It’s Sad Hours Boys

If I hold all of my sad thoughts in my head I’ll explode, so I’m expelling them here, like exorcising a demon

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I’m so much of a people pleaser that I haven’t killed myself just because a couple people asked me not to, even though it’s the only thing I’ve wished for for 3+ years and it would end my constant suffering.

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My daily routine:

7:30am - wake up

8:00am-8:00pm - let the weight of my failures and watching the life I thought I would have slip away crush me until I disassociate from my body so hard that I no longer feel human

8:00pm-9:00pm - cry

9:00pm-11:00pm -watch silly videos

11:00pm - go to sleep

[hsuhaohsuhaohsuhao]

Maybe a wont be alone in heaven

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Great, now my bullshit has made my mom cry. I’m such a depressing piece of shit that I made the one people who wants to help me not want to anymore.

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Not to be depressing like I always am, but what a wonderful day to be reminded that if you’re not in a relationship then you don’t matter to society as a whole 💖

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Spending Valentine’s Day thinking about how I was told by a person who I thought was a friend I could rely on that it’s exhausting looking out for me and that I shouldn’t want or try to look to him or anyone for help ✌️💖

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It’s sad really, seeing the friends who nicknamed you Useless in high school excluding only you and being heartbroken about it.

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I’m sorry but, “think of the beauty all around that you’ll never experience again,” doesn’t cut it.

No sunset is worth the pain.

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Not pretty enough to be liked, not happy enough to enjoy life, not funny enough to be entertaining, not smart enough to be an intellectual…

What I am is… alone

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"you look tired" well the torment is relentless and the horrors never cease

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I don’t know why I even bother waking up anymore. People keep telling me that I need to live to see things get better but everyday it just gets worse and worse. It’s getting harder to justify staying around for all of this.

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It sucks when you truly believe that you’re not meant to be happy

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It sucks knowing that your existence drains the happiness of the people you care about.

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I wish I could feel happy again. At this point I don’t think I remember what it felt like to just be happy.

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Good morning to the girlies who cry first thing in the morning, who are told you set expectations for friends too high when all you want them to do is remember you exist, who don’t have anyone to talk to bc the last time you tried to express your feelings of being excluded you were told it was your own fault people didn’t want you around, who are told your trauma is just excuses, and/or who feel completely alone in the world

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How many days in a row of crying does it become concerning, because I don’t think I’m going to stop and I don’t think things are going to get better?

[spicybrain81]