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how do i make my life pretty? | 19

[westcoastloves]

i delude myself into satisfaction that i will one day truly live.

[disgustinggf]

[westcoastloves]

oh my unrequited crush how i will miss admiring but never knowing you.

[westcoastloves]

“you are the rule. not the exception.”

but oh how badly i want to be the exception just this once, i want him to make an exception for me.

[fromdarzaitoleeza]

Khaled Hosseini, The Kite Runner/Jaun beaur

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[fromdarzaitoleeza]

Beau Taplin from Just Short

[westcoastloves]

“can you take the picture?”

suddenly i’m twelve again and not good enough to be in the photo with all the pretty girls. now’s no different, and it’s the most gut wrenching feeling. will i ever be invited into the picture? i don’t think so.

[westcoastloves]

i love the olive theory. i want someone to take my olives and absolutely love them, love them more because they were mine. maybe i do like olives, but i like their happiness more. i’ll gladly give them my olives.

[westcoastloves]

we used to work so well together

but now i’m just begging for you to be better

i should tell you how i feel

i’ll avoid it because i don’t want the change to be real

so i sit here, looking for ways to tell you all the wrongs you’ve made, a final goodbye, i wish i could face you, please just take my letter.

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

– Juansen Dizon

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Haruki Marukami

[westcoastloves]

everyday for class i have to condense twenty pages into one page of notes. i don’t want my life to be condensed into one page.

[manincaffeine]

i want a soft connection. i want to be asked how my day went and if i need anything. i want forehead kisses. i want the back of my hand kissed at red lights. i want to be asked how i’m mentally feeling. i want to hold hands everywhere we go. i want romantic gestures. i want my hair played in at the most unexpected moments. i want silent eye connections that lead to smiles. i want to take random walks.

[westcoastloves]

in another universe,

my dad woke me up for school, he made sure i had breakfast, and gave me a packed lunch, he played my favorite music, and told me to have a good day.

he picks me up on time, reaches back to give me a snack, asks how my day was, makes me dinner, helps with homework, gives me a bed time, sings to me.

in another universe i got to be nine years old.

[westcoastloves]

big backyard, heart shape flowers, six garden beds one for each of us, fresh paint, baby chickens, my favorite orange flowers you let me pick out, a fairy gate.

overgrown grass, cracked paint, rusty tools, an empty coupe, a rain stained deck, blackberries that cut me, a gravestone, five garden beds, reality.

i grew up before i was supposed to, i wasn’t ready.

[flowerytale]

Ada Limón, from “Sometimes I Think My Body Leaves a Shape in the Air”, The Carrying: Poems

[weltenwellen]

May Sarton, Journal of a Solitude

[typodescript]

[text: Life comes in clusters, clusters of solitude, then a cluster when there is hardly time to breathe.]

[weltenwellen]

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