zen gawd.

30| he/him | Part problematic fave. Part Black Excellence. It is what it is til it aint.

[penny-theunicorn]

If you’re looking at this wondering, “does she get off to compliments?” Yes yes I do🩷

[westsidewaave]

I’m such a fan. Wow. Look at the material, geezus 😍

[stlkergrl]

i really wanna kiss and cuddle under my blanket right now. soft passionate kisses

[just-bein-me]

Yum!💦💦

[westsidewaave]

I’ve always wanted someone down to do this

[hypnosc]

[westsidewaave]

Again??

Once again I have allowed the same person to hurt me…when will I learn? I considered you my best friend. Even through all of the bullshit. I dont think asking for communication is a lot. You and I both know if the situation were flipped, you would be hurt too. They say you become who hurt you, and I never believed that until now. You’ve become your ex. You know I’d always come running if you asked, or even hinted at it. You know I’d forgive you a million times over. No matter what. Just as he does with you. I see that now. I am a firm believer in karma so perhaps this is me paying for my past sins. I dont know you anymore. And what hurts the most is that even now, I still see and hope and pray for the woman I fell in love with. I still want her back. You are not her, though. I have lost faith in love’s power. I dont want to be in love anymore. I dont want to miss you anymore. I dont want to love you as much as I do. The toll this has taken on my sanity is far too great. I dont want any of this anymore…

And yet there is still part of me that does. And I detest that.

[westsidewaave]

Was going through a few tags and found these posts about shordy. It’s 10 years later and my LORD how I’ve grown!! 22 year old me would be distraught to know that she didn’t change much and in fact got worse. An update for young B: We had our fun though, off and on for a couple years. We went a year or so without speaking and reconnected, had some real ass conversations and shit was cool. Nothing ever happened again between us but the energy was always there. Other people could feel it too. A good friend who knew nothing of our story saw us and said “Oh that’s your twin flame. The energy radiating off yall is wild. It’s something in the way yall look at each other”. WILD. But beyond that, we don’t speak now. She had a baby with this married guy (that’s another story), and now you no longer speak to her. And it doesn’t hurt. You think of her on occasion, it’s in your nature. But you don’t really feel anything. You’ve made years of progress mentally and emotionally. The pain finally stopped, man.

[westsidewaave]

Me/The Gang + Eats = 🤞🏾

[westsidewaave]

Accessories.

Fucked up my nails on the way.

Had a fuckin blast though

[westsidewaave]

I’m so used to being disappointed and shit not working out that I’m still struggling to process and celebrate my wins. I start a new job that pays double what I make now next week. Yet I’m still afraid that something will go wrong and I’ll be right back at this job I hate. I’m not even about putting negative energy into the universe like that. This healing shit is hard man.

[westsidewaave]

It’s been a year and I’m still at this job. I’ve gotten a raise since this post and am due for another one shortly. Relative stability is nice 🙂

[westsidewaave]

Coming up on 2 years and I’m still here. A lot has changed and things were rough for a while, but I’m still here.

[westsidewaave]

Made it just short of 3 years at this job. They fired me. Towards the end, things got really terrible there in terms of higher up management and their expectations, coupled with their unwillingness to mitigate the issues on the ground. They cut hella people just before I hit 2 years, and were finding any reason to fire people when I was fired. It was bullshit, but oh well. Eternally praying on Transdev’s downfall.

[westsidewaave]

It’s been a while.

[westsidewaave]

I’m so used to being disappointed and shit not working out that I’m still struggling to process and celebrate my wins. I start a new job that pays double what I make now next week. Yet I’m still afraid that something will go wrong and I’ll be right back at this job I hate. I’m not even about putting negative energy into the universe like that. This healing shit is hard man.

[westsidewaave]

It’s been a year and I’m still at this job. I’ve gotten a raise since this post and am due for another one shortly. Relative stability is nice 🙂

[westsidewaave]

Coming up on 2 years and I’m still here. A lot has changed and things were rough for a while, but I’m still here.

[westsidewaave]

I’m so used to being disappointed and shit not working out that I’m still struggling to process and celebrate my wins. I start a new job that pays double what I make now next week. Yet I’m still afraid that something will go wrong and I’ll be right back at this job I hate. I’m not even about putting negative energy into the universe like that. This healing shit is hard man.

[westsidewaave]

It’s been a year and I’m still at this job. I’ve gotten a raise since this post and am due for another one shortly. Relative stability is nice 🙂

[shezinlove]

blessed image, let’s get this money y’all! reblog chadwick boseman rubbing his hands together for good luck and good coin!

[eriikkillmongerr]

First you get than money then u get that power😝

[pi-la]

[wakandamama]

This the rolling in dough Daffy, reblog to get some cash hoe

[cazame]

[penny-theunicorn]

[westsidewaave]

*hyperventilates* oh my damn

[fylgjasgaldr]

Green explotion

[zhan-xiaos]

the person reblogging this from you is rooting for you to have a happy, healthy, and successfull 2022