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darcy disabled anarchist dyke studying english and archival science

24, they/fae, intersex nonbinary femme lesbian, white (irish + indigenous + ukr jewish)

interests: twin peaks, yellowjackets, buffy, iwtv, goth media, historical media, folklore, vintage dolls and toys, queer history, goth/rock/punk music, plants, symbolism and meanings

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dni: zionists and terfs

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hey don’t check ur mailbox today i put anthrax in it sorry i regret it now i’m learning to not act on my impulses

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My bedroom windows after a summer storm

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i feel like lately my life is actually mine and it’s such a foreign and pleasant feeling. i live in a pretty apartment in a queer neighborhood with plants and antique wooden furniture. i get hand-delivered bouquets and independent publications. i spend my spare time hiking and handbuilding and sewing and writing and scanning lesbian media. i have a lot of friends who i love and who are so smart and kind and we plan accessible lesbian events together. i volunteer at an anarchist infoshop where i manage mutual aid initiatives. i’m in a dbt group, have a private therapist, a suicide prevention counsellor, and my bpd has been in remission for almost a year now and i’ve had my medication adjusted. also what feels especially strange and especially nice is i feel like i have a tangible identity and sense of self, and though my bpd is in remission an unstable identity has always been a big symptom for me, so it’s really strange to feel like i am actually myself and that i know who i am.

#yay!#mine

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idk if it’s the mental illness but sharing literally any information feels like oversharing. i’ll be like “i skipped breakfast this morning” and immediately im like “i might as well have told them where i buried the money”

i have a very strong love for academia and though i still have three years of school left (1 year undergrad english degree, 2 years archival/library masters) i’m thinking about taking some time off. especially since it is just the one year of undergrad left and i wouldn’t want to go straight into my masters anyways.

i’ve already taken so long to complete my bachelors because i’ve been doing part-time classes so i can work, but i feel like it literally is sucking my soul out and like i don’t engage in hobbies or interests when i’m in class and i’m just stressed all the time. maybe it’s burn out. i also have been having increasingly serious health issues the past few years that have been effecting my work, and it’ll be at least a few months of treatment before there’s even a bit of an improvement. i know my masters will feel so much more fulfilling, but i’m dreading more undergrad, and i also got myself into a fucked up situation with student loans so there’s that.

i’d like to be able to breathe and travel and work on pottery for a bit, and i won’t get a chance to do that this summer. and it’s not like i don’t have an adult job right now, the place i’m at pays poorly but i’m choosing to stay there for complicated reasons, my field pays well and has benefits and stability etc. i could stay in my field for the rest of my life, a lot of people do, but i think the industry is predatory and i know i’ll be bored of it eventually.

#also like worst case scenario if i can’t beg for studentaid bc to take me back #tuition is only like 1500 a semester so i can just work my ass off for a bit #just a lot going on #mine