[weareintherain]

i don’t know how you see these and still theres no form of reaction for the sake of my own mental health im gonna stop posting on here and use an actual diary or something bc this only makes me feel so stupid and alone,, gonna change the password to something random and try to forget it.. maybe in a few years i will remember this again or maybe someone will stumble upon it randomly and gets to read all about my life since 2018 lol

[weareintherain]

still was bothered and not comfortable and posted about it and nothing was done about it makes you wonder

[mikarchive-deactivated20250714]

james baldwin, giovanni’s room

[peachpitgirl]

[weareintherain]

she has one of the most perfect faces i have ever seen and is the cutest in her group i wouldnt unfollow her either!!

[jacobaaronschroeder-deactivated]

Everything I’ve ever let go of has claw marks on it Hand burnt text on silk velvet 42″ x 24″ 2016

[weareintherain]

and it doesnt fucking matter that u didnt “act” on it doesnt change the fact that u got hard for them lol how about you learn how to control yourself i dont get mfn wet whenever i see a shirtless bts member either

[weareintherain]

i tried so fucking hard and it wasn’t enough

[weareintherain]

the fact that you still needed “eyecandy” when i tried so fucking hard to always send you pictures and videos whenever you asked for them. always

[abuzd]

[fierysuggestion]

don’t look, don’t hurt your heart like that

[weareintherain]

its always the pretty ones ^^

[weareintherain]

and im sure its tiring having to read about it every other week but how do u think i feel

[weareintherain]

dear diary this has caused irreparable damage inside of me and it makes me so sad bc how am i supposed to go back to how it was before i really dont know???😄 more than anything i wish i could just go back to before i found out this has literally ruined me and my self esteem more than anything ever has i think… i really dont see myself ever fully getting over it😭 like i have freaking nightmares about it!! and i dont know what it is exactly that hurts me so much?? i dont even wanna think about what i was doing, where i was, while he was looking at those posts and doing god knows what. god knows and i know because there is no fucking way that all those posts were saved “just because” literally no way.. no one goes on something like that to just look and its so frustrating that he’s trying to sell me yet another lie. but at the end of the day he has to deal with the fact that he lied, once again, even after ive literally asked so many times for him to be honest with me. i dont have to deal with that. idk. its so so so frustrating and it just HURTS bc how am i supposed to get over it when i dont even get the full truth

[weareintherain]

me every morning i open steam and still see that

[weareintherain]

:(

[weareintherain]

i could complain about my dad 24/7 but i think i just need to stop expecting things from him,,, i dont think im ever gonna ask him for anything again, he couldn’t even give me an actual birthday gift lol!! i will not think about him or his failures too much from now on cuz it just makes me sad. he failed in every way possible and thats it