「Trying to lessen this anguish」
[PT: 「Trying to lessen this anguish」 /End PT]
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personal blog, NOT a fandom blog.
[Previously ame-wa-ame-2, vbs-kaitos-bigger-naturals]
[This post has an edited date to reflect when I actually joined Tumblr, if there are any issues that may be why. This blog was originally created March 31 2025, however it is a replacement for a blog that was terminated.]
(P.S., please tag posts with children (around 10 or younger) in peril or children being abused/hurt with "#jnp don't look". the old tag, "#rock don't look" will also work!)
Hi!!! we're the Jackpot Neutral Party system. We would rather not share origins on this blog
first person: we alternate between I and we
second person: any are fine (including ones like you&, you*, etc)
third person: collectively they/it is usually fine, but if you know a member's pronouns that's preferred! again our systemhood is complicated and there would be more info on our sp/pluralspace if you wanted to know
our Pluralspace is jackpotnp (currently using pluralspace after the discontinuation of sp, but most sys info is still up-to-date there)
we're diagnosed audhd + depression! mostly writing that down for the sake of having it somewhere. audhd is generally collective (although our severe executive dysfunction can fluctuate, depending)
we in all likelihood have Non-24-Hour Sleep-Wake Disorder (like 99.99% sure on that. what else would it be) and OSDD but those two things aren't "officially" diagnosed. it's pretty certain, though, those who know us can attest to that
despite all this, please do not call us neurodivergent, differently abled, mental health/menhera, or jokey terms like neurospicy. we do not feel comfortable with those terms. instead, feel free to use mentally ill, disabled, or more specific terms such as autist. this is not commentary on those terms (although i can in fact make commentary on them), it's just a boundary we have due to our past experiences with that kind of language
no dni, we block freely and with an iron fist (but never out of nowhere!) (and also for mundane things, if we blocked you its probably nothing or an "us" problem that you dont need to worry about)
before you follow, though, we do bring up possibly upsetting things like syscourse, and we generally post a lot about non-fandom interests. we also sometimes vent on this blog (though we have a sideblog where the majority of that goes), so please be aware and cautious. the tag is #urgurg 2. we frequently make posts about suicide/suicidal ideation (explicit discussion is tagged but I can't promise anything for less than that)
we usually tag common triggers + food and syscourse, and most other things that can commonly be thought of as upsetting. we arent entirely thorough but definitely try to be. we also tag undescribed posts (#no image id, #no video description, #no audio description)
we also tag enstars stuff, it's #enst tag
if a post is rebloggable then it's okay to reblog, but if you're worried, feel free to ask!! we won't be mad i prommy
main fandoms/media we like are: >>enstars<<, awadori, pjsk, vocaloid. some other stuff we might post about is: in stars and time, bang dream, omori, I'm in love with the villainess, bungou stray dogs, utdr, uma musume, alien stage
our special interests/general interests include (but are not limited to): rhythm games, vocal synthesizer technology, music theory/production, web decor, plurality, fashion, computers&programs, hard/softmodding, linguistics, analyzing writing, organization (yes, organizing certain things/categorizing them), and a lot more that i wont list because it would be super long. please note that to us, there isnt a barrier between special interests, general interests, and hyperfixations. we are autistic about everything so it doesnt matter to us personally. all of these give us tingly happy feelings so theyre close enough to an "interest"
as you can tell, i tend to have a weird speaking style (our subsystem that hosts speaks similarly all-around with slight differences), and that can change sometimes depending on mood. if you scroll through our blog when its about 7pm est youre likely to see that in action. overall fairly casual with disregard for proper punctuation and spelling (prioritizing expression) but with a wide vocabulary that can come off as formal. also, we don't know the difference between affect and effect and refuse to learn. raging against the system, we are. sorry i dont know when this turned into lets analyze our speech patterns
this blog is safe for:
all systems and plurals regardless of origin (and it isnt safe for people who believe they can dictate who's "real" enough)
all shippers and fiction enjoyers literally who gives a shit i dont care about fandom discourse
all anattractional people (including but not limited to: aro, ace, apl, afam, asoc, and more)
anyone with a contradictory label for any reason
POC
people with demonized disorders (such as paraphilic disorders, personality disorders, schizospec disorders, etc)
paraphiles in general, yes including those ones, no this is not a safe blog for child predators, nobody put paramisic shit in my inbox, i swear to hatsune miku
people with eds and those who sh
addicts (yes, those ones too.)
sex workers
convicts/criminals
i figured i should make a dedicated section . just to weed out all the unwelcome people . rent lowering gunshots, if you will
「You smiled far away in the distance...」
[PT: 「You smiled far away in the distance...」 /End PT]
hoard blog: @jnps-filing-cabinet
sys blog: @jackpotnp
ritsu's sideblog: @vivid-under-moonlight
( ↑↑ the frontstuck alter mentioned in bio)
picmix masterpost (link!)
dividers source (link!)
favorite pjsk alts (link!)
post limit counter (link!)
morimens ID: 101788344
invite code: L2MFIRKV0C (the skin looks so pretty...)
Photograph of the sky by Geri Mis (source)
Lyrics from Meru by n-buna, translation by Night Deer Translations
Flags are the Non-24 flag by @/neopronouns and the depression flag by @/miles-is-so-gay
blinkies: penis gnome by me, erb, reblog crisis, other sources unknown atm
userboxes: made by me
