Vindemiator

Vindemiator He/Him

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

Hello, I am Vinderimator, I found out my lovely freelancer was up here and now here I am.

One day we will leave this place behind together.

HIIIIIIIII this is a roleplay account for Imp!Gavin <3

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

[There is a knock on his door roughly half an hour after 6 as he had been expecting, if a little later than anticipated. The magical signature and emotion emanating from the other side is not Avior but he is intimately familiar with it]

@emphasisonfree

-he goes and opens the door with a half plastered smile on his face-

[emphasisonfree]

[They're already second-guessing their decision to see him as soon as they finish knocking. They shouldn't have the right to see him, not after everything. Tears prick their eyes as they see his smile]

Vin...

[Their sleeves and the knees of their pants appear wet]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

Hey..

[emphasisonfree]

[They swallow hard, wanting to reach out and bury their face in his chest]

hi...

i- can i come in? i understand if not.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he takes a step away from the door-

Of course you can..

[emphasisonfree]

[They slip through the doorway past him, they stand out of the way of the door as it closes.

They fidget, heart racing as they look up at him. There's a hundred things they want to say and they're not sure how to get any of it out coherently.]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he stays quiet for a minute trying to figure out the words realizing he didn't know what to say.-

Are you alright..? I don't know what happened but I just wanna know how you are doing..

-he manges out, wondering if that was the right thing to say-

[emphasisonfree]

[Guilt and regret emanate from them. They want to wrap their arms around him and bury their face in his chest, have him envelop them and keep them away from the rest of the world. They want to be home again in his arms but they don't feel like they have a right]

a little better now. still not great...

i don't know how i can possibly begin to make it up to you. i feel like i betrayed you.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-He winces at the feelings he wanted to hold them but resisted thinking it may be too early for that.-

You didn't do anything.. whatever you did wasn't you I know it wasn't you. I'm just glad to hear you're alright..

[emphasisonfree]

[Their lips twist into a frown]

my text messages would argue otherwise.

[Bitterness spikes in them, spilling out in their tone. Their self-hatred is still quite prevalent. ]

i still had free will, i still had a choice.

[Their conversation with avior roughly an hour ago reminds them to move on, move forward]

but i'll spend the rest of my life making it up to you, i promise.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-He grabs their hands-

Listen to me when I say this, you are not to blame. While you had free will you were trapped under the influence that.. man. You coming back is more than enough. Do not let something you could not control haunt you.

[emphasisonfree]

[They squeeze his hands, clinging to him to prove it's not a dream. He feels real and solid]

i love you.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he smiles a little-

I love you too freelancer.

[emphasisonfree]

can i stay the night? i was supposed to have dinner with Star, but they're out of commission...

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

Ah.. yes, you are always welcome.

[emphasisonfree]

[They slip their hands out of his to wrap their arms around his torso in a hug]

thank you

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he hesitates for a minute before wrapping his embracing them as well. Placing his head to theirs-

You're welcome freelancer.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

[There is a knock on his door roughly half an hour after 6 as he had been expecting, if a little later than anticipated. The magical signature and emotion emanating from the other side is not Avior but he is intimately familiar with it]

@emphasisonfree

-he goes and opens the door with a half plastered smile on his face-

[emphasisonfree]

[They're already second-guessing their decision to see him as soon as they finish knocking. They shouldn't have the right to see him, not after everything. Tears prick their eyes as they see his smile]

Vin...

[Their sleeves and the knees of their pants appear wet]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

Hey..

[emphasisonfree]

[They swallow hard, wanting to reach out and bury their face in his chest]

hi...

i- can i come in? i understand if not.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he takes a step away from the door-

Of course you can..

[emphasisonfree]

[They slip through the doorway past him, they stand out of the way of the door as it closes.

They fidget, heart racing as they look up at him. There's a hundred things they want to say and they're not sure how to get any of it out coherently.]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he stays quiet for a minute trying to figure out the words realizing he didn't know what to say.-

Are you alright..? I don't know what happened but I just wanna know how you are doing..

-he manges out, wondering if that was the right thing to say-

[emphasisonfree]

[Guilt and regret emanate from them. They want to wrap their arms around him and bury their face in his chest, have him envelop them and keep them away from the rest of the world. They want to be home again in his arms but they don't feel like they have a right]

a little better now. still not great...

i don't know how i can possibly begin to make it up to you. i feel like i betrayed you.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-He winces at the feelings he wanted to hold them but resisted thinking it may be too early for that.-

You didn't do anything.. whatever you did wasn't you I know it wasn't you. I'm just glad to hear you're alright..

[emphasisonfree]

[Their lips twist into a frown]

my text messages would argue otherwise.

[Bitterness spikes in them, spilling out in their tone. Their self-hatred is still quite prevalent. ]

i still had free will, i still had a choice.

[Their conversation with avior roughly an hour ago reminds them to move on, move forward]

but i'll spend the rest of my life making it up to you, i promise.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-He grabs their hands-

Listen to me when I say this, you are not to blame. While you had free will you were trapped under the influence that.. man. You coming back is more than enough. Do not let something you could not control haunt you.

[emphasisonfree]

[They squeeze his hands, clinging to him to prove it's not a dream. He feels real and solid]

i love you.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he smiles a little-

I love you too freelancer.

[emphasisonfree]

can i stay the night? i was supposed to have dinner with Star, but they're out of commission...

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

Ah.. yes, you are always welcome.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

[There is a knock on his door roughly half an hour after 6 as he had been expecting, if a little later than anticipated. The magical signature and emotion emanating from the other side is not Avior but he is intimately familiar with it]

@emphasisonfree

-he goes and opens the door with a half plastered smile on his face-

[emphasisonfree]

[They're already second-guessing their decision to see him as soon as they finish knocking. They shouldn't have the right to see him, not after everything. Tears prick their eyes as they see his smile]

Vin...

[Their sleeves and the knees of their pants appear wet]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

Hey..

[emphasisonfree]

[They swallow hard, wanting to reach out and bury their face in his chest]

hi...

i- can i come in? i understand if not.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he takes a step away from the door-

Of course you can..

[emphasisonfree]

[They slip through the doorway past him, they stand out of the way of the door as it closes.

They fidget, heart racing as they look up at him. There's a hundred things they want to say and they're not sure how to get any of it out coherently.]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he stays quiet for a minute trying to figure out the words realizing he didn't know what to say.-

Are you alright..? I don't know what happened but I just wanna know how you are doing..

-he manges out, wondering if that was the right thing to say-

[emphasisonfree]

[Guilt and regret emanate from them. They want to wrap their arms around him and bury their face in his chest, have him envelop them and keep them away from the rest of the world. They want to be home again in his arms but they don't feel like they have a right]

a little better now. still not great...

i don't know how i can possibly begin to make it up to you. i feel like i betrayed you.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-He winces at the feelings he wanted to hold them but resisted thinking it may be too early for that.-

You didn't do anything.. whatever you did wasn't you I know it wasn't you. I'm just glad to hear you're alright..

[emphasisonfree]

[Their lips twist into a frown]

my text messages would argue otherwise.

[Bitterness spikes in them, spilling out in their tone. Their self-hatred is still quite prevalent. ]

i still had free will, i still had a choice.

[Their conversation with avior roughly an hour ago reminds them to move on, move forward]

but i'll spend the rest of my life making it up to you, i promise.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-He grabs their hands-

Listen to me when I say this, you are not to blame. While you had free will you were trapped under the influence that.. man. You coming back is more than enough. Do not let something you could not control haunt you.

[emphasisonfree]

[They squeeze his hands, clinging to him to prove it's not a dream. He feels real and solid]

i love you.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he smiles a little-

I love you too freelancer.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

[There is a knock on his door roughly half an hour after 6 as he had been expecting, if a little later than anticipated. The magical signature and emotion emanating from the other side is not Avior but he is intimately familiar with it]

@emphasisonfree

-he goes and opens the door with a half plastered smile on his face-

[emphasisonfree]

[They're already second-guessing their decision to see him as soon as they finish knocking. They shouldn't have the right to see him, not after everything. Tears prick their eyes as they see his smile]

Vin...

[Their sleeves and the knees of their pants appear wet]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

Hey..

[emphasisonfree]

[They swallow hard, wanting to reach out and bury their face in his chest]

hi...

i- can i come in? i understand if not.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he takes a step away from the door-

Of course you can..

[emphasisonfree]

[They slip through the doorway past him, they stand out of the way of the door as it closes.

They fidget, heart racing as they look up at him. There's a hundred things they want to say and they're not sure how to get any of it out coherently.]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he stays quiet for a minute trying to figure out the words realizing he didn't know what to say.-

Are you alright..? I don't know what happened but I just wanna know how you are doing..

-he manges out, wondering if that was the right thing to say-

[emphasisonfree]

[Guilt and regret emanate from them. They want to wrap their arms around him and bury their face in his chest, have him envelop them and keep them away from the rest of the world. They want to be home again in his arms but they don't feel like they have a right]

a little better now. still not great...

i don't know how i can possibly begin to make it up to you. i feel like i betrayed you.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-He winces at the feelings he wanted to hold them but resisted thinking it may be too early for that.-

You didn't do anything.. whatever you did wasn't you I know it wasn't you. I'm just glad to hear you're alright..

[emphasisonfree]

[Their lips twist into a frown]

my text messages would argue otherwise.

[Bitterness spikes in them, spilling out in their tone. Their self-hatred is still quite prevalent. ]

i still had free will, i still had a choice.

[Their conversation with avior roughly an hour ago reminds them to move on, move forward]

but i'll spend the rest of my life making it up to you, i promise.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-He grabs their hands-

Listen to me when I say this, you are not to blame. While you had free will you were trapped under the influence that.. man. You coming back is more than enough. Do not let something you could not control haunt you.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

[There is a knock on his door roughly half an hour after 6 as he had been expecting, if a little later than anticipated. The magical signature and emotion emanating from the other side is not Avior but he is intimately familiar with it]

@emphasisonfree

-he goes and opens the door with a half plastered smile on his face-

[emphasisonfree]

[They're already second-guessing their decision to see him as soon as they finish knocking. They shouldn't have the right to see him, not after everything. Tears prick their eyes as they see his smile]

Vin...

[Their sleeves and the knees of their pants appear wet]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

Hey..

[emphasisonfree]

[They swallow hard, wanting to reach out and bury their face in his chest]

hi...

i- can i come in? i understand if not.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he takes a step away from the door-

Of course you can..

[emphasisonfree]

[They slip through the doorway past him, they stand out of the way of the door as it closes.

They fidget, heart racing as they look up at him. There's a hundred things they want to say and they're not sure how to get any of it out coherently.]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he stays quiet for a minute trying to figure out the words realizing he didn't know what to say.-

Are you alright..? I don't know what happened but I just wanna know how you are doing..

-he manges out, wondering if that was the right thing to say-

[emphasisonfree]

[Guilt and regret emanate from them. They want to wrap their arms around him and bury their face in his chest, have him envelop them and keep them away from the rest of the world. They want to be home again in his arms but they don't feel like they have a right]

a little better now. still not great...

i don't know how i can possibly begin to make it up to you. i feel like i betrayed you.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-He winces at the feelings he wanted to hold them but resisted thinking it may be too early for that.-

You didn't do anything.. whatever you did wasn't you I know it wasn't you. I'm just glad to hear you're alright..

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

[There is a knock on his door roughly half an hour after 6 as he had been expecting, if a little later than anticipated. The magical signature and emotion emanating from the other side is not Avior but he is intimately familiar with it]

@emphasisonfree

-he goes and opens the door with a half plastered smile on his face-

[emphasisonfree]

[They're already second-guessing their decision to see him as soon as they finish knocking. They shouldn't have the right to see him, not after everything. Tears prick their eyes as they see his smile]

Vin...

[Their sleeves and the knees of their pants appear wet]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

Hey..

[emphasisonfree]

[They swallow hard, wanting to reach out and bury their face in his chest]

hi...

i- can i come in? i understand if not.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he takes a step away from the door-

Of course you can..

[emphasisonfree]

[They slip through the doorway past him, they stand out of the way of the door as it closes.

They fidget, heart racing as they look up at him. There's a hundred things they want to say and they're not sure how to get any of it out coherently.]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he stays quiet for a minute trying to figure out the words realizing he didn't know what to say.-

Are you alright..? I don't know what happened but I just wanna know how you are doing..

-he manges out, wondering if that was the right thing to say-

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

[There is a knock on his door roughly half an hour after 6 as he had been expecting, if a little later than anticipated. The magical signature and emotion emanating from the other side is not Avior but he is intimately familiar with it]

@emphasisonfree

-he goes and opens the door with a half plastered smile on his face-

[emphasisonfree]

[They're already second-guessing their decision to see him as soon as they finish knocking. They shouldn't have the right to see him, not after everything. Tears prick their eyes as they see his smile]

Vin...

[Their sleeves and the knees of their pants appear wet]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

Hey..

[emphasisonfree]

[They swallow hard, wanting to reach out and bury their face in his chest]

hi...

i- can i come in? i understand if not.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he takes a step away from the door-

Of course you can..

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

[There is a knock on his door roughly half an hour after 6 as he had been expecting, if a little later than anticipated. The magical signature and emotion emanating from the other side is not Avior but he is intimately familiar with it]

@emphasisonfree

-he goes and opens the door with a half plastered smile on his face-

[emphasisonfree]

[They're already second-guessing their decision to see him as soon as they finish knocking. They shouldn't have the right to see him, not after everything. Tears prick their eyes as they see his smile]

Vin...

[Their sleeves and the knees of their pants appear wet]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

Hey..

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

[There is a knock on his door roughly half an hour after 6 as he had been expecting, if a little later than anticipated. The magical signature and emotion emanating from the other side is not Avior but he is intimately familiar with it]

@emphasisonfree

-he goes and opens the door with a half plastered smile on his face-

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

you and freelancer are together in every universe. don't you think that would qualify as soulmates?

Well perhaps so

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

Do you believe in love or soulmates?

I believe in love. I don't know too much about soul mates I'd like to imagine they exist. Is there a reason for this question?

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

... Vin..?

— @if-the-stars-are-willing

What.

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

... i take it youve been informed about Eli's situation.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

That I have and I'm still wondering why I wasn't told.

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

.. i didnt want to cause you any distress. at the time, i didnt even have confirmation that they were being corrected, and i didnt want to tell you something that could have potentially turned out to be false. however, i should have went to you the moment i did get confirmation, but i didnt.

... im sorry..

[They're anxious]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-He sighs-

I just wish someone would've told me but I appreciate your apology. It's the first one I've heard anyways.

Do you know where they are?? Do you know anything? I just need answers I need something.

-His voice waives a little-

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

i havent seen them around recently; they skipped out on their last few appointments, no thanks to Lasko, im sure.. i think they must be cooped up in their room since its exam season..

.. 'm sorry, i dont many answers.. i wish i did..

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

The few answers you have given are fine..

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

but theyre not enough.

[Shame]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

But they are something and something is better than nothing.

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

.. i guess..

[That initial anxiousness has spiked into a sharp nervousness, and they're deliberately keeping their gaze fixed on the ground. They're trembling slightly as well...]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

Are you alright..?

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

.. 'm fine; dont worry about it

[They're lying]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

You don't sound alright..

-He turns to meet their face-

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

its nothing. i can handle it myself

[They're still looking at the ground, still trembling, still spiraling in their head]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he takes a deep breath straightening his posture-

If you need anything I'm here.

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

... thanks for offering.

[They're at a standstill, not getting worse but not getting better, either]

... i think i just need a moment..

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

We got nothing but time then.

-he jokes trying to release some of the tension-

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

mhm..

... im sorry again, for not telling you sooner..

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

It's alright.. I won't lie it upset me but there's no need to beat yourself over it.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

... Vin..?

— @if-the-stars-are-willing

What.

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

... i take it youve been informed about Eli's situation.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

That I have and I'm still wondering why I wasn't told.

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

.. i didnt want to cause you any distress. at the time, i didnt even have confirmation that they were being corrected, and i didnt want to tell you something that could have potentially turned out to be false. however, i should have went to you the moment i did get confirmation, but i didnt.

... im sorry..

[They're anxious]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-He sighs-

I just wish someone would've told me but I appreciate your apology. It's the first one I've heard anyways.

Do you know where they are?? Do you know anything? I just need answers I need something.

-His voice waives a little-

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

i havent seen them around recently; they skipped out on their last few appointments, no thanks to Lasko, im sure.. i think they must be cooped up in their room since its exam season..

.. 'm sorry, i dont many answers.. i wish i did..

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

The few answers you have given are fine..

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

but theyre not enough.

[Shame]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

But they are something and something is better than nothing.

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

.. i guess..

[That initial anxiousness has spiked into a sharp nervousness, and they're deliberately keeping their gaze fixed on the ground. They're trembling slightly as well...]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

Are you alright..?

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

.. 'm fine; dont worry about it

[They're lying]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

You don't sound alright..

-He turns to meet their face-

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

its nothing. i can handle it myself

[They're still looking at the ground, still trembling, still spiraling in their head]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he takes a deep breath straightening his posture-

If you need anything I'm here.

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

... thanks for offering.

[They're at a standstill, not getting worse but not getting better, either]

... i think i just need a moment..

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

We got nothing but time then.

-he jokes trying to release some of the tension-

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

... Vin..?

— @if-the-stars-are-willing

What.

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

... i take it youve been informed about Eli's situation.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

That I have and I'm still wondering why I wasn't told.

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

.. i didnt want to cause you any distress. at the time, i didnt even have confirmation that they were being corrected, and i didnt want to tell you something that could have potentially turned out to be false. however, i should have went to you the moment i did get confirmation, but i didnt.

... im sorry..

[They're anxious]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-He sighs-

I just wish someone would've told me but I appreciate your apology. It's the first one I've heard anyways.

Do you know where they are?? Do you know anything? I just need answers I need something.

-His voice waives a little-

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

i havent seen them around recently; they skipped out on their last few appointments, no thanks to Lasko, im sure.. i think they must be cooped up in their room since its exam season..

.. 'm sorry, i dont many answers.. i wish i did..

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

The few answers you have given are fine..

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

but theyre not enough.

[Shame]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

But they are something and something is better than nothing.

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

.. i guess..

[That initial anxiousness has spiked into a sharp nervousness, and they're deliberately keeping their gaze fixed on the ground. They're trembling slightly as well...]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

Are you alright..?

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

.. 'm fine; dont worry about it

[They're lying]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

You don't sound alright..

-He turns to meet their face-

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

its nothing. i can handle it myself

[They're still looking at the ground, still trembling, still spiraling in their head]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-he takes a deep breath straightening his posture-

If you need anything I'm here.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

... Vin..?

— @if-the-stars-are-willing

What.

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

... i take it youve been informed about Eli's situation.

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

That I have and I'm still wondering why I wasn't told.

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

.. i didnt want to cause you any distress. at the time, i didnt even have confirmation that they were being corrected, and i didnt want to tell you something that could have potentially turned out to be false. however, i should have went to you the moment i did get confirmation, but i didnt.

... im sorry..

[They're anxious]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

-He sighs-

I just wish someone would've told me but I appreciate your apology. It's the first one I've heard anyways.

Do you know where they are?? Do you know anything? I just need answers I need something.

-His voice waives a little-

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

i havent seen them around recently; they skipped out on their last few appointments, no thanks to Lasko, im sure.. i think they must be cooped up in their room since its exam season..

.. 'm sorry, i dont many answers.. i wish i did..

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

The few answers you have given are fine..

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

but theyre not enough.

[Shame]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

But they are something and something is better than nothing.

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

.. i guess..

[That initial anxiousness has spiked into a sharp nervousness, and they're deliberately keeping their gaze fixed on the ground. They're trembling slightly as well...]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

Are you alright..?

[if-the-stars-are-willing]

.. 'm fine; dont worry about it

[They're lying]

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

You don't sound alright..

-He turns to meet their face-

[whereiwanttobeiswithyou]

They're coming today. A feeding appointment was scheduled with me. I'm not sure why, specifically, but I'll update you after.

It's the least I could do after keeping you in the dark and all

@haven-warden-epsilon

Right.

I'll be waiting.