WeepingFlower17

poetry + journaling

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When I look into your eyes,

I see everything I've ever wanted staring back at me.

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You may love her,

But I fill the spaces in between.

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I knew a boy.

He was sweet,

And handsome,

And fun.

But loving him turned me into a monster.

Somebody I didn't recognize,

And didn't want to be.

I tried so hard to find myself,

Only to realize

He was the one who took her away from me.

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Without you, I'm not myself.

I have changed,

And everybody sees it.

I don't smile as much,

Or laugh nearly as hard.

Now that you're gone,

I'm not myself.

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I'm so lucky to know you the way I do.

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If things were different,

Would it be different between us too?

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He was pretty like a girl,

And elegant like a woman.

He was crude-humored like a little boy,

And charming like a man.

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We like to say they're wrong for what they think of us.

But sometimes I wonder,

Are they?

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There's no way I could have ever known that things would turn out this way.

[weepingflower17]

Kiss me like you've been starved your whole life and you're just now finding out what love is.

[weepingflower17]

If you'd ever like to chat, don't be afraid to say something.

You're the last person I would ever judge or turn away from.

I love to hear you talk more than I love to hear my favorite song,

Or ride my bike,

Or watch the sunset.

Always my ears will be open to you, and I'm happy to sit any listen to anything you want to talk about.

Any time, anywhere.

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Oh, the way these things will ruin me... <3

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He wasn't a choice, he was necessary.

[weepingflower17]

Old rock music

Record stores

Dusty books

Vintage clothes

The color orange

Electric guitars

Band stickers

Writing

Performing arts

Record players

Vinyl

Handwritten letters

Bad singing

Graphic tees

Folk songs

Comedy movies

Secrets

Inside jokes

The sky at sunset

Bracelets

- Him

[weepingflower17]

He glances at me from across the room, a look telling all that is unsaid.

His eyes are focused on mine, and our worlds stop as the one around us continues to move.

I know what he's thinking.

I can see it in his face.

We stare for a minute more before sheepishly turning back to the conversations we were both having. Everything goes on as if nothing happened between us in the first place.

But we know the truth.

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I dread the day that your name sinks to the bottom of my contacts list.

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Sometimes, he makes me cry. My throat swells up, my eyes sting, and it feels like I'm going to die.

But when he smiles, for a moment I forget all of that pain, and I smile with him.