Who needs reason when you've got heroin? 💉

[saccharineandsalacious]

Addiction. Spending money on drugs instead of necessities. Emptying your bank account for a gram. Starving for days, high on the shit that makes you feel invincible. Stealing from family to make it through the week you say it’s for gas but it’s really for drugs. Giving your body to a man that sees you as a piece of meat just for 300 bucks a week you feel worthless. Addiction. Always wanting to quit but never knowing how. Addiction. Afraid to tell your family because you’re scared they’ll shut you out. Addiction. Snorting lines in your room alone because you have nothing better to do. Addiction. Feeling like the biggest failure for just trying to numb the pain. Addiction.

[lxstinrxality-blog]

“but baby did we really love eachother? or just the drug addiction we shared”

— why’d we let it get so bad?

[cherryangel-bpd-blog]

seriously fuck telling kids “don’t do drugs”. show them what it’s like, tell them about the withdrawals, tell them about how they won’t be able to get out of bed, how they’re bones won’t stop aching, they’ll be throwing up, and shitting themselves. tell them about how so many people OD on drugs. tell them about how some people end up in the ER because of withdrawals and they can’t stop screaming and crying. dont just tell them not to do it. show them what it’s like to stop, tell them about the withdrawals.

[madnessisinmyhead]

I remember the first time I’ve snorted heroin it made me sick and I puked like crazy and told myself that at least I know I will never take it again.. Until the day you decide to try it one more time to see if you’ll be sick. And then you’re starting to feel an amazing feeling so each time you take it again you’re trying to recreate this amazing feeling, while thinking you’ve got it under control « I’ll try it once that’s all » I had said. But one day you wake up and you’re feeling horrible, vomiting your gut and shitting yourself, sick like you’ve never felt before. And you know that the only way to stop those symptoms is to take another hit. After that I had realised that was it, I was in for good and that I had lost control of it. It just ruins your life, I spent like an idiot all my savings in cocaine and heroin.

[madnessisinmyhead]

As happy as I can be 🥰

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

Nicolas Calas, tr. by Kimon Friar, from Modern Greek Poetry; “Liracism,”

[compulsive]

[aseaofquotes]

F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Love of the Last Tycoon

[madnessisinmyhead]

Has anyone with bipolar disorder and who’s being treated on lithium has experienced something like « emotional numbness » ? Because I’m feeling like it’s happening to me, yeah I don’t feel sad or high which is good. But it just feel like I don’t feel anything like my emotions are blocked. Pretty much like a robot to be fair.

[madnessisinmyhead]

After a few months I have finally left the hospital, I have been doing a lot of work on myself with all the professionals that were here by my side. I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. It has been a bit of a shock, but honestly I was kinda relieved that we found out what was wrong and that explains a lot the behaviours and the massive moods swings that I went through during a few years. I’m being treated for that and I do feel an upgrade on my mood it’s not perfect but everything will be okay in the end, I’m optimistic 💪🏻 And plus I have a new boyfriend, who give me the smile that I never thought I will have again. 🥰

[effervecent]

[madnessisinmyhead]

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My mental health has always been pretty bad, between depression, self harm, eating disorders and many mores. I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m too harmful to myself and it’s ruining my life, my studies etc... Hence why I’ve agreed to get hospitalised before I’ll come across to my breaking point. It’s tough for me to admit that I’m not okay and that I need help, but it’s even tougher to keep living like this. I’ll be taking a break for the time that I’ll need and hoping that I’ll finally feel better. 💕

[madnessisinmyhead]

Update : Still in hospital, still tough but I will get through out of it 💪🏻

[madnessisinmyhead]

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My mental health has always been pretty bad, between depression, self harm, eating disorders and many mores. I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m too harmful to myself and it’s ruining my life, my studies etc... Hence why I’ve agreed to get hospitalised before I’ll come across to my breaking point. It’s tough for me to admit that I’m not okay and that I need help, but it’s even tougher to keep living like this. I’ll be taking a break for the time that I’ll need and hoping that I’ll finally feel better. 💕

[thewanderingmillennial]

And it makes my heart hurt.

[depresseddisneyprincess]

neon moon - kasey musgraves

[madnessisinmyhead]

I need someone’s opinion. So my bf broke up with me because he wanted to be “alone” & “independent”. Then texted me that the break up was too much & hard & miss me. Yet didn’t say we should get back. I miss him so much. We haven’t talked since the beginning of Oct. and all I think of is him. What should I do?! Do I just try to move on?! Our was relationship was going so well(2 years & 9months) then out of nowhere left.

Honestly try to move on, trust me I know it’s hard, but he doesn’t have the right to keep coming back into your life and expect from you to take him back. It’s not how it works, he made a choice now it’s his time to assume it. You deserve so much better than that, if you let him come back into your life he’ll go again and then when he’ll « need » to he’ll come back one more time because he will think that you’ll always take him back and you shouldn’t. I’ve been through this so I know what I’m talking about ^^ If you want to talk more don’t hesitate to come in private 💕

[idontunderstandthislifethingyet]

[seanika]