybeach]

Finally it had found me. The answer, the feeling, and the truth: that I'm small, that I'm small, that I'm small. I'm smaller than the smallest fireball.

Stairs to the Attic - The Antlers.

[walkwithmedownrubybeach]

And the light, it burns your skin, in a language you don't understand.

Two-step - Low

[walkwithmedownrubybeach]

Are you a lion or a lamb? Are you as guilty as I am?

Lion/Lamb - Low

[walkwithmedownrubybeach]

I would be your King. But you want to be free. Confusion and art. I'm nothing but heart.

Nothing But Heart - Low.

[inkskinned]

Can I tell you a secret? You don’t have to be in a relationship.    I mean it. I know they force it down your throat until you choke on it. Girls aren’t pretty unless they’re wanted. Boys aren’t men unless they’re having sex with someone. People aren’t lovable until they’re dating someone.    But a relationship won’t always make you happy, and as wonderful as romance is, it isn’t the only love that exists. I have seen friendships that are deeper and more pure than couples who swear it’s forever - and yet the friendship is the one people ignore.    I have heard so often “nobody loves me” out of the mouths of people who are single. And it kills me because if you ask them: where are your parents, your teachers, your classmates, your pets - they say, yes, okay, but it doesn’t count. Of course it counts, love doesn’t diminish just because someone doesn’t want to have sex with you. In fact, doesn’t it sort of make that love more real that they want nothing - not even a date - out of you?   It is pretty to be in love. It’s magical, I’m sure. But it’s also wonderful to stop for ice cream in your prom dress with six other girls. It’s also wonderful to go visit the world with nothing but a bunch of buddies who are really excited about learning.    The problem is: we’ve made everything about “the one”. But maybe “the one” is just you, loving yourself, having fun, and being happy. Maybe instead of looking for our other halves, we should be piecing ourselves together.   Maybe I wasn’t born unfinished. Maybe I am the one who makes myself better.

Single serving size // r.i.d (via inkskinned)

[thecorduroyhouse]

little nova was born yesterday. he has lots of tiny little forehead wrinkles which show when he’s getting restless, and he is so expressive. his little face shows all. I just can’t imagine this. this is real. this little beautiful sweetheart is a person and before we know it he will grow into taller bodies.

[walkwithmedownrubybeach]

my baaaaaaaabyyyyy :)

[walkwithmedownrubybeach]

Today I am 2 years self harm free and it feels all that much sweeter with my five day old baby in my arms. :)

[walkwithmedownrubybeach]

I’M MEETING MY SON IN FOUR DAYS!

I can’t think about anything else. I’m going insane. Help.

[thetwopieceproject]

Make it happen. Shock everyone.

(via stability)

[skullxcrusher-deactivated201501]

nostalgia is a liar. nothing was ever as good as you remember it to be. there’s a reason you don’t talk to that person anymore, there’s a reason you’re not part of each other’s lives. don’t trust nostalgia. grieve. reflect. move on.

[walkwithmedownrubybeach]

And if the world is falling down then it may as well crash with me.

Natural One - The Folk Implosion.

[walkwithmedownrubybeach]

Baby hiccups in the womb.

Usually when I get hiccups, it’s due to eating bread. I just ate two pieces of toast and now my baby is hiccuping inside me. He’s already got some of my bad habits, poor thing. :)

[observando]

How can I accept a limited definable self, when I feel, in me, all possibilities?

Anaïs Nin (via observando)

[walkwithmedownrubybeach]

Sing out at me. See right through me. Send those dangerous things to me.

Tattoo - Wye Oak.

[finding-n1rvana]

[beautifullyhiddenscars]

Me as a Mother.. because coffee is life 😅😙