Ryan Ross LiveJournal MasterPost
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Thu, Nov 4 2004
its almost cute how all you kids think you know so much shit about
politics. since you all love to follow trends, bush is the new kerry.
i’m tired of hearing how it’s the end of the world, stop being so
dramatic, your life will not be affected by this.
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Sun, Nov 7 2004
i swear its bad luck or no luck at all. someone is out to get me and
here is proof: first i get a $15 parking ticket at school for parking
in a staff spot. second i get the $100 speeding ticket. then on
thursday my car got towed from school for parking in front of
einstein bagels for my class. $150. total cost of bullshit in the last
two weeks? $265. sucks bad.
the underoath coheed show was amazing. both of them were so
good it gave me chills and butterflies at times. we started to
record a new song this weekend so hopefully that will be done
pretty quick. i’ve been getting sadhappy when i listen to some of
my favorite records from the past two years. certain songs remind
me of specific times..and i can remember things in such detail..
last year this time was mae and the new blink. and trying to stay
happy when its so cold and depressing outside.
summertime got me thinking back to when you were mine
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Mon, Nov 15 2004
panic at the disco’s new groove.
hey we recorded a new song and put it on purevolume but we
dont know what to call it yet. so its just new song. but go hear it
WWW.PUREVOLUME.COM/PANICATTHEDISCOWWW.PUREVOLUM
E.COM/PANICATTHEDISCOWWW.PUREVOLUME.COM/PANICATTHE
DISCOWWW.PUREVOLUME.COM/PANICATTHEDISCO thanks.
-ry
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Tue, Nov 16 2004
thoughts of a dying atheist.
Watch your mouth your speech is slurred enough that you might
swallow your tongue. I'm sure you’d want to give up the ghost
with a little more poise than that. (thank me later) Or was it god
who chokes in these situations? running late? no,no, he called in.
Problem: the hospice is a relaxing weekend getaway, where you
are a cut above every sick sad patient. Where you’re on first name
basis with all the top physicians. Solution: prescribed pills to offset
the shakes... to offset the pills you should take… um.. take.. take it
a day at a time (fix a vice with a vice.) That’s when you st st
stutter something profound to the support on the line.. and with
the way you’ve been talking every word gets you a step closer to
hell. A pessimist? No I just cant help it. to say what everyone else
is thinking.. (let me state the obvious again). I am alone in this
bed, house and head. She never fixes this but at least she makes
me forget.
those are the lyrics to the new song on purevolume for whoever
was wondering.
also brendon (singer) got a livejournal recently so go be his friend.
part_time_lovah
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Wed, Nov 17 2004
tonight the faint played at house of blues. and that was a show.
not just a band playing. a fucking show. they had videos up on
projection screens to go along with every song it was amazing.
the entire floor was dancing like it was a club. unbelievable. here
is another one of my baby- and yuri knows all about the dirty
greasy creepy band practice hair. and nerd sweaters. okay thats it
im done. ps. keep telling all your friends about us, we just broke
1000 listens today. thank you
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Mon, Nov 22 2004
dear livejournal, i managed to waste an entire day today. remind
me not to do this again.and help me get out of this writers block
while you’re at it. thanks
love, ryan.
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Sun, Nov 28 2004
“take those pics and write the hits”
wow. big things have been happening. pete from fob heard the
band and liked it. he and i talked today about alot of things about
what we plan to do, as of now he’s going to go see us in
california. who knows after that. wierd that someone in a band i
really like is into my music. it feels good.
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Fri, Dec 3 2004
panic at the disco.
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Sat, Dec 4 2004
from left to right: brendon (guitar vocals) spencer (drums) me
(guitar lyrics) (brent bass)
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Wed, Dec 15 2004
bombing finals. writing instead.this weekend.l.a. road trip. today a
semi truck with bees crashed on the freeway, bees everywhere.
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Thu, Dec 16 2004
chris made us a neat myspace page.. i dont really get it but here:
http://www.myspace.com/panicatthedisco
make us some friends.
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Mon, Dec 20 2004
if i could bottle my hopes in a store bought scent they’d be nutmeg
peach and they’d pay the rent.
los angeles was good. life aquatic was good.mansoup was
good.my updates suck because i have to keep my mouth shut. “i
keep telling myself that i’m not the desperate type”
edit: go to asiandan’s journal to see what im talking about. bye.
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Sat, Dec 25 2004
a pink nightmare
i haven’t been keeping up with this thing and im sorry if i seem like
a dick. truthfully i probably wont be writing too much in here
anymore.i’ll try and update to let people know i’m still alive but it
has come to a point where i don’t think this journal is serving it’s
purpose anymore.
iusedtowritewhatifeltandnowidon’tgetanyofitdown.
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Sat, Dec 25 2004
If we were to meet under the mistletoe, would you kiss me? - YES
- MAYBE - NO WAY copy and repost! see who wants to kiss you!
hahahhaa….sweet
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Thu, Dec 30 2004
i am hollywood.
everyone should take notice to this playlist. he is legend
the kinison
jay z vs. linkin park
moving units
showbread
new vanessa carlton
enjoy.
- ry
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Sun, Jan 23 2005
your mouth is like a magazine.
sup.
i’m thinking we move the band to l.a. because for some reason or
another we end up down there every weekend.
anyways..nothing big going on. trying to write songs at breakneck
speed.and “this mission just got a hell of a lot more impossibler”.
song #1 for the record:done. well,maybe.
the academy is…coming here feb 12. looking forward to meeting
those dudes.you will all love their record.
i got some good new games for gameboy advance which should
be good for the road.
pokemon ruby version
super mario world
super mario 3
mega man and bass
backyard hockey
kick ass.
pete put a shitty picture of us up on the clandestine site. go make
fun of it. brendon is wearing a bra
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Sun, Jan 30 2005
ok. i haven’t had any sort of schedule in my life for the past 2 to 3
months so im trying to act like a normal person now.
1. wake up before noon
2. write every single day
3. listen to a new band every day
the list will grow but thats for starters.
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Fri, Feb 4 2005
maybe its my love of dispondent things but the woodsman is a
good movie, see that.
i’ve been thinking alot on what i want this record to be about. and
i have some things i’d like to say i just hope it comes out right.
parts will be about some of you too like it or not.
i am going to start wearing my seatbelt more often. i have seen
some pretty bad car wrecks happen in my head.
give me envy give me malice give me closure.
if i talk alot of shit on this record i hope i can back it up.
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Thu, Feb 10 2005
portugal the man, is really, really good. i think.
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Thu, Feb 10 2005
portugal the man, is really, really good. i think.
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Thu, Feb 24 2005
i’ve been trying to find a new heart on ebay. i think they quit
making those though.
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Thu, Mar 10 2005
"Proposing college courses on the pigments of his eye color which
had prevailingly changed in the matter of your position toward the
sun.”
wish that were about me.
you out write me any day of the week.
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Tue, Mar 15 2005
panic at the disco are such sellouts
sooooo, its official. we signed to decaydance/fueled by ramen!
we’ve got a lot of work to do for this record. i’ll be pretty much
hibernating and only coming out when something super important
comes up that i think you all should hear about
wishusluck
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Mon, Apr 4 2005
snap your fingers. tap your heel to the concrete.
in this little number we party like its 1888.
i hope you like to dance to different beats.
you’ll love this record.
or hate it.
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Fri, Apr 15 2005
i traded in you bedsheets for shoddy transmission dreams in the
back of a van.
this is where i am supposed to write how i feel.
“she sure as hell aint you, but lord knows she’ll have to do”
imlosingit.
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Mon, Apr 25 2005
death on two legs.
mr. mercury said it best.
what is my excuse. i do drunk dialing minus the alchohol.
god damn i’d hate to see what i’d do under the influence.
but you see what you’ve done? this is what i get for giving myself
to you in the first place.
indiangivericannotbewhoiwish.
it goes like this.
i am here
now i’m there.
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Tue, Apr 26 2005
got a heavy metal mouth that hurls obscenity
and i get my check from the trash treasury
because i took my own insides out
it don’t matter cause i have no sex life
all i want to do now is inject my ex wife.
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Thu, Apr 28 2005
“can anybody find me somebody to love”
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Sat, May 7 2005
“You got a new friend, now I’m the odd man gone.
You got a new friend.
You got a new friend, I know.
And your mom’s got you convinced that he’s the one.
He’s all you need, so forget me – marry him at once.
But if you ever change your mind…
I could still buy that box of wine.
I still have your copy of Harold and Maude.
But you got a new friend.
Yeah, you got a new friend”
i’ve been weaving you a playlist, if you put together all the lyrics
from these past few entries, you’ll see.you’ll see.
“i’ll write the album of the year, and i know she’ll love me then. i
swear to god she did its the way she’d bite my lower lip and push
her hips against my hips and dig her nails deep into my skin.”
i’m in a slump.
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Sat, May 14 2005
“In periods of rapid personal change, we pass through life as
though we are spellcast. We speak in sentences that end before
finishing.
We sleep heavily because we need to ask so many questions as
we dream alone.”
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Wed, May 18 2005
this is prefect non fiction fiction.
oh look what i found. this evening,while cleaning. i found your
diary. it doesn’t get any better than this. this is the scalp off the
head of your worst enemy. just what were you thinking?leave it to
me. i’ll write your life. displeasing things.i’ve already started on
some of the bigger events.wedding days..the part where i can’t
figure out why i can’t seem to just forget you completely.every
word i write will be the truth about how and why you threw me
away. things that you’d only find deep inside someones diary. and
when i fill all the pages i’ll send it back your way. you know, just to
see what you think.
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Mon, May 23 2005
you’ve got to hope there’s someone for you, as strange as you
are. who can cope with the things that you do, without trying to
hard.cause you can bend the truth, till it’s suiting you. these things
you’re wrapping all around you, you’ll never know what they will
amount to. cause life is just going on without you. it’s the end of
the things you know….here we go.
listen to this song. it’s moving
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Sun, May 29 2005
since you’ve been gone i cant breathe for the first timeeee
shegivesmebutterflies? whaaaat. how.
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Mon, May 30 2005
i’m writing fiction cause it’s just more interesting.
It’s when the cigarettes smoked after, seem so much cheaper
than the sex.
It’s these substandard motels on the on the corner of 14th and
Freemont Street.
Appealing, only because they are just that un-appealing.
Any practiced catholic would cross themselves on entering.
the rooms have a hint of asbestos and maybe a just dash of
formaldehyde,
and the habit of decomposing right before your very eyes.
(along with the people inside.)
there are no raindrops on roses or girls in white dresses.
It’s sleeping with roaches and taking best guesses
at the shade of the sheets before all the stains
and a few more of your least. Favorite. Things.
Tonight tenants range from: a lawyer and a virgin,
accessorizing with a rosary tucked inside her lingerie
(she’s getting a job at the firm come Monday)
the Mrs. will stay with the cheating attorney,
moonlighting aside, she really needs his money.
Oh. What a wonderful caricature of intimacy
and not to mention, the constable. and his proposition,
for that “virgin”.Yes, the one the lawyer met with on “strictly
business”
as he said to the Mrs. only hours before.
After he had left, as she was fixing her face in a compact,
there was a terrible crash. Between her and the badge.
She spilled her bag and her purse held a “purse” of a different
type.
And here is where he entertains that proposition:arrested on
possession,
or.
(now if this were you)
think of what you wouldn’t want to happen
They ended up… well, making love isn’t exactly what I’m looking
for.
But.
You.
Get.
The.
Picture.
Oh. what a wonderful caricature of intimacy.
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Fri, Jun 3 2005
i got a new journal.check there sometimes for what i’m up to.
www.fueledbyramen.com/journal
also this band is something you’ll all thank me for knowing about
before they blow up.
www.purevolume.com/thehushsound
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Tue, Jun 7 2005
i’ll be missing someone special. perfectly horrible timing.
“yeah, you do you do you do you do you do. you make me want
you”
“send me all your vampires”
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Mon, Jun 27 2005
de biasi de de biasi
hello hellooo. i’m in maryland right now, today is the first day of
tracking drums which also happens to be the first day i’ll be able
to be on the internet. first of about four total. anyways we did
preproduction for the past 7 days and the squiz is convinced we
are ready to begin bringing the rock. ooooooooooh
yea im a nerd. maryland is pretty nice i guess. we met a rapper
named Dibiasi at danny’s sub shop, he’s from North Carolina. he’s
street. thinking about having him do some guest vocals on our
record. his manager “Big Easy” wants us to tour with him. so yea
that has probably been the funniest and most awesome thing to
happen since we’ve been here.
i wear the same clothes almost everyday and have been getting
lazier and lazier, started with just wearing basketball shorts
everyday…then the same shorts…then same shorts and shirt…
then not showering..then not combing my hair.. so if i were
famous, this is what i would do to not get noticed in public. but it’s
probably gotten so bad that i do get noticed in ways like “look at
that poor homeless kid, we should feed him” okay i think i’m done.
i’ve said too much.
i miss you. you know who you are.
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Sun, Jul 3 2005
as soon as i start being kind of okay she realizes im the best
fucking thing that ever happened to her. go figure.to late honey.
i am heaven sent, don’t you dare forget. i am all you’ve ever
wanted.what all the other boys all promised.
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Sun, Jul 10 2005
my boo is back home wutwut
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Tue, Sep 13 2005
a year ago i was dreaming of where i am now.
now i dream of where i was then.
(bitter)sweetsixteensummers.andfalls.
we used to laze around like drug addicts in a heroin den.
shootuptill5am.
the scale is tilted far too off balance and i ruined it.
i’ve hurt everyone but myself for a change.
i’m not myself anyway.
We play by Donner Party rules at all times.
We are new age carnies.
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Tue, Sep 27 2005
whisper babe.. i’m as good as it gets in this town.whisper babe..
i’m a fever you can’t sweat out.
these are my deepest thoughts and secrets under a microscope or
under a spotlight. forgive me if i’m not quite ready to give them to
you.it’s just such a different feeling.. when i see you smiling and
singing back to me, i’m still playing different pictures in my head
that aren’t so pleasant. i’m doing my best now to live in the song
and not just the meaning. thank you all for picking up our record
today. it’s the biggest thing any of us have ever done and it’s a
great feeling to know all the thoughts and second guesses haven’t
gone unnoticed.
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Sat, Oct 8 2005
no more sleeping in the coffin. We are Oliver Twist.We are
Edward Scissorhands. We’re just make believe.
I’m living a fairy tale. and you’re all in it.
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Mon, Oct 10 2005
she’s dreaming of him i’m dreamingofher.
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Thu, Oct 20 2005
“finding faith in bathroom stalls…”
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Tue, Oct 25 2005
my oh my. things are well enough. never happy with where i’m at,
i really am trying to work on that.
i’m the kid in high school you never gave a fuck about. now i’m
signing your t-shirt. go figure.
you and me, we should make a secret song. but i don’t know if
you’re into it. but do i ever, nope.
everypicturetakesapieceofme.
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Wed, Nov 2 2005
can you still feel the butterflies?
wow. halloween is the new valentines day. i’m feeling quite a bit
better now because of you.
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Sun, Nov 6 2005
so everyone knows everything about me, I get it.everything you
ever hear, is also true all the time. okay?
eatitup.
love-ry
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Mon, Nov 14 2005
look what i got.
there’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth…
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Sat, Nov 19 2005
i’m so sick it makes me happy, i’m so happy it makes me sick.
jacspoonsoon.
we become the things we do
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Thu, Dec 22 2005
if you’re ever lucky enough to have dreams about someone, and
wake up right next to them then you’ll know how i’ve felt the past
week or so. with you i don’t have to be anybody. my name is just
“yours”
i am stuck in a song. we are just sharks and butterflies. vicious
and fragile. my neck isn’t the same without you gnawing at it. six
days.
“A long december and there’s reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can’t remember the last thing that you said as you were leaving
Now the days go by so fast
And it’s one more day up in the canyons
And it’s one more night in hollywood
If you think that I could be forgiven…i wish you would”
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Mon, Feb 6 2006
lay like lions in the sand..
one day we’ll settle in seattle.
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Sun, Feb 12 2006
we put all our money on black in atlantic city-we came out on top.
i’m lonely, you should take a vacation.
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Tue, Feb 14 2006
montaguevscapulet
i am romeo.you’ll see. tomorrow you’ll be worlds away…still,
happy valentines day.
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Thu, Feb 23 2006
i see only black and white.pictures, i feel like i’m a ghost in all of
them. I may never get used to this.
and i speak to you like the chorus to the verse. drop another line
like a coda with a curse.
baby, i want something else, to get me through this semi-charmed
kind of life.
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Thu, Mar 9 2006
I want to be a lion, everybody wants to pass as cats.
yea we all want to be big big stars,
but then we have second thoughts about that.
I don’t always deal with things the best way, and in order to try
and slow my life down I disappear every now and then.
so believe in me, because i don’t believe in anything.
when everybody loves you, you can never be lonely.
sometimes, sometimes it’s not that easy.
I have this pocket watch, and I spin the hands around and around
just to pretend I have control of things. a month away. we can
play normal for a few days.
starcrossedlovers.
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Mon, Mar 13 2006
you come swimming into view..
I may be a great gambler but i can’t win. i roll six when i need
seven. i’m good. but no where near great.
I need to get away from the snow.. it’s pretty but i need some
heat. it’s not coming soon.
the sun’s gone down in my eyes. i’ve never been so alone, and i’ve
never been so alive.
magazine covers are ruining my face. i draw all over them. i
knowiknowiknow i know i know i know i can’t keep it all…together.
i’d like to believe my horoscope but it’s laughing. when i came to
visit you, that’s when i knew. that i could never have you.
living my life a thousand times faster than normal. i’m missing
home or am i missing you. or am i missing me.
