Returning to Stardew
I wanted to write a quick message so everyone in the SV community knows where I am right now (ergo, I haven’t fallen off the edge of the Earth).
Over the past few months I have been ghosting in the background of Tumblr, truly humbled by the amount of likes and reblogs my old posts have been receiving, despite my being completely inactive for half a year now. Rest assured, everyone, I’ve noticed how many of you have liked and reblogged my tool set, my Japanese-style cooking recipes and the purple palette for the Starry Sky Interface. Reading between the lines, it’s obvious that some of you still really want these mods to be released. It makes me incredibly happy knowing that my mod ideas resonate with others and may help make your games more enjoyable, or even rekindle your love of Stardew Valley altogether.
So that’s why I should come clean...
When I took my hiatus over the laptop crash, it was probably much more about my spiralling depression than I would have liked to admit at the time. I’ve struggled with depression for many years, and at the time I was feeling lonely and anxious, surviving Christmas-time all by myself in Japan, with family and close friends thousands of miles away in the UK. Essentially, the laptop crash destroyed what little motivation I had left at the time for modding. I realise now that I was pushing myself, desperate to finish mods because I wanted to give back to you amazing people, and while I had good motives, I was trying to fit too much on my plate. And it was taking its toll on my health. But I went home to the UK not long afterwards. I recharged my batteries, indulged in some much-needed TLC, and returned to Japan with a vengeance. I am now feeling much better, much lighter - much more myself.
So I ask that you all just be a little more patient with me. Just give me a little more time.
I really doubt I’ll have much time at all to mod for the rest of my time in Japan. next month I will be taking on a role as an English teacher, so the stakes will be higher and it will be a huge learning curve for me. But I’ll be homeward-bound in September. And after that I promise -
- I promise you all -
- I will get back on the modding horse with that same desire for revenge I had against the challenge of living halfway across the world from everything I’ve ever known. By nature I am a perfectionist. I don’t like to be beaten. And I certainly don’t like to leave things unfinished.
At the very least, the three mods I promised will be completed for all my fans to enjoy. I promise you that.
As always, I love you. Thank you for everything ♡
See you again soon...
