My Secret Diary

I’ve fucked up and I’ve been fucked over. Welcome.

[aidashakur]

damaged af & still be out here showing love

[xxxfalling4youxxx]

[purplebuddhaquotes]

“You own everything that happened to you. Tell your stories. If people wanted you to write warmly about them, they should’ve behaved better.”

— Anne Lamott

[madnessisinmyhead]

I feel terribly lonely and sad tonight, but not only tonight, it’s like that every night. And I wish I could scream so loud to evacuate the pain but when I try to scream nothing comes out so I’m just falling apart and crying until crying’s not enough to let the pain out so I start to harm myself, sometimes I hit the wall, sometimes I burn myself or sometimes I cut myself. I need to feel alive because all I am is a dead ghost inside.

[ma-ncanze]

Via WeHeartIt

[depressedanxietydeath]

“Staring at the ceiling in the dark Same old empty feeling in your heart Love comes slow and it goes so fast Well you see her when you fall asleep But never to touch and never to keep ‘Cause you loved her too much and you dive too deep”

— Let Her Go ~ Passenger (Quote of the Day)

[qvotable]

“How long they choose to love you will never be your decision.”

— Drake // Thank Me Now

[inspiredfortomorrow]

You

I wanted to text you this, but figured you wouldn’t receive it anyway.  So I’m putting here instead.  Also, knowing you won’t see it.  But I need to type this out.

Have a great time on your trip and mini-vacay.  I hope you’re doing well.  I really do.  And I hope maybe one day you’ll want to talk again.

[amargedom]

“He loved you. And the truth is, once, you loved him back.”

— Kill Your Darlings (via naturaekos)

[gifs-gossip-girl]

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

“With a frown, he stood at the counter while stirring some sugar into his black coffee. He watched as it melted into the swirling liquid, dark as the deep pit in his heart. Oh how he wished he could just stir and melt away the things that kept him troubled in a coffee of his own. Then he felt a pair of arms sliding around him from behind and a gentle kiss on the back of his neck. Everything was lost in that moment. In that very moment, nothing else mattered. “Don’t you know,” she spoke with a voice that could calm a storm, “that each time you frown, a tree dies?” He let out a chuckle as he turned to her, “You meant to say a sigh, not a frown.” “It’s all the same if you ask me.” She then reached out her hand and placed her palm to his cheek. Gently, she rubbed her thumb across his forehead, smoothing out every stress-caused lines and wrinkles. She stopped when his hand caught her wrist, and watched as softness slowly took over the trouble in his eyes. “You are that coffee,” he said quietly, “My coffee to drown all the bad in me.””

— Lukas W. // Forgotten Words #186 // Everyone has their own cup of coffee to drown their troubles 

[wordsnquotes]

“Perhaps somewhere, someplace deep Inside your being, you have undergone important changes while you were sad.”

— Rainer Maria Rilke

[12-55am]

I was never enough for anyone or myself. 

but others opinions stopped bothering me one day.

So what, i may not be the prettiest or skinniest or i might not be enough for others but what really matters is that i’m enough for myself

and I’m still learning that..

-Magnus

[letters-to-the-sea]

I don’t know why I am so drawn to endings - sunsets, the last drops of rain in late afternoons, the leaves that fall during autumn. I’ve always found beauty where things are dying. Does that make me a healer or a martyr? All I know is that I still remember the way my heart beat when we were saying goodbye, and even that second when your hand left my skin felt like magic seeping out from inside of me. In a way I was in love with the idea of letting you go, like setting a bird free into the wild, knowing it’ll find its way. Not all endings have to be bitter and tragic. I hope your leaving felt like you were spreading your wings into flight. I hope you go to the places we’ve always dreamed about, somewhere calm and beautiful. And my love, whenever you look back, all I ask is that you to remember the warmth of home I kept you in.

Beautiful Goodbye // Genefe Navilon

[cosmicwizdom]

““ Usually, the people with the best advice are the ones with the most problems. ””

— https://twitter.com/goodquoteco (via cosmicwizdom)

[lifequotes-daily]

“Everybody said, “Follow your heart”. I did, it got broken.”

— Agatha Christie

[narcotic]

“You can’t keep dancing with the devil and ask why you’re still in hell”

— Something my friend told me the other day  (via coyotegold)