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“you can’t keep blaming how you act on other people. you’re not eighteen anymore.” michael comments suggestively, throwing a small shrug after his words. as much as he knew that contradicting her was a lost fight and a complete waste of time, he couldn’t simply wave the white flag and give up completely. watching matty sleeping soundly, he smiled softly when the tiny hand wrapped around one of his fingers, gazing over his son with a heart filled with love. if nothing good was to ever come out of that relationship aside from that small creature right there, he couldn’t complain much, not really. “frozen pizza.” he repeats, eyes rolling inwardly. their private chef was definitely dearly missed. “i’d love a hot pocket with it.” he agrees then, but taps down on her side of the bed. “c’mere. we can eat later.”

“i just don’t want them anywhere near our child.” ava scoffed. despite the fact that she tried her best with her role as a mother, it was no lie that she knew she wasn’t perfect. however, she would never trust her parents with their son. a soft smile showed on her face at the scene, their son was the only person in the world that mattered to her more than anything. seeing their family at peace was rare, but the moment was not one she wanted to ruin, so she decided to drop their argument. rolling her eyes, she unfolded her arms, laying slowly on the bed. “you know, techncally the pizza and the hot pocket are the same thing” she giggled, head resting on his shoulder, eyes gazing at their baby boy “he’s perfect, isn’t he?” she sighed “we’ll get out of this one soon enough”

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the stocks falling down the hill, along with the company’s name, was a worry of the past whenever he’d have his son in his arms. ava’s endless complaints went in one ear and sped right out through the other. after being for that long together and with actual worries taking priority in his brain, he couldn’t care less what she had to say, as long as their son was healthy and being cared of. “how about we call your parents instead?” he retorts right back, another fake smile pulled by the ends of his lips. michael could never be the sort of person to throw his issues on someone else’s shoulders and much else when he didn’t see a reason for it. sure, things were more complicated without staff around, but their son was their responsibility and no one else’s. “too bad mommy’s hobbies don’t pay the bills.” he said in a whisper-like manner, rocking the baby back and forth sleeping soundly in his arms. “what’s for dinner?” he asked, fully aware that she’d skip on whatever task that held zero interest for herself. calmly, he put matty down on the bed and laid right next to him.

ava’s brow furrowed at the mention of her parents. as if she’d ever let them anywhere near her son. while they’re relationship was cordial at best, ava would never forgive them for starting what would be her downfall. she vowed that she’d never ever treat matty the same way they had treated her and quite fairly, she was wary of every moment they spent with her son. “because they raised me and look how i turned out.” she replied cheekily “and we both know how much you hate me” ava scoffed, eyes staring at their baby boy as he was being laid down. her eyes grow wide for a minute, she had forgotten to cook dinner and knew well that this would probably start another argument. “frozen pizza” she rolled her eyes, arms crossing in front of her chest  “would the king like a hot pocket with it?” she retorted sarcastically, raising one brow as she stared back at the male. 

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michael couldn’t care less about what she decided to do with her free time, as long as their baby boy was cared for when he’d be stuck at work. lately, unfortunately, that had to happen more often than not. the long nights at his office were a big part of the reason why he’d be on his laptop and his head elsewhere rather than being totally present with his family, but not saving the company wasn’t an option. it was his job and he refused to fail. that, however, didn’t mean that he wanted to fail as a husband either, much less as a father, despite the fact that ava’s voice rang even more annoyingly louder in his head now. “you could study and work and matty would be taken care of. yes, your paycheck would burn up in flames but at least you’d be able to attend classes by yourself. that’s all.” he attempts to reason. unsurprisingly, she saw the world in one way and refused to accept any other possibilities, but that didn’t mean that he was ready to give in, not yet. “he’s growing. of course he’s hungry all the time.” his lips curled upwards with a small, carefully holding matty in his embrace, rocking him up and down gently. “if he’s going to be anything like me, he needs it to grow. we might have a future nba star right under our roof.” he says playfully, placing the bottle to his son’s mouth, the silence reaching his ears right away. “at least daddy does something with his life.” he muttered and flashed a forced smile at ava.

ava didn’t mind home alone when he was away, specially when the nannies would do the heavy work regarding matty and her husband was bringing money home. but now? her nights were anything but fun and ideal. it was a good thing that ava didn’t speak to her parents, she was sure they would complain about the current situation if she even dared to call them. asides from meeting them once soon after matty’s birth to introduce them to their grandson, that was all she had seen of them in months. “i don’t mind having matty there” she murmured, her anger laced in her words. of course she minded, but she’d be dead before giving in to michael. “why can’t your parents just watch him for the day?? not like they have better things to do.” she smiled sarcastically. “or a model. if he’s anything like me he’ll be on the fashion week runways in london, paris, milan and new york” ava retorted, hands caressing matty’s head softly. “mommy wouldn’t mind if daddy was at least succesful when it came to that” she replied before faking a smile right back at him. while it was true that she was bothered by their current troubles, ava did enjoy pushing michael’s buttons. for someone who spent most of her days alone, she found annoying him to be the highlight. 

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michael’s sole reaction to her overreaction was a loud scoff, eyes rolling inwardly after gazing towards the cardboard boxes for about a second. classes that she’d eventually give up on? more and more, from his perspective, it seemed like she’d only stick by something when it was difficult and seemingly worthwhile and perhaps, paying for the fees herself, would fit the right criteria. hefty pocket filled with pocket or not, he’d probably jump out at the given choice of paying for a degree that she’d most likely not see through, anyway. “yeah, because working as a barista worked so damn well for you last time.” he muttered. “all i’m saying is that if you did have a job, you could pay for a babysitter that you so apparently need.” it was absurd that he had agreed to a nanny in the first place, with how much time ava actually spent procrastinating. the sudden change and the surprise of it all, perhaps partly that was on him for feeding into her spoiled ways. “what’s there to focus on? i’d rather work than fight with you when matty is sleeping.” his gaze drifted to the blonde, only then realizing that she had their baby boy in her arms. finally, he closed down the laptop, threw it to the side and climbed down the bed. “give him to me. you can keep doing… whatever it is that you’re doing.”

ava’s determination to get a degree would change like the seasons, sometimes she’d finish the semester and return, other times she’d claim she needed a break. essentially, she just saw it as a hobby, something she didn’t need. but now, she realized that perhaps it would be useful to have something to fall back on if they didn’t get out of the mess they were in. “so, i’m supposed to work and leave our baby with a babysitter? when i can just stay home with him instead? most of my paycheck would go to the sitter anyway. what’s the point?” ava questioned, her eyes rolling. it wasn’t a lie that she’d leave most of the hard work like changing and putting matty to sleep to the nanny, but she has always cared for their child. “i refuse to let us become one of those families that just work and ignore the kids. matty needs at least one parent at home. i swear the boy is never full, i fed him before you got home.” she patted the baby gently on his back, trying to calm down his cries “i think he’s probably hungry.” she carefully handed him over, reaching for the milk bottle on their night stand “see, now you’re doing family stuff, as you should.” she rolled her eyes, passing the bottle to the male, eyes gazing at their kid “your daddy’s a workaholic, isn’t he?”

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“it’s funny, but a big part of this country lives on without a nanny caring for their children 24/7. let’s see, what’s more important… the work that provides us a roof over our heads, or some classes that you’ll eventually drop out of… yeah, that’s a tricky one.” michael’s sarcasm drips out with every single syllable. sadly, with how long the pair has been together, it was almost like a second nature to be ready to fight back with whatever idiotic issue she could come up with. granted, their present wasn’t one that he had ever imagined but nothing that their family couldn’t endure, as long as she worked alongside him. “it’s too bad that you won’t be able to make it… unless you want to take matty with you.” he said with a forced smile. one thing was taking a pretty calm baby to classes, but another thing was being under the spotlight, quite literally. “no. i’m suggesting that you could have a job by now, if you cared about anything else aside from your own selfish needs.” he scoffs, reaching for the water bottle on the nightstand and drinking a large gulp. “are we done talking? i need to finish this.”

“oh right! the job that keeps a roof over our heads, the same job you can’t do right clearly as we’re close to not even fucking having a roof.” she gestured towards the five boxes filled to the brim with her designer dresses “the job that can’t pay my classes either, apparently.” ava’s irritation grew bigger by the second. it was bad enough that she was thrown all these new responsibilities, but now she had found herself growing farther apart from her new friends. she knew that the moms she had made friends with were no more than just trophy wives who’d spend their days shopping and taking pictures of their kids for instagram, something that she missed dearly. truly, she didn’t know how easy she had it until now. “guess i won’t make it then.” she rolled her eyes, knowing full well that it’d be near impossible to keep matty from crying all evening, specially with the bright lights and loud music. she didn’t want to make a scene in front of the cameras. “yeah let me go and apply for a job as a barista, ask them if i can bring my one year old kid with me to work. because a minimum wage job in customer service is clearly the best environment for matty.” she said sarcastically, standing up from the bed when she heard a soft cry from the child. she rushed to the baby boy, picking him up and rocking him to keep him calm “finish what? can’t you leave your job at the office and focus on your family at home.”

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a single incident was enough to send a successful company down the drain, especially when the power duplicated with the emerge of their family’s companies. for the most part, it wasn’t a hassle, but soon things turned upside down. no matter how much he wanted to blame another person, the responsibility fell on his shoulders and safe to say, he was more than concerned. ava speaking about what she barely knew about was just another annoyance and quite frankly, his patience was wearing thin but with their baby boy sleeping soundly by them, he knew better than to let himself burst out of nowhere. michael breathed in and out heavily, before finally letting his gaze drift back towards the blonde. “the house is fine. we are fine.” perhaps not comfortably fine, but fine nonetheless. considering all the craziness that was going on around in the world, it rang hypocritical in his head to complain about their uncertain issues. nothing was set in stone, at least not yet. “every week is fashion week, ava. besides, you should use that week to study instead of being distracted by whatever clothing companies come up with it now.” his eyes rolled inwardly, returning his attention to the laptop. “if you used your time more mannerly, then perhaps you could help paying the bills by now.”

despite the fact that she had been trying her best to not explode at her husband and turn this into a screaming match, again, ava couldn’t hide her frustration. in the past weeks she had learned how to do all the chores in the household, while attending classes with a baby in her lap and the thought of this being her new life was driving her insane. “are we fine, though? last time i checked, the nanny  charged too much so i have to take matty to classes with me. i don’t see you taking him to the office.” ava whisper-shouted before rolling her eyes. she loved her son more than anything in the world, but trying to focus on lectures while making sure he was attended to and ignoring the gazes of people was not easy. “not every week is fashion week new york, though. jesus, michael, where’s your cultural knowledge?” this would ne the first time the blonde wouldn’t attend the acclaimed runways. of course, she was just picking at straws of things to complain about tonight. after all, fashion week was a second though compared to all the things they had to deal with now. “excuse me?” she blurted out, louder than she had expected. her gaze quickly turned to matty, making sure he was still asleep before she focused on michael again “pay the bills? are you seriosuly suggesting i get a job right now? with what time exactly?”

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it was unfortunate, but could be seen as a lesson that the whole household needed to learn. his father’s meddling with the company, purely out of retirement-boredom, had sent the company down a road with no possible turn. truthfully, michael couldn’t be in denial about his own play in that game as the head in charge and there was no denying that the company’s board went straight to his neck. with the stock dropping like flies, he couldn’t blame anybody else involved. no one wanted their fortune to fall below the tipping point and wealth always did speak louder in situations as those. safe to say, his head was constantly about to explore: company’s issues, family’s issues, ava’s issues — there was only so much time to handle with it all. “it happens. it’s not that big of a deal.” he shrugs it off, his gaze never leaving the laptop’s screen. bodily, present at home and with family, but his mind was all work, all the time. it was impossible not to. as much as he wanted that to be a teachable moment for ava as well, after dropping in and out of columbia several times and throwing their mind into the wind, he did have a pride to upkeep. every company had its darker moments, but he refused to be the name written all across that downfall. “we don’t need help.” he scoffs, typing almost angrily into the keyboard. “you can live a month or two without going on insane shopping sprees, relax.”

ava’s mind ran a million thoughts as she heard him speak. how was she supposed to stay calm? her whole life had been defined by the privilege and things her wealth could buy him. hell, her whole marriage was based on the union of their family’s companies and wealth. the past few weeks in their house had been a mess. with the maids, cooks, nannies, and trainers gone. ava was left to fend for herself. while the first few weeks consisted of burned dinner, dealing with laundry, and bringing matty to some classes and hoping he’d stay asleep  —the new lifestyle had taken a toll on ava. sleepless nights and the end of her shopping sprees were humbling her. “you haven’t answered the damn question. are we keeping the house or not??” she rolled her eyes before turning to look at her husband, eyes fixated on his computer “can you stop using that god damn thing and listen to me for once?? it won’t kill you to ask someone for help.” ava’s annoyance with him an his obsession with work was growing into resent. at least, she understood it when he was busy when they were doing well, but now? the blonde hated every single moment she lost to that laptop. “fashion week is coming up, so no, michael. i can’t live without shopping sprees.” 

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the once full mahogany jewelry box in front of her was depressing, a painful memory of her soon to be over lifestyle if they didn’t get their lives together. the idea of not being in the upper class of manhattan had never crossed her mind until now. it was almost a blasphemy to suggest it. ava thought that they were too big to fall, but the sad reality is that everything and everyone falls eventually and when giants fall, the aftermath of the fall is an even bigger disaster. she held the small gold watch and the gold bracelet encrusted with diamonds as she sighed “if i pawn these tomorrow, i think i’ll be able to make the last tuition payment.” once again, ava was back to trying to finish her degree at columbia. luckily, despite her many trials and tribulations, thanks to her surname she was able to enter and exit as she pleased. at least, this time around, she was keeping her word and trying her best. do it for matty, she thought over and over again as she filled the cardboard boxes of her closet with mountains of designer dresses and shoes. all of them would be taken to be sold tomorrow morning.  the one year old slept soundly in the crib next to their bed in the master bedroom. being alone at home was lonely at times, so ava decided to put a crib next to their bed so that he could stay with her when michael was away for work. “how did you even fuck up this badly?? i mean i’m not saying it’s all your fault but, seriously, how the fuck??” she snared as she sat on the bed, arms crossed before her. she was angered over having to get rid of part of her closet. quite fairly, even after the boxes filled to the brim, her closet was still very much full of luxury pieces. “will we have to move?? to a smaller house??” she looked up at the other, worry in her eyes “have you thought about asking for help??”

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imssg || baby daddy💕

michael: there's always an excuse for everything with you, ava. do you want a golden star? it doesn't change a fucking thing that you do your goddamn job as his mother.

ava: i just pointed something out omg i'm not even complaining. you literally act as if i hate matthew or something for someone who's barely here lmao.

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imssg || baby daddy💕

michael: another one of your excuses. you could've studied before having a baby but you weren't interested. and? it's your obligation, you are his mother. it doesn't make you special.

ava: i couldn't afford to, big difference. i do all that for him and you're saying it's my obligation? i could very well hire a bunch of nannies and fuck off to go shopping, but i don't.

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imssg || baby daddy💕

michael: then don't bring them up like i did something. maybe you should've worked for it. yeah? too bad you could never show that to me.

ava: you did nothing and they like you as if you were a king or something. I FUCKING DID, you try studying and taking care of a baby. oh i'm sorry?? all the days you came home and dinner was made, the baby fed and bathed, the baby napping? you saw none of that?!

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imssg || baby daddy💕

michael: funny thing, you gave up on your family. the company has never been yours and you're not the only parent that matty has. he deserves better than a psycho mother.

ava: they kicked me out, why should i keep dragging myself through the mud to get their acceptance? it was supposed to be mine, asshole. i am not psycho, for god's sake. he's better off with me than you.

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imssg || baby daddy💕

michael: i'm doing this because i'm tired. no worries, i'll get him a blonde babysitter - he won't even notice a difference.

ava: tired of what? so you're just going to erase him from my life? oh. u take my family, my company and my baby. cool.

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imssg || baby daddy💕

michael: every normal parent works. that's how the kid has food on the table. that won't give you the custody, you dumbass.

ava: you're literlly only doing this to spite me. so i'm with him all day and he's used to seeing me and you're just going to take me away from him like that?? you're going to upset matty.

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imssg || baby daddy💕

michael: you act like i'm never home, jfc

ava: oh i'm sorry, i forgot you were at home during work hours. do you happen to be invisible too during those hours? bc i never see u.

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imssg || baby daddy💕

michael: and his mom should be grown up enough to know when to quit being selfish.

ava: his dad should know that it's better to have his mom raise him than a nanny.

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imssg || baby daddy💕

michael: act like a grown up for once, ava. that's matty's house. you're not taking a baby on your wild adventures.

ava: we're not going on a wild adventure. we're just leaving since matty's dad kicked me out :)) and wants a divorce :))