An option that now came to my mind. Why is this happened to me? Why do I feel so pity to myself that even looking forward to a new start is so hard for me; Now I understand how it feels to fail in a prestiges board examination. A heart breaking situation that you could not resist every moment you remember it. A lot of struggles come into my way; come to think that it will end up with thing. All of important persons beside me have gone -this is what I feel-, like they are leaving me for good. What is more worst, is that I feel myself want to cry because of this pain that I keep inside; A pain like you've been struck by a sword and it slowly killing you inside and out. How can I bounce back to glory? Breaking your heart and burning it to suffer, is the other worst feeling. I asked myself once again, "is this the life you want to be? I thought you want to enjoy your life? Can you still make?" I don't have much more to say right now. I suffer enough humiliation; I feel so pity to myself.